The piercing sun rays illuminated the inside of Emma Pillsbury's house. The sun eventually reached the inside of the bathroom, twitching Emma awake. Emma groggily got up, feeling the sharp pain in her head and the uneasy feeling of her stomach. She looked around and for a minute, she was lost. The surrounding around her was very peculiar and was used to the dark pitched walls of the bedroom that faced the warehouse. Eventually, her mind started working and was able to process her surroundings. That was when she noticed she was in the bathroom. She also remembered that today was her first day back at work and she could not be late! She looked at the clock. 'Shit!' She only had 30 minutes to get to school. It was a good thing she only lived 3 minutes away from school. She looked at her closet and was having a hard time of choosing what to wear. She looked at her legs and there were still gashes on her legs. Her arms were also covered with them too. She needed to be completely clothed. Having her skin exposed was too much for her and whenever the wind blew, the naked parts of her body felt it and gave her an uneasy feeling. After careful consideration, she picked out a long sleeve blouse and black capris that matched the shade of her hair. Every time she looked at the mirror, she barely recognized herself. She applied more eyeliner than usual really matching her already velvet black hair. Emma only had 10 minutes left before school started. Walking out, she grabbed a granola bar and headed out. She made sure to lock the door three times making sure it was lock. She got into her car and drove to McKinley. Along the way, she spotted a silver Ford truck that was very similar to that of Ken's. This caused her heart to pound fast and before she knew it, her foot stepped on the gas fast. She reached McKinley a minute earlier than usual. She parked the car and pressed her head back. She wasn't really prepared to face people and become the center of attention. She wanted to be a face in the crowd like she always was. She was isolated from the world and wanted to maintain that. She sighed heavily. She got out of the car and spotted Will's car pulling in his usual parking space. She saw Will spot her and his eyes widened at the sight of her. Emma turned her head quickly, locked her door, and walked away as fast as she could without running. She could hear Will's voice calling her but she was determined to walk into the building without him catching up to her. Emma entered McKinley and made her way to her room. The bell rang and she was thankful. That meant that she didn't get to see Will. She looked at the appointments scheduled and felt grateful that she only had two today. Rachel and a new kid named Luke. Work before was lunch was very lonely and boring. But Emma didn't care. She loved just sitting there in silence, looking out at the filled parking lots. Just as long as no one bothered her, she was okay. The bell rang indicating that it was lunch time. She was searching for her lunch when it dawned on her that she forgot lunch. She only brought breakfast which she ate 2 hours ago. She didn't want to eat in the lounge but the school rules were that if you bought lunch, you couldn't eat it at your room. She didn't know why and she was going to make sure she knew why. She grabbed her wallet and walked out of the room.

Emma walked down the familiar steps of McKinley and stepped into the cafeteria. Everybody turned to look at her. There were three things that caused this. First, Emma always brought her lunch and never ever stepped a foot in the cafeteria at all. Second, news of a guidance counselor with ginger red hair, doe-eyes, and was about 5'4'' was abducted. She was the only guidance counselor in Ohio that matched that description. Third, her appearance totally changed. She had black hair now and she wore pants to school. Emma ignored their looks and bought her food. She went to the teachers' lounge and again, everyone looked at her. This happened every single day. She was always the center of attention and she ate her food quietly. She could hear her name being said in their conversations. Emma hated the pitiful looks that she had seen from the people's eyes. She didn't want their pity. All she wanted was to be alone.

On a Wednesday, she did her usual routine and went to lunch. She sat at her usual table. She saw Will looking up at her but she didn't want to sit next to him. She saw Will stare at her in confusion from the corner of her eye. She also saw him get up and made his way to her table. Emma started eating pretending that she didn't notice Will. It was only when she heard Will clear his throat did she look up.

"Can I sit here?" Will asked.

Emma wanted to say no really bad. She really wanted to be alone. But she didn't him to take it the wrong way and cause him to be hurt again. She couldn't do that. Just because she was hurting doesn't mean that she needed to take it out on others. "Sure."

Will sat down and eyed her suspiciously. "I see that you've changed your wardrobe these last couple of days. It's a different look on you but you still look good."

Emma smiled. "Thank you." After that, they remained silent and Emma stared at the window when she was eating lunch.

"Well well. If it isn't the used-to-be-ginger-haired-orangutan. What? Turned goth on us? Good thing. Hated seeing that hair of yours before. Being with Ken did you wonders huh? And I see that you're glowing. Not a virgin anymore? Ken took that didn't he? Did you enjoy it?" Sue smirked.

"Sue.." Will warned.

"What? I'm just congratulating her. She finally made love to someone! Ken must have been treating you nicely."

Emma couldn't take it any longer. While saying the things she did, she saw flashbacks of her life then. "SUE! Just shut the hell up! You don't know what kind of hell I've been through." Emma lifted the sleeves of her shirt. "See that. That's for getting abused every single day. And every night, I get fucked! Every single night! I pleaded so damn hard and still, NO! You don't know what you're talking about! Save everybody some trouble and shut that damn trap of yours!"

The whole room went dead silent and the sound of the lawn mower could be heard. Emma couldn't take it anymore. She got up and ran to her room. She closed the door and cried. She heard her door open and before that person even began talking, she knew immediately who it was.

"Will. I really need to be alone right now."

"Emma. Please let me help you. You've been pushing me away lately and I just don't know what to do. Let you or force you to talk to me. I've been feeling so helpless. I can see you spiraling down Em. Please let me help you." Will pleaded.

"Look Will. I really appreciate everything that you have been doing for me but I've already spiraled down a long time ago. I don't think that there's any way that you could be helping me anymore."

