After awhile longer Jacob finally stopped howling. Feeling tired and for the moment pacified at the least. He knew he didn't have the same aching pain in his stomach as he did before, and that was good enough for him.
Jacob finally lowered his head for the last time letting the howl die down in his throat. He let out a silent sigh through his nose and laid down on the ground once more. He closed his eyes and nuzzled his snout against his fur fondly. He loved the feeling..the feeling it gave him. The smell the warmth everything.
He wrapped his tail around his body and for a moment just laid there. Curled in a ball. He wanted to enjoy this for as long as he could..because in the morning a whole new jungle awaited him. One that would surely be treacherous and dangerous.
He sighed softly again before picking his head back up and stretching his limbs out. He yawned and shook his fur out.
And in less then a second all his fur was gone..and there stood a very human Jacob Black...or Jacob Cullen to be precise.
Jacob sighed and untied the pants from his leg and slipped them on. He stood back up on his feet and looked up at the sky again.
"Wow..I actually do feel a lot better now," Jacob noted. He was glad for that fact. At least his anxiety was soothed for tonight. Jacob looked at his feet for a moment before turning around to walk back to the house.
"..I should probably go back home and try and get some sleep," he said aloud. And then something was triggered in his brain. "Home..." he said silently. He hadn't really ever referred to the Cullen's house as his home. And it had never crossed his mind.
And Jacob was starting to realize...that was home. It wasn't that that fact made him sad or anything..it was more like a revelation. Like finally realizing..that that was his home.
"..Home.." Jacob said silently again.
Over these weeks so many things had changed. Never in a thousand years would Jacob have thought this would happen to him. Truth be told, even after these weeks...the memory of what had happened didn't really go away. And it wasn't like Jacob was completely okay with everything now.
But however..it stung less then before. It was odd to think that Jacob had no idea what might change next.
Jacob finally found himself at the porch of the large house. He looked up at the house in thought for a moment. Before he let out an almost..accepting sort of sigh.
"Home.." he breathed out, and walked inside.
...
There was a faint chirping sound of birds outside. Jacob let out a soft moan as he could feel himself waking up. He opened his eyes and sat up and looked around.
Morning.
Jacob frowned when another realization came to his mind.
"School," he said under his breath. He hadn't exactly been looking forward to it. Although it was kind of similar to the feeling of after summer break is over, and having to go back to school.
Jacob closed his eyes and heaved a sigh. He forced himself to get out of bed.
"Well...there's no avoiding it I guess." Jacob said to himself. He walked over to the dresser that was against the wall and rummaged through the clothes Alice had gotten him. He got dressed putting on a pair of jeans and a black t-shirt.
He let out a sigh again and he raked his eyes over himself in the mirror. He never took all that much consideration to how he looked before this. But after his change it seemed he always had to look at his reflection..just to remind himself this is what he looked like now.
Jacob ran a hand through his hair when he heard a knock on his door.
"Yeah?" he asked. The door creaked a little as it opened to show Alice standing in the doorway.
"Oh..sorry I just wanted to see if you were awake yet." she said. Jacob looked at her and looked back in the mirror. Alice raised a brow as she looked at the hybrid.
"Wait..is that what you're wearing for your first day of school?" she asked. Jacob looked back at the pixie girl.
"Yeah..why?" he asked. Alice immediately shook her head.
"Oh no," she said walking over to the taller teen. Jacob blinked in question. "No no you are not wearing that." she stated.
"What? Why not?" Jacob asked wondering why he couldn't wear this.
"No no I will not let you," she said. She then looked the younger boy up and down. "There is no way you can go to school, looking like that, your first day." she said. Pointing to his outfit. Jacob looked down at himself again.
"What's wrong with this?" he asked in a baffled tone. Alice just shook her head as if this was really bugging her.
"No, okay go and sit down," she said. Pushing past the boy causing Jacob to stumble a little before he sat down on the bed.
Alice started making her way to the closet.
