Chapter Eighteen: Harimegurasareta Kuroi Ito
It only hurts forever….
XVIII.
The void of numbness was everlasting, nothingness rusting away into the canvas.
Shrouded in the nothingness.
Bare.
Open.
Do you love anyone?
I don't know.
Do you love anyone at all?
I don't know…
Do you love your brother?
I…I do…I mean it, I do…
Do you love me?
W-What did you say?
You heard me. Do you love me?
I…I…don't know…
Do you love me?
I don't know. I-just don't know…
You love the Pharaoh, don't you?
I…
You love your brother, don't you?
I…yes.
Then how come you won't answer me?
I don't know. Why are you asking these questions? Why?
You're mine, Serenity. You only have me now.
No. That can't be it.
But it's true.
How?
I'm right here. You need me for survival.
What?
You don't want to die, do you?
No, I don't.
Then, I'm right here. I'm right here.
Where are you? Where are you?
Open your eyes, my dear.
And she did.
Move for me….
I want to have him…
I can't…
He killed…
Red…
Have you no shame you whore?
Fear…
Confusion…
Joey…
I can't…
Red…
But…I want him…
Kiss me…
You enjoyed it…
You want him…
To fill the emptiness …
Your own fantasies with darkness…
Yugi…
Hidden lust
Forbidden…
Marik…
Forbidden…
FORBIDDEN!
Have you no shame you whore?
Frozen…
Cruel seduction…
Just go away…. just go away…
Lust.
Take me now.
He has me…. too open…
Who ever said we were lovers?
Just one kiss…
Take me…
In the dark…
Take me!
Take me!
I want…
I…
Silken…
Don't you dare…
But I need him…
What do you think you're doing?
Feel what you feel…
You're not even that experienced!
I know; let him take me…
It will hurt, very badly!
Let him make me forget…
Make me forget…
White light…
White noise…
The unbroken flow…
It must be a dream…
No…
Iie…
It wasn't a dream…
It wasn't even a nightmare…
Is it real?
It is real…
Marik…
The Darkness…
Wrapped in circles…
Work of an entity's hands…
You're scared because I love you…
You're beautiful because I want you to be…
You're alone because no one wants you….
Fate brought you to me…
And you are here to stay…
Was it an illusion?
Her eyes were clouded.
Empty…
Nothingness…
Looking up at the sky…
His eyes were black…
Blacker than black…
Color of Oblivion…
Sinking…
Deep crevasse…
Moving backwards…
A rush of emotion…
She mused.
He held.
She remembered…
'Such pure innocence…'
A toy…
A game…
He won.
She lost.
She gave in.
A toy…
A doll…
A doll…
She didn't like being bound. She hated the feeling – the very mentioning of uselessness and only to be seen as a toy, a means to an end. It was sickening. It was disgusting, it was so terrifying,
It starts all over again. The writhing, the bucking, the irreparable noise, disgusting and sickening voices, the demon coming back over and over again until the deed is fulfilled. Until everything is fulfilled – no one will make it out alive, not by a long shot. The sunset gold skin wields his tool of destruction and power, holding the power of God in his hands – somehow everything he touches ends up being destroyed. The many people near the tower are now nothing but wasted and unnecessary space. They bend, beg, and need to be alone, need to go away, but no – he has burned that bridge – the monster – the merciless demon.
Everything is suddenly obsidian, black, ebony, Oblivion. Nothing is there anymore. The sheath upon itself is just too strong. She knew this as she looked around the dark corridors, where everywhere she looked, there was ruby liquid, where the bodies of her friends lay, twisted, eyes and mouths agape, and many peacefully away in slumber. She would ask why – why are they dead? Why is my brother dead? Why are my friends dead? In one moment, she would then cry out in anguish and insanity and sadness and loss before she would fall down onto the steel ground with them, dead as they were, dead as the fallen comrades and the deceased Pharaoh. She cries tears of agony as she mourns them, asking herself why she was spared. How could this have happened? Why her? One minute they were alive and here, the next minute she knew, they were dead.
Why? Why? This couldn't be real! Why did this happen? What did she do to deserve this? What did she do to see this hell? She wanted them back, her brother, her friends, everyone. She just wanted them back right now! NOW NOW NOW NOW NOW! Make them come back!
Echoing laughter rose from the abyss of her despair and his enjoyment.
"You are finally mine, dear Serenity."
A dark voice has answered.
The girl Serenity froze instantly. Upon hearing the dark voice, her eyes shifted upwards and away from the bodies laying around her and saw eyes.
A lot of eyes, with faceless forms and tongues wagging at her, fingers pointing in every direction from the darkness they were created from. She grimaced and stepped away until she saw him – the demon, the monster. He grinned at her, his Cheshire grin illuminated by the light emanating from him, with the golden weapon tight in his hand.
Her breathing came out in sharp gasps, lungs constricting painfully in her chest. She couldn't move, couldn't even breathe as she saw him walk towards her, his grin becoming one of lust and fractured sanity. She heard the whispering nightmares he murmured as she fell down on her knees and prayed for this to be a nightmare, a horrible nightmare, hoping to God that this was all an illusion, her mind playing tricks on her.