"Em. This is scaring me. I love you and I won't just sit still when I see the person that I love so much is spiraling down like you are now. I want to be able to talk to you and I want to help you. Let me help you get back to your feet."

"Will. I'm so scared. Every time I go to sleep, I keep having flashbacks of what he did to me at night. And I can't sleep. In the morning when I wake up, I feel lost because I keep thinking that I'm still at Ken's house. I was driving this morning when I saw a truck just like his and I sped through the streets to run away from that. I had to double check my doors to make sure it was locked because I feel so insecure and everywhere I go, I always look around to make sure he's not there. Whenever someone touches me, I have to scrub my skin raw because I can feel him touching me everywhere!" Fresh new tears began to appear as she said that. "Please leave Will. I really need to deal with this by myself."

"Emma..."

"Please! Please Will."

"No! When are you going to stop pushing people away? I thought that we were in a committed relationship! No secrets!"

"But Will..."

"No buts Em! I'm going to stay with you in your apartment to make sure you didn't do anything stupid!"

"I haven't been doing anything stupid!"

"Oh really. How about..." Will grabbed her wrist and put up her sleeves. "Emma you can't fool me. I know you've been cutting. It hurts me so much. When I saw you with your cuts and bruises in your arms, it took all the power that I had to not go to the prison and kill Ken myself. When I heard that you were... raped... every night, I wanted to break down and cry. So please don't push me away because I'm the only one you have right now and you need me like I need you! Why did you start cutting anyway?"

"I don't know. After the first night that Ken, you know, I started doing it. It just felt so good! I was able to release anything. Nothing else mattered. I started doing it more. After I got rescued, I started having flashbacks. I did it again but this time I felt no pain. These last few days, I've been emotionally and physically numb. I just wanted to feel something. I don't know why I'm saying this to you."

Will opened his mouth to speak but the bell rang. It was time to get back to class. After Will left, Emma went back to her seat. Rachel came in just about then. She was now a regular and so was Luke. Rachel was explaining her problems about Finn and the lack of performance quality the rest of the glee clubbers were giving. Emma though couldn't concentrate. She used to enjoy giving guidance to people. It made her feel good about herself. Knowing that she was able to solve other people's problems. Even when Luke came in, Emma still didn't give a good advice. She just asked both Luke and Rachel to come in tomorrow. The things that she used to enjoy weren't so fun anymore. When the bell rang, Emma grabbed all of her stuff and ran to her car. She didn't want Will catching up with her. She got into her car and headed home. Along the way, she noticed a liquor store along the way. After considering it for a moment, she pulled into the parking lot. She grabbed 3 bottles of whiskey and a bottle of tequila. It helped her sleep and she didn't know what else she could use. After she had bought the liquors, she went home. As she entered her house, the weight of the day dawned on her, and exhaustion covered her whole body. The soft cushion of her bed caused her eyes to flutter close and before she knew it, her entire body shut down. Her life flashed in her dreams. The first scene that played was her entering the dairy farm. She was a very happy girl entering that farm but it suddenly skipped to her brother pushing her into a run-off lagoon. Emma's eyes moved for a bit but she still remained sleep. The next scene was her life as a teen. Every single day, she did the same thing over and over again. People ridiculed her and she was always by herself. Her only companion was the janitor and that was because she helped him clean the school. Her dream then moved into a next scene. However, the scene that played was what was keeping her awake all weekend and all week. The sound of Ken's deep voice and her crying pleas. Emma couldn't take it any longer. She woke up again with sweat dripping down her face and her heart pounding. She eyed the liquor that sat next to her. Emma did buy those for a reason. She uncapped the whiskey and started drinking it. It wasn't as strong as yesterday but she didn't care. She just needed something to drown her sorrows in. By the time she was ¾ done with it, a person knocked. If Emma wasn't drunk, she would have known who it was. But right now, her brain wasn't really working. She grabbed the whiskey bottle and opened the door. It was of course Will.

"Hey Will! Fancy seeing you here!" Emma hiccupped. "Join me and my friend Jack Daniels!" Emma stepped back and fell backwards. Will ran to her immediately to help her get up.

"Emma! What the hell? Why are you drunk?" Will said exasperated.

"What's wrong? It's just a typical Wednesday afternoon." Emma grabbed the bottle to drink more. Will was shocked at how fast she chugged it. He then noticed that the bottle was nearing the empty mark.

"Emma. Did you just drink that whole bottle?"

"YUP! Ooo! I ran out. Need to get some more. I'm going to set a record for the most bottle of whiskey drank in a day. It's going to be fun!"

Emma turned away to leave and was walking in an odd manner stumbling several times. Will grabbed her hand though. "Emma. No. You've had enough to drink. I think that you need to get to bed."

"NO! I'm not done yet!"

"Emma!" Will didn't want to do it but he had to be forceful with her to get her to stop. Emma ignored him and kept trying to pull from his grasp. Will knew what he had to do. He grabbed her by the waist and carried her to her bedroom.

"Get your hands off of me!" Emma cried. "KEN! Get your hands off of me!"

Will thought his heart just broke when Emma screamed that. Especially hearing her say Ken's name. He imagined her saying that every time he does something to her. He quietly set her down and noticed that she was fast asleep. He stroked her face as tears roamed his face. She was hurting, he could tell. She never drank. His Emma was still terrified and she kept remembering Ken. As he sat there and looked at her, his Emma was gone and he swore to himself that starting from now, he would do everything to get her back and standing on her feet. He would do anything for her.

End of Chapter 15. Hope you enjoy it again. Thanks for the reviews and I hope you write more of them. Please review!