"Wait what are you doing?" Jacob asked.
"I..am going to make this right." Alice said. Like she was a woman on a mission. Alice then began tearing through the clothes she had gotten him. Jacob sat there with a slightly confused expression...mainly because he didn't understand why his outfit was such a big deal.
Meanwhile Alice was grumbling, "Men, you wonder if they even have a fashion sense," over to herself.
Finally, Alice stood up again, "A-HA!" Alice turned around to Jacob with a pair of faded jeans along over her arm. In one hand she had a long sleeved white shirt and in the other was a black vest.
"Here put these on." she said handing him the apparel. Jacob looked at it for a moment.
"But I really think I should just wear-" he began.
"Now!" Alice commanded making the wolf jump.
...
After about 10 minutes Jacob had finally put on the outfit Alice had picked out. Alice smiled giddily looking at the boys clothes.
"Ah perfect!" she said excitedly. "Come on we should go downstairs everyone's probably waiting."
Jacob glanced in the mirror before following the pixie downstairs.
"We're ready now!" Alice said as she made it down the last step. Jasper glanced over at Jacob noticing the clothes he was wearing.
"And I see you've gotten yourself a new dress up mannequin." he said. Alice made a face at this.
"I'm only making you all look better," she said in defense marching out to the car.
...
Jacob seemed tense the entire drive to the school..little did he know there was something waiting for him there.
Emmett finally parked the car in the parking lot and everyone got out.
They started walking up to the building.
"Oh shit," Edward said. Emmett looked curiously at the vampire next to him, who was staring with wide eyes in front of him.
"What?" Emmett asked. Edward made a small motion with his head making Emmett look up and also widen his eyes.
What he saw was Bella standing near the curb.
"I completely forgot about Bella," Edward whispered. Bella immediately noticed them as they walked up.
"Hi Edward!" she said but blinked. "Jacob?" she asked in surprise. Jacob looked up but kept his eyes slightly down.
/Oh crap..Bella..oh no this isn't good./ Jacob thought panicking in his mind. Edward glanced at the boy.
"What are you doing here?" she asked.
"Um...I'm transferring here." he replied quietly. Bella looked at her friend.
"Really? I thought you went on the reservation..did something happen?" she asked. "And hey why are you by the Cullen's?" she asked raising a brow.
Jacob opened his mouth trying to think of some explanation. But a man rushed up to the group before Jacob could say anything.
"Oh there you are, here's your class schedule and welcome to Fork's high school." the man said greeting him.
Bella looked at the man, "Um I think you made a mistake Jacob's last name isn't Cullen, it's Edward's." she said.
The man looked at her, "Well that's not what it says on his form." he said looking at the sheet in his hand. Bella looked at him oddly.
"Well your form must be wrong then." she countered.
"Look it says Jacob Cullen on his forms, we didn't make any mistake." he said. "Well have a nice day." he said walking off.
Bella immediately looked at Edward as if she was interrogating him.
"Edward..the form was wrong wasn't it?" she asked her eyes burning a whole through him. Edward looked at her.
"Well.." he started. Bella glared at the vampire.
"Edward why is Jacob's last name Cullen!" she asked looking at Jacob. She gasped when she finally got a good look at him.
Bluntly stating it she was shocked. She stared at his now amber eyes and his fangs. Jacob looked at his long time friend and looked down again in shame. Her reaction was anything but comforting for him.
"Jacob...your..your a-" she stuttered. Edward quickly grabbed her hand.
"Can I talk to you in private for a second." he asked. Quickly leading her away from everyone else and stopping at the side of the school, which was empty.
"Edward!" Bella said angrily. Edward looked at her.
"Look Bella it's not what you think." he said attempting to calm her down. She growled at him.
"What do you mean not what I think! Jacob's a fucking VAMPIRE!" she nearly yelled at him Edward winced at her tone.
