Hey everyone...So I'm really sorry it's taken me forever update..I feel horrible about that (*_*) I had no motivation at all..It sucked. Trust me. But alas a new chapter is here. Not sure how many more there will be but I'm hopeing (really, really hopeing) that the next ud will be a lot faster. Again I'm very sorry. But it's hard to write a love story when your life kinda sucks =/ Anyhoo I hope there a still a few of you out there who are still into this story, so please review and let me know what you think.

EvidenceOfMe

Chapter 26 "How Can You Still Love Me?" My Love by Sia

As they kissed the world around them faded. It was just the two of them, standing in the midst of nothing.

When they pulled away, Sara kept her eyes closed, for just a moment forgetting everything that had happened. It was just the two of them. Nothing else mattered. But as she opened her eyes, it was like reality hit her.

He cheated on her. They fought. He left. She dated Nick and almost got engaged to Nick. And now here they were, standing in the parking lot of an airport. Her only question was what was going to happen next?

They sat across from each other in a small cafe. They'd been sitting there in silence; both hoping the other would make the first move.

"It's not going to be that easy is it?" Grissom asked softly.

She shook her head. "No, Gil. It's not."

"What ever you need, I'll give it to you. If you need time, I'll keep my distance. And if you need me to leave again I will-"

"No. I-I don't want you to go again." Sara said, her voice shaking a little. "I can't go through that again."

"Then I won't, Sara."

"But...I do need some time. Yes, I forgive you and I do love you. I just can't forget what you did."

"I'll wait. For however long. When you're ready, I'll be there...I promise."

"Grissom, I...I don't know who I am anymore. I've always hated men who have cheated. I've hated them with a passion. And yet here I am, kissing one of them. Loving one of them. That's just not me.

And I think I need to sort figure out the 'new me'." Sara said, looking at Grissom.

"Sara, I want this-I want us, to work. I made a mistake, I'm sure you're tired of hearing that, but it's true. I can't say it enough, but I love you, Sara. Only you. Without you in my life, I have nothing.

I know you need time to figure things out, I'm fine with that. But I want you to know, I'm here for you no matter what. If you want to scream at me then go for it. If you want me to hold you while you cry, my arms are open.

I'm not screwing things up again. I'm here to stay, as long as you still want me."

"Then come home with me."

Grissom looked at her, surprised. "But you said you needed some space?"

"Maybe I'm wrong...Maybe all I need is you."

"Sara, are you sure?"

"I wouldn't have said it if I wasn't." She said smiling.

"Sara..."

She looked into his eyes. "We only live once. And I am so damn scared that I've already wasted to much time. Time that could have been spent with you...Gil when I'm with you, I can't think straight. Sometimes this feeling comes over me and I can't breathe.

There are so many people that can't find true love. They spend countless days searching for 'the one'. And here we are. The other half of my soul is sitting right across from me. People would kill for a love like this. But like you said, this isn't going to be easy. And yet, it should be."

Grissom watched her with pain in his eyes. He was the one who caused this. He was the one that was still causing her pain. "Sara, if I'd-"

"Why did you do it?"

Her question surprised him. "What?"

"Why did you sleep with her?"

Grissom looked at the coffee mug in his hands; by now it was surely gone cold. "I've asked myself that question a thousand times. I still don't have an answer."

"Was...Was it because of me?" Sara asked softly.

"No, Sara. Don't you ever think that. I love you, you know that."

"I don't, Gil. Honestly I don't. Not after what you did. Sure, you can say three little words. But do you really mean them? You slept with another woman. If you weren't happy you just had to tell me."

"Sara, being around you makes me the happiest person alive-"

"Then why?"

The anger in her voice was not something he was expecting.

"Because, for a moment, I lost my sanity. I lost my ability to think straight. She'd just lost her brother and I didn't know how to comfort her-"

"So the best thing you could think of was to jump into bed with her?"

Grissom's jaw clenched in anger. But it wasn't towards Sara, he was furious with himself. She was right. She was so unbelievably right.

"Look, Gil. You know I forgive you. I'm honestly not sure how I can but...I just need answers. I need you to help my understand why this happened. Otherwise, I'm not sure we can move past this."

The anger that had filled her voice moments ago was gone. He looked up and her eyes were soft and loving. How could he ever deserve her?

"I know you need answers, and I swear I would do everything in my power to give you them. But you have to understand this isn't easy for me. I hate myself so much for what I've done to you."

"I never said it was easy for you. It's not easy for me either. But we can work through this."

"How can you still love me?"

Sara couldn't help but smile. "Because...Something inside me is telling me this if for a reason. That it's made me stronger. That maybe, somewhere down the line, this...experience, will help me get through something bigger."

"You deserve so much more, Sara. Much more then I can ever give you." Grissom said. "You're such a better person then I could ever be. You're so ready and willing to love and to forgive. You have such a big heart, Sara."

For a moment she didn't say anything. She just looked at him. "Maybe I don't need answers anymore."

Grissom looked at her and laughed. "You're sure? Because first you asked me to come home with you, then were angry at me and wanting answers, asking if I really meant it when I say 'I love you' and now you're saying to what? Forget all that?"

She smiled back at him. "Yeah...Well, sort of. I do still need answers, maybe just not right now. You're not completely off the hook...But I'm mostly saying 'you better shut up and kiss me before I have to kick your ass'."

"Oh..." Grissom said, nodding. "So all that was code for 'I love you'?"

"See? Now you're catching on."

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