(A/N: Thank you all for your support. I've decided that I will continue this story and keep it the orginial couple.)

I lay in my bed; the pale red satin sheets loosely gathered around my waist. My hands fell to my stomach again and not for the first time since the miscarriage. A soft knock sounded into the quiet room.

"Yuki?" Zero's voice drifted through the doors. I gasped gently.

'How will I tell him that the baby he was so exicted to have...is no longer in me? Kaname knows...because he was with me when it happened. Kaname...' A pain stabbed me as I thought his name. 'How is he handling all of this? Is he as worried as I am about our relationship? Is this what breaks us? Or is it what proves us worthy as a couple?'

"Come in, Zero." I whispered. Zero opened the door and walked toward me. His eyes stared into mine. His eyes then filled with tears for the first time since he was a child.

"Yuki…"

"I'm sorry, Zero," I whispered, "I miscarried…" My eyes filled with tears and I looked away from him.

"Yuki…" I felt the bed sink underneath his weight as he sat down. His hand slid underneath my chin, gently guiding me to look at him. "Why are you apologizing to me?" His lilac eyes were gentle as they looked into mine.

"You seemed to happy when you knew that you were a father…" I whispered. The tears pouring harder. "So did Kaname…and I…I…" it'd become to hard to talk. My throat was seizing up and my breathes were coming in short gasps. Through the haze of my tears, I felt warm, strong arms wrap around me. His comfort only made me sob harder.

'It should be Kaname comforting me…Kaname's arms embracing me…' My thoughts spoke.

"But he's currently hating himself and probably you at this moment to bother comforting you. Where is he right now anyway? You and I both know that he wouldn't let Zero into this house…"

'Shut up! Kaname still loves me….he's got too…' The tears started to come to the point that breathing was troublesome. I could vaguely make out Zero's deep voice making soft cooing noises.

"It's going to be okay…" He reassured as his hand ran through my hair. "I'm here…Kaname's downstairs…" I could hear the displeasure in his voice at saying Kaname's name. "Would you like me to get him?" Zero's voice had calmed down my cries, but I still shook my head in protest.

'Seeing Kaname will probably make me cry harder…Seeing Zero's pained face was enough for a day.' With that thought I grabbed onto Zero's back and buried my head into his chest.

"I can't face him right now," I wanted to kick myself as I heard my own tone. The sound was so pathetic and low, "I said so many hurtful things last night…unforgivable things…were thought…" Tears gathered in my eyes once more as I remember his face from the night before and the words that were screamed.

Flashback

"And for the record, I WANTED HIM TO BE MY FIRST! AND HELL YES I ENJOYED IT!" I watched him stumble back as though I had slapped him.

End Flashback

A strangled noise came from my throat as I clung tighter onto the man in my bed.

"Zero," I whispered. I could feel by the way that his arms tightened around me that he was listening, "make the pain go away…please.."

"Yuki…you know what happened the last time you asked that of me…" He whispered back. His voice was pained. I pulled away from him and looked at him. His eyes were screwed closed tightly. His hands had fists the loose material of my nightgown. My eyes went past him and landed on the picture on the dresser. I instantly felt guilt run through me as Kaname's smiling face stared back at me. The memory of the day it was taken filled my mind.

Flashback

I had been digging through the attic to distract myself of Kaname's absence. I had pulled off a dusty box from a worn wooden shelf and opened it. I was instantly greeted by an attack of dust bunnies. Once I had stopped coughing, I lifted the black camera. Upon further inspection, I'd realized that it was brand new.

I could hear the sound of tires pulling into the drive. A devious grin graced my face as a thought occurred to me. I quickly ran down the stairs as Kaname opened the front door, but momentarily forgetting about the socks on my feet. I slide across the hard wood and conveniently came to a stop in front of a smiling Kaname.

"Keep that face!" I had ordered as I raised the camera and snapped the picture.

"Hello to you too, Yuki…" He'd said, chuckling. I grinned and lowered the camera as he pulled me into his arms.

End Flashback

"You're right…that was thoughtless of me…." My arms loosened from around his back and pushed him gently away from me. To but some distance between us. "I'm sorry Zero…to put you in that position…" I whispered as I kept staring at the picture on the mantle. "I momentarily forgot that I was an engaged woman…that is if he still wants me…" Zero hugged me tightly.

"Yuki, I need to go now. I'll be back later on. Okay?" I just nodded at his questioning. He kissed my forehead and let me loose of his comforting hold. Not long after he left, I could hear Kaname heading up the stairs and stopped in front of my door.

"Of course, I still want you…" He whispered.

"Kaname…" I breathed, taking in his features that had so long been denied. He walked through the door and stood uncertainly beside my bed. I reached up and pulled him down beside me.

"I love you. Baby or not…" My hands fell to my stomach once more. He wrapped his arm around my shoulder. "I love you. More than words." I looked at him only to find him looking away from me. His eyes were fixed on another picture on my dresser. The two of us when we were children…before Rido's attack that ended our family. I lay on his stomach. My stubby arms wrapped around his neck. His seven year old arms wrapped around my non-existent waist. "I didn't care if the child wasn't mine…it hurt knowing…yes…but regardless of the father. I would have taken care of him or her as my own." Finally he turned to look at me. "You are my wife. My forever. As far as I'm concerned there will never be another after you just as there wasn't someone before you," tears filled my eyes at his sweet words.

"I was afraid…that you wouldn't want me after these last few days. I said…such horrible things….hurtful…things." I admitted. "I can only hope that you forgive me…"

"No matter what you do, I'll always forgive you. My life is yours. My heart is yours. You are the only thing important in my world. I live for your smile…I'd forgotten that…in the madness and pain…" His eyes were glazed with tears that he fought back.

"Kaname…." I whispered then I found myself leaning into his hold. "I never…wanted to hurt you…I wasn't thinking when I was Zero…that night…" I whispered. I looked at him only to find him looking back. "I…love you. You. You were my beginning…in each lives. Human and vampire. When I was human, you were the first thing I saw. The first memory I was graced with. When I was first born into the vampire world, you were a constant fixture in my life. Even after changing me back, you were the first thing I saw upon waking. You are the beginning of my forever…and I hope that you will be my end…"

"I will be…" He vowed. His eyes constantly flicked to my lips and to my eyes. I smiled.

"Kaname…" He looked back into my eyes. "Kiss me…" He smiled.

"As my lady wishes," he leaned in close enough for me to feel his breathe on my lips then he whispered, "always." I blushed lightly as he sealed those words with a gentle but passionate kiss.

'Our relationship isn't fixed…but it's a start….'