Edward had left the room shortly after this unable to be in the same room. He felt to much self loathing to be in there with them. Sure he may have not liked the wolf to much but...he would never do anything like this to him.

He sat down on his bed for a few seconds before shaking his head and standing up. He removed the shirt he had been wearing and threw it in his closet and grabbed a black t-shirt from it and slid it on.

He wondered how he could have fucked this up so much. He had broken the treaty, and on top of that the person he bit was one of the werewolves. He turned Jacob in to a hybrid and pretty much crushed him in doing so.

God knows what will happen when his pack finds out. They might stage an all out war against them for what Edward did.

Edward groaned hanging his head. He had really fucked up.

...

Meanwhile in the other room where Jacob was, Rosalie had kicked everyone out, except for herself and Alice. Jacob hadn't said anything since he'd stopped crying. Jacob barely cried if ever in his life, it just wasn't him.

But he felt so lost...he didn't want any of this. All of this had just been forced onto him by some sick twist in fate. He hated it because he had had no control of the situation at all. Why did this have to happen to him? What did he do wrong?

Why did he deserve this? He had been minding his own business and minding his own life. But for some reason someone wanted to ruin everything, he woke up and now he wasn't himself. And he never would be that anymore.

That's probably why he had cried so much...he was just so confused. He didn't understand how or why this was happening to him. He didn't know what to do. He cried because he knew that he would never be who he was before. Because there was no way he could go back in time and stop this all from happening.

He knew that he'd have to live his life like this. That's what scared him so much...it was because he didn't know how to live like this. He didn't know how people would react to him...what his pack would think of him.

And now he was letting everything sink in...and he just couldn't find anything to say now that it had. He kept wishing that he could press rewind. Or open his eyes and realize he was still laying in bed.

But he knew in the back of his mind he wouldn't, pain couldn't be this real in a dream. Alice and Rosalie were looking at him hesitant to speak to him. In fear it might hurt him more in a way.

"Jacob?" Alice asked hesitantly. Jacob let his eyes drift over to her. "I-Its really not all that bad," she said trying to smile. Jacob's expression was like stone though. And not effected at the least by her words.

"Not for you." he said his voice barely held any emotion. Alice frowned in response. "How can you even be in the same room with me?" Jacob asked. Alice blinked in question. "Don't I smell like a wet dog?" he asked his voice slightly bitter.

"..Actually..you don't really smell like that anymore," she said. Jacob blinked raising a brow at her. "You smell kind of like...cinnamon.." she said. Jacob looked at her with a questioning look on his face. "I guess your scent changed because of the change."

She shrugged at her own reasoning and Jacob went back to looking down. "Are you hungry or anything...or...do you still want human food?" Rosalie asked unsure of wether he had acquired that vampire trait.

Jacob shook his head, "No..I just don't have the stomach to eat right now."

Jacob personally didn't really want to do anything right now. He barely felt like breathing. He just couldn't believe all this was happening so fast. Jacob closed his eyes for a moment.

"E-Edward get off of me,"

Jacob winced slightly opening his eyes again. It felt like every time he closed his eyes he could see that moment. Like relieving it.

There was something that did escape him though, in the time that Edward was biting him. He had grown weaker and was nearly unconscious. So he had only been slightly coherent through that whole event. And he could remember voices...feelings, blurry images. He closed his eyes again remembering the moments after he was bitten.

-Jacob's POV-

Pain was coursing through my body, as I felt his fangs retract from my neck. My strength had been drained significantly. My eyes were starting to close now I felt tired. I could feel the bruising grip on my wrists loosen and I could hear a sharp intake of breath. I let my eyes drift to the blurry figure in front of me. My eyes still clouded with the tears that continued to drip down my cheeks.

I was pretty sure it was Edward...but my memory was fading as well. It was becoming difficult to stay awake when I heard him speaking.

"Oh my god..what have I done?" his voice sounded fearful. Which I found strange, since I don't think I've ever heard him talk like that. I could feel a cold touch my wrist again, "Jacob? Oh no Jacob, Jacob come on you can't die."

I wished I could tell what was going on but my fading consciousness was making this very difficult, but his words did manage to make me try to stay awake. The sound in his voice urging me not to go to sleep...although I wasn't sure why.

I could feel his breath on my face now and I let out a whimper. Half of pain and of fear. I looked at the figure's face again and I could make out the look on his face. It was full of guilt and fear. I felt myself slipping again as I felt the cold grace my forehead this time.

"I'm so sorry," the words were a whisper. And I wanted to reply or at least ask what was happening but then I felt my body leave the ground and the cold overtake me again. It made me want to fall asleep. I closed me eyes for a moment and opened them to find everything zoom past at a rate that made my head spin.

