Holy freaking crap! I am the worst person in the world! How could I have abandoned this story for so freaking long! Gyahhhhhh! I was just re-reading it and realized-Holy crap, I started this in my seventh/eighth grade years. Now I'm a junior in High School. What the hell? Damn it! Well, I need to work on this sooo bad. I really miss writing it. And hey-what with being in school again I might have some inspiration. (It might be weird inspiration, seeing how I now go to freaking military school…but…oh well…). Anyhoodle, has anyone seen those Sirius/Lily/James videos on Youtube? They're so awesome. They use footage from Saved and Donnie Darko and Savage something…but they're really good. I'm thinking of making one (or a few) for TIH. I REALLY wanna do that. If you get the chance, go check those videos out. Sure…there's no Sirius/Lily stuff in here (cause Lily belongs with James, and in this story Sirius either belongs alone or with Dru!)

Meh, enjoy what I have now come to write.

Chapter 28: What Hurts the Most

James chuckled as a rather disgruntled group of Ravenclaws passed by, all tugging at their Quidditch gloves. The game against them had been won quickly, with Gryffindor, of course, taking the win. Lagging behind the rest of her teammates, James noticed Drusella looking rather stoic.

He jogged over to her and got in step.

"Hey, Dru…you okay?" He asked. The raven-haired beater raised her head and than arched a brow.

"That depends. Okay as in mentally…or okay as in how I'm fairing today?" Drusella asked. James opened his mouth to say something, but realized that nothing would come out. He scratched the back of his head and tried to think of something to say.

"Forget it. I'm doing alright. Now, I've got to get changed." She said offhandedly. James blinked and watched her retreating form. Before she could get too far away, James called after her.

"Hey, Drusella! What are you going to do about Sirius?"

The girl stopped in her tracks. For a few fleeting seconds, James regretted asking her this, but he knew it had to be done. The question had been nagging him ever since he'd found Sirius sprawled out drunk on the common room carpet.

"I don't know." She muttered. James raised a brow and stepped closer to her. The girl's back was still turned to his, and she had her head down.

"Can't you two…I don't know…talk about this? It's getting kind of annoying, if you-"

Drusella turned and glared at him hotly.

"And it's none of your business either. In fact, it's none of anyone's business. If it's so fatal to you, why don't you ask your best friend? He seems to know all the answers to how I'm living my life."

And with that she spun on her heel and headed toward the locker room to change out of her uniform. James growled and shook his head. Damn and he thought his relationship with Lily had been pathetic. Did Sirius and Drusella have a damned clue what was going on in their own relationship? James highly doubted it. Together, they were like a bi-polar person, on and off again, angry and than madly in love. The raven haired seeker didn't know what was worse; his stupid addiction to cutting, or his friend's inability to hold a decent relationship. Ever.

"James, what are you looking at?" Lily came up behind James, taking his hand. James groaned and dropped his head in defeat.

"I was just trying to get some information out of Drusella but than she got all P.M.S-y and started yelling at how things going between her and Sirius wasn't any of my business."

Lily raised a brow.

"Well, technically James, they're not." James scoffed.

"Sirius is my best friend! When he's partially passed out pissed and rambling on and on about how he thinks he's a major screw up, and than ends up crying, it becomes my business."

"Sirius got drunk?" Lily asked darkly, her Head Girl persona fading in. James nodded impatiently and continued on with his rant.

"Than Drusella goes and says that 'if I just had to know, than why don't I ask Sirius, because he obviously knows what's going on in her life'! I swear to Merlin, what is that girl's problem? Why must girls be so insane all the damn time?" James growled. Lily raised another brow and crossed her arms, sighing loudly. Apparently, she was going to have to give James another speech, as if he were a child and she the adult. How could someone so loving and compassionate in his own relationship, be so dense about women and other relationships, including his own best friend's?!

"James, you'll have to excuse Drusella. She's probably so lost and confused that she can't tell what's left from right anymore. I'm not surprised, she's always been a loner and now she's dating one of the most popular guys in school. Can't you see this is hard for her? Sirius, just like you, can have any girl he wants and yet, he chooses someone whom never even imagined he'd look at. The poor girl must be devastated, especially what now with Sirius thinking she's in love with Barty Junior. It's enough to drive any girl insane."

James groaned and ran a hand through his hair.

"Must women be so complicated?" James asked. Lily scoffed.

"Complicated? What do you think men are? They're over-baring bastards who think with their balls all the time. And they jump to conclusions-"

"Men jump to conclusions? Lily, women are the ones who jump to conclusions! Oh my God, he's looking at another girl! He's cheating on me…wahh!" James mocked sourly. Lily gaped at him in utter disgust.

"Excuse me, James Potter, but men think the same thing if a girl just happens to look at another guy. Half the men in the world get all jealous and insulting if a girl even bothers trying to make a friend of the opposite sex. Like Drusella and Barty Jr. for example. Is it so wrong for women to have male friends? How come guys can have all the female friends in the world, and it's alright, but it's just wrong for a girl to have guy friends?"

