"A Past That Can't Be Buried"

A/N: SO SORRY that's it's been awhile. I thought I posted Derek's POV with Casey's in the last chapter. I still have writer's block but hopefully I can get new material in by the weekend (I have an essay to write -_-). Thank you for the reviews. I really appreciate them b(^.^)b . Hopefully this chapter will raise some questions for Derek. This chapter is Chapter 6 yet in Derek's POV. Enjoy! (Italics at the beginning is just to remind you what happened last in Derek's POV)

Disclaimer: I don't own Dark Angel or Life with Derek (they belong to their respective owners).

Summary: It's been 8 years since Casey escaped Manticore and is now in loads of trouble when she's left home alone with Derek.

Chapter 7:

Derek's POV

Recall:

"Casey, are you……." Before I could finish asking, I suddenly felt a steaming hot pressure against my lips. Casey was kissing me! What shocked me was that I was kissing her back.

My lips were burning up from the passionate kiss that Casey was giving me yet I didn't want to stop. It felt so good, so normal, and so right as if it was meant to happen. Is this really happening? After all these years am I really kissing Casey McDonald?

The next thing I knew I was taking a little breather from our kiss until I felt a hard push against my chest and I fell onto Casey's bed. I never felt that kind of force from her before or passion for that matter. I thought she hated me yet a minute ago she was kissing me. I still felt the burning sensation from my lips as Casey was now up against the wall in front of me. What just happened? Why did we stop? That was the best kiss I ever had….I have to know.

"Casey……why did you…..kiss me?" I stuttered the words out but my mind was still on the kiss. I couldn't stop thinking about it and my heart was still racing. What has she done to me? I've never felt like this before.

"I'm sorry Derek……..I couldn't control myself." I look up and I see her crying now and it looked like she was trying to restrain herself from me. Was it really that bad? Did she think it was a mistake? I had this instant feeling that I had to comfort her and I started to walk towards her. "Please Derek, don't come any closer." Casey pleaded towards me and I immediately stopped.

"I don't get it? Why did we stop?" I had to know………why now?

"Cause I know what's going to happen next and I can't do that to you." Casey said that so fast that it sounded like it was meant to hurt. "I can't hurt you like that Derek." I looked in Casey's watery hazel green eyes as she looked back at me. Her words weren't processing right. Why did she care if she hurt me? There was a slight pause. "What do you mean 'Why did we stop'? You wanted more?" Crap! I should watch what I say. I was surprised that she looked confused.

I was looking at the floor now before I blurted out what was really on my mind. "Yeah, I was surprised you stopped. I've wanted to kiss you the moment I first saw you and it's been pure torture living with you and not be able to show you that. When you kissed me, it was perfect, like the universe was on my side for once. And just now when you broke away, I felt a piece of me rip away with you. I don't ever want to be away from you ever again." Did I really just tell her that? Was that too much? Did I scare her? Why couldn't I just give a short smug answer like always. Once I finished, I looked deep into her eyes hoping that she would answer me soon. What are you thinking Casey?

"What are you saying Derek? Do you have real feelings for me?" Casey stopped sobbing but tears were still coming down her face. It looked like she was trying to hold them back.

"Casey…." I moved closer to her and noticed that she tried to step back. Why doesn't she want me near her anymore? ….what's changed? .......well I guess I have no choice, I, Derek Venturi, am going to talk about my feelings. I thought this day would never come. "….from the moment I say you, I had feelings for you. You were perfect…..correction you are perfect and then when I saw Nora standing beside you and it clicked that you would be my new step-sister…..my heart just shattered. In those few moments I saw you, you looked like the perfect girl for me and it's been killing me for the past three years that I couldn't be with you. Those years of fighting with you and learning more about you just had my feelings grow stronger and I was tired of hiding it." I was now right in front of her and I wiped the tears from her face and looked into her hazel green eyes and said those four words I thought I would never say, "I love you Casey and I'm so relieved that I finally get to tell you." Did I really just say that? Wow, what has she done to me?

"I love you too Derek." Casey whispered the words back to me and my heart was racing again and I had a huge smile on my face now. I was about to kiss those hot lips again but before I knew it she ran for the bed before I could blink. How did she do that? I was now frozen with confusion and turned to stare back at her as she stared at the floor. "I can't do this, it will hurt too much. I don't want to hurt you too." She was gripping the comforter as she said it. Why does she keep saying that?

"What can you do to hurt me?" I asked with my smirk grin. What can a girl do to hurt me? Then again, Casey was not your ordinary girl……she stole my heart.

"Everything, I can hurt you physically and emotionally and I don't want to do that to you." Is she serious?

"All we were going to do was kiss….." What was so harmful about a kiss or making out for that matter?

"No we weren't Derek!...........I would have made us go farther." Casey now had fresh tears strolling down her face as she looked at me. Go farther? Wait….she doesn't mean……

"Casey…..you don't mean……that you……were going to go……that far…..with me?" I asked slowly. I needed to know. Casey nodded with more tears and I felt my eyes widen with shock. I don't believe it. This isn't like Casey. What's made her changed? Don't get me wrong, I like it but it wasn't Casey.

"There's so much you don't know about me Derek. Even when I first met you, I was afraid that this could happen, I just never expected you to admit any feelings towards me." She knew this would happen? How?

"Tell me everything then." I was now at the end of her bed and I was about to place my hand on her knee but she moved backwards on her bed and now had her back against the headboard. Where's that speed coming from?

"I'm a freak, Derek!" I just smiled. This is my fault then…I guess it's time to tell the truth, again.

"Casey, I was kidding when I called you that. I only made fun of you so that you would be mad at me. I did it to push my feelings for you away." I hate it when I had to do it.

"No Derek! I truly am a freak! My behaviour earlier and even now……..it's all because I am a freak and I can't control it!" Casey was sobbing like crazy trying to explain. I tried to get closer to comfort her but then I immediately saw her tense up. "Don't! You're making it worse!" Worse?

"Making what worse?" I'm so confused…yet I couldn't stay away from her.

"The closer you get, the more I want to just…….aghhh! I can't take advantage of you like that. I can't!" Casey had calmed down a bit, her eyes were now dry. So my presence sets her off? Interesting....

"So if I do this……" I climbed closer to her on the bed. "…..how do you feel?"

"Derek, don't! I don't want you to regret this." Casey tried to move farther away yet couldn't. Regret? How could I?

"I could never regret it Casey. Like I said, I've been in love with you for a long time and I feel amazing that you love me too." I was smiling as I said that and was now directly in front of her, close enough that I could kiss her.

"Really?.......You won't hate me?" She whispered. Is she holding her breath?

"Yes and I won't." I looked into her eyes as I answered. Casey's own smell was now starting to get to me and my heart started to race again like when we kissed before.

"Are you sure you love me?" She stared back at me. It's like she can't accept that I love her.

"Most definitely." I placed my hand on her smooth cheek and wiped the remaining tears she had away. As I looked into her eyes which were now filled with that fiery passion from before I pulled her into a passionate kiss and she didn't push away.

A/N: Hope that covers what was happening in Derek's mind. Sorry if Derek wasn't 'acting like himself' (I'm new to writing in these characters). So next chapter picks up directly from the passionate kiss that took place at the end of both Chapter 6 & 7. Maybe both POVs will be present.....all depends if my writer's block for this story is gone.

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