(Chapter 2: Parier Avec Moi)(Part 2)
Disclaimer: I own nothing but a few characters and the idea
Summary: Born into a home full of love, Emma Spencer-Rivera and Jordan Spencer-Rivera found the greatest love in one another.
Unbeknownst to the others around them their bond began from the womb and continued to grow with them through their youth into adulthood.
Their love was one that was unprecedented, and though was hidden well… always wadded on the surface.
A/N: This is an AU story and I adjusted the ages to better fit the story to my liking, and hopefully all of yours… Okay so just to put this out there, this story is technically incest. Yeah I know that sounds weird and gross to some people but it's the story that came to my head, so it's the story I'm writing, and I'm writing in a way that hopefully makes it not so gross and just plain weird, but if at the end of the day you hate this then please stop reading! AND if you choose to review do not be rude or condescending or just plain mean. That is all.
Previously
Jordan shook her head refusing to speak. She simply burrowed herself deeper into her mother seeking comfort as her tears continued to fall, all being caught on Olivia's shirt.
Everyone at the table looked on in worry. Olivia gently picked Jordan up as she cried softly into her arms and walked her up to her room.
Now
As Olivia entered Jordan and Emma's room with Jordan cradled in her arms she made sure to shut and lock the door before sitting Jordan down. Jordan continued to cry softly into Olivia's chest. She ran her hand gently through Jordan's hair trying to calm the girl. Her cries soon turned to soft whimpers under her mother's touch.
Placing a kiss on her temple she pulled Jordan away from her chest and wiped the remaining stray tears.
"Bear …what's going on with you, huh? Jordan sat back and grabbed her stuffed bear; she picked gently at his patchy fur before looking up at Olivia with fresh tears gathering. "Something is wrong with me mom. I don't... I don't feel right." she said, as she burrowed into her bear.
Tears began to sting Olivia's eyes at Jordan's words. She grabbed the bear removing it from Jordan's hands and grabbed the girls face causing her to look Olivia directly in the eyes. "Now you listen to me Jordan, NOTHING is wrong with you. You understand? Nothing is wrong with you." Tears leaked from Olivia's eyes as she ushered the girl back into her arms. Jordan cuddled into Olivia and grabbed her bear holding it tight to her chest.
She looked up at Olivia, tears slowly streaming down her red cheeks, "Something is wrong with me mom… I know it." she responded, pain evident in her voice. Olivia shook her head, running her hand through the girls jet black hair, she replied with conviction, "No."
Jordan's body began to tremble, only this time from anger. She jumped from Olivia's arms, "Don't lie to me! I'm not normal, I've never been, and you know it!"She shouted.
Olivia sat on the bed in shock allowing Jordan ample time to dash out the door. At the sound of footsteps hitting the stairwell Olivia moved off the bed quickly and started out after Jordan. "Jordan, come back!" Olivia called out to her. "No!" Jordan shouted back over her shoulder as she continued to run.
She was through the kitchen and out the door before anyone had any time to react. Olivia was going to follow suit until she felt an arm reach out and grab her own. She looked over to find Ava griping her arm lightly, "Mom don't… I'll go find her." Olivia sighed, but nodded her head in agreement. Maybe it's best if Ava goes…
As Ava walked out the door allowing Emma to escape from the table, unnoticed and swiftly, out of the kitchen and up the stairs to her and Jordan's bedroom.
Once she entered the room she sat down in the center of their rug, crossed her legs, closed her eyes, and focused. As if on cue a faint Emma... rang out in her head.
Jordan, where are you?
In the barnyard… Emma I'm sorry I'm ruining our birthday.
Jordan you aren't ruining our birthday, but I need you tell me what's going on.
I…I can't Emma... I'm sorry. Look I can sense Ava...
We'll talk when you come back in Jordy.
Their connection was disabled by Jordan, who laid with her back against a stack of hay. Her knees were tucked under her chin, and stray tears were attached to her cheek.
Ava moved to sit down next to Jordan. "What's the problem bear?" she asked.
Jordan picked at her shoelace for a moment before looking up at Ava with sad brown eyes. "Something is wrong with me Ava… I know no one thinks there is, but Ava I don't feel right… I haven't for a long time." Ava simply nodded, curiosity now running through her mind. "Well what's wrong with you?"
Jordan wiped her stray tears as she answered, "I d-don't like…"
"Don't like what?" Ava asked.
"I don't like the way I look… I look wrong." She mumbled. Ava reached out and grabbed Jordan by the chin forcing her to look directly at Ava, "J.R. you are beautiful, and don't let anyone tell you otherwise."
Jordan swept Ava's hand away and stood. "That's not what I mean Ava." she replied. Ava stood, "Then tell me what you mean." Jordan grabbed her hair, "This! I mean this!" She motioned to her cloths, "And this! Ava this isn't me!"
Tears began to gather in her eyes, she furiously wiped at them. "…At least not in here" she motioned to her heart, "Where i-"
"It truly matters…"Ava finished quietly.
Jordan continued to sniffle, "Ava what's wrong with me? Why can't I be normal?"
Ava shook her head, "J.R. you are normal. Do you even know how you used to look?" she asked before reaching back and pulling out her wallet. She opened the wallet and pulled out a picture. She motioned for Jordan to take the picture.
"Is that me?" she asked, while sniffling. Ava smiled, "That's you and me, when you were really little." Jordan studied the picture intently before speaking, "But… I look like…"
"Like a little boy… Yeah I know." Ava answered. "My hair… My cloths…"Jordan trailed off. "I looked happy."
