So......Sorry it took so long to update, but I wanted this to be good. The rumor mill has started! Also, just for you, I put more Bella/Carlisle action in it. So be happy. Enjoy! Oh....Carnival of Rust, the song this is based on helped me write this.
Carlisle's POV
I love being a doctor. Really I do, but there are times, like right now that I hate being a doctor in a small town. Everyone is staring at me. I can feel their eyes boring into my back, and since I am no longer in my depressed daze I feel uncomfortable under their gaze.
"Carlisle," a voice called from behind me. I bit back a groan and turned with a dazzling smile on my face. "Charm her." My Emmett voice said, "And maybe you can get away."
It was Dr. Amber Key. She was head of the surgical team, and was a fair minded individual. She was a frightening enemy.
"Yes Amber?" I asked. I knew she enjoyed our familiarly. She was a sweet woman, more than a few years my elder in appearance, and felt the need to give advice at the drop of a hat, and it was my lunch break.
"So…" Amber began. Finally she took a breath and said, "How is the family? I heard that you might need someone to talk to."
I gave her a tired smile and asked, "What did you hear exactly?'
"Exactly?" Amber asked and I nod. She seemed reluctant to tell me. Taking another deep breath she said bluntly, "I heard that you are having a torrid love affair with a seventeen year old by the name of Isabella Swan. That Charlie found you one evening in her room, doing the under the sheet mamba, and he tried to shoot you. I was told that you jumped out of the window, stark naked, and got into your car and sped away. The lawsuit for stactory rape caused your funk the last few days."
My jaw hit the floor and my eyes were wide. Finally I screamed, "Do what!" I was sure my family could hear me all the way from our home. Everybody was starring at us, or rather me. Amber took my arm and led me to her office with a bright smile and a, "Oh I'm not done yet." Amber loved nothing better than gossip, the sweet dear thing.
"I've also heard that you were caught by every member of your household when they found you parked by the side of the road, making out and or having sex with one, Isabella Swan. I've also heard that you got into a fight with Charlie when he caught you kissing Isabella under the tree by her window that you use to climb to see her every night."
"I've heard every number of stories about you being stalked, stalking, and or coercing Isabella Swan into your car, bed, and or truck. I've heard that you left Esme and the kids and are planning to runway with Bella to Europe. I've heard that Esme left you and is taking the kids back to Canada because she caught you with Isabella Swan, and I've heard that you knocked up Isabella Swan." Amber stopped and stared at me, as if she expected me to say something.
Of all the crazy things, I have heard over the years. I never expected this. I dropped in my chair and slowly closed my mouth. Swallowing painfully I ask, "You do not believe these rumors do you?"
Amber smiled kindly at me and said, "I've also heard you are dying in intensive care because Charlie shot you point blank in the head after he accused you, in front of ten witnesses that you raped and knocked up his daughter."
I groaned, and said, "This is a nightmare."
"You ain't kiddin," Amber replied in her thick Kentuckian accident.
Pulling up a chair she asked, "Carlisle what is goin on with you? I'm not a big believer in rumors, but all of these have the same basic fact. You, having an affair with a seventeen year old girl."
I closed my eyes, unable to think of a better answer. Amber gasped, "Carlisle, how could you? Esme is a sweet girl and the kids…" She trailed off. She took a deep breath and I knew she was thinking about her ex-husband's own affair.
"Amber," I said taking her hand, "I have never had an affair with Bella. I never once touched her until Esme and I divorced" Amber started at that.
Suddenly there was a knock and Amber and I looked up. There standing in all of her glory was Esme…and Renee.
"Hello," I said feeling like this day could not get any worse.
"You know there are some pretty interesting stories flying around about you," Renee said, barely able to control her anger.
Panicking, I jumped up and said, "Please you must believe that none of them are true."
Renee glared hard at me for a minute, and then both Renee and Esme died laughing.
"Oh. My. God," Renee said holding her sides, "Did you see his face? It was so priceless…."
"I know," Esme replied, "If I didn't know any better I would say he was about to have a heart attack."
I glared at the women who instantly quieted, "This is not funny. I have to work with these people." Then hitting on a potential problem I said, "Oh god what if Bella has to come in here? It stands to reasons she will visit here shortly. Since I have known her she has almost been hit by a car then she got the flu. What will come next?" I growl in my throat and flop onto my chair in frustration. I crossed my arms across my chest in anger.
