Chapter 3; Matters.
Theme song; Breathe me by Sai.
I didn't move at first, I couldn't. I just stared at Jasper body. I felt like I was going to throw up. In my ears, I heard Embry shouting into his cell. He must have had called 911.
"Yes, he's 17. No, by the looks of it he crashed into the tree. No one's touched him. Yes, I'll stay on the line. Okay..." I tuned him out and felt Jacob hand touch me, and jumped. I was to lost at looking at Jasper to remember he was there.
"Bella, don't look." It was too late, I've already seen too much.
Without warning, my legs started toward Jasper, then it turned into a run. I fell at his side and saw that he was just barely breathing. Blood lingered in the air around us but I couldn't see any blood.
Jacob joined myself when Jasper started to make a gaging sound then stop breathing altogether. Damn it. I quickly removed his helmet as I shouted to Embry.
"He's not breathing!" I shouted to Embry and heard him echo it to the person.
"Do you know how to give mouth to mouth resuscitation?" He yelled back and I nodded to him in the darkness when he got closer to us. "Do it then. If you need to she can--" I cut him off with a snap.
"I can do it,"
I reached out and placed my two of my fingers under his chin. I opened his mouth with the other hand. It was to dark to see in it. I couldn't tell if something was blocking his airway.
"I can't see into his mouth." I felt something hit my arm and saw that Jacob had lend over us and placed his cell phone over Jaspers mouth. He brought his head closer and looked inside.
"It's clear. Nothings blocking it." He told me and I nodded as I placed my hand on Jaspers forehand tiling his head back like I was taught to do along time ago. I kept my hand on his chin as I moved my other hand to hold his nose shut. I bent over him, and placed my mouth over his. I let out a breath into him and out of the corner of my eye I saw his chest rise.
I removed my mouth to check his pulse. It was slow, but it was beating. I placed my mouth back over his and breathed again. After about the ten times, Jasper started to cough and began to breathe on his own. I slowly with Jacob help moved him on his side encase he started to throw up.
"He's breathing on his own again," I told Embry and he nodded as he retold the person what I just said.
"The ambulance should be here soon. Make sure he keeps breathing Bella, and don't move him anymore unless you have to." I nodded, even though I already knew that. Jasper breathing was shallow, gasping and labored as it forced its way in and out of his lungs.
"Check him over, make sure he not bleeding to much in one place," Embry told Jacob and me. "If he is try, to stop it with something, like tee shirt." We nodded, and started to check him. As Jacob check his lower half, I check his head and neck. I ran my fingers through his hair in the back and came up with blood. That what was the smell in the air was from.
"Jacob, I think he hit his head, he's bleed pretty badly here." Jacob stopped his checking, and turned to Jasper head, and ran his finger in his hair also came up with blood.
"I don't like how much he's losing." Jacob muttered to me, in a stressed voice as he took off his shirt. He then ripped it in half, and give me part of it.
"Wrap it around his head," He told me and then when back to checking. I nodded to myself, as lifted Jasper head slightly to place the tee shirt around the back of his head. Even unconscious, Jasper winced as I plied pressure to his wound.
"I'm sorry, Jasper." I whispered to him not knowing if he could here me. I kept blinking, and fought off the tears that had threated to spilled over at any time.
"Other than the head wound, he seems to be okay." Jacob told me. My thoughts told me Jasper was anything other than okay but I didn't point it out.
"Ambulance is here," Embry told us as he hung up the cell. "I'll meet them and them where we are," He set his self in a pace that was almost a run. I turned to see Embry be sucked up in the shadows around us. I could only see the white and red lights mixed in with blue. The police was here too then. I could hear muttering as the sounds fluttered in the air around Jake and me. As Jacob rosed to get out of the way of the E.M.T, I just moved so I was knelt beside the top of his head.
"Have you two checked him?" One of the EMT asked us.
"Yes, he must had hit his head hard, cause he's bleeding of the back of his head." Jacob told her.
"Was he wearing a helmet?" She asked as she knelt beside Jasper, taking stuff out of her box.
"Yes, we took it off when he stop breathing." The EMT nodded.
" How long did he go without breathing? Was it long? Did someone mouth to mouth resuscitation?" Her questions was endless.
"Not long, 45 seconds at the most and yes I give him mouth to mouth. I did for about two minutes until he started breathing on his own." The only questioned I had was, 'was he going to be okay,' but I didn't ask it. How would she known anyways, she just got here and at the moment, I knew more about whats going on than she did.
"His pulse is going up slightly, 45/80." She called to the other EMS person who had stretcher with them. "He seems to be in coma." God.
"Will he be okay?" Jacob asked as he stood behind me.
" I don't know, son." The woman answer him, helping the other person lifted Jasper up. Jasper has let out a moan of pain.
"I'm going with you," I told them and the woman nodded, not even bothering asking my age.
I turned and faced Jacob. " Are you going to the hospital?" He nodded.
"Yes, Embry and I will be right behind ya'll." I nodded a thanks knowing with Jasper like this I would need him.
The thought of riding in ambulance had trilled me at one point in my life, but that moment wasn't now. I was pushed to the side, Jasper hand in mine as I watched them work on him.
