Okay, I'm pleased to say, I had a pretty good Spring break, and I did get loads of writing down, well that is in my opinion. Thanks to the encouragement of Tsparks158, I've been able to post this chapter faster than I thought, so thank you! Okay, I've made you wait long enough, so here's the review replies, and a new chapter:
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Okay, all you people will probably hate me, but this chapter is going to be sad, yet good.
Okay, onward with the chapter!
Chapter Twelve: Splash Time Fun Part 2
Krissy's POV
I kept feeling weird these days, and I'm amazed that no one, but Max has sensed it. The more I think about it though, the more it hurts my heart, and head as well. Well, it's not hard to describe, but at the same time it's complicated. I'm supposedly connected to Kyle somehow, but then, I find it weird how I'm feeling it just now. Oh well, I hope this feeling goes away soon, cuz right now I'm having really mixed feelings.
Right now, I feel so weird with this connection thing, and then there's also this inner fire I feel inside of me. It's really confusing, and hard to explain. This fire I feel is like some sort of power in my that's controlling my will power. At some points I'm feeling really confident with what I'm feeling and doing, but then the next, I'm feeling really tired, so to me some times, I feel like I'm being bipolar, happy one time, then suddenly tired, or sad. It's really tiring really, and I can't think straight. That's why I'm always trying to escape, so when I go underwater, I swim freely, and what's nice though is I've controlled when I change into a mermaid, and just to think that sometimes excites me, but then frightens me to know I can shift shapes.
Anyhow, there was a new kid here, but no one has seem him yet. Well, that's what Max says, the new student is a guy. I hope he isn't one of those freaks who acts like they know about everything in the world, just because they're popular and rich. My family wasn't always rich, and wealthy, in fact my parents weren't even from America, and I wouldn't know how to imagine someone from a foreign country live prosperous here, only if they worked hard, could they. And it did take lots of work, but I'm grateful, because now they've taught me how to be an actual person, and live for myself, not for others.
We were just taking a break from the water, and were off to eat. I quickly pu on my cami and shorts on, as so did the others, and then we were heading towards the food court to buy our food. Luckily, we were the only ones there, but little did I know what commotion was about to occur. Supposedly this was a joke, but I couldn't help but think it was real, because in my vocabulary, I don't tend to joke around a lot. We were eating our food peacefully, when suddenly the boys huddled together, and started talking.
At first I thought they were planning a surprise that could make everyone happy, so everyone went back to eating and talking. Max and Samy were discussing something, but I wasn't really listening. Iggy and Gazzy were probably discussing their latest invention, Fang, Will, Michael, Kyle, and Georgie were off chatting away of a secret surprise as to my observations, and Nudge, Angel, Ella, Sera, and Pebble were probably talking about school, and clothes. I was off to the side, sitting with Max and Samy, but I was in a totally different world then them.
I was daydreaming about what we were going to learn starting tomorrow, seeing as today is our last day of resting, so I"m really curious right now, and I'm also curious about this new kid supposedly come today to this school. Ugh I 'm so curious these few days that I know something bad is going to happen, but I can't help but be even more curious, like right now. This curiosity will bring something bad, and I can feel it. This sucks, but more in general, my life sucks as well. Maybe I should go for a swim, maybe help relieve my stress right now.
I got up to throw my lunch away, and was heading back to the lunch table where Max and Samy were talking to tell them where I was heading off to, but someone stopped me in my tracks by grabbing my arm. I was about to scold this person, but I soon realized it wasit was Kyle who pulled me, and I just couldn't help but smile up towards him, and he, in return, smiled back, but something was funny, and I couldn't quite place where that was.
I felt a different wave of feeling coming off of him. This feeling was really weird, and it was a mixed feeling as well, like a silly feeling mixed with both a sad, and a happy feeling. What confused me the most was another energy I felt from Kyle. The connection between Kyle and I is really strong, and I'm sure each connection has a different feeling to each of them.
The problem? My confusiong of the feeling coming from Kyle was really strong was really strong as well, that I couldn't understand it. This feeling I got was another strong connection, and it was a connection like I had with Kyle. That was what was confusing, but actually thinking about it, it really isn't, it's just I'm not admitting it to myself.
