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I Will Never Find Another Lover
Lily bit her lip. Today would be the day she'd meet Mr. and Mrs. Potter. James' parents. Since his father was close to Dumbledore, the Head Master alowed the Potters to come and visit.
They decided to meet in the front of the school around 12:00 that afternoon and right now it was 11:45.
The fiesty redhead looked at her muggle watch for the fortith time in the past half hour and jumped when she heared a man laugh from behind her.
"What're you so nervous about?" he asked. Lily scrowled at James and shifted uncomfortably in her Sunday shoes. She had dressed up for this occassion. A pretty green winter dress and had tied her hair back in a sleek bun.
"James! I've been absolutly horrible to you for five years and now I'm meeting your parents! I feel so embarassed!" she said in a pained voice. James laughed and leaned against the wall.
"Theres absolutly nothing to worry about, Lils. I told you, I haven't dared say a thing wrong! They'll love you just as much as I do!" he said kindly looking straight at her.
"Yeah....I guess....-Oh, is that them?" she asked as two people walked up the grassy hill. James smiled, nodded, and walked up past Lily to his parents. Lily looked at the two.
Mrs.Potter wasn't drop dead gorgeous, but she was pretty. She looked alot more like James then what she had thought. Mr.Potter looked as though he had just come out of a fairy tale. He had a thick beared and was quite tall. It looked as though he had once played Quidditch, seeing how his body was much built like James.
James hugged his mum and shook his father's hand which didn't come as much of a suprise to Lily. She remembered that he had said his relationship with his father was more on a bussniess level.
"Mum, Dad, this is Lily Evans." James said proudly as he led his folks over to the nervous girl. James' mother smiled and gave a slight, unexpected, squeel.
"Oh. Lily, your just as gorgous as James says!" she said happily, giving Lily a warm, motherly hug.
"Why thankyou, Mrs.Potter." Lily said, blushing slightly and hugging James' mother back tightly. Mrs.Potter pulled back and stared at Lily increadusly.
"Oh, no my dear. Please, it's Mari. Your practicaly part of the family." James grinned at Lily happily. She looked so right standing next to his parents. She looked so perfect with him. She looked so good on him.
"And I'm Matthew. It's a pleasure to meet the woman James hasn't shut up about since first year." Mr. Potter said smiling. James shut his eyes for a second and opened them back up to see his mother staring at him and at Lily.
"This silly boy practicaly moans your name in his sleep." she said absent-mindedly. James turned scarlet instantly and shouted at his mom.
"Oh, come on. I'm sure Lily knows that by now. You stalked her for four years, I'm sure she dosn't mind." Lily grinned at James, thinking how cute he looked when he was blushing.
"No, it's quite alright. Well, how about we go inside?" Lily said softly, shivering from the cold. James walked up beside her and wrapped his arms around her petite figure, placing his chin on her shoulder.
Mrs.Potter 'aww'ed softly as James kissed his girlfriend. She tuched her husbands hand who was looking slightly appauled at the public display of affection.
"Just what he needs, another distraction from Quidditch." he said, interupting the sweet love scene between his son and future daughter in law.
"Matt, don't start." Mari warned, staring at her husband. He looked at her coldly. James sighed and let go of Lily.
"C'mon....we should go in." he said slowly, not looking at her. Lily looked over at Mr.Potter who was staring back at her coldly, with a slight confussion.
She felt James' warm hand in her's and followed him inside the large brass doors. That was the end of his parents visit. Lily waved goodbye with a small smile, Mr. Potter said goodbye to the two and turned to scauld her husband.
He didn't even bother saying goobye to either of his folks. Lily but her lip in confusion. She remembered his discripstion of his father. 'A Quidditch infactuated jerk'. But she doubted that that was how he realy acted.
When they were finaly out of ear reach of his parents, and the large doors had closed, James turned to face Lily with an apologetic and angry look on his face.
"I'm so sorry about that Lily! I- I told you he's a jackass." he said angrily thinking of what his father had said.
