Ashes To Ashes-Chapter Twelve: When You Mess With A Major

Rosalie POV

Seeing Jasper in pain was...is horrible. He hasn't left his and Alice's room since the day he saw the jar...that was three days ago. I sat outside in the woods with my arms around my legs praying to God I could cry. Alice was my closest friend, sister. Now she was gone. First it was Jared's imprint...now Alice.

The second most horrible thing to see and hear was...when Renesmee found out.

*Flashback*

I watched as Jasper grabbed up the jar and walked into the house, we all heard his and...Alice's...door slam shut. I helped Emmett up then heard Renesmee yawning. "Mommy why is uncle Jasper upset?" I walked to the inside of the house and watched as Bella and Edward sat down on the couch, Renesmee in the middle of them. "Nessie...he's upset because of Aunt Alice.." I could see Nessie's face light up a little at the mention of Alice. "Ohh she told me she'd take me shopping this weekend and we'd have a makeover." I felt arms go around me and I watched them still. "Nessie..." Edward started but Bella finished. "Nessie...honey...Alice...she's not here anymore..." Renesmee's face fell and she frowned deeply. "What happened to Auntie Alice?"

"Nessie...she...she's gone." I could see tears form in my nieces eyes and I turned away. I couldn't block out her crying, everyone heard it and I heard Jasper scream at the top of his lungs. He was feeling everyones pain now Nessie's. I didn't see how he'd get through this.

*End Flashback*

I leaned my head back against the tree and sighed heavily. I heard someone walk up and I looked over to see Jasper with Carlisle pushing him forward. "You have to hunt son."

"Whats the point?" Jasper mumbled and just sat down on a rock. Carlisle sighed and rubbed the bridge of his nose. Jasper didn't want to do anything anymore, all he wanted to do was be in the room, not doing anything. "Carlisle I'll talk to him...you go to Esme." Carlisle looked at me then Jasper and nodded. He was gone in two seconds and I moved next to Jasper. "Jasper..."

"Save it Rosalie...I don't want to hear any sorry's or hear any words from you...I can feel it all." I simply nodded and hugged him. He stiffended and didn't return the hug.

Jasper POV

When Rosalie hugged me it hurt, I knew it was a simple kind gesture and I couldn't help but stiffen. The last person to be this close, to hug me was Alice. Returning the hug wouldn't make me feel any better, it would just keep reminding me that I'd never have my arms around her again. "Rosalie...kill me." She pulled back and looked at me wide eyed. Before she could speak I cut her off saying, "I can't stand this Rosalie. You haven't lost Emmett and I pray you never do, so you do not know how I feel...Edward is the only one here to know. How he felt when he thought he lost Bella...its tripled now for me. I can feel your pain, theirs, plus mine. Even some of the wolves are sad about...Alice."

I choked up on her name and looked at the ground. "I'm begging you to end my suffering...I can't live without her Rose..she brought life to me...now its gone along with her. I might as well be back working for Maria." I could feel how Rosalie was tense and how sad me saying these things were making her. I looked at her pleading and she frowned at me. "Jasper...I'm so sorry...but I can't. I won't let Esme lose a son...and I won't lose a brother." I shut my eyes tightly and shook my head and muttered, "Damn."

Edward POV

I paced along the La Push border line and tapped my chin. I needed a break from Jasper's constant painful thoughts and everyone elses. Killing Alice was a mistake but it was needed. The only thing I regretted was not being able to spy on The Volturi any longer. I walked back through the woods and started heading home but stopped when I heard Jasper and Rosalie talking.

"Jasper I know you want to die but you can't...I know you miss her, we all will but she wouldn't want you to give up. Just like you wouldn't want her to."

"She was my life Rosalie. My LIFE."

"I know that, just like Emmett is mine...but you have a whole family that is here for you, we won't walk away from you..we're here for you. We are going to help you in anyway possible." I heard Jasper move standing up and I listened closely. "Want to help Rosalie? You really want to help me?"

"Yes.."

"Then help me find whoever killed her. Then stay back. Because once I find him or her...I'll show them what happens when you mess with a major."