Sorry about the delay folks. Alright this chapter was inspired by the song Secret sung by The Pierces. It's a creepy song, but I like it. Hope you enjoy this chapter.

Chapter 3: Bella's POV

"Hey Bella," Angela said as she sat down next to me at lunch. It was Friday, and it was raining. No surprise there. What was surprising was that I was enjoying watching the rain. Though, it could have something to do with the mood I was in. I was depressed. I had thought of Carlisle all week, and I came to a realization.

He had a wife.

I know. I know. A little slow on the uptake, but it didn't seem to really matter at first. It was just a crush. A schoolgirl's fantasy if you will. But the more I thought about it. The more I wanted. I wanted Carlisle Cullen so badly. It was stupid. I hardly knew the man. It wasn't like I was possibly in love with him. I had talked to him twice, and conversation had been about my health. Nothing more.

Yet still I yearned for him. I couldn't understand it. It was driving me crazy!

"Hey Angela," I said quietly, still deep in my own thoughts.

"The Cullens have been staring at you for two minutes," Angel was slipping a straw in her milk carton, giving me this calculating look.

"You're not going to abandon me for them are you?" She asked with a sincere smile.

"Not unless Jessica drives me crazy," I replied with a bright smile. I liked Angela. She was a sincere person. A person I felt I could trust completely. I didn't feel that for most people. Most people I was reserved around, but not with Angela.

"What are you thinking about?" Angela asked, as my attention went back to the windows.

"Just stuff," I replied with a regret filled smile

"I know it's none of my business," Angela said giving me a concerned look, "But ever since the accident you've been…different.

"How so?" I asked, curious. Was I that transparent?

"You're spaced all the time," Angela replied in between bites of her hamburger, "Like you're day dreaming."

"Yes…well…" I replied not looking at Angela, "There's a lot to think about."

"Like how to impress Edward?" Angela teased and I rolled my eyes. It was not Edward that I wanted to impress.

"No," I replied giving her a glare.

Angela was about to say something else when Alice Cullen bounced over to them and yelled, "Hello Bella!" She leaned down and gave me a hug. I felt like a deer in headlights. Pulling back she smiled at me and said, "Gosh. Edward was right. You do smell good."

Angela died laughing and I felt myself blush. I hoped Carlisle felt the same.

"What do you need?" I asked trying to hide my irritation.

"Well…………. I was wondering if you wanted to go with us to Port Angeles tomorrow?"

"What?" I asked shocked.

Bending down she whispered in my ear, "Well… Edward wants you to go. He's just too shy to ask."

I felt myself blush again, but I ignored it. Edward wanted me to go? Oh lord. He liked me, and I was falling for his father. I should have moved to Florida. I had to tell Edward the truth, or at least a version that wouldn't reveal that I liked a married man.

I looked at Alice and said, "Sure?"

Alice squealed like a little girl and hugged me again, "Thanks Bella! We'll have so much fun!" She gave me an appraising look and muttered, "Strange." Then she was gone.

What was that about?

"I thought you said you weren't going to abandon me," Angela started to pout.

I laughed and said, "You'll get over it."

Angela laughed with me and we went back to our lunch, talking about nothing. I could feel Edward's eyes on my back. It was not a good feeling.

Carlisle's POV

I was seeing a patient when I saw Charlie Swan walking through the hospital. I finished with my patient and intercepted him.

"Hello Chief Swan," I said putting my hand on his shoulder. I smiled brilliantly, but his hard expression made my smile waver. I instantly thought the worst.

"Did something happen to Bella?" I asked. I felt myself starting to panic. I had never panicked so quickly in my life.

"No," Charlie replied with a glare, "She's fine." He crossed his arms and snapped, "Why so worried?"

I gave Charlie a confused look and asked, "Are you okay Chef Swan?"

Charlie shrugged and shook his head. He gave me a pleasant look and said, "Sorry. I'm not in the best of moods."

