BPOV

Hi, my name is Bella Swan and I am the biggest idiot of all time. Not only did I listen to Alice and call Edward right after my shift like a fourteen year-old girl, but also I left him a barely coherent, babbling message.

How I know he thinks I'm an idiot you might ask? Well that is an easy answer because I have not seen or heard from Edward for the past two weeks. Alice was convinced he was just busy with work or something. "He wears suits, and he told you what he did, right?"

"Some kind of sales, proposals?" I said not quite sure.

"See that sounds busy and hectic," she nodded like she knew exactly why he was avoiding me.

I looked down at Rylan who was still sleeping; he was fascinating to watch while he slept. He would make these adorable little faces that I thought were so precious. I knew we would have to get up soon so I could open the store. Alice had her first ultrasound and I gave her the day off deciding I would be fine with just me and Ang. Rylan was pretty good at playing in his Pack n' Play behind the counter so that was my game plan.

"Leave her alone," I heard Jasper say from out in the hall.

"Jazzy you don't understand," Alice whined.

"I understand that guy is a douche bag for leading on my sister and making her look like a fool," he argued.

"He's not like that, I have a feeling…"

"You know I love you, a lot Ali, but your feelings don't always mean shit," he said politely and for the first time in two weeks, I almost giggled. "Leave it alone, she's still dealing with the Jake stuff."

"It's been three years Jazz and she wasn't in love with him, he was her best friend that was it. She was giving him his last wish without even knowing it," Alice said flatly, now I wanted to cry. She hated him, he was dead and she hated him.

I held Rylan closer to me trying to block out their conversation. I didn't want to hear anymore, but when I closed my eyes, I saw him and the moment my world started to crumble.

I pulled away from him to grab my t-shirt from the end of the bed. I hadn't been a virgin since junior prom last year and Riley really wanted a clichéd prom experience, but I was still shy and unsure about myself.

When Jake showed up standing on my front porch so distraught and weak, I let him in. He was my best friend given our two-year age difference, at seventeen he was one of the strongest people I knew. Jacob had spent the last two years in remission from leukemia. When he was first diagnosed, it was the scariest time in my life, but he sat at every chemo treatment with a wide smile. "I gotta kick this thing's ass, Bells," he would say.

After letting him in, he gently pushed me against the door kissing me with all that he had. "I've loved you forever, Bella," he murmured against my lips. I tilted my head slightly seeing the desperation in his brown eyes.

I brought my hand to his cheek kissing him sweetly, because what could I say to that. No one had ever declared their love for me and who would not be flattered by that.

We were in my room before I knew it and our clothes were everywhere. It was quick and I felt guilty for not feeling as much for him as he obviously felt for me.

I was now sitting on the edge of my bed trying to figure out what had just happened.

"Bells," his voice was broken; I turned to him and was shocked to see him crying.

"Jake?" I asked tugging on his arm. He was scaring me.

"It's…back," he stuttered finally meeting my eyes.

"What's back?" I asked carefully, but I knew the answer. I realized he was paler than normal and looked exhausted.

"Bella… I'm sorry, they told us it's too aggressive," he whispered quietly.

"What are you even telling me?" I yelled. I couldn't be mad at him, this wasn't his fault; but he just said he loved me and we just fucked. My brain couldn't wrap around what was happening.

"Dad and I talked about it and I'm refusing treatment."

"Wha…I don't," I breathed, feeling like I was on the verge of a panic attack.

"I'm choosing not to fight it this time," he said almost robotically.

"Out," I hissed throwing his pants at his face.

"Bella," he pleaded.

"I said get the fuck out!" I seethed, punching him on his chest. I just kept hitting until he pulled me firmly to him.

How could he give up? How could he even think about leaving his dad like this? And how the fuck dare he tell me he loved me the way he did only to tell me he was dying.

He kept kissing my head, apologizing over and over. I was furious with him, but let him comfort me because he was Jacob. I went three months without talking to him, three months of no fishing trips to the lake, three months of no walks along First Beach, and three month of regretting my absence.

Billy called dad and told us we needed to get to the hospital. I knew this would be the last time I would see my friend. We walked into the room and the boy on the bed was unrecognizable with tubes and an oxygen mask over his face.

"Bella, he's been asking for you," Billy whispered nodding towards the bed.

I looked at Charlie and he nudged me forward. I felt sick. I felt sick for not speaking to him all this time. I wasted his last few months on this earth ignoring him. I was a terrible person.

My body wracked with sobs, and everything went black. When I woke up I was in a room, dad and the doctor's said they needed to talk to me, but I refused. I was done wasting Jacob's time with my silence I needed to say good-bye. I pushed past them down the hall.

I stepped next to his bed holding his cold hand in mine. "I'm so, so, so very sorry," I cried, pushing up my glasses.

