I do NOT own the Marauders OR Harry Potter. I am SO sorry this
chapter took so long! I couldn't think of anything, to tell you honestly. I
LOVE chapter two and one. Anywhoo, I hope you like this chapter one way or
another. I'm upset that J.K wont write about the Marauders. It's so
aggrivating. Also, the thired movie (which I saw when it came out June 4th)
got me so pissed off. They took out some real good scenes. Hopefully,
they'll be on the DVD/Video as cut-outs. PLEASE!!!!!! Oh yes. Enjoy.
Lies and Dares
James sighed. He wondered for the millionth time what he had gotten into. He was happy he was with Lily. Wasn't that the reason he hurt himself? If he were to never be with Lily, wasn't that why he begged for the blood? But this icy feeling spread through him and the temptation for the feel of the blade was growing stronger and stronger every second.
Hazel eyes scanned the Heads dorm to recieve nothing but quiet and emptiness. At one point in his life, the silence would drive him mad. But now, the silence was comforting and he had learned to adapt to it.
Lily was at Hogsmeade with Rini and Marquisha. And Sirius was off chasing Drusella. Remus was in the library, as he was always, and Peter was off somewhere talking to a second year named Andrea.
As for James, he was all alone. The Heads common room was dark. The Hogsmeade visitors would arrive in an hour or two, so that ment he would be by himself for quite awhile.
It's amazing; the things that go through your mind when your alone. The ideas are wonderful and even horrible. And the pain that you reside in can control you like a spell. Fact be true, he had disgraced Lily. His mind racing, the pain rising. How could he be so irresponsible and unloyal? Exspecially when she trusted him with every smile and every kiss.
The cuts used to be so beautiful. So deep. And now, now he couldn't hide it. Nor could he controll it. He was getting sick. Insomnia. He had insomnia.
He was scared. Yes, scared. He didn't know about disorders. He didn't WANT these disorders. He was thinking. Maybe the cutting led to this.
He stood up abrutly. Something fell and clattered. James looked to his feet. He knelt down and picked up the object, holding it up infront of him to see what it was. The knife.
And for once, while he had time to himself, James made sure he remembered this moment. EverY gasp and every wince. Each drop of blood ceasing his pain. How weird it is that pain can cure pain.
Remus sat in silence. The library was completly empty. Not even the strange, disturbed seventeen year old, brown haired girl was there. 'Hogsmeade, most likely.' he thought. Remus couldn't help but feel himself go red at the thought of the girl.
His usual nervousness around girls never got this bad. At times he even had to smack himself because his mind went to wander amung things that probably only went through guys like James and Sirius' minds. But it wasn't a bad thing. He was seventeen and had every right to think that way. Heck, James and Sirius thought that way when they were eleven so no one could ever blame Remus.
He was much like James, in a sence. He kept the true, the real, him inside. Over all, he was the quiet, wise and good boy but deep inside he was like all his friends, except for Peter ofcorse. Wild and adventerous. He longed for the smile on a pretty girls face, but unlike the other two, he had much more respect for wemon and didn't think constantly with his limbido.
"Ah-Misour Remus hides in the shaddows of the books once again." came a soft, mysterious voice from out of the shaddows. Remus turned in his seat to see Sapphira standing in the darkness of the bookcases, holding her usual hefty load of odd books.
"I see your here too. Not in Hogsmeade with the others?" he asked smiling. Sapphira looked at him with her quirky eyes and took the seat next to him. Remus felt his face grow hot but coughed back a 'James/Sirius' like snigger.
"No. I've been to Hogsmeade enough to walk blindfolded. That and I doubt I need to buy more junk that I'll have to lug home. And what, pray tell, are you doing here? Isn't your group famous for galavanting amund the streets of Hogsmeade as in the halls here?" Remus chuckled softly. He could see Professor Dende glare at him lightly from the moonlight. Two more days and he'd be running out there with a dog, a stag and a rat. Two more days untill the pain took over. He gulped thinking of the horror that was to come.
"I-er....James got detention......and Sirius is...off with Drusella Cammolie I believe. Peter should be off, as he said, chatting with Andrea....so that leaves me to study here in the library." Sapphira nodded lightly and pulled out a rather large book. Remus lent over to see what it was called and laughed out loud at it's strange title.
'When Aliens Take Over Earth and Future Disasters'. Sapphira eyed him icily before clearing her throught to voice her oppinion.
"I do not find anything wrong with good news about whats to come when I am older." she said satisfactually. Remus looked at her disbelievingly before going red and looking down quickly.
"Er-sorry. I just.....didn't expect Aliens to be part of my future." Sapphira looked at him skepticly before standing up and giving him a weird smile.