"What the hell are you insinuating, Lily? That I'm not being loyal to you or fucking something?"

"Oooh, now who's jumping to conclusions? This isn't about you, James."

James growled angrily.

"And it's not about you either. So tell me than, why the hell are we fighting?" He asked. Lily's glare softened and she looked away, ashamed.

"I'm sorry. I guess I assumed you were talking about me…somehow…" James sighed and rubbed his temples tiredly. He reached out and took Lily's shoulders in his hands. Leaning close to her, he rested his forehead on her own.

"No. Never. I never find you complicated or disgusting or annoying or anything that falls into that category. Being with you makes me happier than I have ever been in my entire life."

Lily bit back the tears that had already begun to form in her eyes.

"No you haven't. It's because of me that you even started harming yourself-"

"Lily, trust me that was a stupid mistake made on my own accord. I was just so used to getting what I wanted when I wanted it that not doing so drove me insane. I'm an idiot; you've got to believe me. I love everything that is part of you and me. I love staying up late at night because I can't get you out of my head. I love contemplating things you've said for hours. You have to realize that hearing you say you'll marry me changes everything in my life. I'm not afraid anymore, Lily. I've got you now."

"But…you've lost your parents as well." Lily cried in between tears. James felt his stomach drop and knew that the tears would be coming for him as well. He tried not to think about his parents' death, especially since he knew it would make him vulnerable and emotional, and he didn't want to be like that around Lily.

"Yeah…that's true…" He muttered, smiling sadly. "But they couldn't be happier to know that I'm not alone at all. They'd love to know that you will be with me. They talked about you all the time…mum couldn't wait till she could see you in a wedding dress."

By now, Lily was sobbing loudly. She clutched at James' sweaty Quidditch robes. Thankfully for them, they weren't causing a scene, for everyone had gone inside. Stroking her hair gently, James held Lily in his arms.

"Calm down, love…"

"I'm sorry, James. I'm so sorry."

James closed his eyes and groaned mentally. Why was she always so damn sorry? Didn't Lily know that he loved everything about her, that everything she said meant the world to him? She had nothing to ever be sorry about.

"I love you, Lily." He said boldly. She looked up at him with red eyes and than hugged him tighter.

"I love you, James."

He cradled her face in his hands and wiped the tears from her face with his thumb. James gave Lily a warm smile before taking her back into his arms.

"Let's go inside. I'm starving." Lily giggled and took his hand, leading him towards the castle.

"You're such a nerd, James. Ugh, let's just hope for your sake that the kitchens are still open." James grinned and pulled her roughly back to him.

He raised his brows playfully.

"Who said I was hungry for food?"

Drusella wrapped her arms around herself as she stepped out into the cold English air. She had been told that Sirius was seen outside, and she guessed that he would be at 'lonely hill'. While changing after the game, Drusella came to the conclusion that she ought to apologize to Sirius. After all, it pretty much was her fault.

Most of the kids were inside; after all, the curfew hour was only a few minutes away. Drusella, however, didn't care. Obviously, Sirius didn't either. Drusella walked out into the grassy hills of the school grounds, her back on the castle that glowed with comfort and warmth. She eyed the nearing forest nervously and sped up her pace.

Her mind traveled back to Sirius. She'd seen him talking to a large group of Gryffindor Sixth year girls earlier that day. They seemed to be having the time of their lives and it made Drusella sick to her stomach. She should have known that he would move on quickly. After all, she wasn't exactly that hard to get over. Drusella knew she wasn't nearly as pretty or as intelligent as Sirius' previous girlfriends probably were. Still, she knew she ought to apologize to him none the less. Even if he never wanted to see her again, she had to at least try.

Suddenly, Drusella felt something swerve around her and push her against one of the building walls. Gasping loudly, her attacker placed his hand over her mouth.

There was a slight rustle and an illegible whisper before a bright light almost blinded Drusella's vision. She came into contact with familiar brown eyes and gasped again. It was Sirius.

"Oi…don't scream." He muttered. After a few seconds, he removed his hand from her mouth and stepped away from her, just gazing.

"Sirius," Drusella said, "what…"

Sirius looked at her gravely.

"What are you doing out here? You said…that thing was always out here…" He said 'thing' harshly. Drusella looked down at her feet, trying to think of a sufficient excuse.

"I…I was told you'd be out here." She said slowly. Sirius raised a brow and crossed his arms.

"You were looking for me?" He asked. Drusella nodded and looked up at him, her dull gray eyes sending shivers down his spine.

"I can go if you like." She said, standing straight up to step around him. He stopped her with his hand and pushed her back into the wall.

"Don't go. Look, we need to talk." Sirius said sternly. Drusella bit her lip and than nodded. Sirius looked around him and than pulled something out from inside his robe.