He gingerly pulled his oxygen mask down mumbling, "Love… you… Bells," gasping between words. Billy fought with him to keep the mask on. Billy won. I don't know how much time passed, but Charlie dragged me out into the hall with the doctor from before.

The doctor took me back to the room I was originally in and Charlie sat next to me with a frown on his face.

"Miss Swan, are you aware that you're pregnant?" The doctor asked and I felt the wind knocked out of me.

I kept my eyes closed, but knew Alice was hovering over me. "I know you heard us, pay no attention to Jazz," she murmured brushing my hair behind my ear.

I looked down watching Ry shift, and knew it was time to get up.

"Let me be, Alice," I warned, knowing this was what she did.

Edward wasn't interested and even if he was, once he found out about Rylan he'd want nothing to do with me.

Alice surprisingly wasn't as persistent as I thought she would be and let me get Ry and myself ready for a day at the shop.

Angela was waiting for me at the door of the shop when we arrived and my flirt of a son stuck his arms out for her.

"You need to tell Ben he better step up his game," I teased setting up the café section of the shop.

"I think you're right because this little cutie has stolen my heart," she giggled and I rolled my eyes.

A few hours later Angela took her break leaving Rylan and me alone. He watched me as I read my book, every so often I would make a face earning a giggle from my boy.

"Mama, cook," he pointed to the cookie in the case.

I obliged grabbing one for him, and broke it up into tiny pieces for him to eat. The bell on the door rang indicating we were no longer alone.

"Hi."

"You never called," Rosalie, sighed slightly disappointed.

I noticed a boy standing next to her with curly brown hair and deep green eyes like hers. This had to be her son, but he looked kind of older than what she described. He was bulky for a little boy and seeing Rose as tall as she was it was hard to picture her carrying something so big for nine months. Rylan was small for his age I was pretty sure he would take after me more then Jacob when it came to his size.

"I've been… busy," I said lamely, glancing back to Rylan who was peeking at them curiously.

"Hey little dude," the boy said enthusiastically causing my son to smile at him. He climbed over the Pack' n Play's gate to play with him.

"Emery remember what I said," she warned as he nodded.

"Um… are you here for Carlisle's books?"

"No, I'm here to see you," she said matter-of-factly.

"Okay."

"I also want to invite you out, my husband is a lawyer and one of his clients just opened a bar. We wanted to invite you to the opening Friday."

"Invite me?" I asked in disbelief.

I never went out. Alice hounded me constantly about going to bars and clubs and living up my twenties, but I didn't want to burden my dad or Jazz with babysitting duty.

"Yes, you aren't busy are you?" she asked lifting a perfectly arched eyebrow.

"I…I…"

"BELLA," Alice squealed practically bouncing into the shop.

She stopped, looking at Rose and me and then her attention went to Ry and Emery.

"Hello," she said taking Rose in. "Nice bag…Chloé?"

"You are good," Rose smirked and Alice's face mirrored hers. It was strangely scary to see them act like they'd known each other for years.

"I'm Rosalie McCarty," she smiled sticking her hand out to Alice.

"Hi, I'm Alice Swan, Bella's sister-in-law."

I walked away letting them talk, for some reason I felt left out. Rosalie was the first person I talked to without the help of Jasper or Alice and now Alice was becoming friends with her. I sat next to the boys playing with the blocks that were entertaining them.

"You're pretty," Emery said giving me a dimpled grin.

"How old are you?" I giggled.

"Five almost six, age ain't nothing but a number," he shrugged.

I gaped at him because he did not just say this to me.

"Bella he's all talk, he gets that from his father," Rose explained rolling her eyes.

"Oh?"

"Rose told me about the bar opening Bella, you'll have so much fun. We can watch Rylan."

"I actually have an amazing babysitter; he already said he would be more then happy to watch him."

"I couldn't…" I started before Alice cut me off.

"She'll be there and Rylan will be there as well," she glared at me.

"Perfect," Rosalie smiled giving me a quick hug.

We said our goodbyes to them and Alice cornered me.

"Okay you've been sulking for the past two weeks about Edward not calling you back and then you have Rosalie who obviously wants to be your friend and you don't call her?" she huffed in irritation.

"I honestly forgot she gave me her card," I sighed picking up Ry.

"Bella this is something that can help you. I think she would be a great friend for you, she wouldn't have made the effort of coming back in if she thought you were a waste of time."

"I'll go," I said in defeat.

Friday had arrived before I knew it; apparently Rose and Alice kept in touch throughout the week making sure I wouldn't be backing out. They were both up to something, but I wasn't sure what.

Alice fought with me about my outfit for an hour but I couldn't care less. I opted for a pair of skinny jeans with knee-high black boots, and a low v-neck black t-shirt that was my compromise with Alice.

