A/N: Soo...as an "anonymus" reviewer pointed out *coughcough*, yeah, the couples in this story are supposed to be Axel/Roxas and Riku/Sora. BUT! (I have a but.) Notice, in the description, I DID warn you there'd be slight Roxas/Namine AND Roxas/Xion. Take THAT, "Who_Do_You_Think_This_Is!" XD That's what you get for liking Xion. ;P Oy, here we go. AND THE ANGSTY DRAMA CONTINUES! D'; Still in Roku's POV.

DISCLAIMER:

KHFreakOZoid: Haa, everyone hates you. :3 *stands for applause*
Fangirls: *clap like crazy*
Xion: *stands up*
Fangirls: *throw tomatoes at her*
Xion: -_-;;
KHFreakOZoid: :) Gosh, where is Zexion... Oh well, guess I'll do the disclaimer without him. I own nothing and Kingdom Hearts is the sole property of Disney and Squeenix and-
Zexion: I'M HERE, I'M HERE! What'd I miss?
KHFreakOZoid: Nothing much. Just the disclaimer. :D
Zexion: ...

I wasn't sure how it'd happened. Hell, I wasn't even sure exactly what had happened...I just knew Axel and I weren't together anymore.

You'd think I would've run from my spot immediately, leaving Xion in the dust having already forgotten about her, and found Axel, getting on my hands and knees, begging for his forgiveness. You'd think I would promise never to see her again and cry until he talked to me. You'd think I would be a movie cliche and write him a love song, sing it for him, and everything would be alright and we'd live happily ever after, right?

Wrong.

Instead, I stayed where I was. I watch Axel leave. And I didn't go after him. I stayed next to Xion, not answering the millions of questions in her eyes. My arms were still around her...and I didn't let her go. I needed her now. I just lost the person I thought was the love of my life...I needed her.

This was crazy. I loved Axel...! Didn't I? Honestly, I didn't know what to think anymore. Yesterday, when he told me he loved me, I couldn't remember a time where I'd been happier. I was on top of the world and could do know wrong. But then Xion comes in...and in one day makes me question how I really feel. If I even have to question my feelings for him it couldn't really be love...could it? If I doubted it that easily? I wasn't so sure anymore...

I didn't understand. Yesterday I'd been so sure of...everything. I was so sure I loved him. But right now, with Xion, I seriously wondered. The worst part was...I didn't feel a loss. When Axel walked out, he should've taken my heart with him. I should've felt this empty feeling, right? Like half of me was missing?

I felt...nothing. Like I was still whole. I felt bad, but...not because he wasn't here. I felt bad that I didn't feel bad.

I didn't want to be in a relationship with Xion...at least not until I had all my feeling sorted out. It wouldn't be fair to anyone if I acted on impulse like that. When we walked back, everyone was staring. Sure enough Demyx had spread the news. The only one who wasn't staring was Axel, who was nowhere to be found. I sighed, feeling a little guilty about being the source of his pain, but I tried to push it off. It wasn't until I was home, alone in my bedroom, that I really felt the feeling of utter loneliness.

I looked the door and let myself cry, ignoring Sora when he tried to get me to open the door. It wouldn't matter anyway. There was nothing he could say or do. Without Axel it didn't matter anyway.

I stayed in my room the rest of the day. I ignored everyone who knocked on my door. No one could make me feel any better-

"Roxas? It's Xion."

I sat up immediatly. I hesitated but answered. "Come in."

She jiggled the knob but it didn't open. "Um...?" I forgot I'd locked the door.

"Oh...hang on." I got up, unlocking my bedroom door. As Xion walked in and I sat down of my bed, feeling strangely better.

"Sora told me you were upset," she started gently. "Forgive me for intruding but, were you and Axel...involved?"

I blushed and I could tell she was uncomfortable talking about it. "W-well...yeah, we were together...," I stammered.

"Oh...so I guess I made a mistake when I...," she trailed off, looking away.

"N-no, it's okay. It...," I took a deep breath. "It was nice...," I whispered.

She looked at me and I saw a million questions in her eyes, but she refrained from asking any. She cleared her throat, changing the subject. "S-so, the real reason I came over is...well, I wanted to know if you, I don't know, wanted to go see a movie or something?" she asked, a bit shyly.

I thought for a second, almost wondering if I should. "Yeah, I'd like that." I halfsmiled at her, and gave me a much brighter one in return.

"Okay...meet you at R.G. Cinemas in an hour?" (1)

"Sure. See you later."

Xion said goodbye to me and left. When she exitted my room Sora stood in my doorway, looking at me disapprovingly.

"What?" I asked. My brother only rolled his eyes and shook his head before leaving me alone.

Okay. This was bad. When even Sora won't waste the energy to smack me, I know he's disappointed.

When Xion left, I had some time to think, and I realized some things. When Xion was around, I found it much easier not to think about Axel. I was...almost happy. But when I was alone...I was miserable. He was the only thing I could think of. I knew the only reason that Xion made me happy was because she kept my mind off of him. I should just call it off with her, run back to Axel, and beg for his forgiveness. But...

I liked Xion.

I did. I really did. Not just because she made me forget Axel, but...she was nice. And beautiful. And...she liked me too. I knew in my heart that my kiss with Xion had been a big mistake, but...my stupid teenage desires kept telling me it was right. But...

I sighed. There was no way I could do this. It wouldn't be fair to Xion. I liked Xion, but...she could never compare to Axel. I groaned to myself. I had made the biggest mistake of my life. I liked Xion, but...

I loved Axel.

And she could never compare to that.

Now all I needed was a plan...

"Roxas? What are you doing here?" Axel asked, surprised. I expected him to be angry, but he didn't seem too upset...

"I-I wanted to talk to you."

Axel looked away but nodded and motioned me inside. I walked in his front door, taking a seat next to him on the couch. I opened my mouth to speak but he cut me off. "Let me just say something first...I'm not angry about the whole...Xion thing. I don't want you to be unhappy. If I got angry at you for...I mean, you know. You can't control who you fall for, so I guess I can't be upset with you for that. If I was, I guess I wouldn't be any better than Namine, but-"

"Uh, Axel?" He had started rambling. I tried to politely interupt him. He smiled apologetically.

"Well, anyway...friends?" He stuck his hand out for me to shake. I hesitated, staring at it for a moment. So this was it. Axel wasn't even going to fight for me. It was really over...

I took his hand slowly, and shook it. "Friends." I sighed while my heart broke.

(1) R.G. stands for Radiant Garden.