"Well, you learn a new and great thing everyday. I doubt the Aliens expect to run into you in the future, now do they?" She walked off, leaving Remus with a confused and odd look on his face.
Sirius Black smiled weakly at the girl who was leaning against the tree on Lonely Hill reading a book silently. She looked up from the book and smiled a smile as weak as his. Instantly he felt his face go warm.
"Erm-so....how've you been?" he asked wondering why on earth he was so nervous yet so calm around this girl. She smiled and shook her head.
"I've been.........alright. And you, Mr.Black?" Sirius, who had never had a female call him 'Mr' anything, jumped and blinked annoyingly.
"I'm good.....mind calling me Sirius? Mr. Black makes me sound old........besides, I don't want people to think that calling me by that last name is any joy to me." She stood up and looked at him quizzingly.
"It'd be a shame. After all, Sirius, if your dreams to marry ever come true, your lovely wife will share the sur name 'Black' with you." she said as if warning him about something dangerous. Sirius sighed. He hadn't have thought about that. He didn't want to disgust the name of his love with the name that abandond him. He began to think like a child and grinned suggestively.
"I don't know about that......how does Drusella Black sound?" he asked playfully. He went red, as she did. She blinked and opened her mouth to say something but nothing came out.
"Sounds good to me. Pretty name. Drusella.......Can't you just imagine it? Sirius and Drusella Black?" he asked mimiking James. Drusella smiled with the 'your real pathetic' look on her face and shoved him into the snow. It was nearing Christmas and the outside looked lovely.
Sirius laughed and spit out a mouthfull of snow.
"Ah-fistey! I like 'em that way!" he said pulling her down in the snow next to him. Drusella looked at him as if figuring something hard out.
"Yes. Yes. The fisety and devonare Drusella Black killed her husband Sirius Black because he dared to put the moves on his best friend's wife!!!!" she shouted in a new reporter woman like voice. Sirius let out his usual bark-like laugh.
"What a WOMAN!!!!" he shouted loud enough for anyone in the next ten to fifteen miles away could hear. Drusella laughed loudly and rolled both her and him in through the snow, so they were inches from the side of the cliff.
"Now......this is comfortable." she muttered sarcasticly from underneath him. He laughed and smiled evily. He was right ontop of her.
"Mind moving?" came her voice again. Sirius grinned even wider and sat up a bit but only to turn so he was sitting with his back to her face, still ontop of the girl. He sat up and leaned back, shoving his hands in the snow behind him on either side of her head.
"Ahh......this is real comfortable. Hey Dru-you should try this sometime. "he said sighing with relief. He chucked when he heared her grunt in agony.
"I wish....Your heavy, you know? I'm suprised the girls still like you after having over a hundred pounds of weight ontop of them!" Drusella shouted trying to push Sirius off her, but failing miserably.
"I don't know about being heavy. I work out alot. It's probobly all muscle." She laughed annoyingly at that and kept trying to shove him off.
"I think I'll stay like this......hummmm....more comfortable then those beds in the boys dorms." he said jokingly. He heared her give and exasperated sigh.
"Look, I'll get off if you do something for me." he said grinning his evil grin. He felt her shuffle uncomfortably under him and then heared her say 'Tell me'.
"You gotta kiss me after the next game between Ravenclaw and Gryffindor...infront of everybody!"
"What?! No way!" she shouted devencively. He laughed monsterously.
"Realy now? Well I can always get used to this-"
"Er-okey! But you have to do something in return." The smile whiped off Sirius' face and he looked at the tree.
"Sure. You name it." He heared her laugh evilly.
"You have to let me write a song about you!" Sirius smiled again.
"Alright! Then you have to go out with me!"
"Okey. Then you have to admit to the whole school that your taken!" Sirius laughed and turned around so he was over her, their faces inches away.
"Deals on!" Drusella laughed and put her hand out. They shook on it.
"Deals on!"
Lily walked into Hogwarts smiling cheerfully. Her cheeks pink from the cold. She had had a blast and couldn't wait to give her boyfriend the rose she had bought him. Yes, it wasn't as romantic as him giving her one, but sometimes she could be a real femminist and want to do everything the guy did so.....
The Heads dorm was quiet and still. Lily's brow furred, Remus had said James would be up waiting for her. But it was dark and quiet. And no one was awake when she whispered Lumos. She walked through the bathroom door to his room, but it was completely empty.
"James?" she asked aloud. No answer. She called it once again. Still silence. She looked around his room confused and turned to leave. But just as she exited the door frame something shiny and metal caught her eye. She walked back to pick whatever it was up, only to see it covered in blood.
She gasped and dropped the knife when she heared someone growl angerily from the door frame.
