Okey, chapter twelve. Er...I still don't own anything. So, enjoy yourself! I'm not sure what will be in this chapter. I'm planning right now on doing about twenty five chapters. I don't know if I'l exceed over. If you want me to continue, I will.

All Through The Night

As if someone had slapped in hard cold in the face, Remus woke with a start. He could hear a girl in the common room sobbing like mad. He rolled out of bed and slipped on a t-shirt. Remus decided to get a look and see what had happened. Other boys were waking up too, and a few empty beds showed that some had already been awake.

"Dude, man, what's going on down there, Moony?" a framilier, yet tired, voice came. Remus turned to see Sirius behind him, his dark drown hair messy and eyes red from lack of sleep.

"Dunno. Sounds like someone's crying though. Death note?" The boys piled out the door and trampled down the stairs, not bothering to be quiet. There were about fifteen students already in the common room, and three girls were peering down the stairs.

"Nooo!" the voice from the crying girl came aloud. She was hidden behing losts of boys and girls, but Remus could tell she had blonde hair, and that it was all over her hidden face covered by her hands.

"Shh, shh, Lenora. Shh, shh." Brady Wrightmen was whispering soothingly. Remus looked at Sirius who was looking taken aback. Lenora Tarrence was one of the happiest girls you'd ever meet, and it took alot to make her cry. She was half muggle and back before Hogwarts she was a Jr. Cheerleader.

"Hey, hey. What's going on?" Sirius asked, lightly turning a boy who was scratching the back of his head. The boy turned to face them with a frown and tears forming in his eyes.

"Chris Tarrence, Lonora's brother, tried to kill himself earlier tonight. He's in the Hospital Wing. They don't know if he'll survive." the boy said in a tired voice. Sirius, wide eyed, looked at Remus, who looked very much confused.

"My God." The portrait to the tower swung open and there stood James and Lily. James looked a bit irritated, but worried too, and you could tell her had recieved the news and was thinking hard about how to cheer up the Gryffindor squad for almost loosing a member of their house.

Lily began to try to calm some of the crying girls down, as James began explaning to some of the older boys what they were going to do about it.

It was morning time but everybody was still shaken up about the night before. Some students had been at the Hospital Wing for hours. Remus along with these other students were white and shaken up. It was certain that no one ever expected anything romotly like this to ever occer. But silent prayers were gllefully cried that the Gryffindor boy had not gone any further to complete his job.

Breakfast that morning was diffrent. Much more silent. Only the soft cries and sharp whispers filled the mess hall. James slouched down in his seat, trying to find something else to think of. Perhaps a lovely prank to lighten the mood. But no one seemed willing to let loose a smile, much less a laugh. And it seemed selfish to decide to do such a foolish thing on such an event.

The Slytherin table was odd. A few were gossiping and Severus Snape and his friend Locus,seemed troubled by the act of the past night. Christopher's worst enemy, and love, Zsusanna Addams, was red faced and her dark eyes that were usualy full of laughter and mischief, were glossy and red from crying. Infact, all houses seemed to carry diffrent groups of diffren emotion struck students.

Some Hufflepuff girls that usualy gossiped about the Marauders and anyone they talked to or dated, were quiet as mice, and it gave a ray of hope to some that their annoying tactics were silenced forever. Some friends of Chris' sitting near Sapphira, who seemed to be trying to calculate why Chris had try'd to take such an awful act, were trying to come up with worthy excuses for their friend's strange idea.

Ravenclaw girls were in tears, the one's Drusella had told off the other day, and for Dru herself, she looked quite tired. She had been up early, giving psychiatric advice to Madam Pomfrey, and having conversations with Chris that sounded much like those that would have been overheared in a Psychologist's office.

And Gryffindors were silent as mice.

"It's awful, isn't it? I tell you, I've heared of these things in muggle schools and such, but I never expected a pure blood wizard to. Dru's been talking to him. She knows all about these things. Maybe she can tell us something about it." James said, as his fellow Marauders and Lily and Sapphira exited Herbology.

"I don't know. She probobly wont want to talk about it. You know. She may find the matter confidential." Remus said slowly, although he too was intrested in the matter.

"But I'm sure she wont mind. If we know the right way to ask....." Sirius added, shifting his bag to his other shoulder. Lily looked at them, bitting her lip, a clear state of her trying to figure out how to say something clearly.

"If we ask her about it, maybe mention how we don't understand these psyciatric issues, and for her to explain it to us." Remus said, frowning slightly. Sirius blinked and nodded.