I laughed a little and said, "That's okay. Maybe you should take a few days off. Might help with the stress."

"Is that doctor's orders?" Charlie asked, cocking his eyebrow.

"Friendly advice," I replied with a laugh. Charlie laughed a little and asked, "Do you know where I can find Jimmy Handle? He fell before work, and I said that I would look in on him during lunch."

I pointed at the front desk and said, "Rebecca will know. Just go and ask."

"Thanks Dr. Cullen," Charlie replied with a grin, "See yea later."

"Good-bye," I said with a nod of my head.

I watched him walk up to Rebecca, and sighed. I had been afraid that he had known my secret. I sighed with relief. Nobody could know. I would take this secret to my grave. Which probably wouldn't be for a long time. I groaned. The future was not looking bright.

Bella's POV

"Hey Angela," I said as we sat in my room. Stuffing our face with popcorn. I felt a little awkward. Finally I sighed and said, "Angela can I ask you something?"

"Sure Bella," Angela replied staring at the computer screen. We were watching While You Were Sleeping, on youtube. It was really good.

"Have you ever liked someone you had no business liking?" I asked looking down and playing with the hem of my shirt.

Angela gave me a confused look and asked, "But Edward likes you? What's the problem?"

I gave Angela a sad little smile and said, "I don't like Edward."

"What?" Angela squeaked, "Why the hell not? He's totally hot."

"Yes…" I agreed there was no denying that Edward was good looking, "But the guy I like looks better."

"Wow," Angela said with a bright smile, "He looks better then Edward? Who is it?"

"Angela I can't," I replied hiding my face with my hands, "If I you accidentally let it slip. It could be really bad."

"How could it be bad?" Angela asked. Suddenly a realization hit her, "Is this guy in school?"

"No," I replied shaking my head. I felt sick at my stomach. I was afraid to tell someone. If I did it would no longer be a fantasy. If I did it would make it real, "He's older."

"How much older?" Angela asked. She got up and paused the movie, and then sat back down. I could tell that she was worried about me.

"Older," I replied, "Not daddy older, but older. At least ten years."

"Okay," Angela said nodding, "That's not bad. Is that all?"

"I wish," I groaned.

"Bella just tell me," Angela replied with a sigh, "I swear that I won't tell anyone. I won't even think about it. We won't ever talk about it unless you bring it up."

"Promise?" I asked ready to tell. I had to tell someone, and Charlie was so out of the question.

"I promise," Angela said sitting beside me and putting my arms around me. I lay my head on her shoulder and said, "I like Carlisle Cullen."
I felt Angela tense up and I pulled away. Her mouth was open and her eyes were wide. She looked like she had just heard that ice cream had been declared a food group.

"Angela?" I asked timidly "Are you okay?"

Angela shook her head and took my hand again, "The question is…are you?"

I shrugged and looked down, "Not really."

"How did this happen Bella?" Angela wanted to know, "I mean. He is gorgeous but…how?"

"I don't know," I replied with a sigh, "I've only seen him twice, but I can't stop thinking about him."

"Twice?" Angela asked.

I gave her a smile and nodded, "He came to the house the day after the accident. He said that he wanted to check up on me. He was so sweet and charming." I groaned again and stared at the computer screen, "He's everything I've dreamed of in a man. But theirs just one problem."

"He's married," Angela finished. I looked at Angela and nodded. I took and deep breath and sighed.

"Okay, We can fix this. You just like him," Angela continued, "It's not like you're in love with him." I looked at Angela hopefully, "Why don't you give Edward a try? Maybe you'll forget him."

"You're right," I agreed, "I need to move on, but not with Edward. That would just be too weird."

Angela nodded and I went on, "I'll tell him tomorrow that I just want to be friends."

"That seems like a good way to go," Angela said with a sigh, "I still think your crazy."

I laughed and felt a little better. Suddenly the phone rang. I leaned over and picked the phone up, "Hello?"

