"Jacob it's not as bad as it seems." Alice said trying to calm the wolf down as he sat on the couch next to her. Her arm was draped over his shoulder.
"But..I don't have anywhere to go to school, I went on the reservation," Jacob said. Innerly wincing thinking of the reservation. It had happened but an hour ago and it already stung.
"We can transfer you to Fork's high school." Carlisle suggested. Jacob looked down at the ground. He was so confused, in a matter of days everything had changed so much. He was bitten by a vampire, changed into a hybrid. He was exiled from his pack disowned by his family. And taken in by the Cullen's.
Which also technically made him...a Cullen. Jacob shuddered slightly from that fact. Mainly because he was now apart of the beings that he had been taught to hate. It was a major blow to his mind.
Unbeknownst to him however Edward was watching him from a distance. He felt bad hearing how confused and lost Jacob was. He could hear his confusion and distress being voiced in his thoughts.
But what surprised him was that he hadn't even realized how much Jacob's scent changed. It was quite ...intoxicating actually. The most alluring scent Edward had ever come across.
Jacob smelled liked cinnamon and had the musky scent of the forests. While his scent also seemed..spicy and sharp. But it was delicate at the same time...while it mixed with scents of blossoms. It was absolutely the most alluring and baffling scent Edward had ever smelled.
And he had to say he liked it much more then the wet dog smell. Jacob closed his eyes for a moment willing away the headache that was coming on.
"I think I just want to sleep," he said.
"Alright I'll take you to your room," Alice said. They always did have a spare bedroom. Lucky.
Jacob just nodded and followed her up the stairs. Jacob glanced over at Edward as he walked past. He had a questioning glint in his eyes though as he noticed that Edward's eyes followed him.
He decided to ignore it though and kept walking up the stairs.
Alice led him down the long hall way to a room at the end.
"Well here it is," she said walking in. "I hope it's not to small." Jacob looked around the room. And wondered why she had said small, since the room was bigger then his own had been.
"No, it's fine." he said and walked over to the bed and sat down. Alice stood there for a few more seconds before turning and leaving.
Jacob looked around the room it was pretty simply furnished. There was a closet and small dresser. An empty bookshelf on the wall by the door.
Jacob looked around drinking it all in...realizing he should get used to it since he'd be living here. Jacob laid down on the bed but found himself unable to close his eyes.
In a few days he had gotten a new family, a new house, a new room. Jacob let out a sigh and closed his eyes. And as soon as he did he knew he was no longer Jacob Black.
He was Jacob Cullen.
And that fact made Jacob shudder.
...
The next morning Edward was walking down the hall when he noticed a significant amount of noise coming from Jacob's.
He walked over to see the door already open.
Jacob was sitting on the bed, while Carlisle was sitting on a chair next to the bed. Alice was standing on the other side of the bed and Emmett seemed frustrated.
Emmett was holding a glass with him that was filled with blood. He was leaning over Jacob holding the glass up to him.
"Come on drink it already," he said Jacob kept his mouth shut shaking his head looking at the blood with obvious dislike. His gaze was half fearful and disgusted. It was very obvious that he didn't want to drink it.
Emmett sighed and kept trying holding the glass to his mouth.
"Drink it," he said Jacob was trying to move farther back on the bed and now turning his head away from the vampire. Trying very hard to avoid the glass that kept nearing him.
Emmett groaned and brought the glass away from him again. Jacob let out a much needed breath panting slightly. He looked at Emmett his body trembling slightly.
"I don't get it with other new vampires, they practically lunge when they see the blood and we have to hold them back! But with you we have to try and force it down your throat!" he said throwing his free hand up.
Carlisle sighed rubbing the bridge of his nose for a moment and looked at Jacob.
"Jacob please just drink it," he said Jacob swallowed shaking his head.
"No," he said. See that morning Carlisle had come across Jacob who seemed to be acting oddly. Upon further examination he noticed the boy's eyes had turned pitch black. And knew immediately that the boy needed blood.
But as soon as they tried to get him to drink it he refused. Normally newborns fed as soon as they became a new born. But Jacob hadn't fed at all yet so his refusal to drink was taxing his body.
"Jacob you have to drink it," Alice said Jacob shut his eyes slightly and shook his head. He let his head fall down on the pillow as he panted through his teeth.
He was in pain, after all their bodies weren't used to being denied blood when they needed it. So Jacob's body was panicking in a way since it had nothing to feed from.
Carlisle frowned placing his hand on the boys shoulder. Jacob continued seething in pain as the blonde rubbed his shoulder in a comforting gesture.
"Jacob I know its hard but you have to drink it," Carlisle said gently. Jacob shook his head again. Carlisle sighed knowing that he wasn't going to be able to convince him to anytime soon.