"Okay, I'd rather do this somewhere else. I borrowed James' invisibility cloak." He said, shaking the cloak out. Drusella blinked and than watched as Sirius began to disappear as he pulled it on.

"Where are we…?"

"Room of requirement." Sirius said shortly. He grabbed her hand and shoved her beneath the cloak before she could protest.

After some quick running, and dodging a few teachers, Sirius led Drusella down one of the carpeted corridors. Drusella furrowed her brow, wondering how on earth Sirius knew where the gossiped about 'room of requirement' was located.

"Shit. Drusella…I want you to think about a room right now, alright. Just a room we can talk in private in. Nothing special, alright?"

Confused, Drusella nodded and concentrated really hard on a room. Ignoring Sirius wishes for the room to be simple, she imagined the room with maroon walls, something Sirius might like. And there would be a large couch and a fireplace.

Suddenly, a door speared before them. Drusella blinked and Sirius muttered, "ah-ha" under his breath. Pulling open the door, Sirius dragged the girl along with him. He snorted when the room was presented to him. Drusella looked in and laughed as well.

The room was everything Drusella wanted and more. Maroon walls, a couch and fire place made the room seem cozy. But there was also a bed sitting in the middle of the carpeted room. Drusella turned to Sirius and raised a brow. He grinned at her.

"Never know." He said, blushing. Drusella made no comment and turned around, staring at the room.

"Can we take this damn cloak off?" She asked, pinching the fabric. Sirius nodded quickly and pulled it off, throwing it onto the couch.

"Now what did-"

"Drusella, look-"

Sirius sighed and looked at the ground.

"You probably don't want my apology." He said slowly. Drusella didn't speak, wanting to hear him out.

"It's just…I have to. I've been a jerk. I don't even deserve to be forgiven." He continued to stare at the ground.

"What I said the other day…about no one loving you…it was a lie. The truth is…I've been…well…kinda jealous lately…" He said, blushing again. Drusella stared at him.

"Kind of jealous?" She repeated. Sirius bit his lip and looked up at her, rubbing the back of his neck.

"Okay, really jealous."

"That's not what I mean. What were you jealous about?" She asked, cocking her head to one side, her expression remaining plain and unreadable. This made Sirius even more nervous, not knowing what she was thinking. He blushed again.

"Well…of your relationship with Crouch." Sirius muttered like a child not wanting to let loose a secret. Drusella cocked a brow.

"What relationship? The one where I help him in class?" She asked. Sirius went red again and looked back down at the ground.

"Look, Dru…I can't exactly explain why I got so fired up about it. I just…didn't like seeing you with him. It doesn't have anything to do with the fact that you're not good enough for him…in fact, I think you're way too good for him. You're diffidently way too good for me." He frowned sadly. Drusella looked at him curiously before speaking.

"That's not true." Sirius' laugh was like the bark of a dog.

"Please, most girls wouldn't have even bothered to come hear me out…" Drusella sighed.

"We both need to figure this out. Not just for our sakes, but we're driving our friends crazy." She said pointedly. Sirius nodded and than looked back up at her.

"I saw you kiss Crouch the other night." He said suddenly. It was Dru's turn to look downwards.

"I'm guessing you assumed…"

"Yeah, I did assume something. But that's not it. I couldn't bear to think of you…of him…I just…"

"He asked me out." Drusella stated. Sirius clenched his fists and bit back a growl.

"Oh-"

"I told him…no." She added. He looked up at her and gave her a weak smile.

"I'm not surprised other guys like you or ask you out, Dru. You're beautiful…what sane guy wouldn't?" Drusella turned scarlet.

"I'm in love with you, Drusella." She looked up at him, wide eyed. No guy, not even Sirius, had ever said that to her and had it meant so much. Drusella gaped at him, unsure and unable to speak.

Sirius looked at her with as much intensity, emotion, honesty and passion as he possibly could.

"I'm in love with you."

Drusella's gaze dropped to her feet and she tried to hold back the tears that were forming in her eyes. How could it be that being with Sirius had made her the happiest she'd ever been, but also make her cry more than she'd ever cried? Suddenly, she remembered something from ages ago.

Emotion will save the one person it destroyed.

Finally, it all made sense. Love and happiness had made her life miserable and painful. She never wanted to hear those destructive words said to her, but now it felt comforting. It felt good-no, amazing, to hear Sirius say them to her.

Mwahaha, cliffie!

Sorry about the long wait. I'm trying to bone up on that. I have no refutable excuses so I'm not gonna even bother. I'm just plain lazy. Don't worry James/Lily fans, all the good J/L stuff is going to come up once Sirius and Drusella decide to grow up and mend their relationship. Don't forget, I've still got the wedding and little Harry's birth to work on. By the way, I was reading over some of my reviews and I noticed that people are telling me that they love Dru. So, would anyone be interested in me writing a fanfic all about Drusella (and Sirius, of course)? 'Cause I kinda do wanna write one. Well, be sure to tell me or something! Wooooooot.