"Sh!" he replied. Edward looked at the brunette. "Well technically no...um..technically he's only..half a vampire." he said hesitantly. Sort of in a beating around the bush way.
"What do you mean half!" she asked keeping her voice hushed but still sounding quite furious.
"Well..he's half werewolf..and half vampire." he said uneasily. Unsure if Bella was going to try and murder him any time soon.
"Half.." she said. Her eyes still locked on Edward's and continuing to glare at the vampire.
"Yeah.." Edward looked at the angry human in front of him. "He's..a hybrid." he finally said.
Bella stared at Edward and then looked past him at Jacob who was still standing there. She saw Alice walk up beside him saying something that she couldn't make out. Alice had her arm hooked under one of Jacob's, she saw her give the wolf a smile leading him into the school.
Bella looked half confused and half worried she returned her stern glare at Edward after the pair had disappeared from her view.
"Edward what's going on." she asked. Edward hadn't even planned what he would tell Bella, quite frankly Bella hadn't even crossed his mind. He had completely forgotten about her, he had gotten so caught up with Jacob and everything else he forgot about Bella.
"Bella.." he started when the bell to the school rang loudly. Edward glanced back and then at Bella who was standing there looking at him expectantly. "Look..I'll explain everything later okay?" he asked.
Bella didn't seem satisfied, "Edward," she started. After all this was about her best friend. She thought of Jacob as a little brother...and now that she knew Jacob was suddenly a hybrid. She wanted to know what the fuck was up.
"Bella I can't explain it right now I'll tell you after school alright?" he asked. Bella remained silent for a moment but let out a sigh finally.
"Fine..and you better have a good explanation for all of this." she said walking past him.
...
Jacob meanwhile was on edge, as it turned out he was in the same homeroom as Alice and Jasper were.
But thats not what set him on edge..it was the anxiety that the event this morning had caused him. He had totally forgotten about Bella...what would she think of him now. What would she do when she found out what had happened?
It was all making him worry.
The school in general seemed pretty okay to him, it was set up a lot differently then the one on the Reservation. After all that one had also been smaller.
Jacob found himself staring at the sheet of paper he had been given that morning most of the day. Since said paper was his schedule. Alice helped him find most of his classes however.
Another thing had happened to him that morning as well. In his first class, English, he had been sitting at his desk when the teacher called on him. It had gone something like this.
The teacher, Mrs. Maldeski, looked up from the book in her hand.
"Mr. Cullen would you read the next passage please." she said. Jacob;however, kept looking at the book.
"Mr. Cullen?" she said again. But again Jacob didn't reply. Because Jacob wasn't used to his new last name...so he had no idea that the teacher was calling on him.
Mrs. Maldeski frowned in annoyance. "Mr. Cullen." she said slightly louder this time. Again Jacob didn't notice. She sighed again. "Mr. Cullen." she said louder.
Jacob blinked slightly, in his head wondering why the heck this person wasn't answering the teacher. Thats when it hit him.
He picked his head up at the realization, "Oh sorry," he apologized quickly.
That had been embarrassing. Jacob let out a sigh as he ventured to his next class which was Science. Or technically it was called Chemistry but whatever.
The teacher gave them a lab to do, Jacob picked up a pen writing his name at the top of it but stopped. Realizing his hand was about to make a capital 'B'. He looked at the paper for awhile before writing down Cullen.
Jacob groaned silently rubbing his head school seemed ten times as stressful as he remembered it being. Thankfully he made it to lunch without dying however.
And lets just say they added one more person to the Cullen's table. Jacob found he had no appetite though...he hadn't had much of one for awhile now. He assumed this was one of the side effects from his transformation.
"Your not eating?" Rosalie asked looking at the wolf sitting next to her. Jacob being shaken from his thoughts glanced over at her.
"Uh no.." he trailed off.
"You haven't been eating." she said.
"I'm not hungry.." Jacob replied. This was a new statement for Jacob...mainly because he was normally always hungry.
