Im aware that my updates are coming REALLY slow. I have a long line of exuses: school, being plain lazy, not being home, and whatever else has happened, but that doesnt really do anything. Haha. Im really happy I finished this chapter though. Its been half way finished for a LONGGG time. :)
I geuss you could say that this is the turning point in the story, and the next chapter will be pretty big too. Haha. Im really excited, but you wont know why until the next chapter ;O
And I think ill tell you all that yesterday I went a concert :) haahha. Yeah, lamee. But it was crazy, it was for Chiodos, Escape the Fate (Max Green, I love you. Haha.), Silverstein, Alesana and A Skylit Drive. Damn, it was crazy. My feet hurt so fucking bad, and two walls of Death. Be jealous.
I figured I'd start answering reviews on here though, just because they make me happy. I might have already answered some of you, and if so, im answering you again(sorry if I missed anyone);
Little Miss AiLy. I know its short, and I hate it. Sorry if it didnt fit up to your, or anyones standards. But I really just wanted to get a chapter up, it had been a while and whatnot. But Im happy that I got to update on your birthday!!
Mitsuru Aki. Haha, to add on to all my bad luck, I get a wack upside the head. :P Thank you. Im glad to know that the last chapter wasnt AS bad as I thought it was. I was just thinking so lowly at the time, and still am.
ItaFearMe. YOU NEED TO STOP STAYING UP SO LATE!! Haha. Or else im going to come over to your house and give you sleeping pills. kukuku...
pepsichan91. Oh, he'll be unstressed alright. :P I have no idea why I made him massauge Zexion. It just popped up in my head and I went along with it. I think its kind of creepy, haha. AND THANK YOU FOR REVIEWING CHAPTER FOUR. :)
-cide. OH YEAH! Sexy Zexy fo sho getting his back humped by Demy!! haha.
6-The-Cloaked-Nocturne-9. JEEVAS! You need to be careful when reading my story. Maybe I should get a caution sign for anyone that likes to eat while reading. Hhaa. Yeahh, I created the RENO-DAR!! Its as efficient as ever and has a life time warrenty. Zexy's inner gayness is popping up like pimples on a kid with bad achne!!
Gold Dragon Of Darkness. yeah :( I hate that last chapter.
Sadist-Schemer. And thier about to get a whole lot weirder :)
xXxIRunWithSissorsxXx. :D Thanks. Family problems suck balls.
Fantasy world is safe. Im happy that my story made your day. :) I love hearing things like that. I had a headache during school, it was horrible. And then I got blind in my left eye for a hole hour. It was horrible. D:
gothboymylove. Zexys in a bad mood just like me! :( Haha.
Fangirl-16. Yeah, I loved that line. :) Im a genious.
Mew Katt. Noooooo! I love your review! :) It makes me happy. I wish I had more reviews. Hah, but sometimes it just doesnt happen, nea?
kreayl. *dances with you with my awesome moves of the jungleman* I have no idea if thats how you spell it. Haha. Ohohohoh, twenty? Thatll last me a life time! :D
hesmypuppy. Thank you :)
What About Today. yes yes yes, you sounded just like Demyx. Haha. I think he'd make the perfect teacher aswell.
random-laughter. Im glad you liked it. :) It got more reviews then some of my other chapters. Haha. So that was a suprise.
Zexion heard nothing from Demyx on Friday. He woke up, went to work, Demyx never came in, he left, went home, Demyx never called, he ate dinner, and he went to bed.
That day he avoided any contact with his mom or dad. He didn't want them to question him, he already knew they might be angry at him for not having dinner with them. It wasn't a big deal not to eat dinner with his family, but they always made something small into something big whenever they could.
"So how was dinner, upstairs in your room, and not at the table with Grandma and Grandpa?" Zexion's mom asked, not taking her eyes from the cup of coffee in front of her. Her son expected that question though, after he ditched his family to stay huddled up in his room with Demyx, who had gone downstairs to get two plates of food which were huge amounts compared to what Zexion normally ate. Demyx had practically inhaled his dinner, picking at Zexion's when there was nothing else to eat. He was oddly surprised that the blonde hadn't eaten the plate.
"It was fun." He earned a deathly glare from his mother. It made Zexion want to shrivle up like a prune in a trashcan.
"You know that the reason your grandparents came out here was to have that dinner, and they didn't even get to eat with their grandson. It was their birthday, Zexion." The slate haired boy wracked through his brain for any other possible answer that wouldn't get shot down by anger besides the obvious;
"I know." Oh fuck me. What the hell was that?
