Don't own Degrassi...wish I did tho...

Ok so here's the new chapter it's split into 2 parts. Part 2 will be up tomorrow around the same time. Hope you all enjoy and sorry for the long wait ~

Chapter 5 pt. 1

Love The Way You Lie

"Well...I'd say it's a damn good step up from your previous grandma' attire, tho a little to emo for my tastes mind you, but it is a definite improve."

Ali walked around Clare so she could get a better look at herself.

The two girls had been in Ali's room for the past couple of hours bickering over different hair styles and clothes. Finally they both agreed on one look. Or at least Ali came to somewhat agreed on Clare's new look.

"Well I like it, a lot." came Clare as she raked her hand through her newly dyed black hair. She turned around in the chair to face Ali.

"And that's great, it's important that you like the way you look. But, the question is why is it suddenly necessarily you get a semi emo chick makeover."

" I'm sorry, I'm not one to pry Clare, but I really hope your not doing this for Eli, considering your not the one to change yourself... for anyone."

"No, but I'd say this is an add on for him, hmmm?" Clare stood from her seat looking in the mirror one last time with a smile, before turning around to look at Ali again. She had a serious look plastered on her face as she wanted a real answer from the other girl.

"No, mother, I'm not doing this because of Eli, I needed a new...me. It might also help in more than one department with him though-"

"Woah, Ok did you just make a sexual innuendo!"

Ali sat on the edge of her bed staring at her friend wide eyed, and confused trying to comprehend her last statement.

"Maybe..."

"Ok, Clare, what the hell, I must be confused, or my hearing has gone bad. You couldn't possibly have just said your trying to sleep with Eli.

At this point Ali was now half of her bed talking to Clare as if she were an entirely different person, as it was seeming more and more that she was.

"And why not?" Clare replied looking blankly back at Ali as she walked over to her window looking out.

Ali appruptly got up from her bed and rushed over to her window, pushing Clare out the way as she peered out the blinds.

"Ow, what was that for!" Clare said annoyed by the other girls actions, and rubbing her shoulder.

"I'm sorry, I was just checking to make sure cows were not flying outside of my window! Clare Since when are you interested in having sex with Eli, Scratch that, since when are you interested in having sex with anyone!"

Ali stepped closer to her trying to force an answer out, however only achieving insouciant shrug.

Ali, in a state of disbelief began to shake her, as if she would be able to erase this new Clare like an Etch A Sketch. She grabbed her hand to remind her of her values and purity ring, when she noticed the ring was nowhere in sight. "No... no, you don't get to shrug at that question, what happened to waiting till marriage, what happened to you beliefs, Your abstinence rin-"

"Clare where on earth is your ring, whats going-"

Ali was all but yelling as Clare tried to quiet her. She placed her hand over her mouth so she wouldn't have to worry about not only explaining to her best friend what was going on, but also trying to explain it to her mother who was a few feet away in another room.

Clare stepped to the side of Ali, a loose strand of her hair falling from her bang as she spoke."Look it doesn't matter. It's just sex, nothing more. I don't see the point in waiting anymore alright. The whole religion, and belief of waiting for the marriage and love. Its all a load of BS!"

Ali spoke out calmly this time trying to talk some sense into her currently confused, and enraged friend. "Clare are you even hearing yourself, love does exist, and you should continue to hold on to your beliefs to help guide-"

"Ali, do you here yourself, love exists. And look where that got YOU!"

Clare screamed out, the anger boiling over. She felt like she was outside her body as she yelled at her best friend, the person who had been there for her, had been the person who had consulted in her in hard times, not the other way around.

Ali just stood their looking at Clare, confused as to how her friend could say something so evil and hurtful. Her eyes burned as tears began to form under her lids.

"Look I'm sorry, I didn't mean that, but just please don't tell me which way and which way not to live my life. You don't know what whats going on in here, you can't begin to even understand whats going on in here. So don't even try..." Clare touched her hands to her chest as she spoke, her own tears beginning to form in her eyes. She grabbed her school bag and walked towards the door to leave.

Ali hiccuped as she held in her tears and tried to compose herself before she spoke again.

"Clare your right, I don't know what your going through, but what ever it is it's not worth trowing away your faith and who you are! And love does exist, even if we may not have found it yet."

Clare looked strait at the wooden door of Ali's room, almost as if looking strait though it before beginning to laugh.

Ali stared back at the her for an awkward moment before she turned back around from the door to look at her. She had silent tears falling down her face as she gave Ali one of the scariest smiles she had ever seen in her 16 years of life.

"Then if god and love exists, do me a favor and ask God why there is so much pain and suffering in this world. O' and while your at it, ask him why my DAD who was supposed to love his wife and family, left us!"

With those final cold and emotionless words Clare turned and left the house.

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