Renee looks at me thoughtfully, her head cocked. In a voice filled with wonder she said, "You really do love my daughter don't you?" I saw Amber start from her chair and stare at Renee with wide eyes.
Looking Renee in the eye I said, "I really do." We were all quiet. Finally, I asked Renee "Is there anything you needed?"
"I couldn't sleep without coming to talk to you," Renee replied with a soft smile, "I don't like that you are with my daughter, but you really do love her. I can see it." She smiled softly and left. Esme smiled after Renee then walked into my office.
"That was not a funny joke," I said in my best stern voice.
"I think it was," Esme said with a smirk, "What about you Amber?'
Amber looked between Esme and I and asked, "What is going on?
"What do you mean?" Esme asked.
"I mean," Amber replied, "Why are you here. Aren't you, you know, furious at him for leaving you."
"No," Esme replied with a bright smile, "We have been having some problems for a while. I am glad this finally happened. Now Carlisle and I can be happy with respective others."
"You two are seriously weird people," Amber muttered, crossing her arms.
"Yes," Esme replied, "But you like us any way. You'll like Bella too when you meet her. Which, like Carlisle says, will happen. Poor girl cannot seem to stay out of trouble."
"Well," Amber said with a smirk, "That'll make Carlisle's life all the more interestin."
"True," I replied with a soft smile. The smile that was reserved with thoughts of Bella, and only Bella, suddenly I jumped to my feet and said, "We have to stop these rumors."
"I agree," Esme replied, "But there is no way to. You are just going to have to ride out the storm."
"I am afraid Esme is right," Amber replied with a sigh, "you are going to have to suck it up and deal with it." Giving me a dirty look she said, "You should have thought about all of this before you started fooling around with that girl."
"There is no fooling around," I said with air quotes, "I love her, she loves me, and I have been the perfect gentlemen."
"You did grab her ass according to Renee," Esme pointed out in her best neutral tone.
"Do not make me throw you out of the house," I growled as Esme giggled.
"Calm down," Esme replied with a little giggle, "You are dating her. You can grab her ass every now and again."
"Shut-up," I snapped as I scurried out of my office, "Go home. Watch the children. Find something to do other then harassing me."
The two women in my office died in a fit of giggles. I sighed. I only hoped Bella's day at school would be better than my night at work.
Bella's POV
I don't know why I insisted on coming to school. I guess it was just reflex from when I lived at mom's and she was driving me crazy. Of course she still is driving me crazy, and to get away from her brand of TLC I had to go to school. I really shouldn't have gone. I didn't feel well and all of the staring was driving me crazy. The Cullen's were there and I was more than a little nervous. After all, Edward did like me, and I did mess up their insane family tree.
I sat down next to Jessica and she excitedly asked, "Are you really having an affair with Dr. Cullen?"
I groaned and almost put my face in my food when Alice gracefully sat next to me. Smiling at me she asked, "How are you feeling today? Carlisle says you are doing better."
The entire lunchroom quieted and I could hear my own heart beat.
"Yes," I replied with a sigh, "But I probably shouldn't have come today. I feel a little dizzy.
"Don't worry step-mummy," Emmett said loudly as he sat across from me, Rosaline in tow, "Daddy Carlisle will make you feel all better." Somehow, I'm not sure how, he made that sound dirty, really dirty.
"Emmett!" Alice and Edward both yelled. Rosaline tried not to show any emotion, but she looked amused. I was as red as a lobster.
"Leave her alone Emmett," Rosaline finally said, "She's not used to us yet. I would hate for Esme to rip out your still beating heart because you embarrassed her little angel." My face grew even hotter and I saw Jessica start at being called Esme's little angel. Even to me that sounded weird and I knew Esme liked me.
"Angel…" Emmett snorted, "Never knew angel's to fall in love with married men……"
"Emmett," Alice growled a warning. She looked ready to rip his throat out, which I knew she could. Edward looked like he had swallowed a lemon.
"It's okay," I said with more firmness then I felt, "I deserve that."
"Hold on," Emmett said suddenly looking uneasy, "I didn't mean anything by it. I don't care about you and Carlisle."
