AN: Sorry I couldn't even wait for you guys to post reviews before I was here posting the next update. Stephanie Just posted hers: Past Time- I think - By Panthres. It's great, Harry Potter though.

Disclaimer: With the courage from the bottom of my heart I make the following statement. I do Not own Stephenie Meyer's works not New Moon nor Twilight. Sniffs loudly Thank you.

Chapter one:

"Bella?" A musical voice whispered in my ear amused as I continued to stare off into space picturing an eternity with my Greek God.

"Bella? Earth to Bella?" The velvety voice continued in a whispered singsong way with a cool breath of air.

"Huh?" I asked disoriented and confused. After realizing Edward had been trying to get my attention for quite some time from the crooked smile on his face, I blushed a horrifyingly deep crimson.

Edward chuckled silently and I bounced slightly on his stone chest. "And just what were you think about so hard?" He asked trying to hide his amusement.

"I'm not going to tell you." I replied with what I hoped was a teasing tone instead of how serious a statement that was. We had been fighting on and off about changing me ever since two months ago when I rescued Edward from Italy.

"And why won't you tell me?" He asked while I tried to act as though I didn't hear his silk words escaping his similar lips. I heard him sigh with exasperation. "Bella…" He began slight irritation coloring his tone.

I did the one thing I promised myself I would not do and that is ask Rose for help. Ever since I had gotten back with Edward in tow from Italy Rosalie has been doing everything I asked-save one thing- to get on my good side and Edward still hates her even though I forgave her over fifty times.

"Rose-!" I was cut off by Edward's cool hand clamping down over my lips before I could pronounce her whole name but it was enough and he knew it because he started a string of curses to low for my ears.

"Bella?" Rose asked confused when she saw Edward holding my lips captive.

"Wose.." I muffled against Edward's cool hand just to be interrupted.

"We were just playing a game." Edward answered one of her mind asked questions before she could voice them.

"Mwaah!" I exclaimed getting frustrated and angry. I just wanted to not argue with Edward and of course he would force me to unintentionally. And with that horrifying thought I began to cry angry tears and my face flushed with rage.

Rosalie looked angry and horrified as she noticed my tears and glared at Edward. Either a tear hit his hand or he caught onto her thoughts because he moved his hand quickly as though he had been burned and spun me around.

"Bella I'm so…"

"Don't. You. Dare!" I yelled as I hopped of his lap and hurt spread promptly across his face. The Cullen family entered just as I stood.

"Bella…" Jasper gasped staggering over to the doorframe for support; I guess he was feeling my emotional turmoil. A fresh wave of calm washed over me and I tried to ignore it but it kind of set me off.

"No Jasper! I want to feel my emotions!" I yelled. With that the calm dissipated and Jasper left because he couldn't stand it any longer.

"Bella you have no right to yell at Jasper!" Alice yelled taking a step towards me to try and make herself look more intimidating.

I don't know what happened then. First I was going to yell then I was going to scream but I just ended up collapsing into Esme's waiting arms. She must have understood and had been ready.

"Bella?!" Edward called worry and fright seeping in his perfect pronunciation.

"Edward I don't believe that would be wise…" I heard Carlisle say from next to me I guess he had been about to come towards me. "I believe her emotions have finally caught up with her from the past few months-" I didn't hear the rest until. "…emotional shock."

"I'm fine." I said standing up flashing everyone a fake smile as Esme stood beside me an arm around my shoulders before dropping it noticing that I could stand on my own.

"Yeah right…" I heard Edward scoff from the couch.

"Well we could always test her with Jasper…" Emmett suggested from behind Edward and I glowered at him. Great, just great now they're going to catch me and Edward's going to leave…

That's when I focused on my emotions and shoved them into a little black box in the back of my mind, which I had just found when I was looking for a place to stick all my emotions from last time Edward had left, though they usually escaped and took full revenge out on my heart when ever I did stuff them into the dark, it was that or suicide; I choose the box and a bleeding heart.

"Jasper, could you come in here for a moment?" Carlisle called from beside me.