"Bella?" I almost dropped the phone. It was Carlisle.

"Carlisle?" I asked feeling more then a little foolish. Angela's eyes widened, and her jaw dropped.

"Yes Bella it's I," Carlisle replied, his voice was warm and I just knew that he had a smile on his face. His eyes were probably twinkling too.

"What do you need?" I asked. More then a little shocked.

"Alice informed me that you were joining us at Port Angeles," Carlisle replied. His voice was light and joyful, yet there was something in it that made me think something was wrong with him.

"Yes," I replied feeling a little uncomfortable, "Is that wrong? Was she not supposed to invite me?"

"Oh no Bella," Carlisle hastily replied. His voice sounded stricken, "It's fine. I'm not mad." He paused for a second and then shyly said, "I want you there."

My heart stopped. I couldn't breathe. I had those lovely euphoric feelings running up and down my spine. I heard his words echo in my head.

"Bella are you still there?" I heard Carlisle ask. He seemed almost afraid. I quickly reassured him, "No I'm fine. Angela was distracting me."

Angela glared at me and through a pillow, "Stop it Angela," She stuck her tongue at me.

Carlisle laughed and I knew that he was also smiling. When he finally stopped he said, "Anyway, Alice said that she forgot to tell you when we were supposed to pick you up."

I laughed and said, "Yes she did forget. We all did."

Carlisle chuckled and he said, "That's alright. We'll be there around nine. Have you asked your father yet?'

"No," I replied honestly, "But I know he won't mind."

"Well ask anyway," Carlisle replied. He sounded amused, "I do not want there to be a misunderstanding."

"Okay," I replied brightly, "I'll call you back once I find out for sure. What's your number?"

I quickly jotted down his number and we said our good-byes. I then hung up and Angela quickly pounced, "What was that about?"

"Alice forgot to say what time they were going to pick me up," I replied with a shrug.

"What was that moment about when he stopped breathing?" Angela asked giving me a knowing look.

I blushed a bright red and said, "Well… he was assuring me that it was okay for me to come, and then he got quiet, then he shyly said that he wanted me there."

Angela's eyes bugged out and she said, "He didn't?"

"He did," I replied with a smile, "But he probably didn't mean it the way we're taking it. Calm down." Angela was starting to bounce up and down.

Angela nodded and I sat back down. Quietly she asked, "But what if he did?"

I looked at Angela and said, "But he didn't."

"Bella," Angela said with a sigh, "What if he really did like you? What would you do?"

"Honestly?" I asked. She nodded, "I have no idea."

She nodded her head and said, "We should get back to the movie."

"Yea," I replied. I gave her a look and said, "Remember. Not a word."

"Don't worry honey," Angela said giving me a look, "I'll take this to the grave."

I nodded and we went back to the movie. I couldn't concentrate. What would I do if he wanted me?

Carlisle's POV

No sooner did I come home then Alice jumped me.

"Hey dad," She said with a smile and a hug.

"What do you want?" I asked returning her hug. She only ever called me dad when she wanted something.

"I asked a friend to come with us tomorrow," Alice replied still holding onto me, "Is that okay."

I pulled back and asked, "That's fine sweetie, but what about Jasper?"

"Oh he won't hurt her," She replied with a bright smile.

I smiled back and said, "Fine. What time are we picking her up?"

"Oh no," Alice said looking positively dismayed, "I forgot to tell her."

I laughed and asked, "Do you have her number."

"No," Alice groaned, "I forgot to ask. I was so excited she was coming."

I laughed some more and grabbed the phone book, "Tell me her name and I'll call."

Alice turned to walk back into the kitchen and said, "Isabella Swan." I almost dropped the book. I watched her go and tried not to groan. Great! What was supposed to be a relaxing day off with my family was now turned into a stressful day off with my family. Just perfect.