"I know?" She scoffed, shaking her head. "You obviously don't know, you don't know a lot of things, you don't know how many more birthdays could come after that, you don't know how they felt when you didn't eat dinner with them, the list goes on."
"Okay, I get it."
"Are you sure? Because I'm not really feeling like you do. What else is going on in your head?" What is that supposed to mean? "What were you doing up in your room last night with Demyx? Were you really eating dinner?" Zexion ground his teeth together. All of this, over one stupid dinner.
"Don't accuse me of doing things like that."
"Im not accusing you of anything, I just want to know what really happened up there."
"We ate dinner." She didn't look like she believed it.
"You cant expect me to believe that, can you? If your gay, then just tell me."
"I'm not gay, mom. Why do you think that I am?" Just like yesterday, Zexion was getting annoyed, but there was more too it. He wasn't just annoyed that his mom was nagging at his personal life, but he was angry that she would even think that about him. He was disappointed that she said the things she did.
"For starters, Demyx is gay, Axel is gay, from what I've heard this Roxas is gay, Renos bisexual. It seems that all you are hanging out with are homosexuals. Your spending all your time with Demyx, and it sounds like you two are having a lot of fun together. Axel told me, and you've told me that Demyx likes you. I cant help but think that theres something else behind all of this. What are your intentions? What are his intentions?"
"My intentions are to be friends with who I want to be friends with." Zexion was never one to admit when he was wrong, and he wasn't admitting now. There was no possible way she was right, even if she sounded like she was.
"And you can go ahead and do that, but theres always a reason behind it."
"Do you want a good reason?" Without knowing it, Zexion's voice rose, something that didn't happen often. "Hes fun to be around, hes nice, he knows my other friends so its not awkward, I feel like if I wasn't his friend, I'd hurt him, hes the complete opposite of me. Its nice to know that someone likes you, and I've hung around guys that like guys long enough to know that I don't care if he likes me. Are those reasons enough for you?"
"Are you sure thats all?"
"Yes, that's fucking all." She nodded her head, taking a sip from her coffee.
"Alright." Alright? I went through all of that bitching just to hear an 'alright'? I feel like a smoker who's craving for a cigarette. "Why are you still standing there, go hang out with Demyx." And she still sounds pissed.
"So you automatically expect me to hang out with Demyx now? What else do you want to say? Wear a condom? Go get a sex position book? If you come home limping, call beforehand so I can make you a bag of ice? Is this going to be your first time?" Zexion knew then that he was exaggerating a little too much, but when your angry you make mistakes and say things you shouldn't.
"Do you really think im that rude of a mother?" The glare she held just moments ago was back, and seemed more penetrating than before.
"No, but your saying I'm gay."
"You, me and your father are going to have a talk when he gets home." All sorrow Zexion felt dissipated into nothing.
"What are you telling dad?" Multiple thoughts ran through Zexions mind. "Are you telling him that I'm gay?"
"No!" She snapped at him, immediatly lowering her voice. "He just doesnt know if he likes Demyx."
"So your giving him the wrong idea about him? Demyx hasn't done anything."
"Hes making us argue." Zexion rolled his eyes.
"You're making us argue. Why cant you just deal with us being friends?" He pleaded, eyes staring into hers. She looked away.
"Becuase I don't think that you two are just friends." She cant even look me in the eyes. First she was just wondering and now she knows? Zexion shook his head.
"Fuck you. I don't want to talk to dad. You both dont know shit."
"Don't know shit?! Zexion you better watch what you say around here or-" Zexion looked away from her, and headed toward the front door. "Where do you think your going?" He didn't answer, but kept moving forward. "Zexion!" Out the door he went, slamming it just to spite himself.
There was no way around it, it was simple, plain and clear. Anyone walking by who didn't know him would know that Zexion was pissed, and in the next instant he had his phone in his hands and then it was up to his ear.
"Roxas! Shut the hell up! I have a call! ... I don't fucking care if you think its not important. Caller ID says is Zexy! Its important! ... Xigbar! Stop trying to pierce my belly button! I'm not like Axel!" Zexion held the phone away from his ear to stop the screaming that was going to make him go deaf. "If you don't stop I'm going to shit all over you!" Silence followed, and Zexion was unable to keep the smirk from his face. "Hello?"
"Hey."
"Hi, Zexy. Whats crackin?"
"Nothing good. Can we, like... hang out today. I dont want to be home right now." Zexions feet padded along the side walk, taking him to the nearest park.
"Yeah, sure, just let me give Roxas to Axel and I can come pick you up, alright?"
"Okay, ill be at that park you drive by near my house."
