"A Past That Can't Be Buried"

A/N: I figure I should post this chapter in Casey's POV now and do Derek's POV later. Thanks for reading this and I hope this will bring in more reviews. I apologize in advance if this is too fast or not realistic for the characters. The whole heat thing is what I'm basing it from the 2 episodes in Dark Angel that covered it. I still hope you enjoy and check out the coming chapters! Enjoy!

Recall: Stars (***) are just to indicate that it's a new event for both POVs (so it's the first time you'll see it in the story).

Disclaimer: I don't own Dark Angel or Life with Derek (they belong to their respective owners).

Summary: It's been 8 years since Casey escaped Manticore and is now in loads of trouble when she's left home alone with Derek.

Chapter 6:

Casey's POV

My door flung open and there he was, standing in my doorway. There was no way I could escape. I was trapped by my worst nightmare. I was so close in leaving this part of my life behind, and now it was ruined. I never wanted this situation to happen, not with Derek no less. He already thought I was some keener freak, this would just have him think of me as a much bigger freak. I am a transgenic, you can't get more freak than that.

But it was too late. I knew the minute I woke up that my heat had fully arrived thanks to the dream I had of me and Derek together. A dream like that would have been suppressed but when in heat, all types of fantasies come out. That's how I knew the moment I opened my eyes a few minutes ago that I might do something I should regret.

I could already feel the animal inside me wanting to attack him but I fought the urge back and looked at his gorgeous eyes. I was now burning up. My hormones were off the charts when he looked back at me with worry and concern. Derek has never looked at me like that before. Am I scaring him?

"Casey, are you……." Derek didn't get a chance to finish talking because from the moment he opened his mouth and I heard his sweet, soft, caring voice I ran straight to him and planted my burning lips on top of his.

I was kissing Derek! I kissed him like I never kissed anyone and I was hoping he would push me away, snap me out of my senses so I could get my control back but the rest of me just wanted to continue kissing him as if there was nothing wrong, like there was no tomorrow. I thought the heat was now causing me to hallucinate because I couldn't believe that Derek was kissing me back with the same amount of passion I was giving him. Is he enjoying this as much as I was? I thought he hated me…..

I realized now that I was pushing us towards my bed. OMG! Am I seriously doing this? I can't….I…..must……stop. We both broke free for some air and I took the opportunity and pushed Derek onto the bed and stepped back until I was against the wall directly facing him. I had tears coming down my face and Derek had a confused look on his face. What was he thinking about?

"Casey……why did you…..kiss me?" Derek looked more confused then ever as he looked at me as he touched his now burning lips. I was forcing myself not to move once he spoke again.

"I'm sorry Derek……..I couldn't control myself." I was crying now as I tried to hang onto something to keep me where I was. Derek was about to come forward. "Please Derek, don't come any closer." I pleaded to him making him stop in his tracks.

"I don't get it? Why did we stop?"

"Cause I know what's going to happen next and I can't do that to you." I rushed the sentence out as if it was filled with venom. "I can't hurt you like that Derek." My eyes were all watery as I looked into his eyes, his beautiful chocolate brown eyes. Then I remembered what he just asked, now surprised at how he reacted when I pulled away. "What do you mean 'Why did we stop'? You wanted more?" I asked between sobs.

Derek was looking at the floor now. "Yeah, I was surprised you stopped. I've wanted to kiss you the moment I first saw you and it's been pure torture living with you and not be able to show you that. When you kissed me, it was perfect, like the universe was on my side for once. And just now when you broke away, I felt a piece of me rip away with you. I don't ever want to be away from you ever again." Derek finished as he looked deep into my eyes with the sincerest and loving look on his face. Is this for real? Does he really have feelings for me? He never shows his feelings.

"What are you saying Derek? Do you have real feelings for me?" I stopped sobbing but tears were still coming as I tried to fight them back.

"Casey…." Derek was now moving towards me and I couldn't step back any further. "….from the moment I say you, I had feelings for you. You were perfect…..correction you are perfect and then when I saw Nora standing beside you and it clicked that you would be my new step-sister…..my heart just shattered. In those few moments I saw you, you looked like the perfect girl for me and it's been killing me for the past three years that I couldn't be with you. Those years of fighting with you and learning more about you just had my feelings grow stronger and I was tired of hiding it." Derek was now right in front of me and was wiping the tears from my face. "I love you Casey and I'm so relieved that I finally get to tell you." Did he just say that? I can't believe it.

"I love you too Derek." I whispered to him and saw a huge smile on his face. Derek was leaning in to give me another kiss but I stopped him and ran for the bed before he could blink. Derek now froze in confusion and turned to stare back at me as I stared at the floor. "I can't do this, it will hurt too much. I don't want to hurt you too." I was now gripping the comforter in my fists trying to have my heat under control.

"What can you do to hurt me?"

"Everything, I can hurt you physically and emotionally and I don't want to do that to you."

"All we were going to do was kiss….." If only that was all…

"No we weren't Derek!...........I would have made us go farther." I was now staring at him with tears strolling down my face again. Derek still was trying to put what I was saying together.

"Casey…..you don't mean……that you……were going to go……that far…..with me?" Derek asked slowly. I nodded with more tears and he looked at me with wide eyes as if he couldn't believe it.

"There's so much you don't know about me Derek. Even when I first met you, I was afraid that this would happen, I just never expected you to admit any feelings towards me."

"Tell me everything then." Derek was now closer to me and was about to place his hand on my knee but I moved backwards on my bed and now had my back against the headboard.

"I'm a freak, Derek!" Derek just smiled.

"Casey, I was kidding when I called you that. I only made fun of you so that you would be mad at me. I did it to push my feelings for you away."

"No Derek! I truly am a freak! My behaviour earlier and even now……..it's all because I am a freak and I can't control it!" I was sobbing like crazy trying to explain until I saw Derek come closer to try and comfort me. I tensed up and my hormones were rising again and I quickly gave him a glare. "Don't! You're making it worse!"

"Making what worse?"

"The closer you get, the more I want to just…….agghhh! I can't take advantage of you like that. I can't!" I was now somewhat calm from being all cried out.

"So if I do this……" Derek was now climbing closer to me on the bed. "…..how do you feel?"

"Derek, don't! I don't want you to regret this." I tried to move farther away but I couldn't, I just gripped the side of the bed.

"I could never regret it Casey. Like I said, I've been in love with you for a long time and I feel amazing that you love me too." Derek was now directly in front of me, close enough that I could grab him close and kiss him.

"Really?.......You won't hate me?" I whispered as I held my breath, trying not to smell his beautiful scent.

"Yes and I won't." Derek looked into my eyes as his answer blew in my face. The sweet smell of his breath made my heart start to race again.

"Are you sure you love me?" I stared back at him and I was burning up again like when he first walked in.

"Most definitely." Derek placed his hand on my cheek and wiped my remaining tears away and he pulled me into a passionate kiss and I couldn't push away.

A/N: How was that? I hope that it wasn't a disappointment. Sorry if it was an 'emotional reveal' but I figured that Derek would do anything to calm Casey down in her condition even if it meant that he would tell the truth to her.

It may take awhile for the next few chapters (I know what to do just I don't know how to put it into words for others to follow), hopefully it doesn't take long!

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