They walked out to the grass and to the tree the four boys always sat at, and James and the boys had started up a conversation about Quidditch. Remus, who never seemed so intrested in the sport, was hanging on to Sapphira's every word and nodding, eyes wide open.

"Wow." he was saying. But their conversation was cut short when Lily spotted Drusella emerging from the left building. She was reading a parchment and seemed deeply absorbed into it. She didn't even look up saying hello when the six greeted her.

"This makes no sence!" she said instead. Her dark gray eyes flinting with furrey. She clutched the paper angirly and shoved it roughly into her bag.

"Hey, Dru. Mind if we have a word with you?" Sirius asked, putting on his best smile. Dru looked up at them and blinked as if just now realizing that they were there.

"Huh? Oh, yeah, sure. Go ahead." she said, brushing a stray strand of white hair from her red face.

"Well, you see.....it's kind of about Chris' condition...." They had decided to allow Remus to spring the question. Also to disect it. And then Lily or James would ask how this was possible and Sirius or Peter would add a question of their choice that was relevant.

Drusella's face paled. She looked up at them and she looked tired and sick. A frown crossed her face and it looked as though she were racking her brain for an answer.

"Well..." she began slowly. They all looked expactantly at her. All seemed intrested in what she had to say.

"First off, he had emotional problems. Simple. Nothing a little muggle medicine couldn't have straightened out. Depression and such. The worst he had was his Bi-polar issue. Which is when somebody has severe mood swings. Going from happy to sad in a matter of seconds. However, after the attempt of suicide," she paused for a second. A few gasps were heared fromt he group already.

"However," she started again, straightening her straining voice. "He has developed a syndrem, or lack for a better word, illness, called psyophrena. This means he suffers from seeing things and is constantly moving. His attention span is short and sudden and he may seem to grow angry and hatred towards the people he realy loves. Although the latter is not common with most psyo's, it's true in his case.

And to cover it up he's got what I like to call, relation disorder. He's not completly sure who he conciders friends or enimes. But he keeps babbaling on about Zusanna Addams. Mentioning how he needs to know how she is. It's the first thing he asked when he woke up. Madam Pomfrey was suspicious of insomnia before the accident, but I highly doubt it ever ocered to him. He shows no signs of it."

James looked at Dru when she mentioned the last part. He even noticed her eyes dart towards him for a split second.

"What puzzles me is that he has been exposed to being psytotypal for some years now, according to his mental and personality information, and he has yet to have suffered from anything out of the ordinary besides the small disorders and this new found one. It makes no sence. And plus, he says Witch Dr. Alexia Baradez told his mother that since he was about six he's had OCD. Obsessive compuslive disorder. But there are also no traits of that ever existing. I even have the file.

I spoke with his mother on the phone. She's always wanted to be a psychologist , and when I told her the information I had collected and she seemed very intrested in my findings. She was happy that i was helping him out since he was away at school and she had no way of counceling him. Professor Dumbledore didn't mind it much either. Well, that's about it. There realy isn't anything else to say." she finished up. Sirius blinked again. He had never heared Dru talk so much.

"So what your saying is that his problems exceed over the normal disorders he's been having his entire life?" Lily asked. Sapphira too seemed intrested along with Sirius, James and Remus. Peter however, looked utterly confused.

"Looks about so. I'm not sure, though. This is the only information I've gathered since around 6:00 this morning. His mother wants me to meet with him atleast twice a week." she said. The wind was blowing the seven's hair and a bell rung that stood for them to go to lunch.

The seven turned and headed for the long hall. Lily and James were once again holding hands and talking deeply to one another. Remus and Sapphira had seemed to find a topic inwhich they could both disagree on. Peter was talking to Drusella about a essay they had to write in DADA that they were both intrested, and Sirius, who seemed as irritated as ever, pulled Drusella away by her hand and began a privite conversation with her.

"You've thought about it yet?" he asked, not looking at her, but smiling fully. Dru looked at him annoyingly and smirked a smirk of suporiority.

"Nope. I've been trying to work out Chris' case and I-"

"Yeah, but that just happened last night. I mean...........it's been two days, havn't you even thought about it once?" he asked annoyingly. Dru raised a brow but shrugged.

"Maybe. Does it matter?" Drusella asked, smirking haugtily. Sirius let a growl escape his throught.