"Oh, no. It's quite alright. I didn't find it offensive. Are you alright, though? Can you tell me what was going on?" she asked curiously and holding his hand tightly in hers. James stared down at their hands with a small smile and looked back into his eyes.
"He....when he was my age he was a real popular quidditch player here and hurt himself the day he met a woman-namely my mother-so, I guess he just wanted my carrer to last longer then his did." James said looking into Lily's eyes. Drowning in her pools of green.
Lily looked back at him admiriationaly with a soft smile playing on her lips. She lifted her hand up to caress his face and leaned in to kiss him. There the two stood, just playing tounge war with eachother in the hall.
James pulled away to face a confused and slightly annoyed Lily.
"I can't-wont- stop loving you until my dying day, Lily. Cheasy as it sounds, you realy are everything to me. And I WONT let HIM ruin it. I sware on my grave- he WONT make your life a living hell too."
"James." Lily laughed slightly. She stared into his eyes deeply and wraped her arms tight around his waist.
"James, right now your making my life a living hell. Just kiss me, God damnit." James stared at her confused for a few munites but leaned in and gave her the most loving, most wonderful kiss a man could give a woman.
"Hey, Dru....er......Hello Drusella........how's it swinging home slice?! Home slice?! What the fuck?! Hem.......what's going 'round Drusella? How ya doin, Dru-"
"I'm alright.....but you know talking to yourself is amoung the first signs of insanity." a quick but soothing voice came. Sirius jumped around and blushed deeply when he saw the dark thunderstorm gray eyes of the one and only Drusella Cammolie. He hadn't noticed her standing there. How long......?
"Er. Um, sorry........I was just.....er....well...." Sirius started off nervously, but Drusella seemed to get the idea and flashed him one of her soft smiles. Sirius smiled back a tad bit still nervous. It wasn't a large smile, but it was much more big then the ones she gave to anyone else.
"Thinking of a way to greet me? I didn't think popular boys freaked out and talked to themselves on how to say hello to someone." she said still smiling. Sirius' grin widened and he got his courage back. She wasn't wearing her robes, as it was a Saturday, and was wearing a black leather vest and a black and purple striped longsleave and bullet hole black straped tanktop with her usual chains. On her legs she wore black and purple srtiped leggings and clunky black boots. In place of the missing robe, she wore a loose blue and silver Ravenclaw Quidditch team jacket.
Feeling kind of preppy in his soft blue jeans and Avercrombie and Fitch (which was brand new at the time) shirt, he made himself a mental note to stop wearing clothes that pleased Mrs.Potter more then it pleased him.
"Yeah, well, even the popular guys get embarassed when talking to a pretty girl." This made her laugh and she whiped her head around. Sirius breathed in sharply amazed at how her hair blew in the wind and how the white contimplated the snow.
"Holy freaking crap, theres another Drusella at this school?" she asked, in pretend shock. Her face tried to straighten out serious, but she couldn't help but let loose the laughter. In seconds she was laughing like a maniac and soon it made Sirius start. After several strange looks and 'shut up you physcos!' from nearby spectators, the two quit laughing and instead began walking and striking up a new conversation.
"I can't wait until our next match." Sirius said grinning down at the shorter girl. He could have sworn he saw a light pink cross her cheeks, but it disapeard so quickly that he barly had the chance to prove it.
"Yeah, well, as long as Gryffindor dosn't win. If they do......I might kill you instead." she said tiresly. She didn't even bother to make it sound threatning, and it reminded Sirius strangely of Remus.
"Erm- Dru....can we talk?" Sirius asked, after a few minutes of silence and once he gained back his courage.
"What do you think we're doing? Anamorphing?" came her voice quite sarcasticaly. Sirius felt hurt for a second but it changed quickly into a look of pleasure. What a sarcastic bitch she was. But as long as she was HIS sarcastic bitch- he wounldn't have her any other way.
"Well I mean.....yeah, ofcorse we're talking but.......I mean.....about the bet."
"Yeah? What about the bet?" she said all to sudenly. Sirius blinked and sucked on his teeth.
"Er.......well, over the past few weeks.....okey this going to sound stupid and completly child-like but.............do you.....I mean, how do you realy feel about me?" he asked, ending his sentence in a soft, cool tone.
