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Before going back to the living room I went to the restroom that was located inside Carlisle and Esme's room to freshen up. I splashed my face and just calm down and breathe; I have to be strong for me and for William, and of course for Jacob. I finally got out of the restroom, glanced at little William just to make sure he's asleep and walked into the living room. Everybody was still in place like statues, just waiting for me.

"Ok, now you can answer my question. I don't want one explanation for the whole family, I want an individual response, although, I don't expect for Rosalie to give me another one I don't already know, so I don't expect anything from you. I don't want to sound inconsiderate or cold-hearted but it's the truth, and I am seriously tired of lies and deceptions, so please, let's get this show on the road. I don't have all day and I have to get home and make dinner for Jacob." Everybody was staring at me with so many emotions: Jasper was in awe and proud of me, I think Rosalie liked me referring to her the way I did, so I can say she felt proud; Alice looked pained; Esme and Carlisle also looked in pained and proud of me; Emmet, well, he's Emmet, he looks like a big teddy bear in pain, but proud of what I just said, I can tell he held back on something he wanted to say but Edward cut him off. Edward, well, he had every emotion possible in his face and his eyes, but the last statement brought him pain and hurt.

"Since I'm the head of this family, I will start, if you don't mind, this comes from me and Esme. If you want her to tell you herself that's fine, but we left simply because Edward asked us to. Every time any one of us makes a mistake like lose control or make people suspicious of us, he would pack up and leave without any complaints. He told us that it was the best for you, that it will keep you out of danger because being close to us put you in danger every single day. Bella, we love you, and we didn't want to leave you, but we thought about it and realized that it was true, you being close to us put you in danger daily and we couldn't say no to our first son," he glanced at Edward who was looking out the window, although he was obviously listening, and then averted his eyes to Esme, who was sobbing dry tears, she was obviously in pain. "Right, of course you would listen to Edward, your first son. I understand your logic. Before I say anything I want to hear everybody first; and Esme you don't have to explain anything, I accept Carlisle's reason for both of you."

Esme knelt in front of me, grabbed my hands, kissed them and said, "Bella, regardless of anything that happened or may happen from now on, I've loved you since Edward loved you. Never doubt that, when we left, it was so hard for everybody, but I'm only going to talk about myself. I missed you so much, you have been my daughter since the beginning, since Edward came through the door of the house in Forks with such happiness, and I knew then and there that you were my daughter, even though I didn't know you at that moment. But when I did meet you I grew to love you more because you are such a beautiful person inside and out and you accepted us for what we were, you didn't care what we were, you just accepted us with open arms." By the time she finished I was crying and sobbing; Esme reached up and cleaned my tears away with her right hand and kissed me in the forehead.

"I'm sorry Esme, I don't want you to be hurt and in pain, all I want is for…."

"No, Bella, don't apologize. You have every right to ask this of us, this is actually nothing compared to what we actually deserve for doing what we did. Just please, let me do this for you, for myself, I need it; I love you Bella." She went back to Carlisle and into his arms, sobbing silently while Carlisle wrapped his arms around her and comforted her. I felt guilty….

"Bella, I told Edward he was exaggerating. You know he was but he didn't want to pay any attention. He is so stubborn, you know that. I was ready to just punch him in the gut or something, but nobody let me… But if you say it right now, I will do it, I'll do it for you, but also for me…" Emmet, of course, thinking with his instincts not his head, he said this while eyeing Edward and clutching his fists and hitting them against each other as to get ready.

I chuckled a little… "Thank you Emmett, but it's not necessary. But don't worry, if I need you to punch him or hit him or do something to him, you'll be the first person to ask, ok? But you didn't give me your reason; I'm still waiting…"

He smiled when I gave him approval but frowned when I demanded his reason…

"Well, its pretty much what Carlisle said, but, also because he did something like that for me when I asked him to. A long time ago, years after I was turned, I came across someone that smelled so delicious, kind of what you smell like to Edward, but in contrast to Edward, I didn't think, I just acted; I drained the poor lady. I felt guilty after but I told everybody what happened and decided to leave. We didn't have a long time living there so I felt more guilty; Edward agreed to it, he didn't complain, he just told me that everything was going to be all right. Therefore, when he came to us that day to propose to everybody to leave, I couldn't say no. But I would constantly tell him that this was a stupid idea and that we should stay, please believe me little sis; I love you and I didn't want to leave you, but I couldn't go against Edward's wishes either. But please know, just like Esme said, I will always love you and you will always be my little sister."

I just stood quiet and inhaled deeply; I just nodded and waited for someone else to keep going. If I opened my mouth I was going to cry for sure, so I contained myself; I guess Jasper felt my mood so he continued….

"Bella, we kind of started this conversation awhile ago, but I can't apologize anymore because you forbid me. But I did feel guilty for what happened and when Edward came to us I agreed because I love you and didn't want to put you in anymore harm. I understood completely his feelings of course, and his reasons. I was struggling, however, with this decision because of Alice. As you know I feel people's moods, and I could feel Alice's pain, it was so deep; just like Edward's, maybe more or the same. She loves you, she lost her sister and it hurt her like I never thought was possible. That's one of the reasons we decided to go on our own for awhile, because I couldn't feel everybody's emotions, it was overwhelming. I always tried to influence Alice's moods to positive ones, but it was always hard because her feelings were so profound. Even now, she hurts, just that throughout the years you learn to deal with them. Sorry Alice, I had to tell her…" he leaned over and kissed her forehead while she was sobbing in his chest.

