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Taking Over Me
Lily laughed as James swooped her in his arms and ran out of the Herbology building. It was only early January and the campus was still covered in snow. Sirius Black, ran from behind James and pulled out a black camera.
James dropped Lily and danced with her as Sirius acted like a photographer, shouting incouragments that made James and Lily laugh.
The two twirlled in eachothers arms, getting warm smiles and grins of admeration from their fellow students. Sirius put down the camera and fell to his butt on the snow.
"Thanks for the picture, Padfoot!" James said half way sarcasticly. Sirius grinned and shrugged recieving a laugh from the red head Head Girl. Suddenly Sirius jumped up and told his friends he had buiness to attend to and that he would see them later. James nodded and cuddled Lily in his arms, who inturn wraped her arms around his neck
''How unexpected is this?" she asked him when the two were finaly alone. James' brow raised and he looked up sky. The blue and the white matched so well.
"You mean you being with me? Well, I love it. This is my tourniquet, but honestly, I doubted you'd come around. I wanted you to, so I guess that's what all the pestering was about." Lily laughed. James had pestered her. Alot. Ever since fith year. He'd even get her friends to talk her into it. But it never worked.
"I doubted this highly too. I hated you. You were such a big headed prat. But secretly, I longged for it." This time it was James who sputtered a laugh.
"You wanted to go out with me? Then why the hell did you refuse? This should have happened a long time ago." he asked, bewildered and a slight bit angry.
" Well it wasn't that easy. Everyone knew we didn't get along and so it would raise questions if I accepted just right out of the blue. Besides, you have absolutly know idea how it felt to be to be singled out from all the girls. Everyone likes you and you choose me over someone more pretty? That causes alot of disturbance inside the Girls loo and dorm, mind you. I never gave myself the chance to even try to get to know you. I just always thought you were a right git and Sirius was just some smooth talking jerk, Peter was the odd ball and Remus was smart but not enough to handle his comrades. And it annoyed me that you all were smart and that I couldn't measure up. Another reason why I never accepted." Lily said quickly. James bit his lip and nodded. This made some sense. He had to admit that he wasn't exactly the most sweetest or most leval headed person in the world.
"But anyway. I blame myself because your not a git. Your absolutly wonderful. Your ccompletly the gentleman and your always there for me. Your the perfect friend and I can't help but be angry at myself for putting you through pain. You've been nothing but decent to me and I just turned my back because I thought I was the right one and you were wrong." Lily looked at James and smiled weakly.
"Alright then. Let's drop the subject. Anyways, when do you want to meet my folks. I can tell you they probobly know more about you then you think." Lily went scarlet and she stared at James embarassed.
"Hey, don't freak out. It's nothing but good stuff. I can't even get myself to find your flaws so it would be damn near impossible for me to point them out to my parents. But since second year I've mentioned you in my letters. Summer of first, I went home and told my dad about you. He said that I had the 'Potter charm' or some blow shit like that. I practicaly have a whole section in my letters for you. And my folks always wanna know how your doing. They want to meet you." James said, staring into her eyes.
"I....uh.....sure. I would love to meet your parents. When do you think would be a conveniant time?" James scratched his chin.
"Tomorrow." Lily stared wide eyed but nodded anyway. She was happy about this. She'd get to meet the two people who brought this wonderful man into this world. They must be great people, even if James didn't speak of them too well.
'What is this? A sickining feeling. Just give me up. There is no reason left more me to live. I can't believe it. I have become the alter of darkness. And this is my tourniquet. It's taking over me.'eeling of fear and confusion. Why am I so afraid? Why do I feel this way? I'm loosing my mind. I feel as though I can not breathe. The pain in over flowing. Why me? What is it I've done? I'm not living. I'm not. Why can't I just become what I must. Why is it I'm dying? Take over me.'
"Holy shit! What's wrong with me!?" Remus shouted flabbergasted. He couldn't believe he had written something so....so...so, well so morbid. He wasn't dying. He could breathe perfectly well. What the hell was he talking about?
"Since when did you attain "holy" shit, monsieur Remus?" The voice snapped him out of his shock. "And there's nothing wrong with you."
He turned around to see Sapphira standing there. He turned a deep crimson. Did he just swear in public? And in the library where professors could hear him? Now Sapphira had heard him curse.
She sat down in the chair next to him and set her things on the table and smiled at him. Remus quickly forgot his shock at his poem and immediatly felt comfortable again.
"There's nothing wrong with you, you know" she repeated. He felt something inside him flutter. She didn't thing he was strange? Well, this was also coming from Sapphira, who was known for her own weirdness.
"I'm glad you think so" Remus replied. He looked down at the books she had piled in front of her. Apparently she caught him looking at her books, so she looked at the parchment lying in front of him.
