Tyler POV

I was the first one to hit the water and go in. The farther down I got the darker it got. But I could make out two shapes struggling against something. Seeing Levina I saw Caleb already getting Pogue out. She reached out trying to grab my hand. After a few misses I finally grasped her hand but she still seemed to be pulled down no matter how hard I pulled. Using, I sent a blast past her and she swam loose. Pulling her up I saw Pogue and Caleb had nearly made it to the shore.

"You okay?" I asked

"Oh yes its okay that I nearly drowned." She stuttered

Laughing a little, I helped her to the shore where Caleb was helping Pogue as he coughed up water.

"We n-need to get b-back. With Chase around nho one should be alone." Levina stuttered

Rubbing my hands up and down her arms hoping it would only stop the shivering. Pogue nodded in agreement as he still coughed up water. For a moment I looked down at her then quickly looked back at Caleb hoping she didn't notice. But I saw her lips curl a little and I could tell she was hiding her small smile. Goose bumps rose on my arms. b

"Let's go Baby Boy." Pogue said

Nodding I took her hand and started back toward campus.

Lyra POV

"Just sit." I ordered

As he did I started searching through cupboards hoping that maybe there'd be something to stop the bleeding.

"Lyra I'm fine. Seriously don't worry about it." Reid insisted

"Yes getting stabbed because you're an idiot is definitely fine." I hissed

"Okay next time I'll let you get gutted." He said

"Good." I mumbled

Finding a dish towel I walked back over to the couch and lifted his shirt only to find no wound and just blood.

"See? I'm fine." He said in a low voice

"You can't keep using Reid." I mumbled

"Sorry, I didn't feel like bleeding to death on the couch."

"I'm just saying to be careful." I said as I wiped the blood from his side

His hand moved under my chin as he lifted it so his eyes met mine. Please tell me he can't see how terrified I am? Because at the moment looking at him, the only thing I could hear was my own heart and I felt like I'd go deaf from it soon.

"You know I'm not like him don't you? Or is that why you don't want to be near me?" he asked

"I know Reid it's just…I have problems holding back when there are others using. When I was with Chase I had a lot of problems." I started

"You're not like that anymore apparently."

"I hope so." I mumbled

"You're not if you were I would've knocked you on your ass." He growled

"I'm not good at being attached to only one person." I added knowing that if my power fright didn't push him away that would

"Then that makes two of us." he said grinningj

I couldn't hide the smirk. He leaned forward and before I got the chance to back away his lips touched mine. His lips were soft and not pushing. But I wanted him to push. I wanted to know that what I was feeling wasn't going to leave me. Feeling his hand caress my cheek as he kissed I leaned into it. Then all of the sudden there was a coughing sound. My eyes shot open and we both looked over at Caleb and the others who had walked in. Levina and Caleb had a look of seriousness whereas Pogue was looking in every direction but us and Tyler was staring at the floor. Moving away quickly I grabbed Levina.

"We'll be at her dorm searching her room while uh…she gets dry clothes."

"I'll come with." Caleb said

"Get dry clothes then meet us." I said as I took one more quick glance at Reid then left

Rushing out the door, I wanted to put as much as I could between me and Caleb. About halfway across campus Levina finally stopped.

"Well surprises keep popping up everywhere lately care to tell me anything else that might shock me to death?" she asked

"Like what?"

"Like that maybe when we walked in you were sucking face with a guy who nearly gave you head trauma at the beginning of the year."

"I can't explain it. Trust me I can't even think about it." I said

"Then why do you do it?"

I was silent. I didn't know what i was doing. My feelings were so mixed up and twisted that i didn't know what to do. But when I was with Reid it all untwisted. It's complicated.

"Do you…like him."

"It scares me Levi." I said "I don't want to be dragged under like I was with Chase."

"You won't. Trust me when I say that. You don't have just me looking out for you anymore." she said as she wrapped an arm around my shoulders

I smiled a little and we continued walking.

"And thanks by the way." she said

"For?"

"You know." She said smiling

"Ah right. No problem. Plus I'm not a complete skank." I said

"That's right this skank is off limits now." Levina added

"I guess so."

Reid POV

Opening my mouth to say something Caleb cut in.

"Not a word Reid. I don't have time to argue with you but later I will have plenty of time." He growled

Great more time to get my ass reamed, I thought to myself.

"Just change and get over to the girl's dorm." He ordered

And this time I listened. I didn't fight back. If I did I knew he wouldn't hold back.

As I changed my shirt Caleb burst into my room.

