The call that he had waited for

My dreams or even reality couldn't even reach me. In my mind I was known as a burdened. To the one I love and to everyone else around me… Can I say good-bye?

There was nothing I could do. There was really nothing anyone else could do because; I was in love with him...

Tonight was the worst thing I could have done or, a matter of a fact it was entirely my fault. Everything was my fault, my stupidly got the better of me. My emotions over powered me and worst of all I think I might have lost the love of my life. People say love can over power anything but, it was love that got me depressed and lost. What was I think when I had seen the hatred in he's eyes or was it really hate? It doesn't matter now he's gone… Yuki had left me, alone in the darkness. With nothing but, tears to keep me warm. Knowing this pain inside me tells me I'm alive but, right now I wish I wasn't at this very moment.

Shuichi...

Huh? Whose voice is that? I know it from somewhere...is that...

"Yuki..."

My eyes slowly opened as I notice that it wasn't Yuki, but my dear friend...Hiro...

"Oh...It's you Hiro..."

I looked away from him in disappointment that it wasn't Yuki. I didn't know what I was doing at Hiro's place but my mind was pounding.

"Hiro what happened... I don't really remember what happen or…how I got here..."

I could see the sun outside coming up or I thought it was...I looked at Hiro in confusion but at the same time I was trying to fight my memories of how I got here...Suddenly it came to me, everything came back to me at that moment.

"Shuichi are you alright...Last night you were going to leave but you suddenly blacked out. I'm guessing that you go sick while you were in the rain last night. You slept all day, the day is over you know"

What I had slept all day…

I looked at Hiro, as my mind was still processing the details of all that happened last night. Flashes of what happened last night went though my mind as I began to feel the sadness again. I wanted to go home but was scared to see Yuki there or to see nothing there. I would be alone, but still I need to go home I could stay at Hiro's it just didn't seem right.

"I'm fine Hiro… I just need to...go home and rest a little bit more… okay"

Hiro looks at me worried but I smiled at him. To help him stop his worry. Hiro was my best friend I didn't want him to worry about me. Even if I really wasn't alright. That night Hiro let me go home even so I was still feeling crappy even if I slept all day. When I reached home that's when the rain had started again. It seemed like every think was still the same as when I had left. I closed the door and walked to the couch and sat down in the dark. As I turned my head looking at the kitchen, suddenly there I seen it on the table nicely sitting there, the knife that would help me ends this pain inside of being alone. The rain continued to fall on the window, as the city sparkled with its lively lights, as the sky had a dark glow. Getting up and walking to the window, I glanced outside hoping to see him as tears ran down my face. Trying to forget about suicide. I looked back at the knife that seemed to shine more then the lights outside.

Warm liquid continued to fall down my face as I walked over to the table slowly. My mind went clouded and I was consumed by the darkness that sank deep in to me. Not knowing what I was doing and at a total blank I grabbed the knife, suddenly I started to cut at random in every direction on my left wrist. I could stopped every thought that went thought my head was about Yuki. Every time he had said "I love you" it was a lie, all a lie that kept me believing that he was telling me the truth. With such words said to me with a kiss every time.

Now I see he was just playing with me I was nothing to him this whole time. I was just a mess up to him; I'm just nothing to him…

Those where the thoughts that went through my head, as I was slowly killing myself; the blood had become like a river that swam down dripping nicely from my open wounds it felt nice with the warm liquid dropping to the floor.

Suddenly I hear a ring a loud ringing coming from the phone.

'Ring ring'

I had woke up from the darkness and then looked at the phone that was still ringing I didn't want to answer it. I was scared to answer it.

What if it's Yuki? If it is I'm too scared to answer, and if not Yuki I don't really want to talk to anyone else, but if it was Yuki. No I can't think like that Yuki is gone and he's not coming back but...but… I want to talk to Yuki so much just to know, if he hates me or if he still ...loves me.

I walked to it as I picked it up hoping a little that it might be Yuki hoping that he wouldn't say good bye if it was Yuki.

"H-Hello? ...Who is this"?

There was nothing at first but, then.

"Um...Shuichi… I'm going to be staying at a friend's tonight..."

It was Yuki!

The shock went across my face as I smiled, then more tears came down my face but, I couldn't say anything I was scared but happy. Scared to say anything but happy that it was Yuki that called. The blood dripped on to the floor as I held the phone in my other hand.

"Um well I guess this is good-bye"

As those words were said my life seemed to go crashing down like every thing seemed like it was a nightmare. This was a nightmare!

"Yuki wait I-I love you"!

I cried in to the phone before I heard it click, Yuki didn't say anything and hanged up.

My body felt weak as I fell to the ground. Only the warmth of my tears and the blood from my wrist seemed to keep me warm other then that, my entire body felt cold and lifeless.

On that horrible night when the rain would fall only in the darkness you would only see a weeping boy that cried for his lover to come back...

...To Be Continued...