Demyx showed up rather quickly, his little car making good progress as it pushed itself down the empty road. Zexion lay curled up on the park's bench, his hand covering his eyes from the light. He heard the car stop next to him, the motor still running. He peeked out from between his fingers, peering through the window at Demyx's smile. Sitting up, he moved away from the bench and into the car.
The blonde waisted no time to ask what was wrong. "Its just my mom."
"Anything bad?"
"Obviously. She was just being a bitch." Demyx glanced at Zexion out of the corner of his eye.
"Thats why I don't live with my parents anymore. Even though Xiggys just as bad." He noted the joke, but didnt make any move to make it noticeable. "What was she being a bitch about?"
"You."
"Oh? ... I thought she liked me."
"So did I." He paused for a second, contemplating on weather to tell him what exactly happened, or to lie. "Its the whole gay thing."
"Axels gay." Demyx said quickly, too quickly, making Zexion regret saying anything.
"I told her that. She thinks somethings going on though."
"I don't understand." Again.
"She thinks we like each other." At that Demyx's mouth formed into the shape of an O.
"Thats awkward..." Zexion nodded his head, staring out the front window, his eyes watching the yellow lines against the black road, waiting for them to blurr together into one long line. There was a silence then, that lasted from when they stopped talking up until they got onto the 102. In that time, Demyx wouldn't stop glancing at Zexion, who probably thought he was just looking at him to make sure he was okay, that he wouldn't get angrier, or sad; that wasn't the case though.
Demyx was looking at Zexion because he liked the way he looked. It was something different from actually being dressed up and ready for the day. He looked at how his hair, thick and usually straight, was slightly tangled from sleep and crimped in certain sections. He looked at how his face wasn't alert and awake, but almost tired and drawn in an attractive way, like he was just lazy all the time. He looked at how he was in a wrinkled wife beater that was worn out from being used all the time for sleep, and a pair of plain, faded blue boxers that showed his petite, fragile legs. He looked at everything, and everything he liked.
"I wish I could drive like you." Demyx raised one lone eyebrow.
"What?" There was a slight twitch to Zexion's lips.
"You never look at the road. Its kind of cool." Demyx's mouth parted slightly, and he felt his cheeks redden.
"Oh." It was Zexion's turn to look over.
"Are you okay?" Demyx's eyes flickered over to him for the slightest of seconds before he nodded his head.
"Yeah, why?"
"You just seem different..."
"Different how?"
"I don't know. Its kind of like you're not as hyper as you usually are. You seem like you're concentrating on something." Demyx scoffed, rolling his eyes.
"I cant concentrate every once in a while?" Zexion smirked at that, looking back toward the road, the smirk still on his face. "What are you thinking about?"
"What it would be like to be gay." The words left his mouth before he could stop them, and he quickly had to correct himself. "Like, not that I want to be gay-but you know, kind of like- I dunno, all my friends are gay, and I guess I'm just wondering if its different, but I don't want to like, do anything gay, like I'm thinking about being gay, its just the thought, you know..." Demyx grinned at Zexion, their eyes meeting briefly.
"Thats the first time I've ever heard you ramble. Its kind of cute." The moment the words touched Zexion's ears his cheeks flared, and his eyes widened in the smallest fashion. "Thats cute too." The poor boy made a slight choking sound. "Thats what its like to be gay." Demyx pointed out, smiling. "You say the same you would to a girl, and watch them blush and get nervous."
"That wasnt very nice." Zexion muttered. "Using me as an example." Demyx stuck his tongue out.
"You're the one that wanted to know."
"Yeah, but..." Zexion watched as they exited off the freeway, the car stopping behind a row of three cars in front of them, waiting for the light to turn green. "That didn't help." Demyx laughed at that, taking his hands off the the wheel and placing them behind his head.
"I don't think you'd really understand unless you were actually gay. Its different to a certain degree, obviously you don't have tits in your face, but its a relationship none the less. I try not to pay attention to the differences." Demyx explained, placing his hands back on the wheel.
"Have you ever been in a relationship with a guy before?" Zexion asked, not sure why he was curious to know.
"Yeah," Demyx said, remembering back to his past boyfriends. "I was with Axel once, eight months." Zexion wasn't sure wether he should be surprised or slightly disgusted. The car moved forward once the light changed colors.
"Thats a long time."
"Yeah, it was. It was a good time though, Axels an amazing guy, literally. Hes perfect when hes determined."
"Determined to do what?" Zexion asked.
"Determined to make someone happy." The slate haired boy felt a wave of awkwardness wash over him, and he suddenly didn't want to talk about Demyx and Axel anymore.
