Me: So now do you know what I'm talking about?

Zach: Yeah, and I don't like it! Cammie's supposed to be my girlfriend.

Me: BUT YOU BROKE UP WITH HER!

Zach: I know, but that doesn't mean I stopped loving her.

Me: Uuuugh you Blackthorne Boys are soo confusing.

I DO NOT OWN!

I ran out of my apartment and over to Bex's. I franticly knocked on the door. But Bex didn't open it. The one and only Zachary Goode did. And he had that stupid smirk on his face. "Where's Bex." "Inside, how's it going Gallagher Girl? You decide you want me back? I mean I know I told you I wanted you but that was an hour ago. Did you miss me that much?" "Shut up Zach."

I pushed him aside and found Bex on the couch. "Bex?" She looked at me and smiled, "Hey Cammie!" "Did Zach tell you?" "Yes. I'm glad for you two, I really am. At least now Grant has someone instead of walking around skulking, quite pathetic. I mean, I know we went out for a while but that doesn't mean he can't get over me." I wanted to tell her the real reason he was skulking around, but I resisted. "So you're okay with this?"

"YES! I'm happy for you! Now we can double!" "What do you mean?" I looked at Zach. He scrunched up his face and shook his head. I looked back at Bex, "NO! Not with Zach, ewww. I meant with my boyfriend Alex. I met him a month ago, he was really sweet and nice, and HOT!" I laughed. Now I remember. Macey told me about him, though I wasn't really listening, I was thinking about Grant. "When do I get to meet him?" "Maybe this weekend. All four of us could go to a movie!" "That sounds great! I'll tell Grant." "Okay!" I hugged her and started walking out. I stuck my tongue out at Zach and he sneered at me.

He followed me out. "So, Cammie. Do you wanna maybe catch a movie?" "Zach, stop trying. I'm not the kind of girl who two times people. Even if one's okay with it." "Why can't you just admit that you love me?" "I love you Zach! I really do, but I need to figure out my feelings for Grant as well. I already dated you, and it was great. I loved everything about it, everything about you. But after a while I started noticing Grant. I started seeing what a great guy he is and how lucky Bex is to have him. Then you broke up with me and Bex broke up with him and he was there to comfort me through my post breakup depression."

Zach stood there in awe. "I'm sorry. I didn't know that what I did really hurt you that much." It was my turn to be shocked. Did Zachary Goode just apologize? Wow. He stepped towards me, "If I knew that you really loved me, I would've never broken up with you." "But I told you that Zach, I told you I loved you." "I thought you were just reassuring yourself that you loved me," He stepped even closer. I think my heart stopped. His lips were so close to mine, "I…wasn't…I really…did…" "I'm sorry, can we make this better? Begin all over again?"

He didn't give me time to respond, because by that time his lips were on mine in a soft kiss. I put my arms around his neck and deepened the kiss. He put his arms around my waist. I pulled away and he started kissing my neck, "No! Zach, we can't do this!" "Why not? I love you." "I love you too, but we can't." "Why can't you just break it off with Grant?" He started going lower, "Zach. Stop, please." I whispered the last part. That got his attention. My eyes started tearing up. Zach looked me in the eye. His own eyes filled with concern.

"Oh my gosh Cammie I'm so sorry. I don't know what came over me!" He tried to hug me but I pushed him away, "No! You know exactly what came over you! Jealousy. You wanted to make me break up with Grant. You tried to seduce your best friend's girlfriend! But the worst part is, I fell for it a little bit." He looked at me he was hurt. "I'm…so sorry…you're right." "I'm sorry too. I love you Zach, I really do. But I have such strong feelings for Grant as well and I need to figure them out." He nodded and I left.

I went inside my apartment and called Grant, "Hey, can I come over? I have to talk to you." "Sure Cammie, what's wrong?" "I'll tell you when I get there." I hung up and drove over to his apartment. I knocked on the door and he immediately opened it. I started crying. He pulled me in for a hug and then we walked inside. We sat on the couch and Grant just held me and said nothing. I didn't want him to and was grateful that he didn't.