Jacob couldn't drink it. He couldn't come to terms that he needed to drink blood. Because that would mean he would be just like the other bloodsuckers he was taught to hate. And after the ordeal he had been through he couldn't find it in him to bear drinking the blood.
Because then it would remind him of what Edward did to him. For either reason Jacob just couldn't drink the blood.
"I swear I'm this close to forcibly shoving this down his throat!" Emmett said. Carlisle looked over at the bear like vampire.
"Calm down Emmett, we'll try again later." he said standing up. Ushering for the others to follow out of the room as well.
Esme looked over when she saw them walk downstairs.
"Any luck?" she asked. Carlisle let out a sigh and shook his head.
"No..we just can't get him to drink it, it's starting to worry me." Carlisle said his eyes seemed to be deep in thought. "I fear how much more his body will be able to take, its not healthy for him to keep denying his thirst."
"Sooner or later he'll have to drink though, at one point his blood lust will become to powerful for him to control." Jasper said sitting on a chair with Alice in his lap.
"I don't know, I think what's hurting him is because he is denying his blood lust." Alice said leaning back into her husbands embrace.
"And I've already tried to make him more comfortable with feeding..but even my empathy isn't helping." Jasper said. "I keep sensing a great amount of conflict from him," Jasper noted silently.
"Well I suppose there's not much we can do right now, besides wait." Carlisle said.
...
Edward meanwhile was watching Jacob from his spot in the hallway. He found it quite amazing that Jacob was able to have that much control. He himself as a newborn had lunged at the first scent of blood he got.
He knew it was partly his fault why Jacob wasn't feeding. One more thing to add to his guilt trip.
Which was beginning to grow longer. First he bit Jacob. Then he crushed him by turning him into a hybrid. For that same reason he had been the reason he was exiled from his pack and disowned by his family. And now to top it all off he was part of the reason why he was hurting himself even more.
Great.
Just fucking great.
...
The next day Jacob felt his pain receding slightly enough that he was able to go downstairs at least.
"Me and Jasper are going to go hunt okay?" Edward said to Esme. Who nodded to them. Edward stopped and looked over at Jacob who was sitting on the couch. "Jacob..maybe you should come with us."
Jacob looked at him and couldn't resist the urge making a grossed out face.
"Bleh!" he said in disgust...he couldn't help it it just came out on its own. "No thanks." he said looking away. Edward sighed.
"Look you need to feed, so come on." he said. Jacob glared at him slightly.
"No..I can't..I just can't. Not after what you did..I could never think of doing that to something else." he said. Jacob shook his head again. "No..I refuse to kill something like that."
Edward resisted walking over and dragging the boy out. Edward knew that it wouldn't be easy getting Jacob to forgive him. Because he really did ruin his life.
So what Edward figured would be the best thing, would be to try and help Jacob with the problems he faced with his new life. Starting with helping him feed.
"Fine...I'll kill it for you, how 'bout that?" Edward asked with his arms crossed. Jacob looked at the older boy like he was kidding. But he saw how completely serious he actually was.
"Whatever," Jacob said and stood up. Edward looked at him as he passed him to walk out the door. He could hear it in his thoughts that Jacob didn't intend to feed at all.
Edward sighed and walked out as well.
Once they arrived in the forest Edward and Jasper started to scan out the area for any prey.
"You know..how 'bout you guys hunt and I'll just walk around, and find you later." he said. Jacob just didn't want to be here. Especially after both of the vampires he was with had attacked him before.
Jasper crossed his arms giving him a disbelieving look, "And what prey tell could you possibly do walking around?" he asked. After all...what could he do...he hadn't been allowed on this side of the boundary line till now.
Jacob sighed looking up, "I don't know..burry myself in a ditch, jump off a cliff, kill myself something along those lines."
The two brothers sighed at his answer. Edward looked at the younger boy and stepped forward.
"Fine then I'll go with you to make sure you don't kill yourself." he said. Jacob glared at him because he had really been trying to get away from Edward in particular.
Jacob just growled slightly before he began walking in a direction.
"You go ahead Jasper I'll see if I can get him to feed on something." Edward said. Jasper nodded and took off. Edward caught up with Jacob much to the hybrids displeasure.
Jacob widened the distance between them watching Edward carefully.
"You know I really don't want to be alone with you," he said. Edward looked at him.
"I said I was sorry...I'm not going to hurt you Jacob. I swear that when I attacked you it was purely an accident." he said.
Jacob looked away from him though, "Look Cullen it doesn't matter how sorry you are, because I'm just not going to feel safe around you for a long time." Jacob said. His voice stating it in a slightly harsh way but also saying that, even if he did forgive him he just wouldn't feel comfortable.
"Aren't you technically a Cullen as well?" Edward asked. Jacob frowned at that statement.
"Don't remind me," he replied silently. Edward kept watching the wolf as he walked.
"You know your going to have to except it sooner or later."