Emmett glanced at Edward who was next to him, "How'd it go with Bella?" he asked quietly.
"I told her I'd explain after school;however, I can't come up with a good way to tell her." he replied. Edward had been racking his brain all morning but couldn't find something to tell her.
"Why don't you just tell her bluntly...you bit her best friend in the world and ruined his life." Emmett said plainly. Edward glared at the other vampire.
"Thanks for that." he said sarcastically. "Besides not only does that make me feel bad, but if I say it like that Bella will freak out." he sighed heavily. "Any way I tell her she'll freak out..because no matter how I tell her the words 'I bit him' will still be there."
"Well look at it this way..the worse she can do is get mad." Edward shook his head.
"No..she'll hate me for this." he corrected. "Actually 'hate' isn't strong enough more like despise."
"Yeah but..she's just a human..you'll get over it right?" Emmett asked. Edward sighed again rubbing his head.
...
"So Jacob how was your first day?" Alice asked with her arms wrapped around one of his own. Jacob shrugged slightly.
"Okay I guess.." he said trailing slightly. Bella was standing by the stairs of the school waiting for Edward but found herself watching Jacob. This didn't make any sense at all.
It seemed that Alice was taking a liking to him though.
Jacob himself had just decided to go along with the way Alice hung on him. Since generally she was hanging on one of his arms..he just got used to it.
"Edward." Bella said when she noticed him walk out of the school. Edward frowned slightly as he walked over to her.
"Alright..lets go somewhere more private okay?" he asked Bella agreed. The two of them began to walk from the school grounds toward the forest. The walk was silent and tense neither of the teens prepared to say anything to the other.
The situation itself made the air ten times thicker around them. After a few more minutes of awkward silence they reached the forest.
Edward stopped by a tree and sighed for the fifth time that day.
"Alright Bella...there's no easy way to tell you this." he said. Bella looked at the vampire questioningly.
"See...what happened was..I had been hunting at night, and my blood lust got a little out of control." he said silently. He didn't enjoy recalling his horrible mistake from that night. "And..I..I..couldn't think straight," he said with difficulty.
Bella looked at the pale teen curiously wondering where he was going with all of it.
"And..." Edward gave a defeated sigh finally. "Bella." he said looking straight at her.
"I bit Jacob." the words fell out of his mouth.
Bella widened her eyes gasping slightly. A rush of emotions surged through her. Anger, confusion, fear.
"I took him back to have Carlisle look over him...things started happening..and we found out that Jacob had turned into a hybrid." he said looking down. Bella stared at him.
Not believing what she was hearing from him.
"When we met with his pack..they..." he paused again. "Exiled him and banned him from La Push." he said.
Bella stared continuously at the taller male.
"Our family took him in..and he's been living with us ever since then." he finished.
Bella cleared her throat slightly, "When did this happen?" she asked her voice shaking relentless of her attempt to keep it still.
"..A little over a week ago." Edward replied silently. He lifted his eyes to her face again.
"I'm sorry Bella...I never..ever meant to attack him." he said apologizing. "It was an accident..I never wanted this to happen.." he trailed off.
"It was my greatest mistake." he said silently lowering his gaze again.
He didn't bother looking back at Bella's face..he already knew what it would look like. He could smell the salty scent of tears and could feel her gaze on him.
Edward stayed completely still as he heard the sound of her running off.
"It was my greatest..mistake Bella."
TBC
OH!MY!GOD! I HAVEN'T UPDATED IN SO LONG! AHHH! well i had been wanting to write this for a long time and i finally forced myself to finish writing all of it and i swear i had been thinking of one of these scenes since the summer. but I have been really busy with school and not having the inspiration to write BUT I FINISHED IT! So now does everyone get why i didn't mention Bella at all? Yeah...makes sense doesn't it? Lol well i really hope you like it so as you can see bella found out! DUN DUN DUN! and what will happen now?...You tell me I'm not sure what to write..so please give me any suggestions you have i could use the help REVIEW!