"You write poetry?" she asked, still looking at the parchment, studying the words written on it. Remus looked up a little shocked, then looked at the parchment she was staring at.
"Oh" he flushed a little and snatched the paper up, "I was just messing around. Bored, I guess." She nodded her head in understanding. "So, what interesting books are you reading these days?"
"Hmn... let me show you." She separated her books from the rest of her things. On top was a small red book with nothing on it, and she also set that aside. She held them up one by one. After she was done she placed everything back in a neat pile.
"Interesting." He had to smile. Sapphira always had the most interesting books, most of them he had never even heard of. But there were also other things on his mind, like their date. "So, you wanna come and get some breakfast with me?" Since yesterday he had become more confident in talking to Sapphira, even though there was still a little tension between the two. Or maybe it wasn't tension, whatever it was...
"Sure" she almost blushed. She picked up her stuff and they both went to Professor Dende to check out her books, and then left the library to head down to the Great Hall.
Sirius laughed and grinned down at the girl that sat a table away from him. She was shouving food in her mouth and eyeing a group of girls who were giggiling on and on about James and Sirius annoyingly.
"I hear he's going out with Drusella Cammolie!" a red head shrieked as if not noticing Dru acouple seats away. A brunette gasped and flashed a hand over her mouth. Another with dark hair nodded sadly and had a hurt expression on her face.
"Why her? She's practicaly not living! I mean, I thought he liked happy people!" a blonde said confusedly. Drusella grunted and stared at them.
"Maybe he does but he dosn't fall for stupid people so you still couldn't stand a chance." she said coldly to them before going back to eating. The girls stared at her shocked and turned abruptly in their seats to face Sirius who was holding back a laugh and smiling at his friends James and Peter.
"Damn, that's the first time I've heard her defend someone." James said in a soft voice, grinning like an idiot.
"What can I say? I'm a lucky man." Sirius said happily, stuffing becon in his mouth. Peter snorted into his milk before shooting Sirius a look of haugtiness.
"Yeah, but Lady luck dosn't dwell on one forever." he said freshly. Sirius shot him a cold look.
"Such deep words comming out from an uprising pedefile. I thought you knew better then to risk your life over my bussiness." he shot back much more coldly. James raised his brow in intrest as the two stared at eachother. A fake lightning strike shot between the two and James felt himself growing small.
"Woah, mates, calm down. We don't need to biker so early. Besides, where is the ever lovely Andrea?" Peter turned his attention from Sirius to greet James' question with great pleasure.
"Girls dorm. She's not hungry. But I'm bringing her up some food anyhow. She needs some meat on that pretty little body of her's." James spit out the eggs he was eating and Sirius choaked on his pumpkin juice.
"Wh-what? You've seen her......her body!?" James asked morfully disgusted. Mordified, Sirius stared at the fourth member of the group.
"She's fucking five years younger then you!" he shouted. A couple of students turned their attention to the three boys and Peter looked down blushing.
"No. Not realy. I just mean.....I've seen her without her robes on and-"
"Damn that's gross! You sick, twisted pedefile! Oh, God! Why did you have to tell us that! I can't stare at you near little girls anymore! I can't even close my eyes!" Sirius groaned clutching his head in dispair.
James shook his head as an attempt to shake out the disgusting images and tried not to stare down at the blushing Peter.
"It's not that.......................and she didn't mind......and it's not that we did anything...." James frowned. Peter had no right to be doing things like that. Andrea was much younger then him. It was one thing for his relationship with Lily to reach the point where they were seeing eachother naked, but it was simpily disturbing when it came about between a second year and a seventh year.
"She's a tweleve year old for Christ sake! A FUCKING tweleve year old!" Peter bit his lip. People were staring. He couldn't see what was so wrong about seeing the real Andrea. She was beautiful. And he loved her. Besides, James and Sirius had done it before and they knew it wasn't out of love. It was out of straight damn horniness. And he realy, truely and deeply loved Andrea. As long as they didn't do the dirty deed, it was no skin off either of them's back to see each other naked.
"Sirius, stop screaming. I know how old she is. Keep your voice down." he said softly. Sirius stared at him with a mixture of disgust and shock. Was Peter sane?! He found nothing wrong with what he had said. He had admited to seeing a girl five years his jounior naked and didn't deny it at all?! What the bloddy hell was wrong with him! It was pedefilisum and it was disgusting. Even if he didn't tuch her, it was wrong!
"How can you.........are you completely insaine? Once it's just looking and then it's more. Peter it's illigal and wrong! Do you know what the teachers will say if they find out? You'll be expelled. You were seducing a girl of the illigal age. If it was someone a year or two younger I wouldn't have a problem but-"
"Padfoot. Leave it alone. Neither have regreats so who are we to say it was wrong? As long as they know what it means, theres no reason for them to completly loose it." James said iritabaly. Sirius turned to face his fellow Marauder slowly. His expression was so flabbergasted that it seemed as though he were going to faint.
