A/N: I am not a very happy authoress today. -.-' My last chapter only got TWO reviews and I know for a fact you can do better than that. I usually get about ten for chapter, so you can see why this upsets me. -.-' Sorry to act like a review junky but that's life. :3 But thank you Carol and Moe10 for being my reviewers! You made me happy so I will write you each a oneshot! :D (Kingdom Hearts is obviously my best...although there might be a couple other fandoms I'll accept.) Message me! And before I post chapter eighteen, I want at LEAST seven reviews. Now go. lol So, this chapter was pretty emotional for me...it's something I can really relate to, because this was actually based off of a true story. I can't give away what happened because that'll spoil the chapter, but just imagine me in Axel's place, and my best friend in Roxas's place. This actaully happened to me. And let me just say, I am beyond amazed that this story has gotten so far! I seriously imagined this to have maybe six chapters when I started. Now here we are on chapter seventeen. Cool, right? And I've decided the rating is as stands. I'll probably make a lemony one-shot sequel later on when this is finished. :3 Enjoy!

Disclaimer:

Roxas: *angst angst angst*
Axel: :'( Can I have him back now, pleeease?
KHFreakOZoid: No. :D Zexion, say your line before I get roasted...
Zexion: She owns nothing and Kingdom Hearts is the-
Axel: BURN, BABY! *sets his dear author on fire*
KHFreakOZoid: AAH!
Zexion: -sole property or Square-Enix and Disney. Carry on.
Xion: Everyone hates me now... -.-'
KHFreakOZoid: BAHAHAHAHA! NOW?

6 MONTHS LATER

AXEL'S POV

"You sure it's okay if you're late to school?" my borther, Reno, asked me. "What if you miss something important?" The two of us looked at each other and immediatly burst into laughter.

"Please, so I miss one hour of school. What's the worst that could happen?"

ROXAS'S POV

This day...seemed to go by in slow motion for me. And yet it seemed to go by much too quickly at the same time. Sora was driving me to school. I didn't feel like driving and Axel had stopped offering months ago...

I felt the small bottle in my pocket and it burned my fingertips.

The ride to school was a silent one. Sora dropped me off at the school's front doors and went around back to park. I vaguely wondered why he was driving himself at all; Riku usually drove him. I wanted to wonder if everything was okay between them but I didn't have the mental strength to care right now...

I took in all my surroundings carefully. I walked up the concrete path to the school, remembering that first morning Axel and I were a couple. He'd walked up this same path with his arm around me. People were staring and he'd taken his arm away. I wish more than anything now that he hasn't.

I thought about the bottle in my pocket.

I walked through the double doors and through the crowd of people who had once stared at me and Axel, knowing us as the gay scandal that had broken Namine and me up. Now they barely acknowledged I was there.

I thought about the bottle in my pocket.

I walked by the lockers, where Axel had wanted so badly to kiss me that first day...but didn't, in fear of making me uncomfortable. I wish he had.

I thought about the bottle in my pocket.

I took three deep breaths and walked into the restroom. I stared at myself in the mirror. I thought about the day when Namine's brother, Seifer, had dragged me in there and beat me up for breaking his sister's heart. And when Axel came in the save me. I remembered the bruises that hadn't disappeared for weeks. I looked at myself in the mirror now and every bruise was gone...on the outside. On the inside, I was just as banged up as I was that one fateful day...no, it was worse.

...I thought about the bottle in my pocket.

With shaky hands and breath, I reached into my pocket and took out the bottle of sleeping pills, my nerves causing the contents inside to rattle around. I stared at it for a moment, still thinking about everything. What would my friends think? Would they be okay without me? ...Honestly, I thought they would. Not one of them ever really bothered to see what was wrong with me lately. Not that I would've told them anyway.

What would my parents think? I knew they loved me...they'd be very upset. I didn't blame them for being oblivious for my mood lately. I wasn't around my mom enough for her to notice and my dad was hopelessly ADD. ...They'd blame themselves. They'd think there could've been something they could do to help me. They'd be wrong.

What would Sora think...? Sora had tried for months to lighten my mood. Honestly, if there would be anyone to see this coming, I think it would be him. Twin telepathy and all that jazz... I felt my eyes start to sting as I thought about the reality of leaving him... He'd be the most upset, surely. I placed the bottle on the counter and pinched the bridge of my nose, thinking. I barely dared to think the last name...

...What would Axel think?

I felt my heart ache unbarebly and I choked out a sob, the tears brimming over. I picked up the bottle again, popping the top open and pouring a generous dose into my palm. I could barely see them through the blur of tears. I closed my eyes and paused, every one of those previous thoughts flashing through my brain again. My mind stopped on one image in particular.