"Yes, it does. I wanna spend more time with you." he practicaly wailed. Dru placed a scrubby gloved hand on his shoulder. Sirius stared at her hand. Her naturally tanned skin met short stubby fingers with bitten nails. They were unlike Sirius' previous girlfriend, Janet's, who's finger were lovely and long and her nails were lengthy too and always covered with cute bright colors.

"You can always come to my sesions, if you'd like." she said softly. Sirius smiled down at her. They were still walking and she was looking about face. Her eyes were screening the vast groups of students that clobered the grounds.

"Maybe I should become insaine." Sirius said, laughing and nugging the walking girl. She didn't answer but he heared her mutter something as a group of pasing by girls stared hatefully at her.

Sirius wrapped his arm tightly around her shoulder, and received a questioning look from Drusella. He laughed and leaned into her shoulder.

"This is fun." he whispered as Amia Fabrizo and her best friend Eliza Whitter stared at her coldly.

"All nice and cuddly there, eh Drusella?" Eliza spat. But her snooty look changed when Sirius ginned at her.

"I know I sure am." he said as the two walked away leaving a dumbfounded Eliza and Amia. The couple laughed as they caught up with the group which was slowly falling apart.

"Holy shit, did you see her face?! She's all angry then flirtatious and then she's a freking Goldfish!" Sirius said as Dru laughed the hardest she'd ever.

"Yeah, yeah. Well I'll be damned, you sure told her! And to think she paraded around insisting that she was going to end up being your girlfriend." Dru said between fits of giggles.Sirius stared at her with a wild grin upon his handsome face.

"Well if your answers yes, then you've shown her!" he said, still holding her tightly. Suddenly she grinned mischiviously and turned him to face her, smashing her mouth against his.

Sirius was a little shocked, but wanting this too much, he kissed her back.

James Potter looked over at Lily. He wrapped his arm around her waist, bringing her closer to him. Lily giggled slightly, and 'oofed' as her deliquet bbody smashed against his rough, built one.

"Did I miss that offer too much Monday?" he whispered into her ear. Lily laughed as he nuzzled his nose in her neck.

"Well you can make it up to me later." she whispered back, just as suductively. James laughed and squeesed his girl closer to him, his smile bright as the morning sun. Now this was the life. That infuriating pain that weighed him down ceased to exist. Instead, it was replaced by a new found glory that made his eyes wide open. And the distrought boy could see much more then he had. The world wasn't intirely ruthless and painfull. Life had light and even if the scars still proved fears existance, James Potter knew now that as long as the woman in his arms was as dedicated to this feeling as he was, the scars needen't be anymore.

"That sounds like fun." he said grinning. Lily looked up at him and immiediatly felt her heart pumping. Something about him, something she hadn't seen before. But it was that everytime she looked at James Potter, she couldn't help but fall inlove with him again and again. It seemed almost ridiculus that she ever had any sort of hatered toward the boy. Sure, he was a little obnoxious andarrogent, he'd admitted to being that, but he wasn't a lowlife or scumbag. He wasn't careless and selfish. Infact, nobody, not even Lily's first love, had ever struck her so feircely. His smile. His eyes. His personality.The way he held himself. Just so oddly beautiful and wonderful.

'And to think he actually hurt himself over you!" said a sneer-like voice in Lily's head. And although it made Lily sad, the look on James' face was nothing but excitment and happiness. Because he loved her, more then anyone could love her. And how was it she'd never seen this?! The romantic and cute man under the silly teenager. He'd goof of and annoy the crap out of anyone he wanted, but he'd whisper in her ear, and speak about her as if God couldn't create anything superior. Even back before they got togeather. He'd defend her when others laughed. He'd peak for her when others wouldn't listen. He'd walk for her when she didn't have the strength to walk. And he'd take rejection after rejection, and still love her. His strength and bravery amazed her.

"James, why wouldn't you let go. I mean, I don't want you to but.....what made you hold onfor so long?" she asked, her voice soft and shakey. James looked at her and raised a brow. He made a gesture to show he understood the question, but heaved his shoulders up and droped thim with thr relase of a tired sigh.

"Well, like I can't stop saying, your everything that matters. Everything that counts. Theres nothing, and I sware when I say this, Lily- nothing, that can ever, ever compare to you. And I guess, just the thought of you made me hold on. It dosn't make much sence, but most of the time, the things that don't make sence, are the best things you'll ever find." he said in his deep, soothing voice. Lily stared at him, tears practicaly shimmering in her eyes. She gave him a toothless smile and griped his shoulder, leaning him down for a kiss.

James felt a bit taken aback by this, but it didn't matter. Nope. Not one single bit.

