DISCLAIMER: I don't own LOST, nor do I own the lyrics. It's The Charlatans and the song is Blackened Blue Eyes...

I hope you like it! I'm not exactly sure how I feel about it yet...

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I was sitting on the ground, refusing to help out with the fire since it was already built and no one really wanted to do anything anyway. Jack had ran off to help some pregnant woman, Boone was trying to call someone on his phone (which was completely idiotic by the way), and I was past caring about whatever Griffin was doing. "Why don't you help us out over here?" a woman with long brown curls and nice green eyes asked, standing next to me.

"No," I said grumpily, jiggling my leg up and down. She just stood there, watching me and not making a sound. "What more could you want? I already bloody well told you I don't want to help!"

"I can hear. I'm not deaf, I can actually hear what you're saying," I heard a familiar voice say angrily. I rolled my eyes and kept my back hunched to him, but that didn't keep him away from me! He sat right down next to me and just looked at me with that stupid look he has. "Come on, Adain. I know you're not mad at me anymore!"

"And how do you know that?" I hissed, tears welling into my eyes unwillingly. "All my life you've just pushed me away! So how do you know how my emotions work? Because the last time I checked we haven't spent enough time together to really understand how our emotions work. Do you agree?"

Okay, so maybe my sarcasm was a little much, but still. I think he deserved it!

"Let's not talk about this now," Griffin whispered in my ear, pulling me up. I shook my head and tried to stay down, but it didn't work. I basically ended up falling on the ground. "Can you not be a klutz?"

"Oh, I'm sorry!" I bit, glaring at him. "I'm sorry that I can't stay on my feet long enough for you!" Griffin rolled his eyes and picked me up again, dragging me toward something. "Stop it! Griffin! Get off of me!"

"Why should I? I never gave a damn what you said before, why should I start now?" he growled, sinking down on the sand next to me. I started to sob then, not caring who saw me and who didn't. Tears were falling down my cheeks and the sobs were ripping out of my throat. "What the hell is the matter with you? When we were growing up you were never this emotional!"

"I couldn't! Don't you re-remember? If I s-so much as s-shed a tear I-I would get s-slapped," I stammered, trying to wipe the tears away so that he couldn't see the white skin beneath the dirt. "Oh no. You weren't around enough to remember!"

"Hey, what the hell happened to you? Do you really hate me?"

"Why wouldn't I? You left and I couldn't because Dad was going to die if I did," I screeched, trying not to look at him and stop my rant. "But it's okay. We don't have to do this now." I stood up, dusted my pants off and walked away from him, not caring whether he cared about me or not. He could die on this damn island without me caring and I would be perfectly fine. Okay, so maybe not. But all I was doing was trying to hold onto my dignity and my sanity at that point.

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You never realize how pretty the ocean is until you're forced to stare at it for over 12 hours, do you? Well, I did. And that was just because I didn't feel like looking at Griffin's sorry face while I tried to figure out what the hell I was going to do at the end of the night. "Are you okay?" I heard Boone ask. I looked up and gave him what I hoped was a normal looking smile.

"Yeah, why would you ask that?" I asked, surprised my voice was so steady. "Do I look depressed or something?"

"Not really. You're just all alone. At the back of a fire. You just looked kind of lonely," he explained, taking a seat next to me. "Where's your brother?"

"Where's you sister?" I asked back, successfully evading his question. Boone chuckled and looked into the fire. I closed my eyes and breathed in deeply, finally realizing how lonely I had been. "That's not the real reason you came over here," I said softly, looking back and feeling surprised when I found his blue eyes staring right at me.

"Are you a mind reader now?" he asked, a smile on his lips. I laughed but shook my head, looking up when Griffin sidled over.

"Who are you?" he asked in an annoyed tone.

"Griffin. Just stop," I whispered, pressing my fingers to my forehead and glaring at him.

Just as Griffin and Boone were about to go at it (which I would have loved to see by the way), a low rumbling tore out of the jungle and trees were going down as though they had been ripped out of the grounds, roots and all. I jumped back into Boone's arms (unintentionally of course) and looked at the dark jungle, trying not to whimper from fear. And then, just as suddenly as it had started. It was over. Everyone let out a breath that they had no idea they were holding and just looked at each other.

"Did everybody see that?" asked a pregnant Australian blonde. No one responded, just looked at the jungle. I wondered if it was going to come again. And if it was, if it was going to kill us.

I looked over at Griffin who's eyes were huge and he was watching the jungle with a tight lipped, white faced look of fear that I had never seen on him before. "Are you okay?" Boone asked, looking down at me with actual care. I nodded silently and walked over to Griffin, hugging him and putting everything into the hug that I could. He put his head on mine and hugged me back, making me feel safer than I had in years.

"Thank you," he said quietly. I looked up with confusion. "For coming back and getting me. You really needed me if you would spend that much money."

"Shut up," I hissed, glaring at him for a split second. He nodded and sat down, dragging me with him. "I'm not in the mood to talk to you nicely." He nodded, got up and walked away, understanding the silent things I told him.

I looked over at Boone who shrugged and walked off too. And just like that, I was alone again. How can you be alone with all sorts of people around you ask? Don't come to me, I don't understand either!

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A/N: So, there it was. How was it? Tell me in review because that'll just make me feel good! Anyway, I like it, and this was just the prologue, so it'll just get better from there!