I looked her number up, and with trembling fingers I dialed. Praying that she wouldn't be home. Luck was not with me.

On the first ring she picked it up, "Hello?"

"Bella?" I asked. I knew it was she, but…well. I suppose I was having a blonde moment.

"Carlisle?" She asked. I could tell she was surprised. I really couldn't blame her. I couldn't help but wonder if we were supposed to be thrown together.

"Yes Bella it's I," I replied with a huge smile on my face. I just loved the way her voice sounded. It was so husky. I couldn't help be a little turned on.

"What do you need?" She asked. I could tell she was still a little shocked. I was being to worry that she did not want to talk to me.

"Alice informed me that you were joining us at Port Angeles," I replied. I tried to sound happy about it, which I was…sort of, but I was still worried that she didn't like me calling her. She must have heard something in my voice because she said, "Yes," She sounded uncomfortable, "Is that wrong? Was she not supposed to invite me?"

"Oh no Bella," I hastily replied. I did not want her to think that I was adverse to her presence. I felt myself panic a little, "It's fine. I'm not mad." I paused for a second, and I felt myself feel shy. Before I could stop myself I said, "I want you there."

Damn! What in the world possessed me to say that! This was not going well. She did not say anything. I did not even hear her breathe. I hoped that she did not take that wrong… or rather right. This was starting to get complicated.

"Starting to?" Emmett's voice muttered in my ear. I ignored it again.

When I could no longer take the silence I asked, "Bella are you still there?" I knew that I sounded afraid. I hoped that she did not pick up on it.

"No I'm fine. Angela was distracting me." Bella replied a second later. For some reason I did not believe her.

Suddenly I heard a thud and Bella said, "Stop it Angela,"

I laughed and smiled. When I finally stopped I said, "Anyway, Alice said that she forgotten to tell you when we were supposed to pick you up."

Bella giggled a little and said, "Yes she did forget. We all did."

I chuckled and said, "That's alright. We'll be there around nine. Have you asked your father yet?'

"No," She replied honestly, "But I know he won't mind."

"Well ask anyway," I replied, I was amused how well she knew her father, "I do not want there to be a misunderstanding."

"Okay," She replied brightly, "I'll call you back once I find out for sure. What's your number?"

I told her and then we quickly said our good-byes. I hung up the phone and sighed. A throat was cleared and I spun quickly around. Alice was standing there with her arms crossed. I knew that I looked guilty, but I refused to make me feel worse then I already did.

"What is going on?" Alice demanded. She glared at me. Like I was the one who had done something wrong.

"Nothing," I replied. Which in was the truth. There was nothing going on.

"Then why did you sound like you were flirting?" Alice demanded.

"Alice," I sighed closing my eyes, "There is nothing you need to worry about. Have you seen anything wrong in the future?"

Alice glared at me and then sighed and said, "No."

I smiled and hugged my daughter, "There is nothing to worry about."

Alice nodded and hugged me back. She then pulled away and walked back into the kitchen. I was glared she was the only one home.

I walked upstairs and sighed. I knew that Alice had not seen anything in the future because I had not decided what to do about Bella or my failing marriage. I knew that there was no hope for Esme and I, and I knew that Esme knew it on some level. I was just worried that she refused to accept it. I knew that we were not soul mates, but did she know? I only hoped that she did. I could not live this way for very long. I missed Esme. We had always been the best of friends, but now that easy friendship was gone, and I missed it. I missed Esme as my friend, not my wife. I should have never married Esme, but I do not regret the time we spent together. I just hope that we could part without our memories being tainted.

I hoped, but I was not optimistic. I knew once she found out about my love for Bella. Esme would never forgive me. It is one thing to fall out of love with your spouse. It was another to cheat on your spouse, even if it is only in your heart.

So Angela knows and Alice is suspicious. I hope you guys like this one. I know that there wasn't much of Carlisle, but the next chapter will be better. How hit the pretty button.