RPOV
I really hoped I wasn't dead. Not because death scared me; I mean I just tried to kill myself. But because if death was this friggin' uncomfortable, then I really got screwed over. All this time I had thought that the ghosts that were always rallying for my attention were sad because their life had been taken from them. Turns out, it's just because they had a serious kink in their neck, things poking at them from all areas of their body, and some sort of object that was digging into their back. Great.
As I became a little more aware, I could here voices and feel that someone was holding my hand.
"When do you think she will wake up?"
"We can't really be sure. Your healing did most of the work but we still had to replace all of the blood she lost. She almost died, Lissa. It's only natural for her to sleep."
So I wasn't dead. And Lissa? Why was she here? And if I wasn't dead then that must mean that I'm still am Court! Crap! Now I would have to be executed, and if I had a small shot at getting free before, then now is was microscopic. I would look completely guilty!
I sigh came from next to me, "I know. I'm just anxious for her to get up. Why would she do something like that? I was always the weak one who needed a way out, and she never understood how my cutting helped me cope. I just don't see why she would do the same thing! How could she just give up like that?"
Lissa's voice sounded close to hysterics. I felt a pang of guilt as I thought about what she must have gone through, I would have been chomping at the bit if she were in my position. What I had done was selfish, I could see that clearly. But was it really so awful for me to do one thing for me before my life ended?
I needed to talk to Lissa. And in order to that I need to open my eyes. The sensation was odd, almost like I didn't know where to find them. Finally I opened my eyes, only to shut them again. God, the light was bright!
I slowly began to open them again, letting my eyes adjust, before turning to Lissa.
"Rose!" Her eyes lit up and she pulled me into a hug. I was glad to have her close, but I was too weak to put my arms around her.
"Ugh, I was so worried! Why would you do something so stupid? I mean, you had to know that I would never let you rot in some jail cell! And with your fathers 'connections' you had to know we would get you out. You've been asleep for three days now, three days!" She took a deep breath and looked at me funny. It was only then that I realized my eyes where brimming with moister. I, Rose Hathaway, who never cried was sobbing like a baby into Lissa's lap. I cried for causing my best friend so much sadness, and for my father who risked everything to help me. I even cried for Christen, who I knew had to have some part in helping me out, even if it was just because he knew it would make Lissa happy. And I couldn't help crying a little bit for myself, because I'm so damn pathetic, that even after all that happened, I was still upset to find that Dimitri wasn't here.