Chatper 4; I can't save you both.

Theme song; Like a toy soldier by eminem

Timed passed slowly. What felt like years only became a week in reality. I never left the hospital, but to only shower and change clothes. I was always in Jasper room either talking to him or just holding his hand. Rose or Alice was with me most of the times. I didn't see much of Edward or Emmett. I guess it was hard on them to see their friend like it.

"Here Bella," Jacob whispered to me. He had passed me a fruit bar. I passed it back to him, and shook my head. We were in the waiting room and I had taken my spot against the wall. Out of the cornered of my eyes I saw a little girl in her mother lap look at me. Tears stained both of their cheeks.

"Come on you have to eat, Bella. You barely touched your food during supper. You can't keep doing yourself like this." He waved the bar in my face again. I reached up and knocked it out of his hand.

"I said no." I told him, even I could tell how dead my voice was. I've had talk to anyone, but Jasper in the last week.

"Bella," He breathed out, leaning down to where I was sitting. "Please don't make me force food down your throat. I don't want to, but I will. Now eat." He tossed the fruit bar into my lap and walked away. I sighed and laid my head back down on my knees. I didn't move until I saw a doctor walked in. I raised my head as he walked over to lady with the little girl.

"Mrs. Stoner?" The doctor asked and the lady nodded.

"He's out now, you may go see him now if you like, but I'm afraid you little girl can't. She under the age of 14 so she'll have to stay here." The lady looked like she was going to argue, but then sighed and nodded looking down the small girl in her lap.

"Thank you," She told the doctor as she wiped the tears off of the small girl face. The doctor nodded and left.

"Mommy's going to go see your brother. Stay here and please don't go anywhere." That's when I decide I should say something to them.

"I'll watch her for you when you go back if you like." The mother turned to me, the tears on her face looked like glitter under the light. I could see Jacob and Rose look at me in shock

"That's okay, I don't want to bother you." I shook my head.

"Really its no bother at all. I'm going to be sitting here anyway." The mother looked like she was thinking it through before she nodded.

"Thank you," She said as she left. When the door closed behind her I turned back to the little girl.

"You can come sit beside me if you like," The small girl nodded and walked slowly over to me and sat down beside me without a word. I didn't say anything to her at first but thought it would help her keep her mind off of what was happening if I talked to her.

"What's your name?" My voice had little life in it.

"LeAnna Grace, but I go by Grace. What's yours?" Her voice shook a little from the tears she was still shedding.

"Bella." She nodded her small head at me.

"That's a pretty name." Grace told me and I felt my lips twitched with a small smile.

"Thank you, Grace. Your name pretty too." She blushed at my comment. We didn't speak for a few minutes until Grace broke the silents.

"Why are you here?" She asked me.

"My friend got hurt." I didn't think she would understand anything else.

"Oh, my brother got shot. Mommy told him he shouldn't play with the gun but he said he was to old to listen to her. The people who came and got him said he might not live." It shocked me she knew how much was going on. She had started to cry again and I wrapped my arm around her and pulled her closer.

"It's okay," I muttered to her and I heard Rosalie gaped. It must been real shocking to see me act like this after how I been for the last week.

I must have fallen asleep because when I opened my eyes I saw that Grace had her head in my lap. I turned and saw Jacob asleep but Rose was gone. She must be with Jasper.

"I'll move her if she bothering you," I heard a voice to my left say. I turned to see the mother looking at me. I shifted a little so I could turn my head better.

"Its okay, she's fine. How's your son doing?" I asked her and she sighed.

"Okay, he's asleep at the moment. The doctor said he should recover soon enough but it might take a few weeks since he's so young." I wished the doctors would say the same thing about Jasper.

"That's good to hear, Ma'am." She nodded and I turned when I felt someone sit beside me. I turned to see Emmett.

"Hey," He muttered softly. I wasn't sure if it was he was scared to wake Grace or something else.

"Hey."

"How you holding up? Sorry I've had talked to you sooner by the way." He told me and I nodded in understanding.

"It's fine, Emmett. I'm holding in there, you?" He sighed and rested his head on the wall.

"Better than you it seems, but that understandable since we know how close you and Jasper are." His voice was heavy around us. Then he seemed to think what he said might had hurt me.

"Oh that was stupid of me. I'm sorry Bella, I wasn't thinking." I laughed lightly, but it seemed out of place.

"Its okay, Emmett. Its tough on all of us. Have you been back to see him yet?" He shook his head at me.

"I can't, its impossible for me Bella. I can't see Jasper so broken like this and..." I shushed him.

"I know, Emmett." He sighed and nodded and then pointed to Grace who was still out cool in my lap.

"Who's she?" He asked.

"Her name Grace." He nodded. "Have you seen Rose, she said she needed a ride home."