Jasper walked in warily then stopped dead in his tracks and looked at me his mouth agape.

"Jasper?" Alice called nervously as she ran over to him he nodded his head once but didn't respond. Everyone in the room tensed with anxiousness.

"So?" Carlisle asked sounding somewhat impatient.

"I can't even sense her anymore." Jasper said looking dumfounded and frustrated.

Everyone turned and looked at me then, mouths hanging open.

"What?" I asked feeling self-conscious, embarrassed and frustrated.

"What did you do Bella?" Carlisle asked looking curious.

"Nothing." Then a full out fast speed conversation start that I didn't understand a word of.

"Bella?" Esme asked in her normal motherly tone with worry saturating it.

"Yes?"

"Uh…" She looked at a loss for words.

"Why aren't you feeling anything Bella?" Jasper asked almost frightened.

"I am feeling emotions." I answered looking at the clock that read four forty five. Twenty minutes and Charlie will be home expecting me to be there.

"Then why can't I feel them?" Jasper asked me in confusion. "I felt them before I left…"

"I don't know." I lied, I knew what happened and it was a miracle little black box in the back of my mind.

"Well humans don't just cancel out feelings…" Jasper continued his reevaluation.

"Well Bella is definitely not a normal human." Emmett replied getting a glare from me.

"I suppose…" Jasper trailed off stepping towards me. Edward tensed remembering my birthday but I was fine, no open wounds. He placed a hand on my forehead and did something I thought a vampire could never do, pass out.

"Jasper?!" Alice screamed watching him crumple down to the floor, me catching him before he hit the ground some how I must have known that was going to occur.

"What happened?" Esme asked taking Jasper from my shaking hands.

"Bella, did you lie to us?" Edward said with doubt.

"How else would I get everyone to stop worrying about me all the damn time?!" I asked angry tears spilling over.

"Oh Bella…"

"How did you do that?" Carlisle asked me curiously. "I've never seen a vampire pass out by touching a human."

"Can I talk to you, alone?" I asked quietly, tired from all my stress.

"Okay, let's go into my office?" I shook my head; too close Edward would be listening. "The meadow?"

"Okay." Edward was about to argue when Carlisle gave him a warning look.

We stepped over a just waking up Jasper who looked at me in horror, he noticed we were leaving and told everyone quickly that he was coming also.

Carlisle ran with me and Jasper kept looking over at me fretful.

We arrived a minute or so later, it took me a second to realize we had stopped. When I was sitting on the dew covered grass comfortable and almost at ease the questioning began.

"How are you doing that?" Jasper asked horrified.

"What?" I played dumb.

"Keeping your emotional turmoil in a box." Dang.

"Simple really, I just picture the box and stuff everything inside. How do you think I survived when Edward left? I had a different box for every new day."

Jasper looked paler than usual.

"So what exactly is going on Bella?" Carlisle asked going into doctor mode. "Tell me exactly why you feel like you are and how you feel."

I didn't answer how I felt, I didn't know. "I'm worried about you guys, the Volturi, my dad, Edward, Jacob, the pack, Victoria coming here and destroying this family because of me, and Edward leaving." I answered with no emotion.

"And you're feeling?" He asked again.

"Carlisle," Jasper said grabbing his attention. "Take every emotion you have ever felt and multiply that by …about three hundred."

The Doctor whipped his head back around to look at me.

"I'm fine that's what the boxes are for. I can't feel them either, I just use the emotions for other activities such as sports or arts." I said flashing a fake smile.

"Alright…" Carlisle stated uncertain.

"I'll be fine by tomorrow it's just…" I looked at the two of them, their concerned faces and beauty; I flashed a real smile and Jasper smiled also. "I can't lose you guys because of me and I can't lose Edward again."

"You won't. Bella you of all people should know that we're nearly indestructible." Carlisle said softly probably worried that I would start screaming and crying.

"Nearly." I emphasized.

Both of them sighed. "Bella, can you please let your emotions out so Jasper can help you?" Carlisle asked patiently.