I thought about the night I spent in the hospital. When Axel came to visit me. I'd expected him to make everything right. To tell me he loved me. Now I knew he didn't.

I thought about the emptied pill bottle in my hand.

"Axel, I love you," I whispered tearfully, and took one of the pills into my mouth.

"Roxas?" a voice said; it felt like a knife in my heart. "What's wrong?" The worry in his voice was obvious and real, which made it that much worse. Although, I guess I should expect him to be worried. I was crying on the bathroom floor in the fetal position...

When I didn't answer him, Axel took a few steps closer, and saw the bottle of sleeping pills that I'd been too chicken to take and had been knocked onto the floor. Even through my blur of tears, I could just see his eyes widen.

"Oh, my God...Roxas!" Axel rushed down to me and pulled me up, propping me sloppily against the bathroom wall. "Roxas, what's wrong with you? Why in the Hell would you try and kill yourself?" he tried to yell at me quietly. I also took notice that he called me Roxas, instead of Roxy. He only did that when he was trying to be formal. Lately that was all the time...

Axel sighed sharply and pinched the bridge of his nose when I again failed to answer. I expected more yelling; possibly even a slap to the face, but when I looked at him, I was astounded to see the corners of Axel's eyes were wet.

"A-Axel, what's wrong?" I asked, almost inaudibly.

He laughed bitterly, not a trace of humor in the sound. "You almost killed yourself and you ask me what's wrong?" he spat, he voice breaking on the last word. I was stunned.I don't think anyone has ever seen Axel cry. And the fact that I caused it...it didn't know whether to feel impressed or to feel like a douche.

My subconscious chose douche.

The way he'd been acting lately...it didn't make sense for him to be upset. He'd barely spoken to me since I got out of the hospital six months ago. He didn't come over anymore, didn't invite me over anymore, didn't drive me to school anymore...he just disappeared out of my life. It made absolutely no sense that he'd be here, sitting on the bathroom floor with me, crying at the thought of me not being in his life...it just didn't make sense.

"Would you stop staring at me and say something?" Axel pleaded. I realized I'd gone silent again. He was blushing slightly; I knew that was because he wasn't used to people seeing him like this. I picked my next words carefully.

"Why do you care?" I whispered, almost inaudibly again.

Axel glared at me, as if I was missing something blatantly obvious. He scoffed and shook his head. He got up from his place on the floor and my heart dropped as I expected him to leave. Instead, he pulled me from the ground and wrapped his arms tightly around me. I couldn't have gotten out of his grip even if I'd wanted to. Not that I did.

Axel burried his face in my hair and I could hear him silently sobbing. Although the hurt part of me screamed at me not to, I wrapped my arms around his neck and hugged him tightly in return.

"I love you, Rox...," I froze at his tearful words. They tore me apart. They couldn't be true.

"I love you, too," I sobbed. I sighed internally. I still didn't know if this was a dream or not, but all I knew was that if it was, I never wanted to wake up.

We stood there in our comfortable embrace for a few more moments until Axel reluctantly pulled away. He cupped my cheek in his hand. I could tell by the bitter look on his face that he didn't really want to ask this question. "...What about Xion?"

I scoffed and rolled my eyes. "Xion, Shmone," I said, trying to keep my voice from breaking. Of all the things I'd thought of earlier as excuses to not to do this; as reasons to live, this had to be the best one. This was certainly something worth living for.

For the first time in months, Axel kissed me.

A/N: RENO! :D And I apologize if I offended anyone with the suicide thing...I didn't know how to write it. It was based off of a true story with my best friend, but it's not like I was in the room when she tried it. T_T I've noticed that what I like to read and what I like to write are two completely different things. When I'm reading, I like Axel to be way too over-confident for his own good and to be kind of a jerk (a Reno personality. ;) :D). And I like Roxas to being confident, too, that kind fo angsty-emo-angry Roxas. That's kind of how they were in the first chapter. But as I continued writing, Axel became sweeter and more considerate. More...*shudders* mature. Like he is in the games (surprisingly). And Roxas became more vulnerable and needy...complete opposites of the way I like to READ about their characters. lol And also when I'm reading, I HATE character death. But when I'm writing I seem to be perfectly fine with putting my characters in near-death experiences since Roxas has nearly died TWO FREAKIN' TIMES ALREADY. -.-' Oh well. :D SEVEN REVIEWS PEOPLE. No more reading until I get my seven reviews! :D