He looked over to meet her grey eyes. She didn't seem annoyed. Or happy. Not even confused. More like she was thinking about it well mannerdly.
"Your nice. What else do you want me to say? Besides the fact that you can have any woman in or out of Hogwarts....."
"Does that include you?" he interupted. Drusella blinked and kind of steped back. 'Damnit you freaking dick head! Your scaring her!' his mind shouted angirly.
She her lip and looked to the sky as if she were tracing the past moon.
"I don't know." she said as if he had asked her a common question. "Does it?" Sirius sighed. He didn't know what to say.
"Erm.....I...uh...hope. You know....it's kind of weird to say this but...I have to..and I....I want you to know that I do. I......realy do like you. And if your interested I....would love to be with you....this time offically and romanticaly. You know, just if your interested." he blurted out when he finaly found the words.
Expecting a angry or pathetic look from Drusella, he feared looking at her face. But he did. And was suprised at the smile that danced upon it.
"You know, I realy like you. But maybe if you let me think about it, maybe we can find a much better start. So, you can busy yourself with someone else......but do me a favor and........don't fall in love, alright?"
Sirius looked at her. He didn't know wether to feel pain.......or happiness..? Was that a yes/ But it sounded like a no......Yeah.....it was a yeserno.
"Oh.....okey then." he smiled at her. But he had one question.
"It'll be weird if....you no...the game and if I'm daiting someone.........so, could I....?" he stumbled over his words.
"Sure." she smiled. She leaned over lightly and kissed him softly on the lips. She pulled back slowly, and a small blush crossed her cheeks. She was lightly smiling and looking down, brushing a thick grap of white hair from her face.
"Heh. I'll see you later then." she turned slowly and walked away. Sirius smiled weakly.
'Wow.....' he thought. Inside him thinngs were turning. This strange feeling off hatred towards anything that had to do with anti-life obsession slowly faded. And it didn't realy matter if she was connected to his parents in that obsession to kill. She could kill anybody she wanted...er within reason, for all he cared. The angst filled teenager was happier then he could ever be.
Nothing was going to ruin this moment. Not even walking in on James and Lily whispering romantic words into eachothers ears. Infact, he couldn't stop smiling the whole day. At lunch, when Dru was busy staring strangely at the food as if were to grow legs any second and walk away, he just stared untill Remus hit his head and the boys demanded an explanation. And he said nothing. But smiled.
"Wooooahhhh.....what's the big smile for, Moony? Laid a girl?" James asked that night as his friends began piling into the Great Hall for dinner.
"No! But I DO have another date with Sapphira." a quite pleased Remus said sitting down next to his dear friend Sirius.
"S'alright! I've finaly talked to Drusella." he said tossing his napkin into his lap. Remus looked at James and rolled his eyes.
"Oh...so THAT'S why you've you screaming, LIFE, LOVE AND MY GIRL ROCK! up and down the halls. And I thought it was just because you recieved a letter from your mum." he said sarcasticaly. But not even the mention of his mother could bring down his happiness.
"She's absolutly amazing. Like my best friend." he said subconciously. James hurrled himself at his buddy and hugged him long an hard.
"I AM beautiful. And I AM amazing. I DO rock! Oh say it again, Padfoot. Now what's this about Drusella?" James asked as Sirius tried to shouve the stag-boy off him and Remus and Peter were trying their best not to laugh.
"I wasn't talking about you, Prongs. I didn't mean my best friend in that way." he said grumpily, begining to eat.
"Cummon then mate! Tell us what happened!" Remus said, smiling a wide grin.
"Okey. Well, this morning I talked to Dru and...asked her out." he said trying his best not to smile to much. James' open mouth curved into a smile. He slapped the table.
"Good going, Padfoot! So....when's your first date?" he asked. Remus patted Sirius' shoulder and Peter was grinning into his pea soup.
Sirius bit his lip and hesitated. All three boys had a look of anticipation upon their faces and were leanining in to hear the good news.