I pulled up to the impressive house just on Seattle's border and got Rylan out of his car seat. I heard someone behind me so I turned. It was Carlisle and I blushed because he was insanely good-looking in a t-shirt and jeans.

"Here let me," he smiled getting Rylan out for me.

"Thanks," I said quietly.

"No problem, Mommy has to look nice this evening," he said playfully to my son who was giggling.

"Finally you're here," A voice boomed from the front porch causing me to jump.

"Emmett, don't scare her away," Rose scolded coming from behind him.

"Sorry, but I'm ready to get shit faced," he fist pumped which I didn't think happened in real life.

"I'm cutting you off from Jersey Shore," she said seriously.

"He was in a frat," Carlisle explained with a chuckle.

We made our way into the house and Emery was at the table coloring. Emmett picked me up engulfing me in a bear hug. "You're so small," he said setting me down.

"You're so large," I countered back.

Rose and Carlisle looked taken back by our banter, but this was how I used to be. I was playful and sarcastic. He reminded me of the La Push boys and that's how I was with them.

"Touché," he erupted with laughter.

"We better get going I think it's tacky to be late," Rose said placing a kiss on Emery's cheek.

I nodded walking over to Carlise who was still holding my baby. "Mama," he smiled widely.

I tried to hold my tears back because this was really the first time I went out for grown up time…ever. "Kiss?" I asked him. He made an 'O' shape with mouth and leaned in to meet my lips.

"He'll be fine," Carlisle smiled warmly noticing my tension.

Rose hurried me out to the car and basically played twenty questions with me. Emmett kept shaking his head giving me a smile through his mirror.

"Why didn't Carlisle come?" I asked suddenly curious as to why he would rather babysit.

"Going out isn't his thing," she said with out explaining.

"Why?" I asked pushing.

"I don't know he took me and my twin in when we were ten, we took up a lot of his time. After we grew up, or at least I did, he had no one to take care of. My brother, my twin he had a bit of a drug problem and Carlisle turned his life mission into getting him sober," she said carefully watching her words for some reason. "After he got his act together I had Emery and Carlisle helped me with him."

"He doesn't have a wife or girlfriend?" I asked baffled he would be a catch. Emmett's booming laugh startled me and Rosalie smacked him. "Bells, you are a riot," he snorted.

"What?"

"He's had boyfriends," Rose said softly and it donned on me, why Emmett thought what I said was funny. I left it at that.

The bar was nice and kind of upscale, which made me feel underdressed and uncomfortable. We were greeted by a very friendly blonde guy.

"Newton," Emmett smiled shaking his hand.

"I'm glad you guys could make it, you must be Bella," he smiled taking my hand in his.

He looked like a jock, or at least when he was in high school he was probably a jock. To me he seemed like an over eager puppy.

"Hi," I said quietly.

"See I told you she was shy, Mike," Rose supplied giving me a nudge.

"There's nothing wrong with being shy," he murmured kissing my hand. I froze and suddenly was uncomfortable.

The only guy I don't think I would mind kissing my hand was Edward, but he didn't want to do that either.

Mike Newton was the proud owner of this bar. Rosalie insisted he was being modest as she bragged. Emmett sat back and watched me with a curious look on his face, but said nothing. Several drinks later Mike dragged me up to the bar with him to help him grab more drinks for our table.

He was talking about how he had season tickets to the Mariners and asked if I wanted to go sometime.

"Uh…"

"Bella," Rose said slightly winded.

My brow furrowed as Emmett was right behind her trying to block my view of something. Then I saw him staring daggers at me. Edward was standing across the room with a frizzy-haired brunette. He quickly pulled her to him whispering something before kissing her deeply.

"Jesus, he has no class," Rosalie seethed.

"Who?" I said looking at my feet.

"My brother, the guy making out with nest head over there," she said bluntly.

"Your twin?" I said slowly, my lungs deflating.

"It's unfortunate she had to share a living space with him for nine months," Emmett tried joking.

Mike looked lost to what we were talking about. I looked up and Edward was watching me with a sneer, I didn't understand it. Then he started making his way toward us.

"Can we please go?" I pleaded tugging on Rosalie's arm.

"Here Bells can get the car with me," Emmett offered taking my hand in his. He must have noticed my need for a quick exist.

Rose nodded saying she was going to get our bags. Emmett and I were halfway to the door when I looked over and saw Edward and Rosalie yelling. "Come on, girl," Emmett said gently tugging on my hand as I stumbled toward the car.

The rest of the night seemed like a blur. I ended up crashing in Rosalie's guest room after we got home.

A/N: Guys thanks for reading and reviewing! I really do appreciate all your interest and Happy Mother's Day to all the Mom's out there. Much thanks to Dolphin62598 for beta'ing!