Wow, we got a lot of diverse responses to the last chapter…Oo

Some of you with Sophie, others wanting to kill her, still others sympathizing with both Sophie and Krone, and some are just to confused to decide! XD

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Saddest Goodbye.

Trap of Love
Snared by Desire
Trap of Love
Burn by Your Fire
Trap of Love
Snared by Desire
Trap of Love
Beware the Trap of
Love

People fear what they don't understand.

They're also afraid to admit what they feel.

What a big load of shit, right?

Scary thing is…that's exactly where I was right now. I shouldn't have been, but I'm only human after all.

I really hate myself sometimes.

000

It's been two whole days since I've gone to see him.

The first day I wanted to just pass it off as a bad dream, there was no way that that really happened between me and Krone. But…as it turns out…as I sat down on my bed hugging my knees and thinking about how I was going to pass by the garage, nightmares can't justify anything.

I have homework to do.

Sure, that excuse seemed simple enough.

Lair.

Lair, lair, lair.

I felt horrible. I knew I wasn't going to see him, I knew it, I spent the entire school day not thinking about it and knowing that I was purposely doing so. I pressed my pencil so hard that I was almost surprised that it didn't break. Break. Something was breaking but it wasn't the pencil.

Don't think about it, that was the subconscious message. I hated it. I hate myself.

When school finished I practically moved a fraction of an inch for each step I took, I was dragging my soul around while it was lagging far behind me, weighing heavily.

The closer I got to home the more I didn't want to go. I wanted to run, leave somewhere else. But I don't have somewhere else. I just kept going on either by habit or because I needed that punishment.

I really didn't want to go home. But it did.

I turned the keys and the front door slightly opened, I pushed it the rest of the way with half-hearted strength. After I took two shot steps inside I closed the door behind me, it made a thump that almost seemed significant.

I stood there a couple of minutes.

This is it then.

I started walking.

To my room.

Not to the garage.

Not to Krone.

I have homework to do.

This is why I didn't want to come home. I didn't want to do that. I was brushing it off, avoiding it, I knew I wouldn't go, I knew that I'd do this. I felt like such a bitch. I hate myself.

Why am I doing this?

It's not fair.

Why am I doing this to…

000

Krone…

"Hey, Sophie…"

I barely looked up from the curled up fetal position I had taken up in my bed.

"not now, Josh…"

"…Been here a long time…something wrong?"

"go away…"

"Fine, fine, how you spend your Saturday is your business…" I heard him sigh, "Sophie…you know, if there's anything you wanna share…"

"I don't wanna talk about it…"

"Fair enough," he's still not leaving, "Just…sorry, okay?"

This causes me to look up at him. He's sort of smiling, probably because he hasn't done something like that for so long. Josh, my horribly mean brother, just apologized.

He bounced of from his leaning position from my door and left.

I don't know why, but almost immediately after he left I started thinking about what I haven't been wanting to think about for two whole days now.

Krone was probably so mad at me.

I'm mad at me.

Why did this have to happen?

Krone's my friend, my best friend…right? Of course that's right! I don't…do I…

I'm just so freaking confused. I wished this would just stop, it's like a headache that you know won't leave because you're the one making it. Like when you feel sick and don't have the strength to do anything but lay there and feel horrible. I don't even know what I feel. Everything's everywhere, when I think about Krone I just…I don't know anymore.

I don't want this anymore, I wish it never happened, I want it to stop, I really want it to stop…

"You were right Josh, I really screwed up with Krone…"

000

I don't know what I'm doing.

I just got up this morning, or is it afternoon? Whatever, doesn't matter…

I'm standing in front of the garage door.

What am I doing…?

I've been standing here for probably a long time, because I'm not sure exactly how long I've been here.

My hand moves up, like I'm going to open the door, I stop it. I'm not sure if I really want to do that, but then again I'm not sure if I want to stop myself from opening it. In the end I slowly turn the handle, almost like I was being careful. It was open, I knew it was, all I had to do was push it.

I don't know if I'm afraid, I feel tired. I push it just enough that a slight opening shows up, I almost gasp, it's open.

My hearts beating fast. But I want to see Krone. I press my body against the door enough for me to see through the slit, that's as far as I can go.

I look through the hole…and I see Krone packing up.

Krone…

He's putting things into his ship. Sometimes he just throws it in. I'm not sure if he's upset, I don't know what he's feeling.

I continue watching him, wondering if he doesn't know that I am. I'm not sure what I'd do if he did or didn't. why doesn't anything seem real?

Krone picks up a heavy looking tube, I don't want him to hurt himself because it looks so big, but he walks over to his ship and just drops it in there. At least he didn't strain himself.

My temporary relief was deterred though, Krone was just standing there like a statue. Krone's always doing something, it's not like him to be so still…

Krone slammed both his hands on his ship.

