William was completely asleep and everybody had left so I decided to take a bubble bath; I need to un-stress as much as possible.

I put the water as hot as I can stand and just submerged myself and drifted off...

EDWARD'S POV

We arrived home and I just felt that I needed to go back to Bella and take care of her. I respected Jacob's wishes and tried to stay away and was glad that she had him to protect her. But now that she's alone with William I just can't do that, I can't stay away anymore, I've fought this since I laid eyes on her.

'Edward….. Don't you think you're overacting just a little bit?' Alice asked me with her mind raising her eyebrow, and like always I answered her in a way that nobody would notice we're communicating.

'Well, just be careful okay. Um, you're going to have to wait though because she's indisposed at the moment…' she said while snickering and singing some pop song.

"What Alice, what are you hiding?" I asked out loud.

"Nothing Edward, just take my word for it, just wait, it's for your own good." She said with a mischievous grin.

Everybody turned and some rolled their eyes and some scoffed, I wasn't really interested who did what I just want to know what Alice is hiding.

"Alice I'm just going to think the worst of it. Tell me" I demanded and Jasper instantly reacted to protect his mate.

"Edward please calm down and stay away from Alice." Jasper asked me, he knew I wouldn't hurt Alice but he reacted with his instincts. "Stop feeling anxious, if Alice says that Bella is okay and to wait then just do it."

He told me, by this time Emmet was close to us just in case somebody strikes, secretly wanting to so he can do something fun, but not really because he wouldn't like his brothers fighting. Esme had her hand on her chest and thought 'stop it Edward, Jasper is right.' I felt ashamed and I just nodded. Carlisle just sympathized with me, 'poor Edward, we all have our mates and his is by herself.' I just ignored it but it hurt me because it was true.

"I'm sorry Alice." I apologized and she nodded because she knows I wouldn't do anything to her.

"Edward please just wait for an hour and 30 minutes if you are still going…" she said smirking.

"But why, that's what I want to know." She kept giggling and went "oops" when she let slip a second of Bella in the bathtub with a pleasured look on her face…

"Oh" I responded and I know my eyes went instantly black of desire… Now I understand why Alice didn't want me to see her vision, although it was only a glimpse that slipped it was enough to ignite my feelings.

"Um, Edward, could you please tone that down a notch, um, I think I know what Alice saw in her vision, Alice?" Jasper nodded at Alice and he could feel all of my feelings and knew I felt aroused by that glimpse that I will carry with me forever.

"I'm sorry Jasper I'll leave you all….. and don't worry Alice, I'll wait." I told her.

"So, what did you see Alice?" I heard Emmet ask following by a smack on the head from Rosalie.

"Ow, what was that for?" Emmet asked.

"Emmet, did you not pay attention, Alice obviously saw Bella in an intimate moment that made Edward get, um, uncomfortable…" Rosalie explained with a smirked.

"What? Did Edward get hot in his pants?" and a big boasting laugh erupted from his mouth and I lastly heard him hit the ground from laughing so hard. Sometimes I just want to punch that brother of mine, but it's true I don't deny it.

Since I first saw Bella in the high school after so many years went by I felt reborn again. She is still more beautiful if not more than when I left her that day in the woods.

I really thought it was the best thing to do at the time. But now I know it wasn't because Victoria still came back, and I owe Jacob and his pack for protecting Bella throughout that whole time.

I regret not being there for Bella when she needed me the most. Now I know that my decision wasn't the right one. But if I think about it carefully, Bella has done what I wanted her to do and experience. She went to college and got married and even had a child that looked so much like her and Charlie. I couldn't have given her all that. Jacob gave her all that life and joy throughout all the time I was gone, all I can feel for Jacob is gratitude for being Bella's savior, Bella's light into the world.

I must admit that I did go back to Forks looking for Bella two years after I left her in the woods, but she wasn't in Forks anymore. I heard Charlie's mind and had to concentrate hard since his thoughts were semi-hidden, I guess a trait passed down to Bella, but hers is more potent. His thoughts about Bella being away and missing her; I believed at that time that it was for the best and glad that she was gone because if she would've been there I don't think I would've had the strength to be away from her.

Now that I've found her again I won't be able to leave her. Even if all she wants is just friendship then that is what I'm going to be for her, a friend. I'm going to be anything she wants from me; I'll be her slave and serve her happily and proudly.

Bella deserves the best and I'll be here and help her out.

I arrived at Bella's house and just sweep the surroundings just as a precaution, you never know what may be lurking, I should know.

I didn't even see the time I left home and how long it took me to get here because I was lost in my thoughts.

I suddenly caught a moan coming from the house, well, the bathroom, is she okay? I ran through her bathroom window and saw that she had an expression of contentment, of pleasure…..? Is this how she looks like after…? I caught my breath and stopped breathing when I smelled her arousal. It was sweeter than her blood and I wanted her more than her blood.

'Get out of there now! Before you do something stupid Edward! I told you to wait. I've told you time and time and again to not bet against me Edward. Now leave and don't you dare say anything to her about this because she will be really embarrassed and not speak to you or to me in awhile. Don't make my, well, our reunion with Bella short Edward," Alice texted me a whole paragraph.'

She was right I have to go before I do something I'll regret later. But her sweet scent and…

'Edward, NOW!' Alice demanded, *sigh*. Goodbye my sweet, sweet Bella, my love; and I ran back home.

Never in my entire existence have I wanted something so much for their blood and now their body. I've always wanted Bella in every possible way but it was just not a possibility back then, well, neither now because I'm still super-human strong, but Jacob is too and he was able to not harm her in any way, that I know of.

Maybe it is a possibility to be with her in a physical way. She always wanted to do more but I was always afraid that I would break her frail body, I still am. But now that she is a woman and has a child, she seems more mature and sure of herself.

I'm going to take it one day at a time like I initially planned. I love her and I never stopped loving her, that's just not possible. I finally got back home and of course everybody had smirked on their faces and Emmet just couldn't contain himself and started laughing so hard that the house started to shook.

"Edward that was priceless! Only you could be caught doing something so embarrassing! Don't worry bro, I won't say anything to Bella, although is going to take some hard work…." He said while leaving and still laughing hard.

Oh my god, how embarrassing! I'm going to live through this throughout all of my existence. But it's okay because I did get one great big benefit from in. I saw Bella in the most beautiful way that I could've ever imagined.

BELLA'S POV

I had to do something to un-stress and pleasuring myself really works. I miss Jacob and being with him was something I was used to. Now that I don't have him it's going to be extremely hard. He would help m with the outside and also with William, he was well, is a great father. Of course I also miss him and just being held by him, he's so warm and here in Unalaska it was perfect being with him, I never got cold when we would sleep, on the contrary sometimes I would wake up sweating because he was so hot ,literally, his body was hot in temperature.

I just have to take it one day at a time. I got out of the tub and got dressed, checked on William and decided to go to sleep. I don't know what tomorrow is going to bring. In the meantime I just want to sleep and rest.