"I'm just glad that you finaly said yes. You were a real headcold, you know? Realy hard to impress." he added, as they pulled apart. Lily swatted him playfully and looked shocked.

"Well, cursing Snivillus isn't exactly what I find impressing. But what you did the other night now THAT was impressive." she said, sending him a sly grin. James had caught on and was a little red, but he grinned and wrapped his arms around her waist, giving her bottom a little squease.

"Honey, you could sit and stare at the cealing for hours and I'd be impressed." Lily smiled back up at him.

"I'll be happy if you impress me tonigh-"

"Hey Prongs! Lily! We better hurry it up. Padfoots having a non-food melt down right now!" Remus shouted over his shoulder to the lagging couple. James stared up ahead to see awful looking Sirius hanging on to Drusella's shoulder. Dru didn't look to happy about havving to drag the boy, but didn't complain.

"We're catching up!" he shouted, laughter ringing in his voice. He looked down at Lily who was giggiling like mad, and clutched her hand back in his.

"He's right. Sirius' looks like a deflated beachball. It's a plastic blow up ball that muggles play with on the beach." Lily said after James gave her a confused look.

"You know, it's ironic how each one of your friends found a girl-all at the same time." Lily pointed out, as they steped into the hall. It was quite loud and a group of Ravenclaw and Slytherin girls were practicing a step rountine, they wanted to preform for the upcomming talent show.

"Yeah. By the way- what are you doing for the talent show. True it's three weeks away, but three weeks is little time in the world of show-biz." James asked, grinning down at her. Lily smiled at him and waved her hands at her sides.

"Maybe a little dance routine. You think Hogwarts would like to see their Head Girl dirty dance?" she asked, waving her brows suggestively. James raised a brow in intrest.

"I know the Head Boy would." Lily laughed and walked over to the line where the students stood to recieve their lunches. (Look, I don't know how the lunch thing works. But I've seen-in one of the movies- them sit down at a table with a lunch tray so maybe they do the same thing we do at most schools. You know....lunchlines.)

"Yeuk. Spinnich rolls. Haven't these people ever heared of the word-edible?" James asked realy no one. Lily chose to answer, as she slapped a spoonfull of baked beans onto her tray.

"The house elves make it, James. Appreciate instead of complain." she said, her soft voice lined with a bit of ice.

"Well, that's no suprise, Lily. I'm just sayin- they're smart elves. They have spinich rolls left over all the time. Nobody eats them. Havn't they caught on yet?" he asked defencivaly, slopping two servings of mashed poteatos onto his tray.

"True, true, just....oh forget about it." Lily muttered as they exited the line and thanked a house elf that was standing nearst the door.

They sat down at their table and waited untill Sirius, Remus and Peter arrived with their trays full. Sirius especially.

"Damn, Padfoot. Did you get four of everything?! And you must be extreamelly hungry-and daring- to get THAT!" James said, wrinkling his nose at the Spinich roll that sat on Sirius' plate.

"Yep. Man, I wish other Houses could sit with us, don't you Moony?" he asked, staring at Remus with puppy eyes.

"Yeah.....well.......I don't want to grow too clingy......"he said, staring painfully over at Hufflepuff table, where Sapphira was being surrounded by girls she had never talked to before.

"Hullo James. Sirius. Peter. Remus. Lily. How's everybody today?" a voice said. James turned to see a boy with dark brown hair standing before them.

"Fine. And you, Frank?" James answered for the group. The boy, Frank, was quite good looking. Although he lacked that special charm Sirius had, his had a broad, good natured face, and soft chocolate brown eyes.

He sat down opposite of James and grinned.

"I'm alright. Say, could you help me with something. I'm having a bit of trouble." Frank said, his voice growing uneasy. His face began to turn red.

"Sure." Remus said smiling happily.

"Well, okey. You see......you know Alice Walgner? You know, Ravenclaw. Raven haired. Well, I want to ask her out, but everytime I decide to...I kind of well...........don't." Frank said in a soft, short voice. Sirius looked at him intently. This was an extreamelly common feeling for anyone to have.

"Just ask her out, mate. That's all you can do." he said, half smiling. Frank looked at him almost confused. His eyes trailed past Sirius' head over to the Ravenclaw table where a pretty girl with dark purplish black hair was whispering excitedly to her skunk haired friend.