After a while I calmed down and looked up at Grant. He smiled weakly at me. "Hey." He said. I smiled a little at him, and then frowned, "I have something to tell you." He looked confused, "Ok." "Zach and I kissed." He looked dazed, "Grant?" He swallowed and looked down at me, "What?" "I'm so sorry. I went and explained to Bex and he was there but already told her and then we were walking back and he apologized and he just kept getting closer and closer and then we kissed." He looked a little angry and a little sad, "You love him." "But I love you more!"

What? Well, I guess I do. If I didn't I would've run away with Zach. Everything makes sense! The reason I didn't get back with Zach, the reason I kept going to Grant, and the reason that when Grant kisses me it's 100x better than when Zach kisses me is because I love him more! Grant means the world to me, so much more than Zach ever did. I looked at Grant. He seemed to have a faint smile on his face, "Do you really?" I smiled up at him, "Yeah." "I love you too." At that I jumped up and kissed him. He was smiling but kissed back. I was soo happy!

I put my arms around his neck and he stood up. He put his arms around my waist and deepened the kiss. I knew he was ready. And I was too. I put my legs around his waist and he got…excited. He moved us to his room but left the door open. I started to take off his shirt. He lifted his arms and I slid the shirt off of him. WOW! He was muscular. He had a six-pack and amazing arms. I kissed him again and he started sliding off my shirt. It was off in mere seconds. We started kissing again and I started running my hands on his perfect chest while his slid his up and down my sides. We were ready to do more when all of sudden we hear the door open. We stopped and quickly got our shirts back on. I was sad to see his chest covered in a shirt again, but I guess it had to happen sometime.

He started moving towards his door and looked around. "What the hell are you doing here?" "Coming to get the rest of my stuff." I heard Zach's voice. I ran into the bathroom and shut the door. I pressed my ear against the door and listened. "I heard you kissed Cammie." Oh no Grant, not this. "Yeah. She's really good at it. She's amazing in bed too, but I guess you'll never find out seeing as she wants to go slow with you." "Shut up. I respect her choice and I'm not going to pressure her as I'm sure you did." "I did not!" "Yeah right."

"Fine! You don't believe me? Ask her. Ask her how her first time was." "I'm not going to do that." "Why? Are you too afraid that she prefers me in bed over you? Oh wait, I'm sorry I must've forgotten, you're still a virgin." "You know if you hadn't come I probably wouldn't be right now!" I chose this time to interfere, "STOP!" They turned and looked at me. "Cammie, is this true?" I looked at Zach, "Yeah, it is. And by the way, you were never any good anyways." "How would you know? I was your first!" "Yeah, but I still knew how to fake it." "Ooooohhhh." Grant said. He was laughing his butt off. Zach was pissed. "I'm out of here." He went to his room, and then 10 minutes later came out and left.

I went over to Grant's bed and sat down. Grant sat behind me and started rubbing my shoulders. "I'm sorry Grant. You didn't need to go through all of that, I think it's sweet that you're still a virgin." "Really? Everyone else thinks it's lame." "Don't listen to anyone else. I'm your girlfriend and I think it's amazing and wonderful. I only wish you could think the same of me." "Cammie," He turned me around to face him, "I do think that of you. I do think that you're amazing and sweet and wonderful, virgin or non-virgin." "Really?" "Yes. And I feel that when we do have sex, it'll be much more than that, it'll be love. Real love, not the fake first love you had with Zach."

I snuggled into him, "You think so?" "I know so. I love you Cammie, so much more than anything or anyone." "I love you too Grant. More than you'll ever know." He kissed my forehead and we just lay there on his bed holding each other. I fell asleep after awhile. It was probably the best night of sleep I've had in a while. I knew it was because I was in Grant's arms.

A/N Awwww so sweet! I love them together. But I love Zammie too, I'm so conflicted. I hope you guys like this chapter! And for the Gleeks: I'm SOOOOOO excited for the Britney Spears episode tomorrow! Woo hoo!

Q: What's your favorite Britney Spears song?

Mine: Gimme more, but I like If you seek amy as well ;D

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