The EMT man, quizzed me all the way to Forks Hospital. Questions that when from 'how we knew each other to Jasper parents background history.'
Jasper never opened his eyes once but only winced once in while. As soon as we got out, I was told to go to the waiting room. They promised to do the best they could. I walked slowly to waiting room where Jacob and Embry waited. I sat between them, hand in hand with both of them not talking.
When the waiting door open, in walked Edward, Rosalie. Rosalie face was twisted up with pain for her twin. Edward looked beyond pissed. Rose give me a small painful smile as she sat down next Embry. Edward just stood, and looked at me. The thoughts 'if looks could killed' when through my head. No one said a word for a good five minutes until Rose broke the silents first.
"Damn it, Edward. It's not her fault, so stop looking at her like it is." She hissed and I turned my head toward her.
"Stay out of it, Rosalie." Edward hissed back. I just moved my head back and forth between them.
"Your really blaming me for this Edward?" I asked him, my voice was tight as I looked at him.
"If the shoe fits." I rosed out of my seat, and knocked both Embry and Jacob hands out of mine own.
"How dare you, your best friend is in there and all you can think about whom fault it is?" I growled at him. No one but us was in the small waiting room.
"Who's the one who taught him to ride that damn bike? If you never came here Isabella, Jasper would be at Emmett's or my house like the old days before he met you." He actually spat at the word you.
"I never told him he had to ride the motorcycle, he asked me to teach him and I did. Mistakes happens, Jasper mistake was driving in the dark while it was raining." My voice stay there in the air around us.
"No, Bella. The only mistake Jasper made was falling in love with you. I told him you w--" I cut him off when my fist hit his mouth.
"How dare you, Edward. How could you?" My voice was whisper as Jacob grabbed me from behind and pulled me down into his lap. I fought against him until I was free from his lap. The last time I wanted was to be conformed.
"Will you shut up?" Rose barked at him.
"Don't tell me what to do, rose. I can see in your face you're blaming her too." He turned and faced me, "We all are." Before I could speak a doctor walked in.
"Isabella Swan?" He asked.
"That's me," My voice broke.
"Jasper is worst than we thought, he's in a coma but by the looks of the x-rays, his brain was moved from the impacted of the hit. We just going to be forward with you, he might never wake and if he does, he might not remember who he is." No. "I'm sorry," The tears I had held back from early escaped. "You can go see him if you like with another person. Just no more then two at a time. He's in room 207, east wing"
"Did you get in touch with his mom?" Jacob asked.
"Not yet," Was the last thing the doctor said before he left.
"Rose?" I asked and she nodded as she stood up. We left the room and headed to his room. I felt like I had floated the whole way. When I opened the door to his room, I felt fainted. Jasper was tied down with many wires that wrapped around him. From this view, he looked broken. I placed my hand on Rose shoulder as she looked down at her twin brother. She just shook it off as she slowly made her way to his right side. I when to his left.
" Jasper, I don't know if you can hear me but please come back to me. You can't leave me, brother." Rose whispered to him. "Please Jasper," She begged. Tears fell from her fall on to his bare chest.
"Jasper," I muttered to him, as I took his hand. I felt his fingers move slightly. I didn't know what to say. I just looked down at my him. My best friend, more of a brother than anything. " Why couldn't it had been me?" I whispered to him. His voice filled my thoughts as he was really talking to me. 'Don't be stupid, Swan'.
If he didn't make it out of this, I would be flowing him. No, I wouldn't be far behind him. He wasn't going to leave me behind again.
I stood and dropped his hand. "I'm going to let Edward come back," Rose just nodded. Again I felt like I had floated back to the waiting area. I just looked at Edward as I walked in and nodded to him. He didn't say a word as he left the room. I didn't sat back down beside Embry or Jacob. I just stood against the wall and fell down to floor. I covered my head with my arms. This is what happened when you take risks. I had been warn but I didn't believe it. I was 17, and the world was against me already and I felt like I was immortal to it. Couldn't get hurt or killed. The earth already give me enough warnings. Was my punishment for not listening to it was to take Jasper was from me?
Life wasn't fair, how could God take Jasper now? He was only 17, to young to live out his life. He had to much to see.
Time didn't matter to me anymore as I sat there waiting for more news on Jasper. I only talk once when his mom told me she didn't blame me, not by a long shot.
Rose told me the same thing. Even Alice and Emmett tried talking to me but I never lifted my head from my knees to look at them. It was just to much on me. I felt more tied to Jasper than his own twin.
Jacob and Embry left after what felt like days but it had only been three hours. I fainting heard when they told me they would be back in the morning.
The only time I lifted my head up was when Edward had came back in. Tears stained his face as he met my eyes. I could see the pain deep inside them and couldn't take it. I slammed my head back down on my knees. Tears started to stain my own face now. Life was to short to wasted and Jasper was justing proving that quote right at the moment.
Um wow, this is really emo isn't it? Sorry for the gramma errors, I didn't really get to fix them. I just hate feeling depressed when I was writing this. Hope you understand. Review please? I'm ready for truth of this chapter.