It's my reluctance to admit this, and "this" refers to the thought that Kyle could possibly be cheating on me. The actualy thing I don't get is that Kyle isn't someone who would do that, would he? I'm questioning myself lately, but I thought Kyle would never ever cheat on any of his girlfriends, so why would I be an exception? However, I may be wrong about Kyle, and he may just be another "bad boy".
Okay, well, I'm getting way too far off track, and so back to me and Kyle stopping me. At first I thought he just wanted to be around me, but boy was I wrong, and the next thing he did was really a big mistake.
"Hi Kyle! Is there something you needed?"
"Oh, no not really, I just wanted to ask you something."
"Oh ok, what about though?"
"Uh, actually it's nothing much."
"Uh, Kyle that doesn't really answer my question, but then I have another question for you, do you love someone besides me?"
God, me and my big mouth, but that's the problem. Whenever I have a question, I'll be very straightforward, so many times I say things I shouldn't, like just a second ago.
Suddenly, I felt Kyle tense, and I knew his mind was flying for an excuse, and it wasn't hard to understand that he did love someone else besides me. He really is cheating on me isn't he, but right now I"m not really thinking about who, I"m just wondering why? Just to shake off the tension, I continued with the conversation by saying,
"Never mind, it doesn't really matter, you would neve do something like that right?" I forced myself to smile, and Kyle, returned it with a very hesitant smile.
"Right, why would I ever do something like that when I have you?"
I don't Kyle, I don't know, why would you? Trying to deplete that thought, I observed Kyle's facial expressions carefully, and saw that he wasn't looking me in the eye, and I noted to myself that he truly was lying to me. Still, I continued the conversation,
"Yeah, but anyways, what did you want to ask me?"
"Oh, that. Um, yes, well..."
"Well? Well what?"
"Um, actually never mind, it isn't really important."
Kyle suddenly was trying to get away, and I knew something was definitely fishy. It was my turn to stop him now. Just before Kyle was out of reach, I just managed to grab hold of his hand, and using most of my strength, I pulled Kyle right back to me, and didn't loosen my grip. Kyle tried to pry my hands off him, but I didn't let him, and once again, I questioned him,
"What were you going to ask me?" oh jeez, I said that with a new fierceness that even I didn't recognize myself. I guess Kyle was as shocked as I, but it didn't do any help. Soon enough though, Iggy came up behind me, and said,
"He's too hesitant to say, so I"ll say it for him. He actually wants to break up with you." Realization dawned upon me, Kyle knew what he was doing was bad, but he already made that mistake, so to bad for him now, I already know.
My eyes widened after I heard that, but what I saw from Kyle's expressions, it was true, but me being myself, I had to make sure, so I let go of Kyle, and questioned,
"Did you really want to break up with me?" I really didn't want this to happen, but it is, and I can't really do anything about it.
"Yes." God, why was I given a plain, old, dull answer. I guess there was a part of me who wanted to hear an explanation, but I obviously didn't really get one, causing me to be more angry than I should be sad. Just to make sure, I asked once more, and I still got the same old answer of, "Yes."
I was about to explode. I could not believe him. How could he do this to me again? I know I would be depressed right now, seeing that what he did would break my heart again, but I'm not, and I know why. I've formed a new strength inside of me, and it's far more stronger than my weaker side, and right now, my weak side isn't building up just yet. I clenched my fists in anger, but I tried to stay cool, for I knew I could probably set a fire with my raging hands and eyes. Okay, just thinking about this is angering. Is that even a word. God, he is such a jerk, making me not even think straight. Okay, I really need to calm down, or I'll set myself on fire first.
Deep breaths, in and out, in and out. Okay, I'm more relaxed, and with that, I turned to face him again, and then with a surprisingly calm, and controlled voice, I asked once more, well, more like commented again:
"Are you positive of what you're doing? Are you sure you won't regret what you're doing now?" He in returned returned the same calm jester as me, and responded,
"Yes. I'm positive. I think you are totally not right for me, and I'll never regret this day, for I know this decision is by far the best I've made in my whole life."
A part of me was crying out to me saying that I should be hurt, but sarcasm, and anger covered it up. This freak is making the worst mistake in his life, and I know it, for I'm positive he'll come running back to me, but I won't give in, just because I'm not mentally weak, and I"m far from that.
