As soon as the words left my lips, I could sense the change in the air. Kaname's body tensed over me and an inhuman growl ripped from his throat. His hands tightened around the satin sheets. Minutes later, a tearing and crashing sound shot through the stillness of the bedroom. I looked over at his hands and my eyes widened in fear. My body froze as I looked the damage he had caused. The place where his hands had been was replaced by his arms. His hands had went straight through the matress and bed frame.

"Ka-Kaname?" My tone gave way to my fear. The soft, almost inaudible sound did not go unnoticed by Kaname. His hard wine colored eyes turned toward mine.

"I knew it was a possibility," he spoke, his voice as cold as ice, as he stood from above me. His slender fingers ran through his hair, "so I don't know why it upset me so…" I just lay on the satin sheets staring at him. "How did you find this out?"

"I fed from him," my tone was the same as it was last time I had spoken but a tint of guilt touched it. If possible Kaname became all the more tense. "He showed me…unwillingly. He didn't mean for me to find out…" I closed my eyes as the memory of the encounter came to me once again.

_Flashback_

I let a sigh escape my mouth and leaned more onto him as I fed from him. The noise seemed to trigger a memory from him as he laid his head onto my shoulder.

His hands were everywhere. His eyes were stationary, fixed on mine. I leaned up and kissed his lips. He applied more pressure, forcing me down onto the dorm bed. His dorm bed.

"Zero," I watched myself sigh as we broke apart. "Please…"

"Please what?" He asked, smirking.

"I need you." I choked out, blushing brightly at the boldness of my words. He kissed me gently.

"It's going to hurt." He whispered to me.

"I don't care!" I grabbed onto his shoulders tightly. "I don't care! I want it to be you…to be my first…" His mouth fell open in shock then closed. He kissed me hard.

_End Flashback_

"Do you regret it now? What you did with him?" Kaname suddenly asked. I felt a tear slid from my eye as I shook my head.

"I can't regret it…I'm not ashamed…" Despite the tone of my voice-brave and non faltering-I was very much afraid that he would run from me as I had him. Instead he stared at me. His eyes if possible turned colder.

"I have never been with a woman before you…yet you willingly gave yourself to Kiryu," his words were making me angry, "tell me, did you enjoy it?" I shot from the bed.

"I admit that what I did was wrong. To hurt you both like that but I do not regret that night! To regret it would be to regret the life inside me! And for the record, I WANTED HIM TO BE MY FIRST! AND HELL YES I ENJOYED IT!" I watched him stumble back as though I had slapped him. I turned from the room. Aware that I would probably feel horrible for my words later and cry my eyes out because of them, but I couldn't find it in me in that moment to care. My words were true, I knew, but the sting of them wouldn't go away for him.

When I looked around once more, I found myself back in the room that had been mine when I was a child. The basement. My old bed still sat in the corner of the room. I walked toward it and sat down.

'All of this stress can't be good for the life inside of me. Zero's child…' My hand fell to my flat stomach, 'he made it clear that he wanted to be in his or her life…I can't deny him that want…but…what about Kaname? What am I going to do?' I winced as I remembered the words I had yelled. I could hear a string of profanities and crashes coming from above. Once those noises calmed down, I heard the door slam. I closed my eyes and sank down. 'Well, it's safe to say that I ruined whatever it was Kaname and I had going for us…' The image of Zero's hand running all over my body flashed into my head once more. I blushed and buried my head into the pillow. 'I feel like such a harlot. Kaname had known my body…but Zero knew it first. Should I go back to him? Should I return to Zero? Would he let me back into his arms?' My eyes widened in horror as the reality of what I was considering sunk in. 'Am I really planning on leaving the one man that has given me everything?' A little voice inserted it's two cents:

"Really? After all he took from you too? He took you're humanity from you and drug you back into the world of blood…"

'Really…you're using that as an excuse? It's who I am!'

"Could you really stay with him after he has finally showed you his truth colors? The cold side of Kaname that his emenies and Zero saw everyday of your human life?"

To those words, I had no response. Because I knew in my heart that the little voice was speaking the truth. Kaname was showing me the part of him that he had hidden. Suddenly, a searing pain ripped through me. A gasp tore it's way from my lips and I doubled onto the floor. I couldn't stop the scream from slipping from my lips. The door to the basement busted open.