It was now spring. There was still barely any snow on the groud and the sun was up, warming my flowey pelt. "Hi Fawnpaw." Said Pondpaw.
"Hey." I murmured, sitting up. Pondpaw came to sit by me. Suddenly, Badgerpaw, a white tom with green eyes, came to sit by us, too.
"Hey Fawnpaw." He murmured shyly.
"Hi." I said, flicking my ear in greeting. He liked me, but I didnt feel the same way towards him. We just lied down and sunbathes in silence.
"I'm going to catch up with graypaw. Later guys." Said Pondpaw, getting up and leaving.
I was so happy that it was summer. There were so many sicknesses going around when it was cold... I shuddered at the thought. I was so stressed that I couldnt figue out which herb to use. At least no kits were lost.
"Fawnpaw, Sunkit has a thorn in his paw. I'm going to get it out for him but could you please get some marygold? He might get an infection." Shouted Petalclaw from her den. I got up and headed to the flower patch. Marygold... Marygold... What is marygold? Suddenly, as I was about to wonder off a bit farther, I heard a growl. Then, four angry looking cats surrounded me. One was a tom that had white and ginger fur with orange eyes. Another was a black she-cat with ghostly gray eyes. And there was a silver tom with blue eyes. They were all very very large... Accept for one with black fur and one white paw. He was a tom. His eyes were dark blue. But they all were way bigger than me. And suddenly, I remembered. He saved me from drowning in the lake. And I seemed to remember him from something else. I knew there was something else. But what? Maybe if I found out his name, that would help. Unlike the others, he was slender and tall. The others were more short. I quickly tried to walk around them, but the she-cat shoved me to the ground.
"What do you want?" I hissed.
"To kill you." Growled the ginger and white tom.
Suddenly, they all surrounded me. "Eat these." Said the silver tom, passing me some bright red berries. I remember learning about a berry that looked like that. But I forgot what they were called and what they did. But they smelled divine. The black tom just loomed over me, his face expressionless. And when I looked up from where I was lying, I caught his eyes and he managed to catch mine. His expression changed. He looked shocked and even jumped up a little. He contenued to stare into my eyes. A little smile curled on his face, then suddenly, his expression became hard.
"Eat the berries, pretty." Grolwed the she-cat. I wasnt sure what they would do, so I refused to eat them. She growled, glaring at me. The silver tom ran into me and I tumbled down, bumping into a tree, knocking my head and I could barely see them running off... Accept for the tom. He ran over to me.
"Just hold in there..." He said in a tense voice. "Are you dizzy?" He asked. I nodded. "Well, it should go away soon." He murmured. I already know that! I wanted to whine.
"Er, okay, I'm all better now. I'll be going." As I got up, I bumped into him and fell over. "Oh, sorry." I mumbled, still feeling a tad bit dizzy.
He just laughed. That made me angry. I usually didn't act agressive, but I had enough of him. I leaped on him and pinned him down (And of course, he let me, and amused look on his face). Suddenly, he stopped and we were silent. We looked into eachother's eyes and I knew who he was. "Shadow?" I murmured quietly.
"Fawnkit?" He asked, his ears perked up.
"Fawnpaw."
"I-I cant believe its you." He laughed and I joined in. "I missed you so much!" He said, brushing his cheek against mine.
"I missed you, too." I whsipered.
"I thought I would never see you again!"
"I felt there was a piece of me missing..." Then, I looked into his eyes. "It was you." I whispered. Then, suddenly, I realized something. I'm in love! Medicine cats cant be in love! I backed up.
"What is it?" He asked.
"No! No! We cant! I will get in trouble! I have to go!" And I ran off, tears streaming down my cheeks.
I was back at camp. "Did you bring the marygold?" Asked Petalclaw. Oh no...
"Um, I forgot."
"You always forget! Now I have to go get it! Go in your den and try to name every herb in there!" She growled.
I sighed as I watched her run off. I slowly walked into the den. It was stocked with herbs. There were so many. They all had different smells, different colors, tastes, textures... It was so confusing! I hissed and ran over by the little pool of water in the medicine den. As i looked down into it, I saw my reflection. "I dont even know who you are." I mumbled, staring at it. "All I know is this: your not a medicine cat." A teardrop fell into it I and furiously splashed it, watching it shatter. Then, I walked away.
"Fawnpaw!" Shouted the deputy, Thunderclash, a golden tom with black paws.
"Yeah?"
"Where is Petalclaw?" He asked urgently.
"She's getting herbs."
"Oh no..."
"What?"
"...We dont have time for this!"
"Time for what?"
"Follow me! Our leader is dying." He shouted, running into the leader's den. I gasped and followed.
"Is this his last life?" I asked, when I saw him lying down in the den. Thunderclash nodded. Oh no! "Okay, what happened?"
"He just got bit by a snake. What must we do?"
"I-I dont know!"
"What do you mean you dont know? Your a medicine cat apprentice for Starclan's sake!"
"I'm not good at it, though."
"Well do something!" Thunderclash shouted. I could now feel my heart pounding in my chest as I watched my old leader slowly die. "Fawnpaw!" Hissed Thunderclash, shoving me into the walls of the den, cornering me. "Do something! Your leader is dying!" He spat. So I ran over to Crowstar, but it was too late. His breathing had stopped. "You killed him!"
"I didn't kill him..."
"Yes you did! When I'm leader, I'll make sure you never become a medicine cat! Unworthy she-cat!"
"I understand." I murmured. "Crowstar will be missed. I hope at least he understands that if I knew how, I would have done my best to keep him alive." Then I walked off. I knew that when he came back from the Moonstone, he was going to tell Nightflower evrything. I went into the medicine den and lied down.
"Cats of Springclan!" I heard the booming voice of Thunderclash shout. Cats surrounded him. "Crowstar has died of a snake bite." Suddenly, I saw Nightflower walk in and sit by me.
"Whats going on?" She whispered.
"Crowstar died." I said in a sad voice.
"He could have lived, but the clan's medicine cat apprentice let him die!" Shouted Thunderclash. All of the cats faced me.
I got up and faced them, "I didn't! I just didn't know how to help! I would never let him die if I knew what herbs to use!" I yelled helplessly. I turned around, not bothering to see whats the other cats thought of that.
"For that, when I am leader, she will be a warrior apprentice!" And then, he left. He was going to be the new leader.
Tears began streaming down my cheeks. I ran to the flower field. Suddenly, I saw Shadow. "Whats wrong?" He asked, running over to comfort me.
"My whole clan probably thinks I'm a killer. They were told I let Crowstar die when he was bit by a snake. But, I just didn't know what to do... And now I'm going to be a warrior apprentice." I said soflty.
"You don't even look like you could be a killer!" I said, angered.
"Don't be angry. I'm fine." I said. "I should get going anyway."
"I love you." He said.
"I love you, too." I said, then I walked off, into camp.
Thunderclash, or should I say Thunderstar, was waiting for me.
"Where were you?" He growled.
"I was-"
"You smell like rouge."
"I was out in the flowers. How can I smell like rouge?" I hissed, agnered at myself for not bothering to wash it off.
"Whatever. I decided to let you be a medicine apprentice. But you'll have to learn. Got it?" He asked. I nodded. "Good, I will let the clan know." And he walked off. And I was ready to train harder.