A/N: you'll noticed the name Rachel mentioned in this chapter. I do mean Rachel Berrisford. So The Berrisford agenda never happened that was someone else I suppose. SO ENJOY!
During the second performance Alec/Dean slowed down the mood a little and smiled sadly to the audience in front of him.
"This next song is one I wrote for my girl Rachel. She was...everything to me and she taught me what it was like to really love someone"
He glanced up toward the ceiling as if praying a moment and speaks again "This is for you Rachel"
As he broke into the song his mind was assaulted with the memories of his first real love.
When I first saw you standing there,
You know, was a little hard not to stare.
So nervous when I drove you home,
I know, being apart's a little hard to bear.
Sent some flowers to your work, in hopes
That I'd have you in my arms again.
We kissed that night before I left, still
Now it was something I could never forget.
You've got all that I need
-FLASH-
[Dean and Sam outside of a diner at a picnic table discussing the next place for a hunt. Dean's Distracted seeing Rachel over by the Impala checking it out]
Looking at all or nothing
Babe it's you and I, with you I know that
I'm good for something so let's go and give it
A try. We've got our backs against the ocean,
It's just us against the world. Looking at
ALL or nothing, babe it's you and I. Looking
At ALL or nothing, babe it's you and I.
-FLASH-
[Dean and Rachel at a drive-in. Their first date. They were cuddled in rhw backseat of the impala, she kissed him softly, the gesture had surprised him but he'd kissed her back gently letting her lead things]
Let's take a chance, go far away, today
And never look back again. Since I
Said I loved you in Las vegas. It's
Never been the same since then.
You've got all that I need
-FLASH-
[Dean and Rachel Making love for the first time. Its slow and gentle. Its Rachel's first time, Dean wants to make it good for her, he tells her he loves her and she says it back]
Looking at all or nothing
Babe it's you and I, with you I know that
I'm good for something so let's go and give it
A try. We've got our backs against the ocean,
It's just us against the world. Looking at
ALL or nothing, babe it's you and I. Looking
At ALL or nothing, babe it's you and I.
This is it, nothing to hide, one more
Kiss, never say goodbye. This is it, baby you're all mine.
-FLASH-
[Aly's birth, Dean's in the delivery room with Rachel. Aly is out and safe but the doctors can't get Rachel Stableized. Dean gets pushed out of the room by the doctors. Sam's there, he's always got his brother's back when he needs him. Finally the Doctor comes and tells Dean that Rachel didn't make it]
Looking at all or nothing, babe it's you and I,
I know that I'm good for something so let's
Go and give it a try. Got our backs
Against the ocean, it's just us against the world
-FLASH-
[Dean walking to Rachel's hospital bed to sit with her before they take her away from him. He promises to take care of the little girl he'd decided to name Rachel Alyson Winchester. He takes her small hand in his larger one and kisses it gently before sliding a diamond ring on it, he speaks softly though its just the two of them in the room. "I should have asked you to marry me earlier. I'm sorry I didn't baby" He kisses her hand, then lips and finally her forehead then whispers a soft "I love you" before leaving the room to be with his daughter]
-End Flashbacks-
Looking at all or nothing
Babe it's you and I, with you I know that
I'm good for something so let's go and give it
A try. We've got our backs against the ocean,
It's just us against the world. Looking at
ALL or nothing, babe it's you and I. Looking
At ALL or nothing, babe it's you and I.
Babe, it's you and I
When the song was finished he simply said a soft "thank you" into the microphone, as himself and the band left the stage for a break between sets. He went over to the bar to get a drink. He sat silently while nursing his scotch, he hadn't even noticed Max was there until she lightly touched his back.
"Alec?"
He shook his head and shifted away from her, there was no anger in his voice just the broken sound of a man who was still grieving.
"Don't Max. Just Don't"
He cursed himself internally as he heard his voice waver. The Woman frowned and sighed softly.
"I need you Alec"
Alex/Dean glanced at her with a frown marring his handsome features
"What? You in heat? Sorry I'm just not up to playing the role of your sex slave"
She sighed and frowned running a hand through her long dark hair
"Its not like that Alec"
He chuckled coldly
"really? Its not? Funny, I can smell it on you Max. Save your lies for someone else"
Max shook her head and turned to walk away, however she stopped herself and just went to sit beside him, ordering a beer
"Tell me about her"
Alec/Dean perked a brow
"Who?"
Max gave him the look, the one that threatened to kick his ass if he didn't start talking
"Tell Me About Rachel"
She had almost been frightened when those beautiful jade eyes of his darkened in anger? Sadness maybe? Either way she knew she's hit a sensitive spot and he was about to clam up something fierce, he shook his head
"She's none of your business. Back Off"
Max's eyes widened she still didn't understand why he was being so guarded with her. He'd never been like this with her before. So naturally she came to the conclusion that all this was somehow, his fault, after all what could she have possibly done to deserve this treatment....Same old Max.