Golly Gosh! Chapter six!!!!!! I like this chapter. What about you? I think Sapphira is so funny!!!!!! Er-something unexpected might happen around chapter 10? Yes, I think. BTW has anyone heared that song 'Wiskey Lulluby'? I absolutly LOVE it! It's so sad! ::sniffles:: Well enjoy!!!
James sighed. He wondered for the millionth time what he had gotten into. He was happy he was with Lily. Wasn't that the reason he hurt himself? If he were to never be with Lily, wasn't that why he begged for the blood? But this icy feeling spread through him and the temptation for the feel of the blade was growing stronger and stronger every second.
Hazel eyes scanned the Heads dorm to recieve nothing but quiet and emptiness. At one point in his life, the silence would drive him mad. But now, the silence was comforting and he had learned to adapt to it.
Lily was at Hogsmeade with Rini and Marquisha. And Sirius was off chasing Drusella. Remus was in the library, as he was always, and Peter was off somewhere talking to a second year named Andrea.
As for James, he was all alone. The Heads common room was dark. The Hogsmeade visitors would arrive in an hour or two, so that ment he would be by himself for quite awhile.
It's amazing; the things that go through your mind when your alone. The ideas are wonderful and even horrible. And the pain that you reside in can control you like a spell. Fact be true, he had disgraced Lily. His mind racing, the pain rising. How could he be so irresponsible and unloyal? Exspecially when she trusted him with every smile and every kiss.
The cuts used to be so beautiful. So deep. And now, now he couldn't hide it. Nor could he controll it. He was getting sick. Insomnia. He had insomnia.
He was scared. Yes, scared. He didn't know about disorders. He didn't WANT these disorders. He was thinking. Maybe the cutting led to this.
He stood up abrutly. Something fell and clattered. James looked to his feet. He knelt down and picked up the object, holding it up infront of him to see what it was. The knife.
And for once, while he had time to himself, James made sure he remembered this moment. EverY gasp and every wince. Each drop of blood ceasing his pain. How weird it is that pain can cure pain.
Remus sat in silence. The library was completly empty. Not even the strange, disturbed seventeen year old, brown haired girl was there. 'Hogsmeade, most likely.' he thought. Remus couldn't help but feel himself go red at the thought of the girl.
His usual nervousness around girls never got this bad. At times he even had to smack himself because his mind went to wander amung things that probably only went through guys like James and Sirius' minds. But it wasn't a bad thing. He was seventeen and had every right to think that way. Heck, James and Sirius thought that way when they were eleven so no one could ever blame Remus.
He was much like James, in a sence. He kept the true, the real, him inside. Over all, he was the quiet, wise and good boy but deep inside he was like all his friends, except for Peter ofcorse. Wild and adventerous. He longed for the smile on a pretty girls face, but unlike the other two, he had much more respect for wemon and didn't think constantly with his limbido.
"Ah-Misour Remus hides in the shaddows of the books once again." came a soft, mysterious voice from out of the shaddows. Remus turned in his seat to see Sapphira standing in the darkness of the bookcases, holding her usual hefty load of odd books.
"I see your here too. Not in Hogsmeade with the others?" he asked smiling. Sapphira looked at him with her quirky eyes and took the seat next to him. Remus felt his face grow hot but coughed back a 'James/Sirius' like snigger.
"No. I've been to Hogsmeade enough to walk blindfolded. That and I doubt I need to buy more junk that I'll have to lug home. And what, pray tell, are you doing here? Isn't your group famous for galavanting amund the streets of Hogsmeade as in the halls here?" Remus chuckled softly. He could see Professor Dende glare at him lightly from the moonlight. Two more days and he'd be running out there with a dog, a stag and a rat. Two more days untill the pain took over. He gulped thinking of the horror that was to come.
"I-er....James got detention......and Sirius is...off with Drusella Cammolie I believe. Peter should be off, as he said, chatting with Andrea....so that leaves me to study here in the library." Sapphira nodded lightly and pulled out a rather large book. Remus lent over to see what it was called and laughed out loud at it's strange title.
'When Aliens Take Over Earth and Future Disasters'. Sapphira eyed him icily before clearing her throught to voice her oppinion.
"I do not find anything wrong with good news about whats to come when I am older." she said satisfactually. Remus looked at her disbelievingly before going red and looking down quickly.
"Er-sorry. I just.....didn't expect Aliens to be part of my future." Sapphira looked at him skepticly before standing up and giving him a weird smile.
"Well, you learn a new and great thing everyday. I doubt the Aliens expect to run into you in the future, now do they?" She walked off, leaving Remus with a confused and odd look on his face.
Sirius Black smiled weakly at the girl who was leaning against the tree on Lonely Hill reading a book silently. She looked up from the book and smiled a smile as weak as his. Instantly he felt his face go warm.