"She must be with Jasper," I shifted so I could move Grace. "Here I'll go get her, watch her for me. The mother just fell asleep." He nodded and place Grace in his lap with ease.

I stood up and saw that Jacob was standing too. I didn't know he was awake.

"I'll go with you," He muttered and I nodded. He grabbed my hand and lead me out of the small waiting room.

"That was nice of you, Bella." He said as soon as we was out of the room. I didn't understand what he meant.

"What was?" I asked him.

"Watching Grace for that mom." I nodded. "Did you eat that fruit bar I give you?" I shook my head at him and Jacob sighed. I quickly covered up for myself though.

"I'll eat it when we get back into the waiting room." I promised and he nodded with a squeezed of my hand.

When I opened the door to Jasper room, and saw that Rose wasn't in there. That was odd. I turned to Jacob.

"She's not here," I told him and he looked in to see for his self. He looked confused when he looked back at me.

"When you fell asleep with Grace, she got up in a hurry and said she was going to see if the doctors was done checking on Jasper." This didn't seem right. I pulled out my cell and turned to go back to the waiting room. I pulled Jacob along with me, since his hand was still in mine.

I dialed Rose cell but got nothing. This didn't seem right. I felt like I had rushed all the way down the hall to the small waiting room but Jacob didn't seem to complain about my speed as I had dragged him along behind me. When I opened the room to waiting room, I had half hoped Rose would be here, sitting in a chair but she wasn't.

"Did you find her?" Emmett asked and I shook my head pulling my cell away.

"I tried calling her but got nothing not even a voice mail." Emmett looked worried then.

"I'm going to go see if I can go find her, stay here encase she shows up. If she does, call my cell. I'll let you know when I find her." Both Jacob and I nodded as he slowly placed Grace into the floor. She didn't move once. When Emmett left, Jacob and I sat back down beside Grace. I pick her up and placed her so she was in both of ours laps. Silents hung heavily in the air around the waiting room. The waiting was in less as I took my cell out of my pocket and sat it between us.

Time was going slow again as I waited. I didn't have much hope now that Emmett had found her. When I was about to give up on him calling my cell rang. I swifted off the floor before Jacob could had time to think about looking down at it.

"Hello?" I answered the phone.

"Bella. You ha-have to ge-get ove-over here. R-R-Ros-rose killed he-herself." I gaped. No.

"Where are you?" I asked. My voice didn't break for once.

"Her house," He hung up then.

The cell dropped out of my hands and Jacob caught it before it could hit Grace. This wasn't happening.

"Bella?" Jacob asked shaking my shoulders. "What's wrong? Please tell me." I shook my head and gently pushed Grace feet out of my lap and stood up. I grabbed my things and turned to run at the room. Jacob caught my arm before I could think about leaving.

"Is something wrong with Rose? Was that Emmett?" I barely nodded at him.

"Rose committed suicided." I voice broke. Jacob eyes widen and then this time he was pulling me out of the room and down the hall.

"Slow down," I demanded as I tripped. "Please," I heard Jacob growled and turned around faster than I thought possible and pulled me up into his arms.

"Sorry, Bella. But we really can't have you getting hurt at a time like this." He whispered into my ear. The way it said wasn't mean like but it was close enough.

When Jacob pulled up to Rose's house, we was met by police cars. I didn't take time to think what I was doing until I was opening the door to the house. I was met by a police officer when the door wasn't even half way opened.

"I'm sorry Miss. But you can't be in here." Like the hell I can't.

"But you don't understand, I--" I didn't have to say anything else. Emmett rounded the corner, tears that I thought he couldn't sheared raced there way down his cheek.

"It's cool, she's my sister and that's her boyfriend." He lied smoothly to the cop.

The cop nodded and I pulled Jacob along with me to catch up with Emmett. I was meet by a scene that would forever haunt me until I died.

Rose was covered in blood, a gun laid untouched beside her as she was tangled against herself on the floor.

"She left a note for you," Emmett whispered as I turned my head away from the scene. Jacob pulled me tightly against him. Emmett reached over and placed a piece of paper into my lap. Slowly with shaking fingers I opened it.

Bella;

Please don't think so lowly of me as my last thoughts are about you and Jasper. I know you don't understand why I'm going to do this but you will soon enough. You have to face the facts, Bella. Jasper not coming back to us and even if he does, it's not like we going to hope. A part of him will be lost, I just know it and I wouldn't stand around to watch it. As this letter starts to end, so does my life. One day, I will see you again. Please don't think of me as a Coward.

Rose.

I closed my eyes and felt tears fall from my eyes. Why had Rose left me like this. Was life really that hard that she had to end it like she did? I knew without a doubted, these questions would never be answered.

I ready for the hating now. I told you this story wasn't going to be happy. Anyway, i didn't send out previews last chapter and sorry about that. I just never got the time to send one. I promise everyone will get a review who reviews.