"Oh god, Alice…." She kept sobbing and I started to feel tears go down my cheeks.

"Bella, don't cry please. It's true what Esme said, we deserve this if not more. I just want you to know that I didn't want to leave, that I fought with Edward about this. Nobody had the guts to argue and fight with him, but I did, you know me, you know I did. But at the end he won, he made us leave and made all of us promise not to come to look for you. And he prohibited me to look for you in my visions…. Although I did cheat and look for you just to see how you were doing, even though it hurt to see you. But if that was the only way I was going to know you were fine, then so be it. But as I said minutes ago, my last vision of you was the argument you had with your father, after that, nothing. I think it was because I hadn't seen you for awhile and was out of tune with you, but I still can't see you…"

"Can I ask you for a favor? Can you try and see my future now? Can you try and see the immediate future, until when am I leaving, and also see if you can see me later tonight at my house?"

She nodded and instantly had that distant look in her face…

"Well, I can see that you're going to leave at 8:15pm, but I can't see you at your house…. Why is that?" she sounded annoyed and I laughed a little. She, with the rest of the family just looked at me with confusion in their eyes.

"Sorry, it's just that I have a theory about that, but I don't know if I should tell you now or later after everybody is done… you know what, I'll just tell you later, I don't want fortune-teller Alice here to ruin it…" Alice just looked at me and calmed down after feeling that I calmed down as well.

"I always had a problem with you choosing this lifestyle. I couldn't understand why you would choose to become one of us when you had so many possibilities, so many choices. So you know my reason, I, like Edward, wanted you to have a normal life. Which you did, I am proud of you and happy that you're a mother. All of what happened was worth it right? Because you wouldn't have him in your life otherwise." This was of course Rosalie and I already knew her reason but liked that she chose to say it.

"Thank you Rosalie, I appreciate your input; and you're right, I wouldn't have him in my life. I love him so much that I can't imagine my life without him now." I think she's in love with William because she's constantly directing her body to Esme and Carlisle's room…. Interesting…..

Now, what I've been looking forward to and dreading at the same time….. Edward…

"I don't know how to start. You've heard what everybody has said and the reason why they left. Now you know what I actually told them, and its true; all of it. After the incident with Jasper at your birthday party I was wrapped in my thoughts and would always come to the same conclusion: you being with us was more dangerous than being away. You have to know that what I said to you in the forest was a lie. I lied about my feelings for you, not about the danger, the danger has always been there, but my feelings for you were a lie; it was a blasphemous lie. I want you to understand that. I left because I didn't want to cause you any harm in the future and by me or my family staying, that's what we were doing, just keeping you in danger instead of being safe…" He could not look me in the eyes, he was still looking out the window, but I was still staring at him with disbelief.

"Why do you feel like that Bella? Why can't you believe what I'm saying?" he was obviously looking at me through everybody else's eyes and reading Jasper's thoughts regarding my emotions.

"Because, Edward, you're so stupid!" I said with disbelief and in actual calm voice. Everybody turned to me with shocked expressions because one, I said a bad word, and two because it was directed at Edward.

Until I finally heard Emmet cry out a huge laugh that shook the whole house raising his hand to give me a high five "FINALLY! Somebody told him, that's what I've been saying all this time! You tell him little sister!" I held up my hand and gave him a high five with a grin on my face without taking my eyes off of him.

"I know Emmet, he needs to be told once in awhile, no, wait, take that back, he needs to be told constantly. God, he's more stubborn than I am, and I thought I was a pain in the ass; I wonder how you all have been able to live with him all these years. Especially Carlisle and Esme, dang…." Everybody joined Emmet including me; he finally looked my direction with hurt in his eyes, I knew it was going to hurt him, but it was true…. But I also saw that his lips wanted to curve up, like he wanted to smile.

"Oh Bella, thank you, I haven't heard my family laugh since… well, since your birthday party…." Esme told me while holding my hands when I heard Rosalie say

"Bella, William is awake; I think he wants to cry because he doesn't recognize his surroundings…"

"Oh, ok, thanks Rosalie…. He's most likely hungry."

I walked to Esme and Carlisle's room and sure enough, he was sitting up looking around

"Hey Wills, how are you? I'm right here, don't worry. Are you hungry?" he nodded his head.

"Bella, there's some food for William and for you in the kitchen. Come so you both can eat." Yep, Esme, have to love her "Ummm ok, thanks Esme. You didn't have to do that you know…. Ok, ok, I won't say anything and just accept it; I'll be there in a bit. Thank you again."

I grabbed William and he was fully awake, he was looking around the house and sat him on the table when Esme brought some food for William and I. "Thank you Esme." She just nodded and walked to the living room. Everybody seemed a little bit calmer and were talking to themselves, when I heard his voice… "Bella, do you need any help?"
"No Edward, thank you."

"Bella, why do you think I'm stupid?" he was surely in pain; it hurt me seeing him like this but I couldn't talk to him right now.

"Edward I' sorry but I can't talk about it right now, I'm feeding William and I'm eating myself. Would you mind waiting please?"

He nodded, and waited…..