I flinched.

I could see him heaving.

Krone…

"I'm leaving."

My eyes widened. He knew I was here. He probably knew from the minute I came close to the door.

"Does that even matter to you?"

Krone, don't say that.

I don't want him to say that, please don't, Krone…

I'm sorry…

I covered my mouth with my hand in an attempt from crying.

Krone, I don't want you to go…

000

The bell rang.

Everyone in class started swarming off to get home, or wherever else they went to when school was out.

That was final bell…

I sat at my desk, teacher's gonna kick me out if I stay…but…how am I going to go back, how am I going to go back knowing that I wasn't gonna be able to face Krone? What's wrong with me?

I swung a backpack over my shoulder and trudged to my locker. Liz probably already went off with her friends, great, just in one of the days I need her advice on something.

It's just…well, God, Krone told me he was in love with me! How was I supposed to take that? Why did my heart beat so fast and why am I so panicked every time I think about it…?

What does it matter anyway if Krone's going to leave?

My shoulders slumped and I felt like wanted to give up on life.

He was leaving, he said he was leaving…

How am I going to deal with that?

Never mind me acting like a complete an utter witch, Krone's leaving. I'm never going to see him again! He's…

Not only will I be alone…but now…

I don't want Krone to leave thinking the worst of me, I just can't let him do that! If he goes like this then I won't ever be able to forgive myself.

If he goes hating me then…

No, I can't let that happen!

Krone means…everything to me, I won't be able to take it, I can't take hurting him that way!

I started to run.

I needed to tell him that…

That…

"Krone don't hate me…"

Please, it doesn't matter what I say, just don't hate me, please.

000

Please be home, please be home, please be home…

I ran so fast, I ran so fast I couldn't stop praying for him to be there. He needed to still be there!

I saw my house and ran faster, Krone please be there, I go inside, instead I just ran to the garage and opened it using the remote.

Please, please, please, please….

"No!" I shook my head, tears running down my face, "No, no!"

He's not here. Krone's not here.

"No, Krone, no…"

I walked in. Nothing's here, no one's here, Krone's not here.

"Krone…"

Oh, God, why…?

"Why….?"

This is all my fault. I hate myself. Krone. I…

000

I sat on my bed, not wanting to understand that he left before I got to say goodbye to him. He left me with saying goodbye.

"Idiot, you didn't say goodbye, you're the idiot, you're evil…" I buried my face on my lifted elbows.

Why did I let this happen? I'm so stupid, I'm so-

"Sophie."

I looked up. I didn't even try to hide my face from Josh, Krone left and I didn't even get a chance to tell him that…that…

"He said he'd be waiting at the park…"

What?

Josh was frowning like he was given a job he didn't want to do, "Not sure how he even found the park but he says he'll be there…" his shoulders slumped in defeat, "You can make it if you hurry up, bet he's still there, waiting for you…"

"Josh…"

"Go on, get out of my house," he turned and waved his hand about, "I don't want to see you here…"

I got up, "…Thank-you."

"Whatever…I wanted to invite the guys over anyway…"

I half smiled, I wanted to thank him some more but I needed to get to Krone. I ran passed my brother, I headed off to the park.

000

The woods seemed different from last time. And it was colder.

I wrapped my jacket around me and trudged on, I've been walking forever now but I still can't find him, I was stating to think that…

I suddenly saw something in the distance, I quickened my pace, this was close to the lake I showed him. The lake only he knew about.

There he was, with his ship. My heart skipped a beat, this was it, the moment of truth. He wasn't facing me, but I figured he already knew I was here. That meant he expected me to say something…could I? I looked on at his back and felt like it was acting like a wall. My heart pained.

I was here for Krone, just for him.

That's all I have to think about, that's all.

"Krone…"

He turned.

I felt my heart swell up. Just looking at him…he looked so miserable…I felt so miserable…

"k-Krone…"

He didn't say anything, I didn't expect him to, I'm such a horrible person. All he's done is make my life better, why did I have to do this to him?

"I…"

I can't take it anymore, I don't wanna hold it in anymore, Krone's always been my shoulder to cry on and if I don't let it all out then…

"Krone, please don't hate me! I'm sorry! I can't…if you go hating me then I won't ever be able forgive myself for doing that to you and I'm sorry! I'm just so stupid and I can't…and I can't do anything and it hurts, you mean so much to me and you've done so much for me and I repay you like this, it isn't fair! I'm not being fair to you, and that's all you deserve, you deserve to be happy and you deserve to be treated well and I'm not doing any of that because I'm such an idiot! And I'm asking you not to hate me when you have every right to and I'm selfish and I'm mean and, God, I'm just so sorry, Krone, if I could just make it all better I would but I can't and I hate that because you're everything for me! You mean so much to me okay, and I…I just don't want you to go, I don't want you to leave me, Krone I'll miss you to much, and I know you have to go and I know I have no right but…but please, Krone, if you go just don't go hating me…!"