My inner self was laughing at Kyle, and I couldn't help, but actually laugh out loud, and say to him,
"Good, if you're that certain, don't call my name once I've turned around, because once I've turned around, I won't be yours anymore, and I'll be living my own life, and you, your own. And, I"m warning you, if you do so happen to let my name slip out of your mouth, then it'll guarantee me two things: 1, you've regretted you mistake, and, 2, I'll just so happen to let my hand shoot, and you may just find yourself unconscious."
With that, I swirled on my foot, to find all the bad itches standing right behind me, and Erin, being the only one who'd stand up for Kyle, said,
"How can you treat him that way? You've known each other for a while, and you say I'm a bad girlfriend, look how you're treating him. You're treating him like he's a lost puppy, and you can pick him up, or throw him out anytime you want."
That infuriated me. She has no idea what's happened in my life, and how I've handled it, so she has no right to step into my business, and it's not like Kyle is her business either, because last time I checked, Kyle was mine, but for the fact of doing that just a few minutes ago, he isn't anybodies anymore, well for the moment. Anyways, I couldn't stand Erin's rudeness, so I countered,
"And you know that, how? I don't know what you're talking about, and for all I care, you seemed more fit for that description, not me."
Just then, I remebered something, and so I turned around, and saw a desperate Kyle. Ha, of course, he's regretted his actions. soon enough though, he saw me, and his once sad face, was smiling like an angel, once again. Ugh, I can't think that way anymore. That weak side of me was lifting up a bit, for I was just about to crush Kyle's heart even farther, just like he did me.
"Don't go all happy face on me mister, and I"m not thinking about taking any of my words back any time soon, I'm just adding on." Kyle's face turned back to that lifeless face. Serves him right, but anyhow, back to what I remembered.
"Just so you know, you're free to do what you want with your life, and I can do the same, and you won't have to know, and vice versa." Kyle looked like he wanted to say something, but being the girl freak I had inside my, I didn't allow him to call my name before I was turned all the way, so I turned on my heel, and still saw the girl standing right where they were, just their expressions were in pure shock. Didn't think I"d ever speak that harsh did they? Well, I can, and I will when I need it. I couldn't hold it back, so I just went up to Erin and said,
"You know what you could do? Take that wide-opened mouth, and shut it, because you're not at a doctor's appointment, and the doctor wants you to say, 'Ah!'"
From behind me, a burst of laughter came across, but I didn't run around, knowing they'll all soon shut up, because right now I had no sense of being hilarous right now. Before erin could say a word, I walked right past the girls, leaving them still in shock. I could feel Kyle trying to call my name, but I felt another presence right behind me. Probably Max or Tom off to my defense. They'd be the only ones who truly understood what I thought, and go through, especially Tom, he's real easy to talk to.
"Don't you dare try to go towards her Kyle. You've done way too much damage to her, and even if you do regret your mistake, which is most obvious, don't go after her. Do you hear me? I"m totally serious, and if you try to get near her I"ll swear I'll break your teeth so you won't be able to talk for the rest of your life."
"But..." Tom never let him finish though. Right now, my heart was half-half. Half anger, but half in pain. As by nature, Kyle and I are supposed to be lifetime lovers, but right now, I'm probably breaking Kyle's heart far more than he did mine, for that part of life was before we were truly connected, and it hurts my heart to know that he's in pain. I felt like I wanted to run to him and heal his heart, but my fierce sided stayed in control.
"No buts Kyle. Krissy gave you your chance, and you didn't accept it, and don't think Krissy's that shy, timid, quiet, but kind girl anymore. She's still that, but there's a new power inside her that's boiling right now, and if you pop it, well, like she said, you may find yourself unconscious, so I advise you stay away from her."
God, Tom truly, truly, truly, does understand me. I still have that side of me that can't help but reach out for Kyle, but then I've got a new power, a new power that's built me stronger mentally and emotionally, just no one knows it just yet, and to Kyle's luck, he's the first to learn it. I felt my weak side climbing up above me, and I felt the tears starting to rundown my face. Oh well, everyone's behind my, like a past, and so from now on, I need to make a new me. A new person better than the one right now. I sensed people standing right besides me. Max, Angel, Sera, Pebble, Sam, Fang, Georgie, Will, and almost everyone besides Kyle and Tom, and to my surprise, Ella as well. Hm, guess she really does have a weak side for Kyle, but she's going to be in for trouble, I know it, for Kyle will definitely go out with Ella, pretending she was me. Everyone else had all saw my tears, and I could tell they all were hurting on the inside, but I gave a nod, saying I would be okay. Soon enough, I felt arms on my shoulder, and I looked up, and it was, my only wonderful cousin, Tom.
