Derek POV
There are so many things going through my head right now. I can't think straight. Why would he do that? To his own kids no less. What makes a man do such a thing to begin with? I don't think I will ever understand. My hands tighten around the steering wheel.
"Derek, come down." I hear Spencer say softy to me.
"I can't." I say through my teeth.
I'm so mad right now. He puts his hand on my thigh. "Try." His voice so much calmer than before. "How can you be okay with this? How can you be so calm?" I look at him for a second, then back at the road.
"Just because I'm calm about it, doesn't mean that I'm okay with it." He says, in a warning tone.
"Why are you calm about it?" I say, pressing it.
"I don't know. I just am."
I sped up.
His hands tightens around my thigh. I don't slow down.
"You need to clear your head. Being this mad about it, isn't going to turn out good." I stopped the car.
"He touched those kids. Touched them in a way that no little kid should be touched. He took away their innocence. He made them into his things of enjoyment. He stopped caring for them, and started hurting them. No little kids wants to be hurt in that kind of way, I know Spencer. I went through it." I looked down at his hand on my thigh. He took it.
"Derek. I know that this hits close to home for you. I know that you feels so strongly about this, that it makes you want to breakdown. But you can't breakdown. Not yet. You have to stay strong for those kids. You have to stay strong, and help me, and the others find the killer of the man that hurts those innocent kids. That's why you have to be calm. If not for me, then for them." I sighed.
He was right.
I had to be calm for those kids, and for him. I put my other hand on top of his a caressed it.
"Your right." He smiled at me. I couldn't help, but smile back.
"What would you do without me?" I chuckled, but my tone was serious.
"I honestly don't know." He started to blush a little. "I was just joking around Derek. You know? Lighting the mood?" He smiled it off, but I could see the nervousness in his face. "No Spencer, I'm serious." "We need to get to Hotch and the others." He said, pulling from me, and looking at the road in front of him. I stayed in place. Just looking at him. Then I turned back around in my seat, and started the car back up. Making our way the station.