"Just tell me why? It was one simple thing Reid! Yet you couldn't pull through." He said infuriated

"Caleb it's not that simple. If it were I would gladly explain."

"So you play her?"

"No it's not like that." I huffed

"Then how is it?"

"I…I don't know. It just is." I said flustered

It wasn't as if I could explain what was going on. she was having troubles trying to avoid repeating history and I wanted to make new history.

"Caleb…I won't let anyone else have her. I can't let anyone else have her." I said in a low voice

He just stared at me coldly.

"I've tried everything but I just can't do what you ask of me. Not this time. You can kick my ass over it but it won't change my mind." I said

After trying to stare me down for a few minutes he just sighed bring his hands over his face.

"You hurt her I will kill you." He growled

"So you'd protect her over me who you've known oh I don't know all your life."

"Blood comes first Reid." He stated then walked out

Lyra POV

Searching through the Leah's side of the room I found nothing. just papers from class and multiple books.

"Find anything?" I heard Caleb ask as he and Reid came in

"No." I huffed

Standing up I looked around for a split second. Feeling frustrated I used and watched as papers and books and anything light weight flew up into the air and started coming back down slowly. Then all of the sudden I saw a small crack near a the shelf by her bed. Using again I flung the shelf back to reveal an even smaller cupboard.

"Lyra be careful." I heard Caleb say

"I'm fine." I said bluntly

Though the feeling of using was starting to feel pretty damn good. It helped release all of the frustrations I felt within. There was no greater feeling than that. Granted there was always the downside of the aging but overall I don't see why I slowed down.

"What's this?" I heard Reid say

Turning I saw him holding a paper.

"That's the paper I came back to look for the other night. What a bitch. I can't believe she took it."

"I can't believe we didn't see this coming." Levina said "I mean she used constantly and go to kick out of it. I mean she put Reid to shame."

Trying to grab it from him he held it out of reach.

"Seriously give it." I said

"What don't want me to read it?" he teased

"Reid hand it over or else." I warned

"Oh please."

I growled then using, the paper slid into my hand effortlessly.

"That's cheating." He said

I just smiled slyly. Then all of the sudden he was behind me and snatched the paper from me as I felt him nuzzle into my neck.

"Not here." I giggled as I pulled away

Then Caleb grabbed me by the arm and started pulling me away. Pulling me outside the room he soved me against the wall.

"Why Reid? Couldn't you have found someone better?"

"There is no one better for me. He gets me I think." I said as I actually thought about it "There's something there and you might not understand but out of every guy I've been with and let me tell you that it's a pretty long list dating back to when I was eleven that he actually scares me. Because I know that he can break my heart and that when it happens it'll hurt. But I also know that he cares about me. The way he looks at me is different from the way he looks at other girls."

"Lyra…"

"You remember that whole one year rule I established?"

He looked at me blankly.

"This follows under that." I said

"But you could've been with Tyler. Why didn't you?" he asked frustrated

"Because." I stated simply

"Because why?"

"I promised I wouldn't." I said

"Did I miss something?"

Looking over Tyler stood in the common room.

"No you didn't. Caleb just won't shut up and is taking his new role as my brother too seriously." I said

I didn't look at him. I didn't know it I could. Tyler's eyes had a way of being heart breaking.

Reid POV

"Okay there's nothing here really except for this." Levina said as she held up a dagger "She was sacrificial I guess. If anything she might come back for it bit I don't know."

"I see you've made progress."

I looked up to see Tyler in the doorway. Not really paying attention to the two of them I walked out and sat on the couch as I was still absorbed in the paper. Granted I was never one for reading anything let alone doing homework but I couldn't help wonder why she didn't want me to.

It was dark for her. So dark she couldn't see and the more she fought the more it strangled her. She was numb inside and no alcohol or even an adulterous act could take it away or even bring some feeling of disgust of some sort to her. She felt nothing. Just the black hole of her life sucking her in. She screamed and reached out but only found others like her who were also looking for what was thought to be normalcy. But what was normalcy anyways? Was it getting wasted then having yet another one night stand and going home feeling completely empty? Was it finding someone who understood everything about you? Or maybe it was someone who knew exactly what you were thinking and there wasn't even a word to be spoken. Unlike most questions she didn't have an answer this time.