"P-prongs.............yo-you.............I....uh........" Just then Remus walked in happily holding the hand of a pretty girl.
"Hey Sapph!" James said happily. Sapphira smiled at him kindly and turned to Remus. "I've gotta grab a bite to eat. I'll see you later, alright?" Remus smiled and let go of her hand and instead put a hand on her arm.
"Okey. I'll see you then." she smiled and walked away. Remus grinned happily and pumped his fist lowly.
"Woah! Moony's happy. I guess theres only three good relationships in the Marauder world!" James said smoothly. Sirius looked at him angirly.
"What's that supposed to mean?! I have a perfectly good relationship!" he shouted. Remus chuckled and sat down next to Peter who was still red from the past discussion.
"That't not what you said yesterday! You were all upset cause you thought you were inlove and there was no real relationship between you and Drusella. You said you were mad because you realy like her but you shouldn't because it goes against all your rules about disgrimnating the darkness."
Sirius stared at him. A look passed his eys as if he were about to cry. He should have. There was no reason why a man shouldn't.
"I.....I............" he said staring down at his hands as tears begun to fill his eyes. James blinked and Remus scratched the back of his head.
"I want everything to be perfect......but they can't. It's just too wrong. And these emotions arn't supposed to be wasted on a ghost relationship. And my past isn't supposed to be so wonderful......"
James stared at Sirius. 'Woah.......that was deep. Did that realy just come out of his mouth? I didn't think there was ever a deep side to Padfoot.' he thought mesmerized.
"I don't want to love her- but I do.....and it's quite silly because I'm supposed to be strong....but why? How can one girl have such an impact? She's mearly nothing but a reagular girl. Just like all the others...."
"Not realy. You find a light in her you've never seen in anyone before. She's not just like every other girl. She's like a special gift. An angel that only God can send. She's what you've always wanted and much more. And you find yourself waking up to her face even though she's not there. Sirius, this isn't just a fling. Don't force yourself to think that. Because you only get one chance and it's stupid to try and not believe it. There'll only be one person who can affect you that way and you should grab the chance whilst it's in your reach.
"If she realy didn't share the emotions, she would have never stuck up for you. And just look at her. She's broken down her walls just to understand you more. Even if she seems unaware of your feelings, this is it! Don't let it slide just because your afraid of what she makes you feel!" James said.
Sirius stared at him wide eyed. So did the other Marauders.
"Loving someone isn't just a faze. It's a mixture of complicated emotions, and romance and a time where your realzing your true self. It makes you want to understand that one person better. It's where all you can think about is how lucky you are to have that one person and why you doubt you desverve it. Believe me, this is not a thing worth missing out on. Weather it be a relationship with someone you've always adored, with someone you fall instantly for, one with a law between you or one with convayed emotions as the seperation, it hardly matters! If your in love follow your soul. Not neccisarily your heart."
"Erm......yeah........Prongs is right. I felt it. Er.....around Sapphira.......like a blast of....erm some screwed up hex or whatever. I......er, guess you should follow his orders....after all...just look at his relationship with Lily. Earlier she hated his guts and now she's....er..well....-"
"Madly, crazy and happily in love with me?" James asked, raising a brow again. Remus nodded and began eating.
"So..um....what are we going to do about......er Sirius's pathetic love life?" Peter asked bravely. Sirius shot him a glare which made him quiver but sighed when Lily came and sat down.
"Did I hear something about a pathetic love life? Is something wrong with Andrea and Peter?" she asked. James, Remus and Sirius broke out laughing and Peter's jaw dropped.
"NO! Why does everyone think theres something wrong with my relationship with 'dre? Huh? Why not something screwed up in James or Remus' relationship?! What about Sirius?! He's inlove but he dosn't want to! What kind of bullshit is that?!" he fired angirly. Sirius was speachless. James and Remus' jaw had dropped and Lily had a hand over her mouth.
There was a moment of silence before Peter realized that he had snapped. Blushing suddenly, he too planced a hand over his mouth and slamed down in his seat, mummbling quick appologies.
"Holy freaking crap, Wormtail. Where the bloody hell did that come from?!" James asked, more supprised then what you could wave a wooden spork at. Remus still was speachless and Sirius seemed to be blushing beyond belief.
"I-er.....forget I said anything!" Peter said jumping up and running out of the Great Hall with almost over fifty eyes trailing after him.
Sirius stared wide eyed at James, Lily and Remus. He was shocked to the bone. He opened his mouth to say something.
"Wha...wha.....-" he started to say untill Lily noticed the hurt look in his eyes and spoke up herself.