She shut her eyes before she felt his hands upon her face, silk caresses and razor sharp nails marring her already bloodstained flesh, and then shuddering as she felt his long and slick tongue trail up her cheek and lap up her tainted tears, kissing her lips almost mockingly soft in an effort to console her.
She heard him lick his lips stained by the copper-producing liquid. She felt him smile upon her lifeblood-stained mouth, loving every minute of his dominating power over her inevitable submission. Yes, everything was falling into place, and the pieces were almost complete.
Silly Serenity-pretty, she has no idea. I am the Oblivion….
"Delicioussssssssssssssssss..."
Agony.
Terror.
Death.
More death.
Manic.
Pain.
Illusion shattering…
Blood.
Death.
Requiem….
Shattered…
His presence…
Monster…
Demon…
Death…
Agony…
It hurts!
Make it stop!
"AAAAAAAGGGGHHHHHH!"
Pain…
Everywhere…
It was…
It was…
Unbearable…
Make it stop…
A pain…
Can never be healed…
The scar…
Blood…
Pouring…
Red…
Burgundy…
A rose petal…
Torn…
Red…
Lifeblood…
Torn away…
Overflowing…
The scar…
The horrible scar…
Red staining white…
The rose petals…
Innocence is lost…
Once again…
Ascending…
Descending…
Keeps coming back…
Ever-shifting…
Look out…
Look out…
Sinking…
The change of heart…
False…
A lie…
Only to deceive…
Truth…
It is never enough…
She screams in agony…
Please…
Make it stop!
Make it stop now!
NOW!
A scar.
A horrible scar.
That's what it will be.
That's what it will become.
A horrible reminder.
A reminder that she is his.
He marked her, baptizing her even.
Why?
Why did she have to be so pure?
Why was she pure?
Why her?
Surely he was satisfied by eternal darkness.
But no.
It was not the case.
He was never satisfied.
And he never will be.
He never will be satisfied.
Never ever.
As long as darkness exists…
He will still exist…
Why was she pure?
Why is she still?
Even after he…
She didn't even want to finish that….
The pain…
Unbearable…
Make it stop…
Agony…
Belongs to her alone…
It is her agony…
It descends….
It ascends….
It descends again…
There was blood…
All around her…
The scar…
It will be there….
On her form….
On her shell…
Red…
The color….
It was beautiful…
Blood…
Both lovely and horrible…
The lifeblood…
Crimson…
Blood red….
Staining…
Creation….
A canvas….
A painting…
Red upon white…
Red consuming white…
She closed her eyes, a warmth surrounding her weak and entire form, the welcoming kind of warmth that enveloped her, wrapping around her securely.
A sun-kissed hand stroked her tear-stained cheek with feigned affection, and trailed down her form, caressing the outlines delicately, as if to sooth her but only to make her squirm even more.
He wrapped his arms around her waist, pulling her to his form, holding her as she collapsed against him. He growled/purred into her ear as a familiarly warm tongue ran along the side of neck.
It was….
It was the Darkness…
The Darkness himself…
The monster…
"No longer…" His voice drifted in and out of her ears as her consciousness was close to fading away.
"…will you be away from me."
No longer would you turn it into light….
A flutter of her eyes…
Blurred….
Spotted and flecked vision….
There was nothing but the darkness.
It was eternal….
Silent and endless,
And she was alone.
In the mists of her blurred vision…
She wondered….
Whether she was in Hell,
Whether she had escaped a terrible fate…
To escape having to part forever
Only to face a separation
Even more eternal
Than the one she had feared.
She was sure of it;
Absolutely sure of it…
She was in Hell…
In that moment….
She felt pain wash over her,
Pain,
Sickness,
Torment and
Hurt…
And…
Fully…
She opened her eyes.
There was a light….
A bright light…
A light so pure…
So…
Joyful….
Something she had not seen in a while.
The light reflected off the many surfaces around her,
All of which…
She realized…
Were white.
She jolted up immediately, feeling sickness seeping in the pit of her stomach.
So she was….
Alive…
But what about….
She turned around slightly
Pain shooting throughout her...
"You are awake…my little one. "
His voice again….
It was….
Him….
The Darkness…
The monster….
Right there in front of her…
At that moment, the blackness began to set in, but she really didn't care, because she knew that, it truly was Hell.
The red thread was not crimson any longer.
Oh no….
She was at the dark core of the hellhole known as the island.
She was within the Duel Tower…..
With him…
With him once again…
The red thread has turned into the stretching black string.
XVIII.
(A.N: Well, what do you know? Another chapter, and on my birthday at that. I felt like doing something to top off turning 19. And there are only two chapters to go until this story is finally over. Wow – I'd never thought I say that. Everything comes full circle from here, folks, so be on the look-out for the chapters.)
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Soundtrack:
"Saltwater" Chicane
"Hanamori no Oka" FictionJunction KAORI
"Requiem For The Evil" Yuki Kajiura, Tsubasa Reservoir Chronicles OST
"Darkness Comes" Yuki Kajiura, Tsubasa Reservoir Chronicles OST