Chapter 17
It will take a miracle
I stood in my place, adrenaline coursing through my veins. Carlisle's words kept running through my mind, 'I don't know.' How could he not know, he was a doctor and a very good doctor at that. How could he not know if it was going to hurt her, how could he not know if she would survive? Then again, how could I have done this to Rosaline in the first place? It was my fault that she was hanging by a thread, clinging for dear life.
"Should we do it?" I asked Carlisle. He looked at me and then back at Rosaline. "It's her choice." He replied. Rosaline looked over at me and motioned slowly for me to come over to her. My eyes filled with tears and I looked up at Carlisle, waiting for his consent to speak with her. He nodded at me and then looked at my father. My father nodded. "Let's give them some time alone." My father suggested.
Everyone left the room and closed the door behind them. I walked slowly over to Rosaline and stopped at her side. She looked up at me and stared into my eyes. "You know what I am now, I assume?" I asked. She looked at me and nodded. "I have to ask you something, it's a choice that no one else can make for you." I told her quietly. "What is it?" she asked, I could tell it was a great effort for her to speak. "Do you want me to tell you as if you are a grown up?" I asked her. She nodded slowly. I took a deep breath and then looked into her eyes.
"Oh gosh, how do I say this? Okay, well half of your body is immortal and the other half is still human, unfortunately your heart is immortal and isn't distributing any blood anymore and the other half of your body will die without blood distribution." I told her quietly.
I watched her face and waited for her to process it. "What's the question?" she asked, I could sense the pain in her voice. "Carlisle said that it may be possible to save you, if he tries to inject venom into the right side of your body to immortalize that side as well. It is a risky procedure and he doesn't know if you'll make it. What we need to know is if you want to do this with all the risks involved." I told her. She looked at me with pain in her eyes. "What do I have to lose?" she whispered. I looked down and wiped a tear away. "Your life." I said quietly. She looked away and she began to cry and then looked back at me. "What will happen if I don't do this?" she asked. "I don't think you'll make it." I said between cries. "I want to try." She said, with power in her voice. "Will it hurt?" she asked. "Carlisle, doesn't know. He will do whatever he can to minimize your pain level." I replied. "Want to see something?" I asked. She nodded her head and I moved to rest my hand upon her cheek.
I poured my emotions into her mind, and filled her head with my thoughts and things I remember. I showed her my whole life story. When I was finished I removed my hand from her cheek and she smiled at me with tear filled eyes.
"I'll go tell Carlisle you're ready." I told her. She nodded and I left the room. Everyone was outside waiting for me. I looked down and then back up, trying to stop myself from crying. "She wants to try it." I told them. Carlisle walked over to me and put his hand on my shoulder. "It will be alright, Renesmee." He said, trying to calm me. He walked into his office and shut the door. I sighed and went to go find a seat. My parents followed me and sat down next to me. I put my head in my hands and began to cry.
"How c—c—could I do—oo—oo Th—i—iss!" I cried out. My mother took me into her arms and held me like she did when I was little girl. My father rubbed my back and hummed my mother's lullaby and I began to calm down. I sat there in her arms for hours and I felt safe and comforted. I pulled away for a moment to look around the room. Alice and Jasper were on a couch across the room watching me and Esme was standing by the window watching me as well. I got up and began to pace around the room, not knowing what to do.
"What's taking so long?" I asked aloud. Just then Carlisle opened his door and walked out with his hands clasped behind his back. He looked down at the floor and then back up at us all. "How is she?" I finally choked out.
"Well, the Venom is coursing through her veins right now; it will take 3 days for it to take full effect. We won't know anything for sure until then." He replied. I put my head down and stood there. Carlisle walked over to me and hugged me. "It will be alright, Renesmee." He said, trying to calm me. I pulled away and looked at him and he smiled a little bit. "Can I see her?" I asked. "Yes, but very briefly, she's in a lot of pain and she's not in the best mood." He answered.
He opened the door for me and I slowly made my way in. Rosaline was lying on a bed and breathing heavily. Her arms and legs were chained to the bed, keeping her from running away. She shook and grunted in pain. She looked like she was infected with rabies. She showed all of her teeth and growled when the door opened and let out a blood curdling shriek. I cringed as she did so and then began walking toward her again. I put my hand on her head in attempt to calm her.
"Rosaline, Rosaline, Rosaline, shh…shhh...Shh...Shh! It's okay, you'll be alright, we're trying to help you!" I said in attempts to calm her. She began to calm a little bit but then started grunting and shrieking again. She growled at me and shrieked.
"The…Fire…Is…Burning…The…House…Down!" she yelled and grunted between words. I looked around and then back at Carlisle. "What is she talking about?" I asked urgently. "It's an effect from the venom, the burn is so excruciating that you begin to see fire." He replied. "Is there anything you can give her to bring down pain?" I asked. "I have morphine pumping through the I.V's and that is minimizing pain for her at the moment. I nodded and looked back at Rosaline. "We should leave her be right now. She needs to be alone." He suggested.
I nodded and walked out of the room, taking one last look at her as I left. Carlisle shut the door behind us and I returned to my parents. I sat on the couch next to them and they took me in their arms again. I cried into their arms until I finally fell asleep.