"He didn't mean it, Sirius. I'm sure theres absolutly nothing wrong with your relationship with Drusella." she said trying to give him her best smile. Although this was realy not a good time to smile. Sirius' eyes began to fill with tears. He stared down and shut his eyes, exiting that world.
"Yeah, Padfoot. Ofcorse your relationship isn't bullshit....Wormtail just-"
"NO! No....he's right.......................who am I fooling? This isn't a real relationship. Just some stupid deal....we havn't got what you and Lily have, Prongs............I must be fucking insaine." Sirius said suddenly. He stood up, hands flat on the table, shoulders bent and face strewden with tears.
Lily sensed the tension between the conversation and sighed unexpectedly.
"I've got an early Potions.......I'll see you later, James." she said, leaning over to kiss him. James kissed her quickly and looked at her with those hazel eyes. Lily smiled at Sirius and nodded. She walked away nervously as some girls scrowled at her.
James sat down kind of upset and looked over at Sirius who had a blank expression on his ace. Feeling a little sorry, he told his friends he forgot something in his dorm and left. This left Sirius and Remus all alone.
"Hey, come on, cheer up mate! It was only Wormtail, Padfoot you know how he gets. Prongs was right. He's just upset about what you said about him and Andrea." Remus said with a slight frown.
Sirius shrugged. He wasn't sure of anything right now. Realy, was this whole thing bull? But Peter didn't know how he felt.
"Padfoot, there is nothing wrong with how you're feeling. But atleast talk to Dru! It's the only problem. on, let's go." Remus said standing up. Sirius nodded and followed his friend to the door.
All of a sudden a girl with honey brown hair walked up to them. She gave them a pretty smile and asked if she could have a word with Sirius. He shrugged and gave Remus a worried look, but Remus shrugged too and headed back to the dorm.
"Yeah.....how can I help you?" he asked. He didn't know this girl. She was very pretty, alot more model material then Drusella. Alot more stero-typical sexy too. She was wearing a very short version of the plaid skirt and had tied up her shirt.
"Oh, yes. I was wondering if you want to go with me to Hogsmeade come Valintines Day." she said, shooting him a nerovus smile. Sirius bit his lip and looked over up at Drusella who was falling asleep at her plate. He chuckled softly and looked at the girl. It struck him. He couldn't go with this girl! He didn't even know her name! Plus he couldn't do that to Dru. She had no idea what was happening.
"No......I'm sorry. I have a girlfriend already." he said, smiling at the thought. The girl frowned slightly before looking back up at him.
"Drusella? I thought it was just a bet! That's not a real relationship!" she said looking at him wirily. Sirius blinked and looked taken aback.
"Oh! Er......well.....yes. But I- look, I like her, so if I'm going out with her....I.....oh my God. Your right. Um, yes. Thankyou! I gotta go!" he said slowly fixing the puzzle. He ran off leaving a very suprised and confused girl.
"Hey, m'girl." he said holding an arm out to her. She smiled and walked toward him. Wraping her arms around his shoulders.
"James.........why do you think we fit togeather so well?'' she asked. After that incident at breakfast, she had become realy concerned with her own relationship. James blinked and stared down at Lily.
She was beautiful. As always. And he felt as though he were the luckiest man in the world. Right then and there, with all that was going on with his friends' and everything, he was perfectly happy with his relationship.
"We're soulmates, Lils. I'm the screwup and you fix me. Plus, we look adorable in pictures!" Lily threw her head back in laughter and placed her hands on the sides of his face, pulling him down into a long, sensual kiss.
"And, why do you love me?" she asked, seconding a question. This took James by full suprise and he almost fell back.
"Wha?! Well, because your absolutly everything I've ever or will ever need. You kind of fill in my blanks, Lily. And although it wasn't love at first sight, I still think it was God made. And since no one else can explain me, I know you can, and that makes me so happy." he said taking her hand in his and kissing her knuckles.
"And I love you for every reason and every meaning. You don't give up on me, even when I hate you. And you wont let anyone harm me, or call me names. So your just, my everything, James."
He laughed and ran a hand through his hair earning a loud laugh. James eyed her annyoingly and asked what was wrong.
"Nothing! It's just- I find it funny that you do that now. It was so annying. How did I not realize how cute it was?" James raised a brow and gave her a strange smile, backing away from her as if she were cursed.
"Oh, come on, James! Your such a fricken loser!" He laughed at this and fell on his bed.
"Now that's the Lily I know!" Lily laughed too and sat on his lap giving him a kind smile.
Alright, chapter 10. Okey, this was probobly the least angsty of them all......this thing IS gonna get more angsty.....just give it time. Okey? = A mix between a fork and a spoon....if you've ever gone to something like KFC then you know what I'm talking about.
That's all for now. Thankyou!