So hey I know it has been forever and ever since I updated and I have no other excuse beside life! I tried multiple times to update this story but just could not get into the "romance" mood. But, finally! Today I was! This is the last chapter, just because I don't want to leave you all waiting for like another 3 months or whatever. I hope you like it! Please let me know what you think. And again, really sorry! =( I feel really bad about it! =(
Okay so wow! I was just about to post this when I saw I already had a chapter 27! I totally do not remember writing that! Ha! Wow! Jeez and I just glanced over it and there are so many similarities, but I swear I do not remember it! Ah! I'm loosing my mind! :( Sooooo! I guess just forget the last chapter 27? Idk what to do! I just spent like 3 hours writing this! Uh consider this an alternate "official" ending? Sound good? I'm really sorry but I'm not sure what else to do! I really hate to drag this story out any longer! Lemme know if you want another chapter though. I should (hopefully) be able to whip one up soon. I do start school again on monday so ya may have to wait a lil while if you do want another chapter. Up to you. Just leave a review and we shall go from there. ((still can't belive I didn't remember my other chapter 27! gosh!))
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Chapter 27 "This Was Reality" You've Got the Love by Florence + The Machine
Sometimes I feel like throwing my hands up in the air
I know I can count on you
Sometimes I feel like saying "Lord I just don't care"
But you've got the love I need to see me through
When food is gone you are my daily meal
When friends are gone I know my savior's love is real
You know it's real
You got the love
Grissom's POV
I sat at my desk, lost in thought over the events of the night before. So much had happened, so much had changed
And yet, here I was again, unconditionally and madly in love with a woman who, against all odds, loves me back. In all honesty, I never thought it would end like this. Once things started doing downhill, I thought, for sure I was destined to die alone.
To die a man who had lost his chance at love; lost his chance at happiness. But I have had the privilege to be granted a second chance. It is a chance that not many men in my shoes have the chance to use; a second chance to live and love to the fullest.
In my heart I know I don't deserve her. She deserves so much more than I can give her. But, call me greedy and selfish, I will not tell her that. If she will have me, I will welcome her with open arms.
A knock at the door brings me out of my thoughts and back to reality. Before I can say 'Come in' the door swings open softly.
I fear I am dreaming. That this is some alternate reality, that it's not real. She stands in the door way and smiles at me. The smile that captured my heart from the very beginning; the smile that melted my very being into nothingness.
Neither of us said a word. We just stood there watching each other. It had been so long that I've just looked at her. It was like looking at an old picture, remembering things that you had long forgotten.
But this was real. This was reality.
Time after time I think "Oh Lord what's the use?"
Time after time I think it's just no good
Sooner or later in life, the things you love you lose
But you got the love I need to see me through
You got the love
Sara's POV
I silently took a step forward and closed the door softly behind me. I turned to look at him and a smile spread across my lips.
"Come here."
My words were soft, just above a whisper. He rose to his feet, setting his glasses on the desk. I waited until he was right in front of me, our lips almost touching, before I spoke again.
"I love you."
His eyes sparkled in the dim light of his office. The corners of his mouth lifted until his smile mirrored mine.
He slowly leaned forward and captured my lips in a passionate kiss. I closed my eyes and lost myself in the sensation.
His actions spoke louder than any words ever could. This was his reply, his way of saying 'I love you too.' As we broke apart I slowly opened my eyes to meet his. Those deep blue pools that held so much love; love I knew that was meant for me.
"I have something for you." He said as he took my hand in his. "Close your eyes."
I smiled and did as he said. He kissed my cheek and I could tell he was grinning. He took my other hand and led farther into his office.
"Stay there." He whispered as he released my hands.
Seconds passed by until his soft voice broke the silence. "Open them."
I felt the breath leave my body as I focused on the sight before me. He was down on one knee before me, a tiny black box in his hand.
My vision blurred as tears filled my eyes. This couldn't be real. This couldn't be happening. But as he took my hand again, I knew it had to be.
This was real. This was reality.
Sometimes it seems that the going is just too rough
And things go wrong no matter what I do
Now and then it seems that life is just too much
But you've got the love I need to see me through
You got the love
Grissom's POV
I looked up at her and her eyes locked with mine. I was silent for a moment; thinking of the right words to say.
"I know I messed up. We both know that. And we both know there is no going back, there's nothing I can say to make up for it or change it. I did what I did and I wholeheartedly regret it.
You know I have an odd love for rollercoasters, but I must admit I did not like the emotional rollercoaster we just went on. And I hate myself knowing that I caused it. That I caused you pain and sorrow.
But we ended up right here and I believe we are stronger for what we've gone through. Our love is stronger than it ever was before.
I don't want to think about the past, but I know it will always be there. And over the next years, or the rest of our lives, there will be reminders of what I've done. But I want to move forward with you by my side.
I want to walk into the future with our hands intertwined. I want move on, and remember the past but not dwell on it. Let it make us have greater understanding and more willingness to forgive.
And whatever life throws at us next, I want to be by your side. I want to hold you if you cry, and laugh when you laugh. I want to spend every moment with you. I want to create new memories, happy ones that will be etched into our minds forever.
I wouldn't dream of spending my life with anyone else but you. And I won't ask for your forgiveness again, I won't ask you to accept my apology. When you're ready you will. And I'll wait for however long that might be.
But I promise you I will never give up on us. What we have is one in a million and I was a complete idiot for letting it go. And I never will again. I'm going to hold onto you with both hands."
I stopped for a moment and slowly opened the tiny ring box. "This was my great grandmothers and I would dream of giving it to anyone else but you.
Sara Sidle, I promise to love and cherish you for the rest of my days. I promise to never stray from your side. I promise to never let you go. I promise to care for you every waking moment of my life.
We have already gone through so much together; I would like to spend the rest of my life as yours and no one else's.
Sara, will you marry me?"
Sometimes I feel like throwing my hands up in the air
I know I can count on you
Sometimes I feel like saying "Lord I just don't care"
But you've got the love I need to see me through
Sara's POV
I felt my heart literally stop beating. My breath caught in my lungs and I felt a thousand butterflies fluttering in my stomach.
After everything that happened, I didn't think a simple "Yes" would cover things.
"Gil, there is only one man in the world that I could ever forgive for doing what you did, and he is kneeling in front of me now, holding a ring.
I don't want you to make those promises that you said to me. I want to make promises together. I-I don't have some great speech like you just did. I don't have a family heirloom to give to you.
All I have is me, and I hope that is enough."
"That's more than enough." He whispered to me.
"Then yes! God, yes!"
Suddenly it was like I was alive again. My heart beat faster than it ever has; air filled my lungs to the fullest and blood pumped in my veins.
A smile spread across his lips as he slipped the ring on my finger.
"Now kiss me." I said, my face inches from his.
"My pleasure…Mrs. Grissom."
You got the love I need to see me through
The End
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