Believe in hope, believe in faith or believe in nothing…

Your words melt my soul as I embrace your warm body. The ever lasting love I feel for you will never stop not as long as I still have these feelings…this life…

I watch Yuki walk away from my door way after he tolled me he…loved me. I'm so happy he had said that, but for some reason why do I want to cry? Why do I feel sad when he's leaving me behind?

Yuki…

Without me even realizing what I was doing I started to run after him.

"Yuki"!!!

I called for him as he left out the door. Yuki turns to me in surprise.

"What"?

He says a little annoyed.

"Y-you…"

I paused to thinking of what I was going to say; thinking of what would happen if I tolled him not to go… Would he get mad? Would he still go? I didn't want to get in to a fight with him again we just patch things up. I froze, and then smiled.

"JUST MAKE SURE YOU CALL ME!!!"

Yuki ginned at me with a wave and walked away to his car.

I don't want you to go…Yuki…but I don't want you to get mad at me…Yuki.

I kept my feelings inside as I watched him drive away. I stood there alone waiting for something to happen. Wait for my Yuki to come back.

"What"?!

Hiro said a little shocked.

"Three weeks"?

"Yeah he said he was going to be back by then and I was hoping that…me and him…well yea"

"I see well I understand and the timing couldn't be any better."

What do you mean timing?

I looked at Hiro confused.

"What do you mea-"

Suddenly the phone rings stopping my sentence, and Hiro got up to answer it; leaving me alone on the couch.

"Hello Hiro speaking. Oh yes…Uh-huh…Well he seems well right now; ok I'll tell him now...ok bye."

He hangs up and walks back over to me.

"Who was that?"

"Oh that was K."

I became still.

"W-what did he want"

I said with a little bit of a studder in my tone.

"Well you see Shuichi we were thinking of having a tour… now."

"Now?! You mean right now"

"Yeah, well you see I was going to tell you that day I came by but you know the condition you were in I couldn't, so do you understand?"

"Oh I see…"

"It starts today and um if you don't want to go I could-"

I interrupted him.

"No it's fine plus if I skip out anymore I think K will surely kill me."

I laughed a little giving Hiro a smile.

"I'll be fine really no need to worry…'kay"

"Okay if you say so Shuichi"

Hiro looked a little concerned and knew that he was worried about me, but I just can't let my problems be a bother to anyone anymore…I just can't.

"So he bought it huh?"

"Shut up"!

"Sorry! Didn't know you were in a bad mood"

Of course Eiri Yuki was in a bad mood he just lied to his lover. Yuki was going over seas, but not to do work but something else that made him feel guilty. Guilty about how Shuichi was so happy to seeing him today, about lying to him. Nothing more they guilty and uneasy feelings surrounded Yuki's heart, and wanting to go back. His thoughts ran around in his mind making him go insane.

"Satoshi…maybe I-

"No! You're not ditching me! I know you might be feeling guilty about Shuichi but, you said it your self that he was getting annoying…Right?"

I know I said that but…

"Plus it might be better for him you know maybe he'll loosen up…"

Satoshi lay's back feeling relaxed and so sure of himself.

"Sigh…"

"Anyway you said you would do this for making up for that brat- I mean Shuichi for biting me"

"Shut up or I'll really kick you out Satoshi"

"Okay okay don't need to get do angry"

Oxoxo

I looked out the window of the car at was taking us to the airport were we will be living for America. Yes I was going to be touring in America. Were Yuki was going to be.

"Sigh"

Flash back…

"Where are you going to be going?"

"America"

"Really"

"Yeah I'll be going with a friend to get more information on my new book…"

"Oh I see…."

Pause

"Well I wish you luck"!

Shuichi looks at him with a smile that he wishes that he hadn't shown.

"Thanks "

Yuki smiles back in guilt.

End of flash back…

I wish I didn't smile back but I guess I was just being support of, but I wonder why he looked so…guilty.

I gazed out in to the streets that were filled with human made technology which polluted the earth. As my memory ran over in my mind like a broken video of what Yuki had said to me…

I love you…

Those words make me feel happy inside, as I smiled.

"We're here Shuichi"

Ok now off to America!

With courage I got out in to the bright sun light that shined on me as I got out of the car. I was ready to show Yuki that I wasn't weak and that I could go on when he wasn't here. Even if Yuki wasn't here with me physically I knew he was here in my heart.

I'm not going to give up now that I know Yuki is here with me…By myside…

To Be continued...