The next thing I knew I heard more voices. These were different ones, I tried to see what was going on but at this point i could barely keep my eyes open. I could feel my body shifting the cold momentarily leaving my body before it returned.

I could feel something pulsing in my chest...waves coursing from my neck. There was a thick scent of blood and it made me feel sick. In the distance I could hear people yelling. I felt the cold once again leave me as I was laid down.

I could feel pressure against the wound on my neck and I moaned. I was so tired and fighting to stay awake was draining my energy even more. I could hear a whisper then.

"Be reborn into the form of your soul's choosing," the words confused me. But they seemed to strike something in me. I wanted to ask what he meant but at that moment I felt the pulse in my chest become much harder. And then I felt everything fade away.

-Normal Pov-

Jacob opened his eyes as a knock on the door broke him from his thoughts. Rosalie looked over and stood up walking to the door and opened it.

Her gaze immediately shifted into a glare. Edward stood there silent for a moment.

"What are you doing here?" she asked her voice sharp and it held enmity. Edward almost winced at the tone.

"I just want to talk to him," he said. He only wanted to apologize that was it. Even though his mind was secretly filled with fear of the reaction he'd get from the boy after what he'd done.

Rosalie held her glare standing firmly in the doorway denying him passage. "What makes you think he wants to talk to you?" she asked. She felt a protective instinct over the young hybrid now for some reason.

"Look I know I don't really deserve to talk to him, but I need him to know how sorry I am," he said desperation in his voice. After all he was going to live for an eternity, he didn't want to have to live with his guilt for an eternity. Rosalie kept her arms crossed standing still.

"Fine...but don't you dare try anything Edward," she said the threat very audible in her voice. Edward nodded to her. Rosalie then turned into the room and told Alice to come with her. The pixie looked at the blonde and seemed hesitant but stood up and left the room.

Edward stepped forward and felt Rosalie grab his shoulder. He looked back at her as she glared at him.

"If you do anything, I won't hesitate to rip you limb from limb," she said before releasing him and finally walking down the hall with Alice.

Edward sighed and looked over at Jacob he frowned sadly as he carefully shut the door behind him. While keeping his eyes locked on the figure.

"Jacob?" he asked. He saw the boy tense. Edward walked to the side of the bed looking at him. "Jacob..I want to talk to you.."

Jacob frowned keeping his eyes on the bed. He felt a mix of emotions, anger, hatred, fear, sorrow. All directed toward Edward. He didn't want to look at him..because he felt hatred for him because he had done this. And yet there was fear swimming in his heart because he feared that what had happened could repeat itself.

Edward frowned his non beating heart tugging slightly when he heard the boys thought.

"Jacob please just listen to me," he said carefully. Not wanting to spike any new emotions for him. Jacob felt his eyes heating up suddenly, he turned his head. Edward in the blink of eye appeared on the other side of the bed.

"Jacob please just talk to me," he pleaded. Jacob looked down again keeping silent, his chest was hurting from all these mixed emotions. "Jacob please just listen to me," Edward said again. Jacob finally looked at the older boy.

His eyes brimming with tears the emotions he felt for the vampire showing brightly in his eyes.

"Well maybe I don't want to listen to you," he said his voice cut into Edward. Edward looked at him praying he could take back everything he had done.

"Jacob I'm sorry," he said.

"Sorry?" Jacob asked giving him a disbelieving look he glared painfully at him. "Sorry doesn't change anything. Sorry doesn't change what you did to me! Sorry can't help me Edward and if you think sorry is just going to magically fix everything then your wrong!" he said.

He felt tears stream down his face. Edward felt the guilt and pain increasing and it hurt.

"Jacob I-I wish I could take it all back I'm sorry. It was an accident!" Edward tried to desperately explain it to the younger boy. Jacob cringed slightly shutting his eyes for a moment he shook his head opening his eyes and kept them to the ground.

"Don't even say anything," he said turning his head from the vampire. Edward stood there he felt so broken from the rejection he had gotten from him. Jacob lifted his hand covering his eyes with it.

"Jacob I-" he started but was cut off by Jacob.

"Just get out," he said. Edward stood there in silence before casting his gaze down he closed his eyes in defeat. He opened them again and turned around and left the room.

Rosalie and Alice were waiting for him to leave and as soon as he did they quickly walked into the room. Sitting on either side of the boy comforting him. Holding him and telling him everything was alright. Even if they knew everything wasn't.

Edward stood next to the door leaning against the wall. His expression was full of guilt and pain as he listened to the hybrids broken sobs. And heard the girls attempting to comfort him. Edward closed his eyes painfully as he sank down against the wall. He covered his eyes with his hand again.

And even though he was unable to cry.

He could still feel something swelling in his eyes at that moment.

TBC

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