"Erm-so....how've you been?" he asked wondering why on earth he was so nervous yet so calm around this girl. She smiled and shook her head.
"I've been.........alright. And you, Mr.Black?" Sirius, who had never had a female call him 'Mr' anything, jumped and blinked annoyingly.
"I'm good.....mind calling me Sirius? Mr. Black makes me sound old........besides, I don't want people to think that calling me by that last name is any joy to me." She stood up and looked at him quizzingly.
"It'd be a shame. After all, Sirius, if your dreams to marry ever come true, your lovely wife will share the sur name 'Black' with you." she said as if warning him about something dangerous. Sirius sighed. He hadn't have thought about that. He didn't want to disgust the name of his love with the name that abandond him. He began to think like a child and grinned suggestively.
"I don't know about that......how does Drusella Black sound?" he asked playfully. He went red, as she did. She blinked and opened her mouth to say something but nothing came out.
"Sounds good to me. Pretty name. Drusella.......Can't you just imagine it? Sirius and Drusella Black?" he asked mimiking James. Drusella smiled with the 'your real pathetic' look on her face and shoved him into the snow. It was nearing Christmas and the outside looked lovely.
Sirius laughed and spit out a mouthfull of snow.
"Ah-fistey! I like 'em that way!" he said pulling her down in the snow next to him. Drusella looked at him as if figuring something hard out.
"Yes. Yes. The fisety and devonare Drusella Black killed her husband Sirius Black because he dared to put the moves on his best friend's wife!!!!" she shouted in a new reporter woman like voice. Sirius let out his usual bark-like laugh.
"What a WOMAN!!!!" he shouted loud enough for anyone in the next ten to fifteen miles away could hear. Drusella laughed loudly and rolled both her and him in through the snow, so they were inches from the side of the cliff.
"Now......this is comfortable." she muttered sarcasticly from underneath him. He laughed and smiled evily. He was right ontop of her.
"Mind moving?" came her voice again. Sirius grinned even wider and sat up a bit but only to turn so he was sitting with his back to her face, still ontop of the girl. He sat up and leaned back, shoving his hands in the snow behind him on either side of her head.
"Ahh......this is real comfortable. Hey Dru-you should try this sometime. "he said sighing with relief. He chucked when he heared her grunt in agony.
"I wish....Your heavy, you know? I'm suprised the girls still like you after having over a hundred pounds of weight ontop of them!" Drusella shouted trying to push Sirius off her, but failing miserably.
"I don't know about being heavy. I work out alot. It's probobly all muscle." She laughed annoyingly at that and kept trying to shove him off.
"I think I'll stay like this......hummmm....more comfortable then those beds in the boys dorms." he said jokingly. He heared her give and exasperated sigh.
"Look, I'll get off if you do something for me." he said grinning his evil grin. He felt her shuffle uncomfortably under him and then heared her say 'Tell me'.
"You gotta kiss me after the next game between Ravenclaw and Gryffindor...infront of everybody!"
"What?! No way!" she shouted devencively. He laughed monsterously.
"Realy now? Well I can always get used to this-"
"Er-okey! But you have to do something in return." The smile whiped off Sirius' face and he looked at the tree.
"Sure. You name it." He heared her laugh evilly.
"You have to let me write a song about you!" Sirius smiled again.
"Alright! Then you have to go out with me!"
"Okey. Then you have to admit to the whole school that your taken!" Sirius laughed and turned around so he was over her, their faces inches away.
"Deals on!" Drusella laughed and put her hand out. They shook on it.
"Deals on!"
Lily walked into Hogwarts smiling cheerfully. Her cheeks pink from the cold. She had had a blast and couldn't wait to give her boyfriend the rose she had bought him. Yes, it wasn't as romantic as him giving her one, but sometimes she could be a real femminist and want to do everything the guy did so.....
The Heads dorm was quiet and still. Lily's brow furred, Remus had said James would be up waiting for her. But it was dark and quiet. And no one was awake when she whispered Lumos. She walked through the bathroom door to his room, but it was completely empty.
"James?" she asked aloud. No answer. She called it once again. Still silence. She looked around his room confused and turned to leave. But just as she exited the door frame something shiny and metal caught her eye. She walked back to pick whatever it was up, only to see it covered in blood.
She gasped and dropped the knife when she heared someone growl angerily from the door frame.
Golly Gosh! Chapter six!!!!!! I like this chapter. What about you? I think Sapphira is so funny!!!!!! Er-something unexpected might happen around chapter 10? Yes, I think. BTW has anyone heared that song 'Wiskey Lulluby'? I absolutly LOVE it! It's so sad! ::sniffles:: Well enjoy!!!