"You were happy bear… so happy, and all the time. You loved dressing in little boy's cloths, and I loved seeing you happy." Ava said with a chuckle as Jordan handed her the photo back.
*Flashback
A ten year old Ava lay sprawled on the living room carpet holding her three year old sister, Jordan, above her head. Jordan squirmed in her grasp growling and swinging her small arms. Ava laughed at the site of her, "You're such a little wild child J.R.!"
"Pwesant! Want my pwesant!" Jordan requested as she continued to swing her arms and giggle.
Ava sighed exasperatedly, "Ok, ok geez." She sat up and placed her little sister in her lap. She then picked up a medium sized box wrapped in bright green paper and handed it to Jordan. "Happy birthday bear." Ava whispered into the little girl's ear.
Jordan tore through the green wrapping paper and ripped open the box, and to her delight she found a boy's black polo and loose khaki shorts. She continued to look at the outfit in the box and giggled, a wide smile covering her face. Jordan turned in Ava's lap and threw her arms around neck while burying her face in the crook of Ava's neck.
Tears prickled in Ava's eyes at the joy her little sister held. She wrapped her arms around Jordan's little body and hugged her tight. "I love you Jordan." She whispered into the little girl's ear. Jordan pulled back out of the hug "I wuv you too Ava." she replied softly.
Oblivious to their Ma standing in the door way they embraced again allowing the picture perfect photo to be snapped.
End flashback*
Jordan shook her head in confusion before glancing up at Ava, "If I was so happy then why does mom make me wear this? Why doesn't she let me wear what made me feel good and made me happy?" she asked softly.
Ava sighed as she sat on a hay stack and motioned for Jordan to join her. "Mom… mom wanted you to fit in… She didn't want you to be picked on, and made to feel like you were different." Jordan sighed, but paid close attention to Ava's words. "She worried about you… About what people would say or do to you… She still worries, just not nearly as much." Jordan sighed
"I even remember the conversation we had when you were five. That was the first time that she told me to stop buying you boys' cloths. It was the day you threw that fit about your first day of school outfit."
*Flashback
"I don't wanna wear a dress!"Jordan shouted as she watched her ma lay out her first day of school outfit.
"Jordan Rafaela Spencer-Rivera you do not yell at your Ma!" Olivia scowled at the girl's outburst.
Jordan sat on the stairs seething at the prospect of having to wear a dress on her fist day of kindergarten. She thought for sure that hiding the dress in the very back of her closet would prompt her Ma to not bother looking for it, but no such luck had taken place.
"Jordan, do you not want to look nice for your first day of school?" Natalia exclaimed as she squatted down to face Jordan. "Ma, I would look nice in what Ava bought me." Jordan whined. It just was not fair in her mind. She hated dresses. They all knew that to be true, so why force her?
Natalia sighed softly, "I know you would baby, bu-"
"Ma, please?" Jordan begged softly, as he brown eyes began to prickle with tears, "Please don't make me wear the dress."
Natalia reached out and grasp the girls trembling chin gently, "I thought you and Emma wanted to match on the first day?" Jordan shook her head vehemently.
Ava sat in the chair closest to the stairs, smiling gently, she watched as her mother slowly gave in to the smaller girl. Natalia gave in with a final sigh, "Okay, okay you can wear what Ava bought you, but only for the first day, ok?
Jordan brightened at the being able to wear what had become a second skin for her, but also deflated on the inside knowing that it would be the only day she could, but none-the-less nodded in agreement before wrapping her arms around Natalia's neck in a tight hug.
Natalia chuckled softly at Jordan, "Well go pick out your outfit and bring it down here so I can iron it." Jordan smiled and hurried up the stairs.
Olivia who had sat idly by and watched the interaction between Natalia and Jordan looked over to Ava, "Ava, no more." She stated shortly.
Ava sported a look of confusion at the words, "What are you talking about mom?"
"I'm talking about the cloths, no more boys' cloths Ava. Jordan is girl, a little girl just starting school, not a boy. So if you want to buy her cloths than you buy her girls cloths, we clear?"
"Crystal."Ava replied tensely. "But just know that when she starts to hate you for forcing her to wear things that make her uncomfortable it'll be your own fault mom." And with that she got up from the chair and followed in her younger sister's path up the stairs.
*End Flashback
Ava held out her arm inviting the young girl in. Jordan wrapped her arms around Ava and snuggled deeply into her side reveling in the warmth of her sister.
"God Mom is so stupid sometimes." Jordan said softly into Ava's side causing her sister to snort in agreement.
"True, but she does what she thinks is best; which isn't always what's best for everyone involved." Ava replied.
Jordan pulled away from her sister and sat up, "Ava, do you think you could help me make this birthday better than the last five?" she asked.
"Whatever you need I'll help." Ava responded with no hesitation. A small grin plastered itself on Jordan's face, "I think it's time I change back Ava, I think it's time for me to be happy again."
Ava smiled and hugged the girl tightly, "Well then I'm definitely in bear."
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Whaaaaaaaaaa, yes this is indeed a real true update. I realize I'm probably hated for taking so long to update and I have no excuse to offer except for the fact that I take AP high school classes and I haven't been able to write in forever due to that. I swear I'll try to make an effort to at least get up two post a month or something reasonable around my time schedule.