"Absolutely not." I retorted appalled.

"And why not?"

"First I don't want him to pass out or worst and second it's my problem…" Jasper went to comment but I cut him off. "I'm done talking about this."

I walked slowly to the edge of the meadow smiling slightly when I noticed twilight setting in. Jasper walked with Carlisle back over to me a frustrated look on his face.

"I want to help you Bella." Jasper stated reaching out to lay his hand on my forehead but I took a quick step back.

"Jasper…" I warned. What if next time he doesn't pass out he…oh my god...

Carlisle ran with me back to the house and of course Edward was out the door before we entered the driveway. Carlisle put me down slowly and Edward engulfed me in a tight hug.

"Bella you're scaring me." Edward said concern and fright straining his velvet voice.

"I'm alright." I said once he let go so I could breath and I smiled genuinely at his worry.

"Okay but don't do that anymore." He said sternly.

"You should be worried about Jasper not me."

"Hey don't bring me into that Bella. I'm fine." Jasper yelled from the doorway with Alice squishing him to the best of her ability in her tight hug.

"Fine Edward I won't do what ever your rambling about anymore." I said poking his arm.

"Hey I don't ramble." He said in a fake hurt.

"Yeah whatever…"

"Ready to go to your house? Charlie called twice while you were out."

"What?! What time is it?!" Crap. Crap. Crap.

"It is exactly six o' five."

"Shoot! I have to leave…"

"I'll drive you." Edward offered knowing I needed to get home as quick as possible, even if it meant dealing with his dangerous driving.

"Alright." I answered hesitantly looking sadly over at my truck.

When we arrived Charlie was standing on the porch beet red.

"He wants to know why it took you so long seeing as how he said be home by five." Edward informed me turning off his barely audible engine.

"Great." I sighed heavily. I'm not in the mood to deal with this.

Edward caught me twice as I traipsed up my driveway, chuckling at my faulty feet. Then the traitor kissed my cheek and left me with a livid Charlie.

"Dad I…" I started as I followed Charlie into out kitchen.

"Do you know what time it is?! It's six-" He looked at the clock above the sink. "ten! Six ten! Not five o' clock!"

"Dad! I had an… issue. I had a talk with Carlisle." Shoot.

"Dr. Cullen?" Charlie asked anger draining from his face along with its natural color leaving it paler than it should be. "Are you okay? Did some thing happen?" He paused then anger showed its ugly face once more. "Are you pregnant?!"

Oh. Dear. God. "No Dad! We haven't…ugh; I can't believe that's the third thing you ask me when I mention a doctor!"

Charlie blushed my famous color a trait I must have received from him. "Oh, I…what happened?"

"Nothing, it was nothing at all. Did you eat?"

Charlie didn't seem to notice the conversation change. "Yeah, I…ah, ordered pizza…"

"Okay well I already ate at the Cullens." I lied perfectly I had no appetite at all at the moment. "Good night, Dad!" I called sprinting for the stairs.

" 'Night, Bells." He answered from the living room.

I took my "human moment" not seeing Edward in my room and as I walked into my room thirty minutes later Edward laid out on my bed an amused look plastered onto his ravishing face with his eyes closed.

"Bella, your dad still thinks I got you pregnant and that he might shot me." He laughed softly.

"Oh I'm glad you find it funny." I scoffed climbing on top of my warm bed laying my head down on his strong, hard chest as he wrapped his arms around my waist.

"Bella, I have to go hunting tonight." Edward said softly into my hair.

I groaned. "Are you leaving now?"

"No, not until you're asleep." He said chuckling at my lips, which were set into a pout.

"Fine then I'll stay up all night." I said like a child, folding my arms across my chest.

"Bella…" Edward warned. Then he began to hum my lullaby.

Oh that cheater!

"Cheater…I love you…" I said before falling asleep to him whispering those heavenly three words into my ear.

AN: I know you guys are all like- What the Heck?!- The emotions and all the stress from the last few months are finally taking a toll, this is placed after New Moon.