"Well.........not anytime too soon." he said slowly. James wrinkled his brow. Remus had the same look of confusion and Peter was trying to put the pecies togeather, but failed miserabley.
"I..well......you see..we arn't exactly dating." Sirius said quickly. James looked even more confused and Remus dropped his forehead to the table.
"But you said....." James started, trying to figure out what his friend was saying.
"I know. I did ask her out. She did say yes........I think. She actually told me to wait and see, but she made me promise not to fall in love." he said smiling sheepishly. James banged his head against the table and Peter slapped his forehead.
"Well, I took it as a yes...and it's not like she said-" Remus raised his hand for Sirius to stop. He closed his eyes and shook his head exasperhatingly.
"No. Stop. Don't go on. Just shut up about your romance life, it's way to odd and confusing." he said tiredly. James and Peter nodded in agreement. Sirius looked at them with a depressed look and finished eating his dinner.
When James got back to his dorm, he noticed Lily in the bathroom showering. He knocked on the sliding door, and smiled when she opened it a little, just poking her head out.
"What's your problem? I've seen you naked." he said, smiling goofily. Lily stared at him coldly.
"James. I'm showering!" she said in a pained voice. James laughed and shook his head.
"Whaddya want?" she added, trying to get rid of him.
"Well I came to dorm to see my girlfriend but I see I'm not welcomed." he said, trying his best to sound hurt. He tried to look upset, but couldn't help but smile when Lily's face took on a whole new look. Instead of frustrated she looked frightened.
"Oh, James! No. It's not that! Just give me a second. Please. Don't be mad-" James laughed at her sudden mood swing.
"Lily. Lily. I'm just kidding. Don't worry about it. I'm tired. I'll be in my room if you need me, okey?" he laughed as he turned around.
Lily stared at his back as he headed for the door. An idea struck her.
"James! Wait!" she cried out. He stoped and turned. A mixed look of confusion and sleepiness crossed over his face.
"I'm lonely. Come join me!" she begged. James laughed tiresly, turned around and waved his hand in a movement of saying, not tonight.
"Please!!! Please, James!" He didn't even bother saying anything. She slid open the door, the water still running, stepped out of the shower and ran past James, standing infront of his bedroom door.
A little shocked, James stared at her confused. But he couldn't help but feel a tiny tingle deep inside of ,ahem, him.
Here was the girl he was madly inlove with, naked and dripping wet. She fell to her knees and started begging.
"Come on, Jamsie!" she pouted. He rolled his eyes and lightly pushed her out of the way.
"Ah, it's cute to watch you grovel. Maybe when you get out." he said, not looking at her and opening his door. Lilly nodded solemly and headed back for the shower.
Once inside his room with the door closed, James smashed his back against it and slipped to his bottom. Rubibng his temples, he closed his eyes. Only a full fledge idiot would have done what he had. What kind of guy said no to his soaking wet and naked girlfriend?!
He stood up slowly and fell to his bed. Things crossed his mind. Random things. Exams. Children laughing in the park. A broom and Elsie Petters singing with her rock band at Hogsmeade two years ago.
When Lily walked in, he had already fallen asleep. And she ahd changed into a pair of warm, fuzzy pajamas.
She looked at his sleeping figure and raised a brow. Sighing soflty, shewalked towards his bed and gently slipped off his robe and shoes. She pulled the covers over his body and kissed his forehead lightly.
Turning off the light, she kissed his forehead once again and said, "Goodnight, James." And with that she left the room.
Yeppers. CHapter eleven. I'm happy in a depressed and morbid type of way. I hope you likd it. Oh By the way, Chapter 2 for Romeo and Juliet Lied is almost finished. Hehehe. Okey then. I'll leave you to KC& JoJo's 'All My Life'.....
I will never find another lover
sweeter then you, sweeter then you
And I will never find another lover
more precious then you, more precious then you
Girl you are,
close to me your like my mother
close to me your like my father
close to me your like my sister
close to me your like my brother, brother
You are the only one, your my everything
and for you this song I sing
And all my life
I prayed for someone like you
And I thank God
that I, that I finaly found you
And all my life
I prayed for someone like you
and I pray that you do love me too