"You don't?" I asked in wonder.
"Nope," Emmett said with a bright smile, "Mummy and daddy dear were not in love with each other anymore."
"If they ever were," Edward snorted, "I really should have seen it before, but I was just so happy that Carlisle could finally stop mopping around the house."
"Yeah," Emmett said with a laugh, "I could imagine that. Oh…what…he did mope when Charlie forbad him to seen Bella." Emmett laughed and I noticed that Jessica, Mike, and the others were hanging on every word the Cullen's said. Fire in their eyes, I bit back a grown. Angela gave me a look. She was amused! I glared at her, and she had the grace to look ashamed.
"Could we not talk about this here?" I hissed suddenly, "Everyone is listening."
"Oh come on Bella," Emmett said like talking to a small child, "Everyone is talking about you two. Besides…this will help stop the….less colorful stories about the two of you." I groaned and held my head in my hands. I so did not want to know about those. Finally getting my bearings I was about to ask how Jasper was, he was still leery about going out in public.
Suddenly I felt a hand on my shoulder. Looking up I found myself face to face with Mrs. March, the guidance counselor. I felt my stomach drop and asked, "Is there something you need?
"I need to talk to you," Mrs. March said, and I groaned. Emmett laughed and said, "Have fun…step-mummy!" All of the Cullen's laughed as I walked off. I groaned to myself, but found myself smiling. That meeting could have gone worse. Now I just had to get through this one. I did not feel optimistic.
By the time I made it home, I felt like someone had beat me. It didn't help that stupid Mrs. March wanted to see me, Charlie, Mom, Phil, and Carlisle at the school tomorrow. I told her I didn't think Carlisle could get off, but she told me to tell him it was important. God I wished he didn't have to work night shift. I so did not want to have to deal with that meeting. It was just going to be such great fun. Jerry Springer meets Dr. Phil. I climbed up the stairs and threw my book bag down violently on the bed. I didn't notice Carlisle was in the room until I felt his cold, hard chest behind me. His arm's encircled me and I moaned at the intimate touch. I loved him so much.
"How was your day? Carlisle asked as he kissed the lobe of my ear. I groaned at both his attentions and the subject of school. Suddenly all the allure Carlisle had was gone and I walked out of his arms. I threw my backpack on the floor and flopped down on my bed. I could still see Carlisle was standing in the same spot, confused.
"What?" I asked sitting up.
"Did I do something wrong, doll?" Carlisle asked. He frowned a little and pouted. He looked adorable and suddenly Carlisle's allure mowed me over. Reaching for him I said, "No babe. I just had a bad day at school?"
"Rumors?" Carlisle guessed lying next to me, and I nodded. Carlisle sighed and pulled me in his arms. Nuzzling my neck he said, "Me too."
"What are we going to do?" I asked pouting. Carlisle chuckled and nipped my neck. I yipped and Carlisle laughed.
"I love the little noises you make," Carlisle said as his hands traveled down my leg and stopped on my thigh. He began to message the area and I groaned …loudly. Meanwhile he was sucking on my chin, but when he heard the groan he pulled back like he had been scalded. He looked scandalized by his own behavior and said, "I am sorry Bella. I did not mean to take advantage."
I was a bright red, but very ready for whatever he could think of. I felt disappointed, but instead of telling him I said, "Don't worry. I enjoyed it."
"Nevertheless," Carlisle said pulling me back into his arms and laying his hand on top of mine, "We should not engage in that type of activity so soon."
"I know," I replied while nipping his left ear lobe, "You're more than forgiven though."
Carlisle chuckled and said, "I suppose it was all these rumors that made the suggestion." Looking at me he said, "We have some very creative neighbors."
"Emmett said something about dirty rumors," I said giving Carlisle a look," So what are they?" Did I really want to know?
Carlisle sat up licking his lips and saying nervously, "Do you need me to make you something to eat? Or do you need your medicine? I have some out in the car. I'll go and get some…"
"Carlisle Cullen," I said effectively stopping him before he could bail out the door, "Don't make me ask Emmett."
"And what makes you think he'll tell you?" Carlisle asked crossing his arms like a petulant child.
"Because he is already calling me step-mummy," I replied cocking my left eyebrow, "I don't think Emmett has a problem with telling these things. In fact…" Carlisle groaned and I laughed, "I think he enjoys them."