"What about any girls?"
"Oh god," Demyx laughed. "One too many of those bitches. They're a nuisance, really. My last relationship with a girl was with someone called Rikku. We looked great together and all... but I felt nothing for her. It was weird, before I had felt stuff for girls, but with her I knew something was wrong. Thats when I started noticing guys." Zexion nodded his head, not sure of what to say.
"What about you?" Demyx asked once he realized Zexion wasn't going to say anything. "Get any ass from anyone?" Nice use of words, Demyx.
"The last time I had a girlfriend was about a year ago. It lasted pretty long I guess, nine months."
"Who broke up with who?"
"I broke up with her."
"Why?" Zexion had to remind himself then that Demyx wasn't trying to be nosy.
"I just didn't like her. She wasn't what I hoped she would be." Demyx pouted, his bottom lip jutting out.
"I hate it when stuff like that happens." They passed a series of restaurants and fast food places before the question popped up.
"Where are we going?" Zexion asked, looking up the familiar street name (Cobalt) that his mom was in love with. Why was she in love with it? It was the street the outdoor mall started on.
"I thought we'd wander around outside, get some fresh air." Demyx grinned, liking his idea far too much.
"I look like shit."
"No you don't." The blonde argued. "If it makes you feel any better, ill take off my pants, and shirt, and you can fuck with my hair. I think we'll look pretty cool walking around like death just shit on us." Zexion's face brightened as he looked at Demyx.
"Deal."
By the time they were walking around, the misters spraying cool droplets of water onto their skin, the smell of food filling thier noses, they both looked like they'd just run all the way there through snow, wind, dirt, and llama spit. Demyx had, like he said, removed his pants, shoes and socks, leaving him in an embarrassingly pink pair of boxers, and had taken off his shirt, his pale skin soaking up the sun like a sponge would water. Zexion had kindly fucked up his hair, doing the honors by tugging it and smashing it, even rubbing his shirt over it to make it staticy.
The outdoor mall was fairly busy, each store had its share of people in it, wandering around as they looked for items to purchase; the benches and tables covered by multicolored umbrellas were scattered with people either resting or eating, and each person was dressed appropriately. Then two fellows walked in, and Zexion wasn't sure how Demyx was so open about it. He felt as if everyone was judging him, waiting for the right moment to shoot him, and next to him was the blonde, looking as if nothing was wrong.
"Do you do this often?" Zexion mumbled to Demyx, meeting the eyes of an aging woman who was holding the hand of a small girl. He looked away before he could see her reaction to the two of them.
"Nope. I've never done this before." Oh god. Were going to get jumped. "Why? Have you?"
"God, no." Zexion shook his head. "I find it very embarrassing." A snicker came from the blonde. "Whats so funny?"
"You're embarrassed for walking around in clothes? At least you have a shirt. Who knows, maybe were homeless and dont have anything else to wear. They don't know that. Or it could be worse. We could be naked."
"Alright, I get it." Zexion frowned, bringing his hand up to rub at his arm, hoping the action would hide him from the looking eyes.
"You should be more open, you're never going to see these people again, and they wont ever see you again. Theres no one to impress here." Demyx gave the shorter boy an encouraging smile.
"Thats not the point." Zexion looked up and into blue eyes, his mind going over the fact that they looked nice at that moment.
"I know, but I was hoping that it would help a little." The slate haired boy shook his head, looking away, and instead toward an Orange Julius that looked very tempting. "You thirsty?" Demyx asked, following Zexions line of view.
"Yeah, but-" He was cut off mid-sentence.
"Have no fear, Demyx is here," The taller boy threw his hands into the air and the first thing that entered Zexions mind was that Demyx shaves his armpits. "Not really, my friend works there though, so he can get us free drinks."
They walked their way up to the small area that held the sign and place of their destination. There was a small line of two people, and the only worker there was dressed in the Orange Julius outfit. They looked miserable as they turned the blender on, the loud noise most likely just an annoying buzz to the ears to him. He was a good sized height, possibly taller than Demyx, with long blue hair. An X marked his face, going between his eyes. Whatever it was from must have hurt.
"Thats Siax." Zexion thought of the name and the person who owned it. They fit together. "Hes pretty cool, but really creepy sometimes. You know that whole thing about the full moon making people weird?"
"Yeah, I did a report on it once."
"Well, hes the guy who makes it true. Nobody wants to hang out with him on a full moon, hes just plain crazy." Demyx shut his mouth and smiled, the people in front of them gone. "Hey, Siax." The blue haired guy gave a nod, eyeing Zexion. "This is Zexion."
