Edwards POV (before the letter)
Huh... Rosalie and Emmett are having a tough time. I just wished Emmett stopped thinking about playing halo with...Bella. Bear hugging Bella...feeding Bella human food.
It kills me inside. He is not the only one who thinks of Bella as well. What have I done, I am such an ass hole. I left the one girl who will hold my heart and soul forever.
Yes, I had changed my outlook on the soul issue. It was not only after I left Bella that I realised the emptiness in the pit of my non functioning stomach. My soul was missing, my soul was Bella. I lived, if you may call it that, for Bella, my Bella. My love...I continued to stare at nothing. Nothing interested me anymore. I couldn't bear playing the piano, in fear that I may play Bella's lullaby...too many time have I attempted to run to the Volturi, to ask to be killed. Yet Pixie saw my decision and the family held me back. I could not live without Bella. Alice stopped seeing visions of Bella 1 month after I had left her, the last vision she saw was of Bella crying on the side of the street. Then it went Black. It happened too quickly for anyone to do anything. We rang Charlie yet there was no answer. We realised it was early morning in Forks. Alice continued to search for her future. Yet nothing returned in our favour. Alice had two visions of Charlie shortly after Bella's final future vision. Charlie sat in Bella's room, crying, looking at a photo of Bella before prom. The final vision of Charlie was him being shot by some thug whilst pinning a drunken lunatic to the police car. Our worst fears were undeniably confirmed. Bella was dead.
Rosalie was thinking back to her human years, as she does once in a while. I understand it pains her, you can see it physically torturing her eyes, wanting to cry so badly yet not being able to.
I vaguely heard my sisters outside discussing getting ready for tonight. Urgh. Great. I chose not to listen to them, even though it was hard not to with our high level of hearing. Tonight we were going to a show in Seattle. No one bar Alice's knows what to come of it. As always Alice is shielding her thoughts from me by thinking of giving me a makeover. Great.
That was when I heard the most mind destroying comment from no other than Rosalie.
Alice is always excited when it comes to fashion and beauty. She is like a true sister...Unlike Bella. Ahhh Bella, the poor defenceless human... she was merely average in looks, but not overly pretty, for a human she was normal. she lacked the fashion taste that we Cullen's enjoy and uphold...shit sorry Edward I know it's hard for you to hear her name...I'm really sorry, I don't mean to sound a bitch...you know what I'm like...
She was right about fashion, Bella had no interest in material possessions, a trait that although I tried to falter by trying to buy her gifts, it was a trait I admired. Bella was strong minded. Bella was...Bella. I hitched in an un-necessary breath as I heard Bella's name resound in my mind. It tortured me, the pain ravaged my body, if I didn't know I was already a vampire, I would think I was being turned again. The pain diminished...As I grew anger towards Rosalie's comments...Bella loved Rosalie, she told me so herself, despite Rosalie's lack of kindness towards Bella. And there is Rosalie saying Bella was not a sister...I noticed in my reflection my eyes had gone a dark shade of brown, almost black, signalling my angst against Rosalie.
Jasper walked around the sofa and sat next to me.
Keep calm my brother, Rosalie's emotions are all over the place at the moment..She is not clear headed. I am sure I can already sense guilt reeling off of her. I turned and smiled at my brother. I returned to starting at nothing, catching my reflexion, my eyes had returned to the golden colour they usually were.
Rosalie waltzed into the living room shortly followed by a confused looking Emmett.
Emmett's mind was blank, as if he was just thinking of a never ending black wall. Poor brother.
"Ha-ha what's wrong, you look confused" Rosalie chanted at him. Huh maybe he looked in the mirror and thought he had a twin
I looked up for the first time since she had arrived back at the house; I sort of smiled then frowned. However I found the joke slightly amusing, and so would Emmett if he was in the right mood, But I did not like Rosalie's attitude lately.
Sorry again Eddie boy, I'm only joking I love him. Kind of. Just not more than the best pair of shoes I own. The dolce 4inch heel with peep toe! Ahh gorgeous pair...
I frowned again. I took a serious dislike to the meaner Rosalie, I understood that she and Emmett were having problems, but she was fully aware that I could read her mind yet she continued to belittle my brother in her mind.
"Umm, no I just found a letter in the glove compartment... It's for you Edward." Emmett mumbled.
"I'm in no mood for junk mail Emmett; it's probably another promotion for the bar in town or a reminder from Tanya that she wants me..." I replied nonchalantly. The thought of Tanya's constant advances made me shudder. Hell I would shudder too if I had that sorry state after my body... I had to crack a small smile at Rosalie's more cheerful humour.
Nice to see you smiling Eddie- boy she sang in her thoughts. I hate that nickname.
"Don't call me that Rosalie, it's so annoying" I was literally speaking to the wall that my gaze remained upon.
Sorry...Eddie boy. Shut up Rosalie I added mentally.
"Umm sorry to interrupt you guys but its hand written, and has no address, just a name. It may be important brother" Emmett mumbled. This was unlike Emmett, Emmett was full of confidence, always looking for the next prank, he wanted to look like a celebrity not even 5 minutes ago! What with the sudden change?
let's play a love game play a love game do you want love do you want love are you in a love game, domle love game Rosalie was hiding something. That wasn't unusual.
Emmett's emotions are all over the shot Edward, happiness mixed with sadness and loss... and a little tinge of anxious with excitement...what are his thoughts? Jasper mentally informed me. I focused on Emmett's thoughts. He was thinking about Forks, about how he missed ...Bella. He looked at me anxiously then the thoughts just spilled out.
Dude this letter is fucking important. Its Bella's handwriting!
I shot up grabbed the letter out of Emmett's hands and sat back down on the couch, looking at the envelope. Sod this, I'm bored of Edwards emotional train ride Rosalie sneered and grabbed Emmett and dragged him upstairs.
It's an envelope, it doesn't open itself, tear it open retard was Rosalie's final thought as she made her way to the other side of our mansion.
I flipped the envelope over and true to his thoughts Emmett was right. There scrawled out on the plain envelope was "Mr. Edward Cullen" with a really small heart drawn below. If my heart could beat, it would have jumped out of chest.
"Bella..." I cried out.
Esme, Carlisle, Alice and Jasper surrounded me, thinking I was about to run for the Volturi again.
"The letter is from Bella..."
Everyone gasped, their faces plastered in shock and pain...even Alice's. How did she not see this coming?
AN : I have re read this plenty of times over the past 2 days, just wanted it to be perfect for you guys! But just couldn't wait any longer to post it up.
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