"He was calling you step-mummy," Carlisle groaned again "Please tell me it was not in front of anybody other than us?"
"The whole lunch room heard him," I replied. Carlisle groaned even louder. I laughed and said, "If dad was to come home, he would think we were being dirty up here as much as you're groaning"
Carlisle glared and took a sat next to me. Finally he said, "Fine I'll tell you." And he proceeded to launch into a very long list of dirty, laughable, depressing, strange, and idiotic rumors. He then proceeded to tell me what my mother and Esme did. I laughed…hard.
"It was not that funny," Carlisle groaned again lying back on my bed, staring up at the ceiling. I could tell the rumors were really getting to him, and I sighed. Maybe being together wasn't such a good idea. I could deal with the rumors, but could Carlisle? He was so used to having the town's respect, and my father? What was he going through? I was so selfish sometimes.
"Carlisle," I sighed taking a deep breath, "Are you regretting being with me?"
"What?" Carlisle asked sitting up lighting fast. He was nothing but a blur as he grabbed one of my hands.
"You heard me," I replied taking my hand away. I was a little shocked at the speed, but I wasn't paying that much attention anyway. I placed my hands in my lap, wringing them, "Are you?'
"No," Carlisle said taking my hand's in his hands. I pulled them out again and stood, going towards the window.
"You seem to be so upset about these rumors," I replied with a little sigh. I could feel the tears coming, "And I suppose…well I now the town's respect means the world to you."
"Bella," Carlisle said, his voice wavering, "You mean the world to me."
"Carlisle," I said tears in my eyes, "I don't want to lose you, but if you are having in second thoughts…" He stopped me with a passionate kiss. It wasn't like the other kisses. It wasn't controlled or gentle. This one was hard, demanding….desperate. He pulled me against him. My entire body was touching his. I could feel something grow hard against my stomach, and Carlisle growled in his throat in response. He was kissing me like a starving man would eat food, and breathing was starting to become an issue.
Finally he violently pulled away from me, and I sagged against the window. I vaguely wondered if the neighbors had seen that, but found that I really didn't care. He was staring at me; his golden eyes a deep honey color, almost black. They were the eyes of a man trying his best not to devour the one he loves. I felt incredibility aroused.
"I'm not having second thoughts," Carlisle replied his voice unsteady. He pulled me back into his arms and buried himself against my neck, placing soft kisses up and down my neck, mumbling in between each kiss, "Not for the rest of my existence."
"Oh Carlisle," I groaned as I ran my fingers through his beautiful blonde hair, "I love you. I really do." I plastered my body against his.
Pulling back Carlisle licked away the tears that finally started falling and said, "I love you too." He led me back to bed and placed me gently against the pillows. My heart was hammering against my ribcage, and he smiled. He cuddled up beside me and said, "Do not scare me like that again." I could feel his erection against my leg and looked down. I knew he must have been uncomfortable.
"Shouldn't you take care of that?" I asked, and blushed at how dirty that sounded, "I didn't…well…that came out wrong."
Carlisle laughed, but it wavered and I could tell he was embarrassed. Sheepishly he said, "See the things you do to me."
"I'm glad I do them to you," I replied quietly. Kissing his nose, he groaned again and pulled me even tighter against him. He was biting his lip, and I knew he was in pain.
"Why don't you think of something nasty," I replied trying to help him out. I was embarrassed as hell that his was happening and I don't think he was feeling much better about it.
Carlisle closed his eyes and then the pressure against my hand was gone. He opened his eyes and said with a sheepish grin, "It is a really good thing I have an active imagination."
I giggled and snuggled into Carlisle's arms, and sighed. I had to tell him.
"The guidance counselor wants to see mom, dad, Phil, you and I at her office tomorrow. "
"Why?" Carlisle asked.
I motioned between us and he sighed, "Alright….what time?"
"Noon," I replied with a sigh, "Apparently it's okay to ruin my lunch break."
"I'll bring you something," Carlisle said kissing my temple, "Esme will be thrilled at fixing you a lunch."
I laughed and thought on to what Emmett said and asked shyly, "She really likes me huh?"
"Oh lord…" Carlisle replied with a sigh, "You are her favorite person right now."