Instantly, his eyes were filled with sadness, for he saw my tears, and I couldn't help it, but turned around and hugged him my reassurance that I'd be okay. I lifted my head, and saw Kyle running over, I guess seeing his chance, but I quickly turned around, but just before that I whispered to Tom, "Run with me." I knew everyone else would follow as well, but Tom knew me too well, and grabbed my hand, and we sprinted al the way back to our dorms, with Max and everyone else right behind us. I'm real glad I have them as wonderful friends, because without them, I wouldn't live till today.
Two hours later
Inside our room, we managed to still split the two rooms. Well, actually, let's rephrase that. Kyle was in one room, and so was Ella. Every so enough, and I don't blame anyone, someone would get up and walk into the other room to talk with Kyle. Others, like Tom and Max, would just go into the other room to grab some things. Right now though, we were watching a movie, but I could care less. I was drifting off to sleep, but I didn't dare, for I knew when I fall asleep, memories will haunt me in my dreams, and I'll start crying. Just with that thought, I started burst out crying, and instantly, the room became silent, well, only filled with my sobs.
Instantly, I felt arms wrap around me, and I realized the arms were coming from Max, with Tom close behind her. My cires weakened after a while, and soon enough I realized everyone, even Kyle was there in the room, and I suddenly felt myself put up a mask. After a while, Kyle was about to say something, but Tom interjected him,
"Don't you dare say a word to Krissy. You've caused her enough damage than you can imagine, so suck it up and be a man, and stop trying to fix this because Krisy isn't going to go back on her words."
True, but truthfully, I actually want to know what KYle has to say for me.
"Tom, it's okay, let him speak, I wanna hear what 'explanation' he has for me."
"You sure? He is a jerk."
"Yeah I know, but I still want to know."
"Okay then, go ahead and give your *insert cuss word* Kyle and then head out of the room, and don't think you'll get Krissy back, because I'm not going to let that happen."
"Fine, I don't really care, but Krissy I have two songs I wanted to you to listen to, and all I want you to do is just listen,"
With that, Kyle started playing his guitar, and started to sing, and my mind started racing with thoughts.
(She Is, by the Fray)
bold italic are lyrics
regulat are Krissy's thoughts
Do not get me wrong I cannot wait for you to come home, hmm, wait for me, not even possible
For now you're not here and I'm not there, it's like we're on our own, Definitely, my life is my own now, and so is yours.
To figure it out, consider how to find a place to stand, I'm standing, you're not, you're trying to get me back to you.
Instead of walking away and instead of nowhere to land
This is gonna to break me clean in two, I really don't care about you right now though
This is gonna to bring me close to you, You've got to be kidding me right? I'm going no where near you.
She is everything I need that I never knew I wanted, Don't think I'm that one
She is everything I want that I never knew I needed, Oh really, I highly doubt it.
She is everything I need that I never knew I wanted
She is everything I want that I never knew I needed
She is everything I need that I never knew I wanted
She is everything I want that I never knew I needed
It's all up in the air and we stand still to see what comes down
I don't know where it is, I don't know when, but I want you around, Hmm, are you regretting what you've done, but too bad I"m not caving in.
When it falls into place with you and I, we go from if to when
Your side and mine are both behind it's indication
This is gonna bring me clarity
This'll take the heart right out of me, What, me breaking up with you?
She is everything I need that I never knew I wanted
She is everything I want that I never knew I needed
She is everything I need that I never knew I wanted
She is everything I want that I never knew I needed
She is everything I need that I never knew I wanted
She is everything I want that I never knew I needed
This is gonna bring me to my knees, Yeah, I want you begging for me to come back, but it ain't happening.
I just wanna hold you close to me, God, you can buzz of then
She is everything I need that I never knew I wanted
She is everything I want that I never knew I needed
She is everything I need that I never knew I wanted
She is everything I want that I never knew I needed
She is everything I need that I never knew I wanted
She is everything I want that I never knew I needed
She is everything I needed
She is everything, Everything? Then why are you treating me like trash?
Huh, Kyle really is trying to get me back, but I don't think so, but I guess I'll still listen to his next song. I wonder what it is.
Okay, I hoped you liked this chapter! Good night everyone!
I'm flying out,
~TaylorSwiftTwilightfan75