"Yeah I get it okay leech, excuse me if I'm having a hard time excepting everything that's just happened to me!" Jacob said glaring at him again. "It's not like this is some small change, my whole life has been just turned around and flipped upside down!" he growled.
Edward remained calm though, "I know."
Jacob gave a silent growl before turning his head away from the paler teen.
"Alright now," Edward said stopping. Jacob stopped as well a few steps in front of him he glanced back at him. He felt uneasy around him right now. Unsure wether he would lunge at him any second.
Edward looked at Jacob, "Jacob...I told you before I won't hurt you, my thirst is controlled enough that I won't start attacking at random."
"Humph sure," Jacob replied. Edward rolled his eyes slightly.
"You however need to feed." Jacob growled at this.
"Look I told you before I refuse to I won't!" he almost shouted at him.
"Jacob you can't not feed, your body isn't meant to go long periods of time without blood."
"I don't care I won't ever drink that stuff! I don't care how much you try and force me!" Edward kept himself calm though. Because he knew if he started to get angry he would either just get Jacob angrier or scare him. And neither would help him right now.
"Jacob, I'm not forcing you, if I was then I would be holding you down and shoving it down your throat, like Emmett wanted to."
Jacob kept glaring at him though.
"Have you realized that I'm not?" Edward asked Jacob looked away from him then. "Look, you stay put and I'll go get something...alright?" he asked. Jacob didn't reply though.
"Jacob..I asked you a question." he said. Jacob glared at him.
"Yeah I heard you!" he said in a miffed tone.
"Jacob..I want you to stay here alright?" he asked. He could hear Jacob's thoughts saying that he would bolt as soon as Edward left. "I'm not going to force you to drink it Jacob...so since I'm being fair with you, you could at least do the same for me and stay here."
Jacob looked at him for awhile, "Fine I'll stay here." he said.
"Good I'll be right back." Edward said taking off in a dizzying speed. Jacob had to blink a few times after he saw him run off.
/And I'm alone again...God I hate being alone in forests when I know vampires are hunting. Every other time I've been alone in a forest it always ends up with me getting hunted./
Jacob thought nearly whimpering in his head. God he was such a pussy! He almost wished Edward was here..then at least he wouldn't be caught by surprise.
Jacob blinked when he heard a noise he turned around to see Edward standing there next to a now dead deer. Edward was standing by its head with his arms crossed...as if he was waiting for something.
"What?" Jacob couldn't help but ask. Edward looked at him.
"I told you I wasn't going to force you..but are you sure you can force yourself not to?" he asked in a slightly challenging tone. Jacob glared slightly at him and let his eyes drift to the deer laying by Edward's feet.
Jacob found himself staring at it the look in his eyes seemed as though he would lunge. Jacob felt himself breathing shallowly, it felt almost like his fangs were moistening. His blackened eyes raked over the deers carcass.
Looking at the blood that was so obviously there. The scent hit his nose strongly Jacob nearly pounced on it. He shook his head shutting his eyes.
"No," he said turning his gaze away from the deer. His body trembled and he could feel his body disagreeing with him. He felt a pain return in him as he felt himself grow weaker. He coughed and felt a sharp pain in his stomach as it contracted.
Edward looked at Jacob, he could see how much he was struggling not to feed. He could see how much his body was suffering, how much he was hurting himself. How crazy this was making him.
"Alright..fine." Edward said. Jacob looked at him with an almost confused look on his face.
That was it? He wasn't going to tell him how much he needed to feed. Or that he had to?
"I told you I wouldn't force you...but I'm not going to let this go to waste." he said kneeling down next to the deer. Jacob couldn't help but look at him as he closed his eyes and sank his teeth into the deer.
Jacob clenched his teeth hard as felt his body surging. The urge to do the same was killing him and getting harder to fight. The sight scared him though and made him feel partly sick. He shut his eyes tearing his gaze from the scene. Images of that horribly night flashing through his mind.
But he couldn't help but feel envy surge through him. Like some sort of inner vampire lust. Envious because Edward could feed when he couldn't. Jacob cringed he couldn't take this!
He quickly turned around and ran off to the house. Edward lifted his head up from the animal and looked over his shoulder to see Jacob gone.
"Your going to get my help Jacob..wether you want it or not."
TBC
YAY! im so so so sorry about the mix up in chapters before...if you know what im talking about i literally had this idea and i just LOVED it. Because i had an image of them trying to get jacob to drink blood but him refusing. I'll continue with his blood thing in the next chap but i wanted to spread this out and not rush to much in one chap. Now i hope you guys think that this is not to fast. Because you can see now that edward knows he can't get his forgivness by aplogizing...so he wants to help him instead. By helping him adjust to his life and all that. OKAY REVIEW! I CAN'T UPDATE WITHOUT REVIEWS...AND I TOTALLY KNOW THE NEXT CHAP WIL BE DONE SOON!