Was blinded by your lies

Time was pasting me by as I wished to see your face though my desired mind. Wishing to see you, wishing to hear you, and wishing that you would stop torching me.

"Sigh…"

I can't believe it that I already did three concerts. I like doing this but-

Suddenly my thoughts were interrupted by the crashing sound of Hiro coming in.

"Hey Buddy can you believe it, that we're booked tonight! "

Hiro says with a smile that went down, when finding me staring out the hotel window sighing.

"Hey what wrong? You out of most people use to be so excited about all this. What's going on?"

I give another sigh and I glance at Hiro, to just be looking out the window again.

"Nothing Hiro…I just… nothing"

I said to him, with no emotion in to my tone, like my endless beating heart, which ached for Yuki's smile. He sits besides me as, if to say something important.

"Your thinking about Yuki again aren't you?"

He says with a sigh at the end, as if that's all I think about. Which he could have been right?

"No…"

I turn towards him a little embarrassed about the thought. He glances at me.

"Right…?"

He gave a little smile while I tried to deny the fact that I was thinking of Yuki. I look back out the window.

"Yes… I'm thinking of Yuki…"

I pout a little while gazing out in to the city.

"Is that a crime…?"

"No… But this is"

Hiro lungs at me starting to tickle me, while I start to bust out laughing.

"S-Stop it Hiro… Okay I give, I give…"

I cried out while trying to push him off of me. He stops and gets off of me.

"Now that's better! That's the Shuichi I know. Now come on stop being so glum. You'll see you lover again you big idiot."

He smiles at me making me realize what a depressed fool I was being. He starts to leave and heads out the door. Closing the door I start to laugh once again.

"You're the big idiot! Ha ha…"

I wipe away the little tear I made while I was laughing.

"Stupid Hiro…"

Night time has made its way where Eiri Yuki is. And what he doesn't know is that Shuichi is staying in the same hotel he's in. Now he sits regretting ever leaving Shuichi in Japan, because of the guilt of lying to him. About his true reason of going to America, this was that he was going to cheat on him. Now he wasn't sure of what to do now that he has seen Shuichi's result of a brake down.

"Sigh"

Why am I sighing for…? Is it because of Shuichi?

Eiri Yuki looks out the window, as the memories of Shuichi crying, calling out to him, and then him smiling at him. They repeat in his memory, as he sits in the hotel with guilt. Yes it's a nice high class place and it doesn't really interest him at all. He just can't stop thinking about Shuichi, and what he said to him before he left. Now Yuki is stuck thinking about Shuichi and the bond they have.

I'm deceiving Shuichi again…He thinks I'm getting information on a new book, but I'm not. It was a lie to feed him. So he wouldn't bother me, while I keep the promise I made to a friend. But now being here I can't bring myself to be as comfortable, as I was before. Cheating on Shuichi was one think before, but now seeing how much I really meant to him. I have a different view of him. If only I could understand what I should be doing.

Yuki is contemplating about what he should do. What would be the right thing to do? The "what-if's" circle around in his mind, as the frustration continues to engulf him. And all he could think of saying to him if he ever found out is…

Shuichi… I'm sorry…

Yuki hears a knock at the door and goes to answer it. Opening the door to see a woman standing there in a red silk dress he greets her to come in.

Maybe I'll do this one last time…

He closes the door not knowing that someone was watching. Someone that he never wanted to hurt again, someone that he has been lying to and, that happened to be his lover.

Man what an exciting night I

never thought that it would tier me out this much. I guess what Hiro did really cheered me up.

Finally at the hotel and ready to get some rest. Tonight was a success, but I still wish I could see Yuki.

If only I could see him right now.

And as soon as I thought about it, as I was leaving the elevator. There he was standing there about to close the door and, disappear in to the he's room. I couldn't believe he was on the same floor I was staying at. Man what a weird coincidence.

Yuki's here! This must be where he's doing his research for his novel.

A smile crosses my face.

"Tee hee hee… I know I'll give him a surprise."

I started to head towards Yuki's room, ready to knock on his door.

Knock! Knock!

I played a little tone on the door, and then waited for Yuki to answer. I was so happy that Yuki was here. A little surprise about it, but as long as my wish came true. I dared to knocked again, but as I was about to do so, he answered. A looked of shocked crossed his face.

"What are you doing here?"

He tried saying without getting annoyed.

"Ha ha. Weird huh? That we are staying at the same hotel."

I gave Yuki a smile, while laughing at how it was such a coincident that we were both here. I was also laughing at how my wish came true, about seeing Yuki.

"I'm here for a concert tour. I just got the information after you left. Funny huh…?"

Yuki didn't say anything like he was trying to hide something. I didn't know why he was being so quite for. But I gave it a try to go in his room so we could talk more. Suddenly I'm stopped, and he blocks me from entering.

"Uh… Sorry, but could I come in for a while… Yuki"

I felt a little bit acquired asking him, but then I soon realized why he did so.

"Oh Yuki… Who's at the door?"

A woman's voice…? Does that mean that Yuki's CHEATING on me?

Suddenly there's a woman by Yuki's side, standing there with her hand on his shoulder. I couldn't believe this was happening again. I started to take a step back trying not to fall apart, and hoping for an explanation from Yuki.

"Who's this Yuki?"

I watch her put her arms around him, as my stomach and throat tighten up. Slowly twisting up, as I try to hold back the tears. I turn my eyes away from the woman and look at Yuki.

"Why… Yuki… I thought-…"

He stares at me not being able to say anything. I could suddenly feel the liquid going down my face, as I stared at Yuki.

To Be Continued…