A/N: Haha, yeah, so much for not continuing this. And so much for not doing much SaintJesus. But you're all so cute and sweet, so I might as well keep this going, yes?
Jimmy always takes what he wants. That's another thing he is that I'm not. He's forward, he's unafraid, and he's bold. And Jimmy gets everything he wants, because Jimmy never asks. And that's why I got what I was afraid I wanted. I got it because Jimmy wanted it, and I was lucky enough to want it too.
I was talking to Jimmy about girls again, because I always went to him for advice. But he was starting to get annoyed again, ignoring me in favor of making a line of cocaine on the edge of the table. He rolled his eyes at me before leaning back against the couch, between my legs now.
"I just…really don't know how to start anything," I finished, muttering because I always got embarrassed when Jimmy thought I was stupid.
"There's not really that much to know. You just do start," he sighed, raising an eyebrow at me and staring me down again.
"But it's not that easy. You can't just kiss someone like that, you've got to wait for some sign, at least," I protested, looking away to keep from getting ashamed again.
Jimmy scoffed, but then he laughed, and it sounded happier than usual. I looked back at him just in time to register that his eyes were still open when he started to kiss me.
I'd never kissed another guy before. Not really, not like this. Will and I had kissed for a dare once, him showing off for Heather and a few of her friends. But dares don't count, and this was a real kiss.
I shut my eyes when his challenging, amused gaze got too strong to look at, but I never stopped kissing him back.
I could feel him pull away, and judging by the tone in his voice, he was smirking and proud of himself as always.
"Yeah, that was pretty easy," he observed, and a quick snort told me he was back to his cocaine and I was already out of his mind.
This was different than kissing girls, too, I thought. Kissing Jimmy was terrifying and perfect because bit by bit, I was starting to realize I didn't just want to be Jimmy.
I just plain wanted him.