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Bleh, finally done with testing. Okay, I'm sorry, but I've tried real hard to update, and so here it is!
Review Replies first though:
Pebble: Thanks for reviewing! I'll do that the next scene. Thanks for the idea!
MyNameIsCAL: You better. Youtube is awesome, they actually have the full movie on it! I did take a long time to get it up, but someone just happened not to be there when I put that chapter up.
T-Bomes158: I take it you liked that scene
nm-maximumride4eva: Yeah, at least someone understands! Okay, but you're idea is always open if you have one.
MyNameIsCAL again from chapter 22: It's cool. I really wish we could have school like the one I made up.
x0PapaRoach0x: Happy belated birthday! Sorry, couldn't respond earlier.
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Okay, onward, but one clarification, the song I'm using is Linkin Park's Leave Out All the Rest, okay? Good.
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Chapter Seventeen: Unreal Blood Relations
Tom's POV
Oh my god. This is way too much to take in. I feel like I can't even breathe right now. Why is everyone's life becoming so drama-full? I mean, why can't someone just live a normal life, with no surprises and, mostly, DRAMA? Well, watching drama in movies, and reading drama in books are fine, but when it comes to real life, drama stinks soo much. Sometimes I think I might even hate drama, just because it's so darn annoying.
I looked back down at the letter I had just finished reading, when I realized I had blotched it with my tears. Quickly, I tried to dry it up. Jeez, this is depressing. Why couldn't everything have stayed the same and so I wouldn't have top be thinking about what I'm thinking about right now? *sigh* Well, I actually kind of expected this, but then again I'm still all the same shocked about this. I mean it's too incredible.
I can't believe this. Of all the things that could possibly happen, this was it? That's just wow. No other word to describe it, just "Wow", and not in the excited, "I Love This!" type of wow, it's one of those "I can't believe this is happening" type of wows. Do you get what I mean? Oh, oops, you probably have no idea what I'm talking about, right? Well, let me backtrack for a sec.
A while back, I had received a letter, no, scratch that, I received a letter from my mom who got the letter from someone, and at that time, I didn't know who that person was. However, I never bothered to open it, thinking it wouldn't be too important, but little did I know, that letter was a turning point in my life, and I understand a lot of things that I thought shouldn't have happened.
Still don't understand? Well then let me show you what the letter said, the letter, obviously was to my mother, but she gave it to me, and I never opened it, like I said before. The thing was, my mother gave it to me when I turned 14, now three years late, I opened it, and actually read the content inside the letter, and boy, I sure was shocked. I never figured out why she gave it to me when I was 14, maybe she thought I was mature enough, seeing as the letter was dated fourteen years before I was fourteen. No to be more exact, two weeks before my birth date, Aug 1, 1992. Funny huh? It was like this was planned right before I was born, but then again it makes a lot of sense once you read the letter, so without further ado, the letter:
August 1, 1992
Dear Jaycee,
When you read this letter, I'm sure you know what has happened, or maybe you don't even read this, so why am I writing this?
Well, you'll know, I want you to give this letter to my child once he turns 14. 14 seems old enough right? I hope so. However, I
hope more that he won't hate me for leaving him. I've told you several times about my sickness and how I may die, or experience
severe damage, so you're already under the name of Tom's godparents, but please don't tell him that, because if he knew at that
young of an age, he won't be able to accept, well that's my opinion, but aren't all young children like that? I don't know, Tom's
going to be my only child I'm assuming. Please don't cry over me, and please don't take fault on my death. My death has nothing
to do with you, just the fact that I'm not very there is something I should say to Tom, that would be two things. I want him to
grow up to be a strong, both mentally and physically, man. I know he can, but I still would like you to tell him that every single day,
just so I can be a part of his life. Could you? Thanks.
We've been long friends, for how long? Was it ever since middle school? I think so, and I guess we've been friends for longer
than 10 years. Wow, I can't believe it, but that's the reason why I leaving Tom under your control, because giving him to you as
adoptive parents makes me feel more at ease than setting him up or adoption right after he's born. Tom's father is already really
tired from his work, and won't be able to raise Tom by himself, so please, and I know you will, take Tom under your custody. I am
so greatful from the time I knew you till now, because I completely trust you, as I've said before.
Still, I feel terribly sorry for making you take care of my child. However, I remember you telling me that you went to the doctor's
one time and they told you that you were too weak to have children, and so even though this may sound a bit rude, can I still say it?
Well, to think about it, you'd force me to say it anyways, so this is what I'm going to say, because you won't be able to have children,
then I know you'll care for Tom as your own. That really does sound rude, and I beg my pardon to you right now in this letter for be
the time you read this, you probably won't be able to see me anymore. I know you're going to be very responsible over Tom, and you'll
keep the next part of the letter just for Tom, so please I dedicated the next few paragraphs just for him, so could you only let him read
it, no one else can, even you. Is that okay? I know you'll say yes, just because you're that way. Well, I don't have much else to say to
you, so I just leave the next page as of what I'm saying to Tom when he's older okay? Thanks JC!
*page break in letter*
Hey Tom. How are you now? Good, bad, nothing special? Speaking of special, I've always known you would be a special person, and
I'll say this, never believe that when you're teased, bullied, or put into the blues, always remember I'm there for you, saying that you're
special. Okay? You probably hate me for leaving you, but I really had no other choice but to leave you into the hands of Jaycee, your
"guardian" mother. I know that sounds mean and cruel for me, your mother to say, and I apologize. I really am sorry, but even though
you may hate this cruel mother of yours, could you read through this just once? I'd appreciate it very much.
