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Timeline: Set after the shooting in 'Pay Up'.

My Dearest Baby Girl,

As I write in this entry for you, you're sleeping soundly beside me, your dad's unconscious in front of me and my hands are still stained with your father's blood. By the time you read this, Lucy, I know that you will be mature enough to understand the contents of this entry. Today has been such an emotional day for both me and your Daddy, baby girl, and the only way I'm ever going to feel better is by writing this down to you. Because in a way, I'm letting it all out to someone I trust and love. You.

I lost a great friend yesterday, Lucy. Her name, which I'm very sure you've heard of, is Jessica Angell and though I'd never worked with her on a case, we became great friends outside of work because she was your Uncle Don's girlfriend. And today, I just might have lost your father too.

A shootout happened earlier last night, Lucy, and your father was seriously injured. I have never felt so scared in my life, and I have been scared so many times before. He couldn't feel his legs, baby girl. Everything happened so fast. One moment we were having a drink and the next, your father had his arm wrapped around me protectively and we were all on the ground with pieces of glass shattered everywhere. And then when your father tried getting up, he just couldn't.

Everything else was a blur for me after that, Lucy. Never had I been so unaware of the people or the surroundings around me. All that mattered to me then was your father. All I saw was his pale face, his clothes stained with his own blood and his unmoving legs. And as he was in his surgery, I held on to you, baby girl, because you're my light in my darkest times and you give me hope by just being there and showing me that I'm not alone. The doctors came out 4 hours, 35 minutes and 6 seconds later with the news that your Daddy would be fine. Never had I been more relieved.

What I was aware of, however, was the presence of the entire lab family in the waiting room. They didn't have to be there, Luce. They were all injured and tired and still shaken from the night's events but they chose to stay with me in the waiting room. I'll always remember Mac pacing, Stella trying to comfort me by putting her arms around me, Don and Sheldon waiting and praying quietly and Adam and Sid harassing the nurse at the counter about the possible dangers and cures for your father. All of them though, took turns holding you because like I said, you give us hope.

What makes me proud of all of us, baby girl, is that even if we haven't solved this case and caught the bustards (forgive my language) I know that none of us will rest until we find them because this has just turned personal. I hope you never have to see the look of utter fury on your Papa Mac's face. It's scary, baby girl.

Which brings me back to your father, Lucy. He is such a brave man, baby girl, and no matter where or how he is, I know that the two of us come first in his life. And I love him more and more everyday for that. I don't know what I did to deserve him.

The next few months are going to be tough, Lucy. Your father is going to have some trouble walking but we'll be there for him no matter what. And eventually, he'll recover and he'll be out of his new wheelchair. He will be carrying you through the park and making sure nobody hurts you. He'll catch you when you're about to fall because that's who your Daddy is to us, our savior. He'll make it through because he's one of the strongest and most determined person I'm proud to know. And if he tries giving up half-way… Well, then he has you and me to support him and kick his butt if he even dares not trying, right?

Your Daddy loves you so much, baby girl, and so do I. I feel so much better after 'talking' to you. I always did, always do and always will.

Love,
Your Mama

P.S. You can talk to me about anything too. I love you, my ray of hope in darkness.

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