"You know," I said, "that is a little strange….even for the situation."
"Tell me about," Carlisle replied moving his fingers up and down my arm, "Try and tell her that."
I laughed and Carlisle smiled. It was a beautiful smile.
"You know you dazzle me," I whispered kissing the tip of his nose.
"Good," Carlisle replied nuzzling into my hair, "It's only fair since you drive me crazy."
We both laughed and then heard a car pull up. I frowned and we went down to greet Charlie and call Renee. Tomorrow was going to be horrible.
Carlisle's POV
I still do not know how I was able to manage the rest of my shift without killing someone, but I managed. I was rather proud of myself. I went home and hauled up in my office so I wouldn't have to think about our predicament. I was petrified that Bella would take a step back from our relationship. That she would see it as too much of a hassle at her age. It was a sad fact, but a lot of people walk away from their one true person, because it's hard. I've seen it.
I fought the urge to see her until I knew she would be home. It wouldn't due for me to just walk into the school and demand to see Bella. That would just end badly. Esme offered to drive me there as she went to town. So I could surprise Bella. Smiling to myself I deftly climbed into her window and waited for her in her room. I didn't really want to but she wasn't home. All of the nasty rumors hit me like a tidal wave and I felt horrible. If I felt bad, what must Bella think?
I heard her old beat up truck pull into the drive. I could smell that wonderful intoxicating rich rain smell. It seemed that her emotions were high; she smiled just like an ocean storm.
I smiled as I heard her slam the door and stomp up the stairs. These were little things about Bella that I hoped she would always have. She burst into her room and slung her backpack on the bed. She hadn't noticed me. I could see the distress in her posture and knew she needed comfort. I quietly stepped up behind her and slid my arms around her, bringing her warm, soft little body to my chest. It never stopped surprising me how well we fit, even this way. She groaned when I touched her and that just fueled my passion.
"How was your day? I asked kissing her ear lope, nibbling on it really. I loved how she tasted, so salty, so smooth. Nothing tasted better then Bella. She groaned at my attentions and then suddenly walked right out of my arm, like my attentions did not affect her at all. I frowned and tried to think of something that offended her, but I could think of nothing. That worried me. I did not need her angry at me after the night I had.
"What?" She asked sitting up. She had just flopped on her bed.
"Did I do something wrong, doll?" I asked. I was still frowning, but when she reached for me I felt my heart become lighter. It was immature to want her approval so much, but as Emmett would say. This day sucked, "No babe," Bella said, "I just had a bad day at school?"
"Rumors?" I guessed lying next to her. Her misery seemed to reflect my own. She nodded, and I pulled her into my arms. Nuzzling her neck I said, "Me too." She needed to know that she was not alone. That she would not have to weather this foolishness alone.
"What are we going to do?" She asked pouting. I chuckled at her little pout and nipped her neck. For some reason I felt almost desperate to touch her, kiss her, be next to her. I was such a child. She yipped at my attentions and I laughed. Those noises were adorable, and arousing.
"I love the little noises you make," I said as my hands traveled down her leg and stopped at her thigh. I did not know what had come over me, but I just had to keep touching her. She was here, and we were alone, and I was feeling horrible. Bella smelled like an ocean storm in her misery, and felt so soft. I began to message her thigh and she groaned …loudly. Meanwhile I was sucking on her chin. Thinking about how sweet it tasted when I heard her groan. It was so passion filled, so much like how I wanted her to sound under me that I pulled back like I had been scalded. I felt horrible and I was instantly afraid I had scared her off. I had promised to be perfect gentlemen.
"I am sorry Bella. I did not mean to take advantage." I yelled. I refused to look at Bella.
"Don't worry. I enjoyed it," Bella said and I felt something akin to a small organism at that omission. Lord, she drove me crazy. She was bright red and heaving. I had to restrain myself from the need to bury myself inside her and drive her as crazy as she was driving me.
I will never be this needy again. My morals are in serious decline when I am.
"Nevertheless," I said pulling my love back into my arms. I laid my head on top of hers and said, "We should not engage in that type of activity so soon."
Now all I had to do was convince Emmett's voice in my head of that.
"I know," She replied while nipping my left ear lobe. I had to fight my erection, "You're more than forgiven though."