I should probably explain what happened, but then it's too painful, but I'll go ahead and tell you. Back then, I was always rather weak, and
so I wish you'll become a lot stronger to protect the ones you love, for I could never do so. Everyone seemed to be looking after me, and
I want you to become strong, and I'm sure you have, because JC knows exactly what I wanted in a child like you. We knew each other for
ages. Okay, back to me. I was very sickly in my youth, and so I started exercising, to get myself into shape, and back then I just thought"
I was weak because I wasn't fit. That wasn't the case however. I had a problem, a problem in which my bones weren't strong enough to
stabilize my body, and so as I exercised, the doctors finally told me that my sickness was rapidly spreading throughout my body because of
the amount of exercise I was doing.
So, unfortunately, I'm dying. I hate to admit it, but it's true. Your father, well, I don't even want to bring him up since it was a terrible
mistake, but don't get this wrong, we having you isn't a mistake, but what he did to me was. Oh god, i can't believe I just said that. Oh well,
can't really erase it now. So, I'm sorry, and please at least I hope this diminished your anger, if not I'm being self-centered, but try to forgive
your cruel mother could you? I'm sure you'll be just like JC, even though you aren't hers, but I've always known I changed because of her,
and I'm sure you will too.
*another page break*
So, I guess this is goodbye to both of you. I hope you all live on and please don't feel miserable about my death, but don't forget me JC, I'm
sure you won't, but I still wanted to say that.
Well, Goodbye Tom and JC,
I love you both,
Gracie
*tears fall again* Realize what I mean? I wasn't even mad. I had no idea I was "adopted". Oh my, I feel so bad for mom now. What she had to go through. My "father" left mom all by herself. I hate him. Anger filled me suddenly. I couldn't believe him. Why would he do something like that? I clenched my fist. I was about to punch something when Max walked in. I quickly tried to hide the letter, but Max still saw anyways.
"What's that?"
"Oh nothing, just something my mom wrote to me."
"Really? I don't think you would be crying, would you?"
I wiped my face to feel that tears covered my face. Shoot, forgot about that. Oops.
"Oh, oops. I guess she just made me feel really happy about what she said."
"I still don't believe you, but then again you won't say, not unless Krissy asked you."
Krissy. Oh yeah, that's who I was thinking about. I really needed my time to think, so I quickly rushed Max out of the room.
"Sorry, but could you leave me for a bit, I need some time to think by myself."
"Sure?" She eyed me with worried eyes, but I didn't say anything else, and so she didn't push it any farther.
Once she left, I went to my desk, and began writing.
Hours later, I finished the song. I was thinking about earlier, and what I did to Krissy. I totally feel so like a jerk, and more like a fool. How could I have let that caused my to ignore her? God, I'm really stupid sometimes. I shouldn't have let that letter bother me. Oh well, the past is the past, move along, and fix it up. That's why I've made this song, to tell Krissy what happened. Here goes, a practice go.
I dreamed I was missing
You were so scared
But no one would listen
Cause no one else cared
After my dreaming
I woke with this fear
What am I leaving
When I'm done here
So if you're asking me
I want you to know
When my time comes
Forget the wrong that I've done
Help me leave behind some
Reasons to be missed
And don't resent me
And when you're feeling empty
Keep me in your memory
Leave out all the rest
Leave out all the rest
Don't be afraid
I've taken my beating
I've shed but I made
I'm strong on the surface
Not all the way through
I've never been perfect
But neither have you
So if you're asking me
I want you to know
When my time comes
Forget the wrong that I've done
Help me leave behind some
Reasons to be missed
Don't resent me
And when you're feeling empty
Keep me in your memory
Leave out all the rest
Leave out all the rest
Forgetting
All the hurt inside
You've learned to hide so well
Pretending
Someone else can come and save me from myself
I can't be who you are
When my time comes
Forget the wrong that I've done
Help me leave behind some
Reasons to be missed
Don't resent me
And when you're feeling empty
Keep me in your memory
Leave out all the rest
Leave out all the rest
Forgetting
All the hurt inside
You've learned to hide so well
Pretending
Someone else can come and save me from myself
I can't be who you are
I can't be who you are
*sigh* I finished the song. I think it's good, and I won't need to redo anything, I just hope Krissy will understand what I want to say to her when she hears this.
"Tom?" I looked up, surprised by the voice, and realized it was Krissy. Oh god, did she hear me? Jeez, now I'm worried about what she's going to say.
I looked back at Krissy, and realized she was close to tears. I felt a new pain in my chest. Did I upset her? I hate myself now. Why did I have to get that letter, things wouldn't be this way, but maybe it will be better, I don't know.
"Yeah?" I couldn't really say anything, I was too worried to know the answer than talking. I had looked down again, and so I lifted my head again, to see Krissy rushing into me, and enveloped me with a hug. I couldn't help but hug her back, I feel so bad.
"I'm sorry Tom. I didn't know you felt so bad in the inside. I'm sorry, do you forgive me?" She looked up at me, and I smiled at her, and said,
"Of course, it was my fault anyways."
"I'm still sorry." and once again, she hugged me.
God, this is painful. I don't know how long I'll be able to keep this in before I explode. I guess we really aren't...
So, do you think you know what he's thinking? I'm pretty sure it's quite obvious. So, how'd you like the drama this chapter will bring.
I'm going to get in some Fax next chapter, not scene, chapter. now, time to work on the play!
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