Chapter 16
And so the frenzy begins
I woke up to a shrieking in my ear. When I opened my eyes, it was Rosaline. My worst fear had come true, I was killing Rosaline. She was screaming in my ear, withering in pain. "Help!" she screamed. Alice was behind me trying to pull me off of her, but I couldn't stop, her blood was too sweet. A sort of frenzy was beginning and it was impossible for me to stop. Finally Alice was able to pull me off of her and push me up against the wall. It was 5:00 in the morning and Charlie had already gone to work, so he didn't hear this. I stood at the back wall forcing myself to refrain from continuing to drain her body of the blood. Alice was at Rosaline's side, pinning her down to the bed and trying to calm her down. She turned and looked at me with urgency in her eyes.
"We have to get her to Carlisle right away!" she shouted. I stood there with shock on my face. "Now! Nessie, we don't know how she's going to react to this!" she screamed at me. I nodded and opened up the door and Alice ran out of the bedroom with Rosaline in her arms. I stumbled my way out with them and we ran down the stairs. Alice took Rosaline and put her into the Porsche with her. "Renesmee, you have to go back into the house and see how much blood is in Bella's room, if there is a lot, you are going to have to clean it up before Charlie sees it." She said frantically. I nodded and ran back into the house to look at the damage.
The room was absolutely fine; there was no blood on the floor or bed. I ran down stairs and got into the other car and sped out of the driveway. When I reached Carlisle's I parked in the garage and ran into the house. "Where is she?!" I screamed frantically. Jasper was downstairs in the living room, obviously waiting for me. "She's in Carlisle's office." He said calmly. I ran into the office and he was right, Rosaline was in there. I rushed to her side and Carlisle immediately stopped me.
"Renesmee, you have to stay away from her right now." He said with tension in his voice. I backed away and walked out of the room. Alice and Esme were right behind me. I paced around the room, waiting to hear something. My parents came rushing through the door and were immediately at my side. My mother hugged me as well as my father. "I'm so sorry." I apologized and began to cry. My father held me in his arms and rocked me back and forth, just as he would do when I was a little girl. I cried into his chest and my mother rubbed my back. "It's okay, it's not your fault, and we'll find the person who did this." My mother said, trying to sooth me. I pulled away and looked at them.
"Mom, dad, you don't understand." I said. They looked at me with puzzled expressions. I looked down at the floor and my tears fell off of my face. "It was me." I said, defeated. "What do you mean it was you?" my father asked. "I bit her, I tried to kill her." I cried out. They both stepped back from me and stared at me.
"Why did you do this?" they asked, and I could sense the disappointment in their voices. I fell to my knees and sobbed. "I—I—I didn't mean to!" I sobbed. They knelt down in front of me, but I couldn't look at them. I was ashamed and knew that my whole family would suffer for my mistake. I sat there and sobbed until Carlisle entered the room. I looked up with tears in my eyes. "Well?" I asked. He looked down and I began to sob even harder.
"I don't know if she's going to make it." He said and I could tell he felt defeated himself. "She's in critical condition, but I've pumped an extreme amount of morphine into her body so that she will sleep and feel less pain, but with her condition, I can't promise anything." He said. I stood up and walked over to the window and stood there. I stood there for what seemed like hours. I turned and looked at them. "I'm so sorry for what I have done; I am absolutely ashamed of myself. You all have been nothing but loving and caring to me and I have betrayed all of you. There is no reason for you to forgive me after what I have done." I apologized.
Carlisle looked at me sympathetically. "Renesmee, I know you, we know you and we all love you and know that this is killing you and that you would never hurt anyone on purpose. I forgive you and I'm sure that your loved ones will too." He said. I looked at all of them and they looked back at me. My father stepped forward from the rest. "Renesmee, you are my daughter, I love you with all of my heart and I am so proud of you, for you have had more self control at such a young age than any of us have." He said.
I walked over to them and they all hugged me. "I can't ask for your forgiveness." I said. There was a shriek from Carlisle's office and we all went running. I was the first one to get into the room. Rosaline was fighting to sit up. One of her eyes was bright, devilish red and the other was still the bluish-green. Half of her face was terribly pale and the other half was normal human color. The sun shone through the window and half of her skin sparkled and the other half didn't. Carlisle walked in front of me and was at her side. He looked at her with such confusion in his eyes and then looked at all of us.
"She is half human, half vampire." He said with confusion. "So what? I am too." I replied with confusion. He shook his head. "No, you don't understand, she is literally half human and half vampire." He said making a line with his hand down her body. "Does this mean anything?" I asked. He didn't reply right away. "Carlisle, does this mean anything?!" I asked with urgency. He still didn't answer. "Carlisle, what side of her body is vampire?" I asked. Please don't say the left side; please don't say the left side.
"The left side." He said in a sorrowed tone. I looked down and a tear fell from my eye. "With the left side, the side her heart is on, being immortal, it isn't distributing blood anymore, which means that half of her body isn't getting the proper amount of blood it needs and that side will die." He said. "Oh god." I whispered. "Carlisle is there anything you can do to save her?" my father asked. Carlisle looked over at me and then at Rosaline.
"I—I—I don't know." He admitted. "I have an Idea, but I don't know if it will work." He continued. "What is it?" I asked. "If there is a way that I can eject enough venom into the right side of her body, I can possibly change that to immortal too, but it's never been tried before and I will have to do some research. I can't guarantee she will survive." He replied. "Will it hurt?" I asked, my voice trembling. He looked down at Rosaline.
"I—don't know."