I chuckled to mask my arousal and said, "I suppose it was all these rumors that made the suggestion." Looking at my beloved I said, "We have some very creative neighbors."
"Emmett said something about dirty rumors," Bella replied with a thoughtful look on her face. Giving me a curious grin he asked," So what are they?"
I sat up licking his lips. I was suddenly nervous. Would she want to stay with me once she heard about them? Would she think it was too much trouble? Would she find them funny and just ignore them? The worst part was the fact that I just did not know. I should have known, my heart was screaming that she would never leave me, but my mind had full control over my facilities and it was hinting that this would be too much for her. Nervously, I tried to distract her by asking, "Do you need me to make you something to eat? Or do you need your medicine? I have some out in the car. I'll go and get some…"
"Carlisle Cullen," She effectively cut me off and made me stop, "Don't make me ask Emmett."
I cringed at the thought but decided to act like a child and crossed my arms and pouted, "And what makes you think he'll tell you?" Oh yeah, act like your three instead of three hundred.
"Because he is already calling me step-mummy," Bella replied cocking her left eyebrow in a very amusing way, "I don't think Emmett has a problem with telling these things. In fact…" I groaned at the truth of her statement and she laughed. It was like chimes, "I think he enjoys them."
"He was calling you step-mummy," I asked horrified. Where they trying to scare her off? "Please tell me it was not in front of anybody other than us?"
"The whole lunch room heard him," Bella replied, and I could tell that bothered her. I groaned even louder and she laughed, "If dad was to come home, he would think we were being dirty up here as much as you're groaning"
I glared at Bella in embarrassment. She did not realize just how true of a statement she was making. After all, I was in a very confused state of arousal and panic. Apparently I am a complex man.
Finally I said, "Fine I'll tell you." And I then proceeded to launch into those horrible and completely insane rumors I had heard of. Then I informed her of the meeting between Esme and Renee. By the end of my narrative Bella was laughing so hard tears were coming out of her eyes. My mouth twitched but panic still kept me from experiencing the laughable qualities to my story.
"It was not that funny," I groaned again lying back on her bed. I stared at the ceiling. I wasn't that worried about Bella feeling ostracized by her peers anymore. Apparently she thought this whole situation was hilarious. Though I had to wonder how the rest of the family was fairing. I am sure they do not care, but I still felt horrible for what they would still have to endure. I snorted as another thought came to me. This would not reinforce the image I had hoped to instill the pack with. I sighed. Life was a bit more difficult then I would have liked. Considering the fact I am a vampire, but I am sure it is worth it if Bella will one day be at my side Loving and holding me for all eternity. "Carlisle," Bella's voice cut the silence like a knife. I could hear her take a breath and she asked, "Are you regretting being with me?"
"What?" I yelled sitting up lighting fast. My own hands were a blur when I grabbed Bella's, but I made sure I was still gentle.
"You heard me," She replied taking her hands away. I suddenly felt sick as I watched her wringing her hands, "are you?'
"No," I replied firmly taking her hands again. She pulled them away again and went to stand by the window. Panic was filling me up and I was quickly becoming frantic. I would not go back to living with out her. I just could not.
"You seem to be so upset about these rumors," She continued as if I had not even interrupted I could smell the tears coming, "And I suppose…well I now the town's respect means the world to you."
"Bella," I said, my voice wavering, "You mean the world to me."
"Carlisle," She said tears in her eyes. They smelled so sweet, "I don't want to lose you, but if you are having any second thoughts…" I felt hope grab my panicked soul and stopped Bella with a passionate kiss. I could not help the passion that steamed from that kiss. Less than a second ago I had thought she was about to walk out of my life forever and here she was, just as nervous and scared about me leaving her as I was her leaving me. As I kept kissing her I felt the walls of residence inside me begin to crumble and I just did not care. All I wanted at that moment was to never stop touching Bella. To make her want me as much as I wanted her. It was a desperate kiss.
I pulled Bella against me, making sure that our entire bodies were touching. I wanted her to know how she made me feel. I wanted her to respond to my hardness, to revel in it. I know these were not the thoughts of a Christian man, but at the time I really did not care. I suddenly began to notice that Bella needed air, and that is when I realized just how far I was willing to go.
