Clare POV

Is this just me or am I really nervous right now? Just like I thought of course I am. IM GOING UP TO HIS ROOM! I didn't even know what to expect. if we are going up to his room, just in case his parents came home or is he more comfortable in there? I need to stop thinking of reasons why! I'm just in soo much joy to be with him right now. Eli is perfect compared to KC. KC care about what everyone thinks and just wanted more and more sexual things. Which I wasn't doing cause hello purity ring! But with Eli its like I'm not even trying. I'm so calm, funny, and collected when he's in my presents. It more like I want what KC did. I want Eli! I want him soo bad, its so hard to back down. But he doesn't seem to like me so I guess ill just go with the flow. Finally his room. It seemed like those stairs when on forever.

He opened the door.

"Ladies First" smiling right at me.

" Really, Eli is being a gentlemen…mmm When did this happen?" I laughed and he joined.

As I walked in I saw a whole bunch of posters of bands I had no idea who they were like AOF? A Day to Remember? What ? In his room, it was a nice blue colour and he has a desk and a computer wow! Its just like any high school students room. It looked really normal. This day is getting more and more normal as I open more and more doors.

"Ready ?" he asked. As he sat down with his book on his bed and patted the spot beside him.

" Yupp.. Sure am!" Clare snap back to reality! " Now where should we start?" As I sat down right next to him with my book in hand.

"How about here?" Then he lead in towards me and brushed his lips across mine. I was shocked but I kissed him back. of course. The he raised his hands and put them on each side of my face to deepen the kiss. God I loved his lips, so hot! I grabbed the back of his neck and started to play with the hair on the back of his neck. We separated and looked at each other. I just couldn't help but smile.

"ummm?" I started to talk. " What was that?"

" A kiss" he said in his cocky voice.

"For?" I need an answer! And his not really helping

"Does that matter?"

"Yes!"

"Ok, how about we just not worry about that, lets get working on our poetry assignment"

"Are you serious?" He wants to skip this subject. Was Eli here a minute ago?

" What do you want me to say?"

"Why?"

" Ok look Clare, I like you but, I don't want a relationship, I just feel we will know when we can be in a relationship, you know?"

" I like you to Eli a lot , but what are you saying?, I'm not good enough?" WHat!

" No, not at all. You amazing! I just don't want to rush things. We are awesome partners and friends.."

I cut him off. I needed this answer

" then what are we then?" I need to know like he just kissed me. come on!

" How about we try to keep us between us?"

"Like Friends with benefits?" I have no idea how this is going to work? Like I understand that after his situation with his ex girlfriend dieing. he doesn't wanna jump in a relationship. But I have never done this before. Im Clare Edwards I don't just do a open relationship….. But for him …..anything! I just need him and want him so bad.

"Yes! Perfect!" He smiled towards me. Like I can say no to that face!

" I have never done this before Eli!" I broke the eye contact. I had the feel of being scared and nervous cause I will do anything for him.

" Clare, its just us. ( he raise his hand to my face and raised it to bring our eyes to meet again) Basically we kiss and do whatever but, we don't announce it to anyone! Just enjoy each other with other people out of the way "

Jeez he is perfect with words. I but my lip cause how can I say no when all really I want right now is to kiss his face over and over again.

"What about Adam?"

"Nope, he doesn't need to know, believe me Clare! We will know when we can take the girlfriend /boyfriend step and start broadcasting us to the school when we are ready. On our terms! that's why its so perfect!"

"I..guess..we can try, trying never hurt anybody" oh but it will my feeling are all the way in towards him. Basically I'm fucked if he hurts me.

"Yes! You won't regret this Clare, you have me all to yourself!" then he grabbed my face again an kissed me. This kiss was different more passion was given towards me. I completely was all over him. As his hands rubbed my back and my hands on the back of his neck again. Each kiss was getting hotter and hotter. Suddenly he pushed the books right of his bed. Then pushed his upper body on top of me so I laid back and he was on top of me kissing me, as his hands are all over my body. This felt so good. He was so caring trying not to put all his weight on me as I was underneath him. Then his lips when to my neck and he started to kiss my neck and nibbling on me. it felt so good! KC and I never made out like this before not this intense or really we didn't even make out. It was more kissing here and there. Then I felt a vibration in my pocket. I jumped, which made him automatic he jumped of f of me. A text message had to wreck this moment.

WHERE ARE YOU? Why did you miss 1st period - ALI

"who is it?" he asked

"Ali"

" What does she want?"

" She want to know where I am. And why I missed 1st period of school" what am I going to say to her. Sorry I'm too busy making out with Eli to come to school. I can't or I would wreck everything between us.

"Just tell her, you will be in 2nd period. We can finish this later or anytime!" then he smiled, I think he think he rather me go to school then have people worrying about where I am, No question asked and everything is good I guess right?

Sorry, Forgot to set alarm. Coming Now!- Clare

As I txted he back he was getting his stuff ready for school, luckily I had no homework or I would be screw I didn't have any books expect my English.

"Sorry" I said to him " Kind of wreck how things were going!"

"Clare come on we have tons of time to make out" as he reassured me

"ok" this doesn't mean anything I wanted more!

"hey and who knows maybe after school. We can meet up again or anything?" I smiled, yes! its not just a one time thing.

"We shall see" giving him a shrug of my shoulders.

"ha ha, no let get to school"

This ride seemed quicker. Right when we got there, they were in there 10 min break in between classes.

"Guess, Ill see you at lunch blue eyes"