A smile smile tugged onto his face, as he watched her head slap back in laughter. To him, she was as gorgous as the Goddess Aphordite, if not more. To him, she was exactly what he pictured the perfect girl to be like. Or atleast, his perfect girl. But the thought of actually asking her out made him pale. It's not that she wasn't kind. She was sweet to him and smiled when he'd stumble over words when talking to her. But she seemed almost untuchable. She was so out there and alive and incharge. And he was quiet and shy and had the most awful time trying to talk to a pretty girl.

Suddenly, a pair of dark brown eyes met his. Frank became as pale as what would be Lord Voldemort. Alice had caught him staring at her. He gulped sort of and tried to lower his eyes, but found it impossible.

Drusella leaned over and whispered something in Alice's ear which made her blush and smile. Before he knew it, she had stood up and was walking toward him. He paled even more and sweated. His teeth began chattering and his breath became rapid.

"Hey Lily, James, Remus, Peter, Sirius, Frank. How are you this afternoon?" she asked, her voice cool and smooth. Frank almost fainted.

"Ay-Uh...your fine-I mean-It's fine." he suddenly blurted out. He blushed a beep crimson that made him look strangely like a pepper. James saw this and chose to step in.

"Lovely day. Frank was just saying that he needed to talk to you." he said casually. Frank shot him a bewildered look, but he just smiled back peacefully. A red tint clearly shone from her face and she grinned nervously.

"Alright." she said bitting her bottom lip. Frank haad a still look of horror before he stood up, grabbed her hand and pulled her out of the Great Hall.

"What is it...Frank?" Alice's voice was smooth and warm. Frank felt his cheeks burn and dug his hands into his pockets.

"I well....er...just wanted to say...that...well....I...don't realy know." he muttered. Alice smiled shyly at his nervousness and looked down. Frank looked at her angelic face and begged to Merlin that for once he'd have enough courage to ask Alice out. Instead he did the rasional. He grasped her by her shoulders and pulled her roughly to him, smashing his lips onto hers.

She pulled back, a little shocked and opened her mouth to ask something, but Frank obviously didn't care, as he grabbed her again and once again kissed her. But this time Alice didn;t move. Not a budge. Instead she lifted her arms and incircled therm around his neak.

When they pulled apart, they were both panting slightly and Frank turned bright red.

"S-sorry about that. I d-don't know what came over me." he stuttered. Alice looked up at him and her jaw dropped.

"What?! Your sorry?!" she asked, induriusly. Franks blinked, slightly taken aback and confused.

"Well-I mean. It wasn't exactly polite and-"

"Oh my God, Frank. You kiss me and say your sorry? What is your problem?" she asked. Frank shifted his feet.

"Er-well. I took advantage of you and forced you-" but he never finished his sentece as Alice threw herself on this time around. But he didn't complain. He just kissed back.

Lily moaned slightly as James' hands did their magic. It felt soo good. His hands on her. What and expert. She shivered as he rubed her again. And her eyes shot open as they travled a bit lower. What a sensation. What a good feeling. Man, could James Potter give a back rub.

I'm the one who needs a back rub. With at that Quidditch and what not." he said grumpily. Lily grinned and sat up slightly, she turned her body around so he was straddling her. James grinned and leaned in closer to catch her lips.

"You owe me, James Potter." she said lustfully. He laughed and tuched her shoulder softly.

"Concider it done." he muttered as he pushed her onto her back. He captured her lips in his and shouved his body as hard as his could against her. Lily moaned again untill his hands went up her skirt and stoped.

"Um, Lily. Are you sure you want to-" he said nudging their postition with his elbow. Lily rolled her eyes and kissed him.

"You act like we've never done it before. Come on, continue." she ordered. James nodded reasuringly. His hands travled back up her skirt and she gasped as he rubbed her thighs. Lily looked down and smirked.

" Can I have a go at your wand?" she asked suductivley. James, who hadn't caught on, shurgged and reached for his wand that sat on his lamp table. Lily snorted and grasped it from him, liking it slightly. Suddenly, it hit James. His cheeks grew slightly pink but he grinned and pulled the wand from her hands.

"Not yet, Lils." he said huskily. She frowned sort of but grinned when she saw what the young wizard was going to do with his wand.

Okey. This chapter went slightly well. Long, yes. I had to add Alice and Frank. Even Molly and Authur will be squeesed in. Okey, any way, I do hope you enjoy this. It's a bit diffrent. Well, thank you for reading and (if you do,which I beg of you) reviewing. This song belongs to Cindi Lauper.

We have no past

we wont reach back

Keep with me forward; all through the end

And when it starts

The meter clikcs

And it goes running all through the night

Untill it ends we'll never end