I violently pulled away from Bella, and watched as she sagged against the window stunned. I briefly thought about the people outside that could see, but shrugged it off. I did not care. I just wanted my Bella to know how much I loved her, how much I need her, and how much I wanted her. I stared at Bella, trying to drink up her beautiful features. She really was everything to me.
"I'm not having second thoughts," I replied my voice shaky. Not wanting her away from me I pulled her back into my arms and buried my face against her neck. I could not help placing soft kisses up and down her neck. I mumbled in between each kiss, "Not for the rest of my existence."
"Oh Carlisle," Bella groaned as she ran her fingers through my hair, "I love you. I really do."
Pulling back I broke down and licked away the tears that finally started falling down her pale cheeks. They tasted so good, and I loved her so much, "I love you too."
I led her by the hand and swiftly picked her up, placing her gently against the pillows. This was the deciding moment for me. I could hear her heart hammering in her chest, and I knew she would not refuse me. But this was too early, no matter how painful my erection was. We had not even been on one date. We were moving too fast, but it was hard not too when you had all the time in the world. Instead of taking her I cuddled against her and said, "Do not scare me like that again."
I really hoped she couldn't feel my erection against her leg, but was I fairly certain she could. Funny, a second ago I wanted her to feel my need for her, now I was embarrassed by it. I guess even vampires could feel adrenaline
"Shouldn't you take care of that?" She asked softly. From the corner of my eye I could see how red her face was. She was highly embarrassed, "I didn't…well…that came out wrong."
I laughed at the absurd situation, but I knew I sounded embarrassed. Sheepishly I said, "See the things you do to me." And it was true. She does drive me crazy.
"I'm glad I do them to you," She replied quietly. That omission made my erection grow more, and the kiss on my nose did not help. I groaned again and pulled her even tighter against me. I closed my eyes and bit my lip; I had never felt an erection this bad. I should really forgo fitted pants around Bella.
"Why don't you think of something nasty," She went trying to be helpful. I was embarrassed beyond all reason and I knew she was as well. Somehow that knowledge made me feel better.
I closed my eyes and thought about the nastiest thing I could think of. It did not take me too long. I remembered the time when I walked on Rose and Emmett doing things that no sane human being would ever do. Feeling a little sick I felt the pressure slow go down and sighed. Giving Bella another sheepish grin I said, "It is a really good thing I have an active imagination."
She giggled and snuggled into my arms, and sighed. She seemed more comfortable now that I was under control. I wonder if I had scared her with my need, but I do not think so. She had smelled aroused when I kissed her at the window. She was certainly excited when I almost took her on the bed. No, Bella was not scared just inexperienced.
"The guidance counselor wants to see mom, dad, Phil, you and I at her office tomorrow. " Bella said quietly. That came out of nowhere.
"Why?" I asked perplexed.
She motioned between us and I sighed, "Alright….what time?" Why was it so hard for people to leave us alone?
"Noon," She replied with an irritated sigh, "Apparently it's okay to ruin my lunch break."
"I'll bring you something," I replied trying to calm her down. I kissed her temple, "Esme will be thrilled at fixing you a lunch." That was true. She loved to cook.
Bella laughed and asked shyly, "She really likes me huh?"
"Oh lord…" I replied with a little laugh that was half-way between a sigh, "You are her favorite person right now."
"You know," She said thoughtfully, "that is a little strange….even for the situation."
"Tell me about," I muttered moving my fingers up and down her arm, "Try and tell her that."
She laughed her throatily laugh and it made me shiver. I loved that laugh. I could not help but smile.
"You know you dazzle me," Bella whispered kissing the tip of my nose
"Good," Carlisle replied nuzzling into my hair, "It's only fair since you drive me crazy."
We both laughed and then I heard a car pull up. I frowned a little about the talk we had to have, but I knew everything would be okay with my little Bella beside me….at least I hoped.
I tried to make the scenes as different as possible without changing the entire situation. That's what took so long. Also I hope you got a laugh out of Emmett and Amber. I love my original character. I'm thinking about putting the pack in the next chapter...or those crazy evil vampires we all love. That's going to be so much fun, cause remember Carlisle has those anger issues he's been hiding from the rest of us. LOL Now hit the pretty "green button" (my freaking button's purple!)