Chapter Fifteen: Jammerschade
Violent quiet music will overflow…
XVI.
You probably don't know who I am….
Nor would anyone else for that matter…
No one…
Would I mean anything to you?
Would the name 'Serenity' stir any part of your memory?
No?
Really?
Oh…
I thought as much.
So…
If I…
If…
I…
If I
If I was
Still part of their gang of friends
Then I know for a fact that
I was here.
That I existed…
That I was alive...
And yes,
Before you ask,
I was a friend.
'Was'.
They forgot me…
My brother…
He forgot me…
They forgot me…
As soon as they met me…
Just like
Just like...
Every other group of friends I had.
Yes
They forgot me
Shunned me from their group of friends.
I don't know why….
I don't think anybody does…
That's because nobody remembers me.
What I remember…
What I recall…
I had no problems making friends
Until that time…
Until…
I was forgotten…
And when that happened…
I became someone else...
Someone…
Whom no one wished to befriend….
Whom no one would want to befriend…
I still don't know why….
The time…
When I was friends with them…
Is now merely a dim and distant memory….
The time when I had friends…
Is a dim and distant memory…
My memories of their friendship
Have faded…
Just like the photographs…
I have of the good times….
But I remember now that…
Those photos are faded and dusty…
Hidden away….
I only wish
The memories could be hidden away
That easily….
I am tired of living in this emotional agony…
Thinking desperately
About what could have been…
What should have been….
And what was reality once….
The only thing I cannot try to rid myself of is my brother…
My brother….
Joey…
I love him…and I always will…
Just as I have for years….
I could never get rid of his memory…
No matter how much I want to…..
And it was his eyes…
Those remind me of my past,
A past of happiness and friendship…
But those are two things
Two things…
I can never have again.
I am now simply
Another nameless face….
Another memory
That has faded quickly…
Just like the photographs…
Just like my will to see…
Past the dark…
But now…
Now I am their friend…
No longer…
Angels beget devils…
Devils beget angels….
Blood-tinted darkness….
The nothingness that is death…
Eyes staring blankly into the oblivion….
Open and yet completely unseeing….
A porcelain-like body….
Now charred….
Burnt black….
Falling endlessly through the nothingness….
Nothing can save her…
She lost her wings….
Her blackened wings…
A long time ago….
A light…
Infinitely shining in the abyss…
Dead….
Blood-colored eyes remain….
As they were….
The rest of her body…
Broken…
As is her mind….
Darkness….
Sheer….
Complete…
Eternal…
Enfolding darkness….
All around her…
Within her….
Suffocating her….
A child of purity and light….
Nothing like she seemed….
Eyes….
Betraying her true nature…
A fallen angel…
A demon from Hell's depths…..
Darkness.
Sheer….
Complete…
Eternal…
Never-ending darkness…
Inside the darkness….
There were eyes….
They were blank….
Colorless….
Emotionless….
Dead…..
The nightmare….
True reality…
It felt real…
She led herself…
To believe…
It was….
Real…
She found herself walking down a long path, a road stretched out beyond her imagination. All she knew was that she was walking alongside a grassy field and above her was a beautiful sky.
A sapphire sky, probably the bluest she had ever seen, hung above her and with no cloud to dampen the soft shade of the ocean in the skies.
She stopped in her tracks when she thought she heard rustling, something behind her. She froze, almost afraid to turn around.
No, she knew that she was alone in this world.
She just knew it.
She had to turn around.
She looked over her shoulder to see what was behind her.
Nothing.
She breathed a sigh of relief.
There was nothing.
No threat.
Nothing.
She turned back to the road ahead and nearly had a heart attack at what she saw next.
Blood decorated the ground like rose petals, painting the steel walls now around her red vermillion. It was there she realized that she wasn't in her own world anymore.
She lifted her hands to her face and covered her mouth, smearing the blood upon her hands on her face.
On her face?
She yanked her hands away and stared at them, horrified, and then looked down at herself and saw that her clothes, legs, and her shoes had sprayed blood all over.
She couldn't breathe.
She swore that she couldn't breathe at that moment.
Her heart pounded in her ears and she felt dizzy, the world right in front of her spinning.
She thought she was going to faint right then and there.
Her legs felt weak, wobbly and they couldn't keep her standing any longer.
Before she knew it, she felt herself falling backwards, the world still spinning.
Just before she thought she was going to feel the ground beneath her, two strong arms wrapped around her waist, and her form felt something solid behind her, supporting her, and keeping her on her feet.
A sinister chuckle reverberated around her.
She knew that voice too well.
All too well.
Something she couldn't get out of her head.
"Silly Serenity-pretty…"
Her heart froze, almost skipping a heartbeat.
She felt one of her hands travel up to her chest, where his clawed fingers began caressing the outline of her breast through her bloodied shirt, shivering underneath.
"Your world is no longer years, my dear. The place that was yours is mine now, where you will never be alone ever again. Face it, Serenity, even in your imagination; I'll be there, no matter how much you want me to disappear."
As the monster said these things, the hand around her waist crept down to the front of her vermillion-stained shorts, where he tucked his hand in her shorts, in her undergarment, and felt her seize up in that one touch.
'No, this couldn't be happening.'
"I'll find you wherever you will venture, wherever you will run off to. I'm here for you….forever…" He uttered into her ear softly as he pressed his lips to the outer shell of her ear.
The hand that was on her breast left as soon as he finished those words and that was when she felt something cold and metallic upon her throat, the sharp end near her jugular.
She shuddered, almost breathless at the feel of the cold metal on her neck. Her eyes caught the glint of the golden object nearly piercing her skin.
"Forever…"
One flick of a wrist and….
Searing pain….
Red coated her vision.
A deep-throated chuckle broke the silence in the middle of her bloody demise.
All goes dark again….
Dark….
Peaceful….
I wish….
I wish….
It could stay like that…
Forever….
That was….
Dark….
Peaceful…
She saw….
In her dream…
A flower…
A beautiful flower…
Gracing itself upon a land of rock and rubble…
A lonely flower…
She remembered…
Smiling…
In that presence…
Flowers were a reminder…
That even when the world seemed ruined…
Nature still ran its course…
And that the Earth still lived….
Sometimes….
It took a tragedy…
To make you realize how beautiful the world really is.
It's such a shame, really…
XVI.
A/N: Wow. Another chapter in a short amount of time? It must be the end of the world then. Just kidding, but I have been awfully busy, with planning new Tsubasa stories and taking care of my mom, but I'm not abandoning this story, and there are a few more chapters to come, so sit tight.
Reviews are love.
Soundtrack:
"Hoshikuzu" FictionJunction KEIKO & KAORI
"Kioku no Mori" FictionJunctionYUUKA
"Halo" Susumu Hirasawa
"Chikaranouta" Susumu Hirasawa
"Fantasia" Kalafina