I started crying, this time I made no effort to stop or hide it, I just started crying.

"Please don't hate me, Krone…"

I felt his strong arms wrap themselves around me. I felt relief, I felt more sadness, I felt…

I hugged him.

"I'm sorry, Sophie…" he tightened his grip, "I didn't mean…"

I pressed myself closer to him, not wanting to let go, "Stop apologizing, Krone," I said between sobs, "it's not your fault…"

It's never his fault.

"God, Krone, why did you have to fall in love with me?" I cried, feeling so useless and stupid, "I'm the worst person to fall in love with, I…" I choked.

Krone lifted my chin up with his long black talons, I looked up at his golden hazel eyes that held seriousness, "Because you are a fantastic and wonderful young woman that deserves to be happy. Because you are…unique…and…interesting…and when you laugh…when you laugh…pups are born."

We both let out laughs.

Krone rested his forehead on mine, "I'm sorry…I ruined…the greatest…friendship thinking something that…"

Krone…

No, Krone, this is all my fault. My fault for making you think…

"It's all my fault," I said, like I was confessing an imortal sin, and to me it might as well was, "It's all my fault Krone. My fault because before you came I was so…I was alone and…and you became everything I didn't have and I wanted that so bad. I wanted someone to talk to, someone who understood me, someone…"

"You had every right to want that, Sophie…"

Tears fell from my cheeks, "But now I'm losing you for it!"

"No, Sophie, listen to me, you are never going to lose me," he stroked my cheek, "I'm the one who should be afraid of losing you."

"Don't be stupid, Krone, you're never gonna lose me, not ever!"

Why did it have to hurt so bad? Why did it have to be this way? I feel like my heart's breaking and it's getting impossible to breathe.

"Shhh…"

I closed my eyes as he rubbed the back of my head, trying to hold onto this, trying not to let go.

It's just…Krone has been everything…he's been there when I needed him, I've confined in him things I wouldn't anyone else, I've depended on him. I still need him.

If he goes, what am I going to do?

If he goes, who will be my shoulder to cry on? Who will I go to when I have a problem? Who will I share things with? The good and the bad? I wont have anyone. I've never had anyone.

I pressed myself closer to him, not being able to control all the fear and sadness, and meanwhile Krone continued to try and soothe me. Even now he doesn't want me to hurt.

"Sophie…you have to stop crying."

I shook my head, "No. No, because if I stop you're going to leave and I'm going to let you leave…"

"Sophie…"

"No, I don't want that Krone! I don't want…"

He lifted my face, "You have to, Sophie…"

I continued to shake my head, "No…no…"

"Please, Sophie, if you don't stop crying then I won't be able to take it. I won't be able to and I'll take you with me no matter what, Sophie…"

"Krone…" I hugged him, "it's not fair…!"

"…I know."

I felt him gently pull me away from him.

"But it has to be."

He let's go. I know he's right. He's always right.

But it's still not fair.

I clench at my heart.

I watched as Krone turned away and headed for his ship, watched as each step he took broke my heart even more than before.

The wind howls everywhere as he turns on the engines, I almost fall down but I don't. Krone's ship is lifting itself up.

I watch on, knowing it's not fair but that I can't stop it.

My heart's breaking.

I'm sorry.

"krone…"

It's going higher and higher and higher.

And I want it to stop. But I can't stop it. I want him to come back. But he won't.

"Krone!"

I run up to where the ship was, I look to the sky and watch it fly even higher, I'm scared. It feels like the sky, like space, like the stars I've always loved to see is taken him away from me.

"KRONE!"

He's not coming back.

I fell to my knees, clenching at my heart, tears running down my face. Everything hurts, nothing seems as bright as it used to be, I want him to come back. He was everything and now he's gone.

"KRONE!"

000

The end.

Nah, just ruffling your feathers, but I am in a tight spot with chapters, no thanks to my no good English teacher…

You know what she told me? She said, "If I put the rest of the class at your academic level, everyone else would get F's!" basically, she's telling me to write at the same level of stupid as everyone else in HONORS English/Composition/Literature…Honors…I was like "…wah?"

She gave me a B for going above and beyond the call of duty for my rough draft, I wrote SIX pages and in the end I had to kill it into 2, 2 freaking pages! Anyway, I hope she likes my mediocre final I gave her, I'm sure it's up to her other students standards…I have to force myself to write stupid…and it's freaking HONORS!

Sigh* anyway, bare with me, peace out!

Review if you think my teach is wack-I mean, to tell me your thoughts about the chapter!(I used wack…gotta stop listenin to my older sister…)

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