She sat there outside looking up at the sky wishing to be lost unknowing that she already was. Because maybe being lost wasn't so bad since being found wasn't always a good thing. She could see her breath when she breathed deeply. The cold made her senses sharper as she just laid there under the clear sky. Then he appeared as if called upon. He scared her without even realizing it. But she didn't look it. She just laid there as if he weren't there that way he might go away. He didn't go. He sat beside her in silence because there weren't words for it. It was just the feeling of not really wanting to be alone. There were many nights like this where they would find each other and just sit there in silence. Just silence. And it was nice. No rude comments from the usual. No reason at all to say anything. They were just there and nothing more. For all she knew the world had forgotten about them not that she could complain.

He looks down at her as if hearing something she didn't say. But she averts her gaze so as not to let him see her eyes knowing if he did that he might get the answer he wanted. Why give someone something they want? Do they deserve it? They could easily throw it away and some things that get thrown away get shattered in the process without the other realizing it or even caring .I wouldn't be the next one. I couldn't be. Going through it once I barely survived. I knew that if it happened again I wouldn't survive and in a way I knew that he knew it too but still didn't seem to care.

Finally looking at him I could see him fighting his own inner demons as well. Was he numb too? Is that what made life easier for him? I didn't ask out loud for being afraid of the answer. Things were never easy for those like us. Those who held dark secrets of their past their present and even their future. His eyes grabbed mine and didn't let go. It was endless but all in the same it was comforting. Why was I afraid all of the sudden? I was never afraid in my life. Not when my mother tried to drown me, not when my ex tried to kill those close to me, not even when I died. But I was afraid now.

I kept reading the words over and over again. It was like she was sitting across from me talking. This was in her own mind and possibly heart. The many things that trouble her yet the one thing that calmed her. It wasn't that she hated me. It was the exact opposite. Her walls came down enough for this.

Closing my eyes for a split second I bolted up when I heard Levina scream.

"Lyra!"

Lyra POV

Collapsing against the wall I could feel myself break into a cold sweat. I didn't know what was going on. one minute I was rifling through more of Leah's things the next I felt dizzy.

Did you think it would be that easy Lyra?

"no." I muttered

I could hear Chase laughing in my head.

Let those walls down and them who you really are. Don't be shy.

"Get out." I mumbled as my head started lolling

I felt Levina's hand on my arm.

Lyra let go. You are chaos. Just show them.

"Get out of my head!" I screamed

Fine I will.

Normal POV

Lyra's symptoms didn't change and everyone stood on edge. It was as if she were losing her mind. But something was inside of her and there was nothing anyone could've done. They stood there and watched helplessly. Reid looked ready to grab her and shake her half to death while Caleb was on standby in case something went wrong. Levina on the other hand looked ready to cry as if she were her last friend. The whole emotional level of the small wreckage of a room was unstable.

"Lyra look at me. How are you feeling?" Levina asked trying to stop her head from lolling

The cold sweat poured from Lyra.

"I…feel…" she started then her eyes shot open at Levina "Better."

Using, Lyra kicked Levina across the room nearly sending her through the wall. She stood up and looked over at Reid who looked terrified. He had never seen this side of her. the side that was raw with power lust and dying to get loose.

"Oh does Reid want to go next?" Lyra asked "You know I'm more powerful than you. I will snap your neck."

He didn't move. Lyra just smiled and closed her eyes as she took a deep breath.

"It's been a very long time since I've felt this…" she started as she felt over her body like it was brand new "Good."

Using this much had never felt belt running through her veins and she didn't want it to end. It was just like the old days. Turning Lyra smirked at the nearly unconscious Levina on the ground she smirked and turned to leave. Caleb and Pogue blocked the doorway but she only grinned wider. With a quick motion of her hands both young men flew in opposite directions. She walked out the door confidently leaving them there.

Caleb POV

"What the hell?" I said as my heart pounded like a headache

"That is not Lyra. And if it is we're fucked." Levina said as Tyler helped her up

She just leaned back on him for support.

"I've never seen using like that Caleb." Pogue said

"She hasn't been like this since…"

"Chase." Reid muttered

"Exactly. He brought out the darkest side of her. That's what it looks like to be completely free." she said

Running my hands through my hair I leaned back against the wall. It was just one thing after another and it wasn't getting any better.

"Caleb you have to help her."

"What can I do? We've known each other for all of a month if that." I said

"You're family. You're blood. If there was one thing that each of us know in this room is that that's the strongest thing in the world. You can stop him from using her. Maybe she won't die this time."

"I don't know. I just…don't know." I muttered

Then looking ahead I saw the dagger that seemed to belong to Leah. Hesitating at first I grabbed it and darted out of the room. i had no idea what I was going to do next. I just had to find her before she did something to draw attention.