"Are you two... uh... doing it?" At first Zexion didn't understand, until the phrase "doing it" replayed in his head. His cheeks flared, and his mouth tightened. Demyx laughed though, slapping a hand onto the counter.
"That would be no, even if he is utterly adorable." He pulled Zexion to come up next to him. "What do you want?" He asked him. Zexion glared at him though, not saying anything. For the first few seconds Demyx didn't even notice he was being watched until he looked down. "I was just kidding!" He said with a sheepish smile.
"Ill have whatever hes getting." Zexion muttered, his voice filled with no emotion at all. He wasn't sure why he was angry, or if he was even angry at all. It was something about what Demyx had said though, it triggered something in him. Demyx pouted like he did in the car before reluctantly ordering a strawberry smoothie. He could tell that Zexion didnt want to talk, but wasn't sure of the reason why.
"Do you have money this time, Dem?" Saix asked, handing the smoothie over.
"Uhh-no." The blonde smiled, and his friend rolled his eyes. "Sorry, ill pay you back later." As they walked away, Zexion could hear Saix mumbling something along the lines of 'that's what you said last time', but ignored it.
"You want some?" Demyx asked, removing the straw from his mouth. Zexion watched the thin line of smoothie in the straw slide down slightly before holding out his hands.
"Yeah." The smoothie was handed over to him.
"You're alright, right?"
"I'm fine," Zexion said, reattaching his lips to the straw. Demyx gave a non believing smile.
"Good, 'cause-"
"Hey." The voice was unfamiliar, and the face it belonged to was just the same. Before them stood a guy with the looks of an angel. He'd be one of those guys everyone likes. Jeez, that just lowered my self-confidence. Zexion turned his attention to Demyx, who looked confused.
"Hi." He said. Obviously, the two of them didn't know who the guy was.
"Not to be creepy or anything, but I overheard something and just kind of wanted to make sure. Are you two together?" Zexion and Demyx's eyes met.
"No, were not." Demyx looked to the brunette, who smiled when he heard the answer. Zexion cocked his head to the side, chugging down the smoothie, his throat beginning to freeze.
"Alright, cool. Im Leon."
"Demyx, and this is Zexion." 'Leon' smiled at Zexion with perfect teeth, he just stood there, the straw not wavering from his lips. Leon looked back to the blonde, looking at him in a way that made the short boy want to hiss.
"So do you usually come here looking like that?" He joked, and it was obvious that he didn't want Zexion to be a part of thier conversation, which made the smoothie detach from his mouth. Stop getting angry. He told himself.
"Like this? No, this was just a one time thing." Demyx laughed, making the slate haired boys eyes narrow.
"Awh, that sucks then, because you've got a nice body." The words flowed from his mouth like a river, and they sounded nice, and flirtatious, and they made Demyx smile.
"Well, thank you." Zexion stared.
"Do you live around here?" Leon asked, shifting his weight from one foot to the other, shifting in a way that brought him and Demyx just that much closer.
"I live about ten minutes away, maybe fifteen."
"I'm really not trying to be nosy, but since hes not your boyfriend, does that mean your single?" Demyx was seconds from answering when a pink substance hit Leon square in the face. The blonde's jaw dropped and his eyes immediately flew to Zexion who was walking away, the smoothie nowhere in his hands.
"Zexion!" His eyes flew back to Leon, an apologetic look on his face. "I'm so fucking sorry, seriously, oh god, im so sorry. I don't know- Sorry." Demyx took off after Zexion, trying to catch up with his pace. "Zexion." He reached out with his hand, grabbing his shoulder, but the shorter boy flinched away. "Zex-"
"Take me home, Demyx." It was clear that Zexion wasnt playing any games.
"Why did you do that?"
"Just take me home." He repeated, both their steps set at a fast pase.
"But you just-"
"I said take me home!" The outburst shocked Demyx, and it caused him to freeze. He was confused, so very confused, and was about to make probably the biggest mistake by repeating his same question, but he stopped himself, mentally hitting his head while telling himself that he was the stupidest guy ever, and he didnt even know why.
The ride home was quiet. There was no music, no voices, it was almost as if they weren't even breathing. Demyx's hands clenched the car's wheel angrily, and Zexion layed limp in the passenger seat, his eyes closed. At first, the blonde thought he had fallen asleep, and almost thought of taking him to his own house, but in their current situation, he didn't. Instead, he drove Zexion back to his house like he had ordered.
"Zexion." He mumbled quietly, scared that if he raised his voice any louder, the boy would yell at him again. His eyes opened, and he sat up, not bothering to look at Demyx.
"Ill see you later."
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